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1900
SISTER CARRIE
by Theodore Dreiser
Chapter I.
THE MAGNET ATTRACTING: A WAIF AMID FORCES
When Caroline Meeber boarded the afternoon train for Chicago, her
total outfit consisted of a small trunk, a cheap imitation
alligator-skin satchel, a small lunch in a paper box, and a yellow
leather snap purse, containing her ticket, a scrap of paper with her
sister's address in Van Buren Street, and four dollars in money. It
was in August, 1889. She was eighteen years of age, bright, timid, and
full of the illusions of ignorance and youth. Whatever touch of regret
at parting characterised her thoughts, it was certainly not for
advantages now being given up. A gush of tears at her mother's
farewell kiss, a touch in her throat when the cars clacked by the
flour mill where her father worked by the day, a pathetic sigh as
the familiar green environs of the village passed in review, and the
threads which bound her so lightly to girlhood and home were
irretrievably broken.
To be sure there was always the next station, where one might
descend and return. There was the great city, bound more closely by
these very trains which came up daily. Columbia City was not so very
far away, even once she was in Chicago. What, pray, is a few hours-
a few hundred miles? She looked at the little slip bearing her
sister's address and wondered. She gazed at the green landscape, now
passing in swift review, until her swifter thoughts replaced its
impression with vague conjectures of what Chicago might be.
When a girl leaves her home at eighteen, she does one of two things.
Either she falls into saving hands and becomes better, or she
rapidly assumes the cosmopolitan standard of virtue and becomes worse.
Of an intermediate balance, under the circumstances, there is no
possibility. The city has its cunning wiles, no less than the
infinitely smaller and more human tempter. There are large forces
which allure with all the soulfulness of expression possible in the
most cultured human. The gleam of a thousand lights is often as
effective as the persuasive light in a wooing and fascinating eye.
Half the undoing of the unsophisticated and natural mind is
accomplished by forces wholly superhuman. A blare of sound, a roar
of life, a vast array of human hives, appeal to the astonished
senses in equivocal terms. Without a counsellor at hand to whisper
cautious interpretations, what falsehoods may not these things breathe
into the unguarded ear! Unrecognised for what they are, their
beauty, like music, too often relaxes, then weakens, then perverts the
simpler human perceptions.
Caroline, or Sister Carrie, as she had been half affectionately
termed by the family, was possessed of a mind rudimentary in its power
of observation and analysis. Self-interest with her was high, but
not strong. It was, nevertheless, her guiding characteristic. Warm
with the fancies of youth, pretty with the insipid prettiness of the
formative period, possessed of a figure promising eventual shapeliness
and an eye alight with certain native intelligence, she was a fair
example of the middle American class- two generations removed from the
emigrant. Books were beyond her interest- knowledge a sealed book.
In the intuitive graces she was still crude. She could scarcely toss
her head gracefully. Her hands were almost ineffectual. The feet,
though small, were set flatly. And yet she was interested in her
charms, quick to understand the keener pleasures of life, ambitious to
gain in material things. A half-equipped little knight she was,
venturing to reconnoitre the mysterious city and dreaming wild
dreams of some vague, far-off supremacy, which should make it prey and
subject- the proper penitent, grovelling at a woman's slipper.
"That," said a voice in her ear, "is one of the prettiest little
resorts in Wisconsin."
"Is it?" she answered nervously.
The train was just pulling out of Waukesha. For some time she had
been conscious of a man behind. She felt him observing her mass of
hair. He had been fidgetting, and with natural intuition she felt a
certain interest growing in that quarter. Her maidenly reserve, and
a certain sense of what was conventional under the circumstances,
called her to forestall and deny this familiarity, but the daring
and magnetism of the individual, born of past experiences and
triumphs, prevailed. She answered.
He leaned forward to put his elbows upon the back of her seat and
proceeded to make himself volubly agreeable.
"Yes, that is a great resort for Chicago people. The hotels are
swell. You are not familiar with this part of the country, are you?"
"Oh, yes, I am," answered Carrie. "That is, I live at Columbia City.
I have never been through here, though."
"And so this is your first visit to Chicago," he observed.
All the time she was conscious of certain features out of the side
of her eye. Flush, colourful cheeks, a light moustache, a grey
fedora hat. She now turned and looked upon him in full, the
instincts of self-protection and coquetry mingling confusedly in her
brain.
"I didn't say that," she said.
"Oh," he answered, in a very pleasing way and with an assumed air of
mistake, "I thought you did."
Here was a type of the travelling canvasser for a manufacturing
house- a class which at that time was first being dubbed by the
slang of the day "drummers." He came within the meaning of a still
newer term, which had sprung into general use among Americans in 1880,
and which concisely expressed the thought of one whose dress or
manners are calculated to elicit the admiration of susceptible young
women- a "masher." His suit was of a striped and crossed pattern of
brown wool, new at that time, but since become familiar as a
business suit. The low crotch of the vest revealed a stiff shirt bosom
of white and pink stripes. From his coat sleeves protruded a pair of
linen cuffs of the same pattern, fastened with large, gold plate
buttons, set with the common yellow agates known as "cat's-eyes."
His fingers bore several rings- one, the ever-enduring heavy seal- and
from his vest dangled a neat gold watch chain, from which was
suspended the secret insignia of the Order of Elks. The whole suit was
rather tight-fitting, and was finished off with heavy-soled tan shoes,
highly polished, and the grey fedora hat. He was, for the order of
intellect represented, attractive, and whatever he had to recommend
him, you may be sure was not lost upon Carrie, in this, her first
glance.
Lest this order of individual should permanently pass, let me put
down some of the most striking characteristics of his most
successful manner and method. Good clothes, of course, were the
first essential, the things without which he was nothing. A strong
physical nature, actuated by a keen desire for the feminine, was the
next. A mind free of any consideration of the problems or forces of
the world and actuated not by greed, but an insatiable love of
variable pleasure. His method was always simple. Its principal element
was daring, backed, of course, by an intense desire and admiration for
the sex. Let him meet with a young woman once and he would approach
her with an air of kindly familiarity, not unmixed with pleading,
which would result in most cases in a tolerant acceptance. If she
showed any tendency to coquetry he would be apt to straighten her tie,
or if she "took up" with him at all, to call her by her first name. If
he visited a department store it was to lounge familiarly over the
counter and ask some leading questions. In more exclusive circles,
on the train or in waiting stations, he went slower. If some seemingly
vulnerable object appeared he was all attention- to pass the
compliments of the day, to lead the way to the parlor car, carrying
her grip, or, failing that, to take a seat next her with the hope of
being able to court her to her destination. Pillows, books, a
foot-stool, the shade lowered; all these figured in the things which
he could do. If, when she reached her destination, he did not alight
and attend her baggage for her, it was because, in his own estimation,
he had signally failed.
A woman should some day write the complete philosophy of clothes. No
matter how young, it is one of the things she wholly comprehends.
There is an indescribably faint line in the matter of man's apparel
which somehow divides for her those who are worth glancing at and
those who are not. Once an individual has passed this faint line on
the way downward he will get no glance from her. There is another line
at which the dress of a man will cause her to study her own. This line
the individual at her elbow now marked for Carrie. She became
conscious of an inequality. Her own plain blue dress, with its black
cotton tape trimmings, now seemed to her shabby. She felt the worn
state of her shoes.
"Let's see," he went on, "I know quite a number of people in your
town. Morgenroth the clothier and Gibson the dry goods man."
"Oh, do you?" she interrupted, aroused by memories of longings their
show windows had cost her.
At last he had a clew to her interest, and followed it deftly. In
a few minutes he had come about into her seat. He talked of sales of
clothing, his travels, Chicago, and the amusements of that city.
"If you are going there, you will enjoy it immensely. Have you
relatives?"
"I am going to visit my sister," she explained.
"You want to see Lincoln Park," he said, "and Michigan Boulevard.
They are putting up great buildings there. It's a second New York-
great. So much to see- theatres, crowds, fine houses- oh, you'll
like that."
There was a little ache in her fancy of all he described. Her
insignificance in the presence of so much magnificence faintly
affected her. She realised that hers was not to be a round of
pleasure, and yet there was something promising in all the material
prospect he set forth. There was something satisfactory in the
attention of this individual with his good clothes. She could not help
smiling as he told her of some popular actress of whom she reminded
him. She was not silly, and yet attention of this sort had its weight.
"You will be in Chicago some little time, won't you?" he observed at
one turn of the now easy conversation.
"I don't know," said Carrie vaguely- a flash vision of the
possibility of her not securing employment rising in her mind.
"Several weeks, anyhow," he said, looking steadily into her eyes.
There was much more passing now than the mere words indicated. He
recognised the indescribable thing that made up for fascination and
beauty in her. She realised that she was of interest to him from the
one standpoint which a woman both delights in and fears. Her manner
was simple, though for the very reason that she had not yet learned
the many little affectations with which women conceal their true
feelings. Some things she did appeared bold. A clever companion- had
she ever had one- would have warned her never to look a man in the
eyes so steadily.
"Why do you ask?" she said.
"Well, I'm going to be there several weeks. I'm going to study stock
at our place and get new samples. I might show you 'round."
"I don't know whether you can or not. I mean I don't know whether
I can. I shall be living with my sister, and-"
"Well, if she minds, we'll fix that." He took out his pencil and a
little pocket note-book as if it were all settled. "What is your
address there?"
She fumbled her purse which contained the address slip.
He reached down in his hip pocket and took out a fat purse. It was
filled with slips of paper, some mileage books, a roll of
greenbacks. It impressed her deeply. Such a purse had never been
carried by any one attentive to her. Indeed, an experienced traveller,
a brisk man of the world, had never come within such close range
before. The purse, the shiny tan shoes, the smart new suit, and the
air with which he did things, built up for her a dim world of fortune,
of which he was the centre. It disposed her pleasantly toward all he
might do.
He took out a neat business card, on which was engraved Bartlett,
Caryoe & Company, and down in the lefthand corner, Chas. H. Drouet.
"That's me," he said, putting the card in her hand and touching
his name. "It's pronounced Drew-eh. Our family was French, on my
father's side."
She looked at it while he put up his purse. Then he got out a letter
from a bunch in his coat pocket. "This is the house I travel for,"
he went on, pointing to a picture on it, "corner of State and Lake."
There was pride in his voice. He felt that it was something to be
connected with such a place, and he made her feel that way.
"What is your address?" he began again, fixing his pencil to write.
"Carrie Meeber," she said slowly. "Three hundred and fifty-four West
Van Buren Street, care S. C. Hanson."
He wrote it carefully down and got out the purse again. "You'll be
at home if I come around Monday night?" he said.
"I think so," she answered.
How true it is that words are but the vague shadows of the volumes
we mean. Little audible links, they are, chaining together great
inaudible feelings and purposes. Here were these two, bandying
little phrases, drawing purses, looking at cards, and both unconscious
of how inarticulate all their real feelings were. Neither was wise
enough to be sure of the working of the mind of the other. He could
not tell how his luring succeeded. She could not realise that she
was drifting, until he secured her address. Now she felt that she
had yielded something- he, that he had gained a victory. Already
they felt that they were somehow associated. Already he took control
in directing the conversation. His words were easy. Her manner was
relaxed.
They were nearing Chicago. Signs were everywhere numerous. Trains
flashed by them. Across wide stretches of flat, open prairie they
could see lines of telegraph poles stalking across the fields toward
the great city. Far away were indications of suburban towns, some
big smoke-stacks towering high in the air.
Frequently there were two-story frame houses standing out in the
open fields, without fence or trees, lone outposts of the
approaching army of homes.
To the child, the genius with imagination, or the wholly
untravelled, the approach to a great city for the first time is a
wonderful thing. Particularly if it be evening- that mystic period
between the glare and gloom of the world when life is changing from
one sphere or condition to another. Ah, the promise of the night. What
does it not hold for the weary! What old illusion of hope is not
here forever repeated! Says the soul of the toiler to itself, "I shall
soon be free. I shall be in the ways and the hosts of the merry. The
streets, the lamps, the lighted chamber set for dining, are for me.
The theatre, the halls, the parties, the ways of rest and the paths of
song- these are mine in the night." Though all humanity be still
enclosed in the shops, the thrill runs abroad. It is in the air. The
dullest feel something which they may not always express or
describe. It is the lifting of the burden of toil.
Sister Carrie gazed out of the window. Her companion, affected by
her wonder, so contagious are all things, felt anew some interest in
the city and pointed out its marvels.
"This is Northwest Chicago," said Drouet. "This is the Chicago
River," and he pointed to a little muddy creek, crowded with the
huge masted wanderers from far-off waters nosing the black-posted
banks. With a puff, a clang, and a clatter of rails it was gone.
"Chicago is getting to be a great town," he went on. "It's a wonder.
You'll find lots to see here."
She did not hear this very well. Her heart was troubled by a kind of
terror. The fact that she was alone, away from home, rushing into a
great sea of life and endeavour, began to tell. She could not help but
feel a little choked for breath- a little sick as her heart beat so
fast. She half closed her eyes and tried to think it was nothing, that
Columbia City was only a little way off.
"Chicago! Chicago!" called the brakeman, slamming open the door.
They were rushing into a more crowded yard, alive with the clatter and
clang of life. She began to gather up her poor little grip and
closed her hand firmly upon her purse. Drouet arose, kicked his legs
to straighten his trousers, and seized his clean yellow grip.
"I suppose your people will be here to meet you?" he said. "Let me
carry your grip."
"Oh, no," she said. "I'd rather you wouldn't. I'd rather you
wouldn't be with me when I meet my sister."
"All right," he said in all kindness. "I'll be near, though, in case
she isn't here, and take you out there safely."
"You're so kind," said Carrie, feeling the goodness of such
attention in her strange situation.
"Chicago!" called the brakeman, drawing the word out long. They were
under a great shadowy train shed, where the lamps were already
beginning to shine out, with passenger cars all about and the train
moving at a snail's pace. The people in the car were all up and
crowding about the door.
"Well, here we are," said Drouet, leading the way to the door.
"Good-bye, till I see you Monday."
"Good-bye," she answered, taking his proffered hand.
"Remember, I'll be looking till you find your sister."
She smiled into his eyes.
They filed out, and he affected to take no notice of her. A
lean-faced, rather commonplace woman recognised Carrie on the platform
and hurried forward.
"Why, Sister Carrie!" she began, and there was a perfunctory embrace
of welcome.
Carrie realised the change of affectional atmosphere at once. Amid
all the maze, uproar, and novelty she felt cold reality taking her
by the hand. No world of light and merriment. No round of amusement.
Her sister carried with her most of the grimness of shift and toil.
"Why, how are all the folks at home?" she began; "how is father, and
mother?"
Carrie answered, but was looking away. Down the aisle, toward the
gate leading into the waiting-room and the street, stood Drouet. He
was looking back. When he saw that she saw him and was safe with her
sister he turned to go, sending back the shadow of a smile. Only
Carrie saw it. She felt something lost to her when he moved away. When
he disappeared she felt his absence thoroughly. With her sister she
was much alone, a lone figure in a tossing, thoughtless sea.
Chapter II.
WHAT POVERTY THREATENED: OF GRANITE AND BRASS
Minnie's flat, as the one-floor resident apartments were then
being called, was in a part of West Van Buren Street inhabited by
families of labourers and clerks, men who had come, and were still
coming, with the rush of population pouring in at the rate of 50,000 a
year. It was on the third floor, the front windows looking down into
the street, where, at night, the lights of grocery stores were shining
and children were playing. To Carrie, the sound of the little bells
upon the horse-cars, as they tinkled in and out of hearing, was as
pleasing as it was novel. She gazed into the lighted street when
Minnie brought her into the front room, and wondered at the sounds,
the movement, the murmur of the vast city which stretched for miles
and miles in every direction.
Mrs. Hanson, after the first greetings were over, gave Carrie the
baby and proceeded to get supper. Her husband asked a few questions
and sat down to read the evening paper. He was a silent man,
American born, of a Swede father, and now employed as a cleaner of
refrigerator cars at the stock-yards. To him the presence or absence
of his wife's sister was a matter of indifference. Her personal
appearance did not affect him one way or the other. His one
observation to the point was concerning the chances of work in
Chicago.
"It's a big place," he said. "You can get in somewhere in a few
days. Everybody does."
It had been tacitly understood beforehand that she was to get work
and pay her board. He was of a clean, saving disposition, and had
already paid a number of monthly instalments on two lots far out on
the West Side. His ambition was some day to build a house on them.
In the interval which marked the preparation of the meal Carrie
found time to study the flat. She had some slight gift of
observation and that sense, so rich in every woman- intuition.
She felt the drag of a lean and narrow life. The walls of the
rooms were discordantly papered. The floors were covered with
matting and the hall laid with a thin rag carpet. One could see that
the furniture was of that poor, hurriedly patched together quality
sold by the instalment houses.
She sat with Minnie, in the kitchen, holding the baby until it began
to cry. Then she walked and sang to it, until Hanson, disturbed in his
reading, came and took it. A pleasant side to his nature came out
here. He was patient. One could see that he was very much wrapped up
in his offspring.
"Now, now," he said, walking. "There, there," and there was a
certain Swedish accent noticeable in his voice.
"You'll want to see the city first, won't you?" said Minnie, when
they were eating. "Well, we'll go out Sunday and see Lincoln Park."
Carrie noticed that Hanson had said nothing to this. He seemed to be
thinking of something else.
"Well," she said, "I think I'll look around to-morrow. I've got
Friday and Saturday, and it won't be any trouble. Which way is the
business part?"
Minnie began to explain, but her husband took this part of the
conversation to himself.
"It's that way," he said, pointing east. "That's east." Then he went
off into the longest speech he had yet indulged in, concerning the lay
of Chicago. "You'd better look in those big manufacturing houses along
Franklin Street and just the other side of the river," he concluded.
"Lots of girls work there. You could get home easy, too. It isn't very
far."
Carrie nodded and asked her sister about the neighbourhood. The
latter talked in a subdued tone, telling the little she knew about it,
while Hanson concerned himself with the baby. Finally he jumped up and
handed the child to his wife.
"I've got to get up early in the morning, so I'll go to bed," and
off he went, disappearing into the dark little bedroom off the hall,
for the night.
"He works way down at the stock-yards," explained Minnie,
"What time do you get up to get breakfast?" asked Carrie. "so he's
got to get up at half-past five."
"At about twenty minutes of five."
Together they finished the labour of the day, Carrie washing the
dishes while Minnie undressed the baby and put it to bed. Minnie's
manner was one of trained industry, and Carrie could see that it was a
steady round of toil with her.
She began to see that her relations with Drouet would have to be
abandoned. He could not come here. She read from the manner of Hanson,
in the subdued air of Minnie, and, indeed, the whole atmosphere of the
flat, a settled opposition to anything save a conservative round of
toil. If Hanson sat every evening in the front room and read his
paper, if he went to bed at nine, and Minnie a little later, what
would they expect of her? She saw that she would first need to get
work and establish herself on a paying basis before she could think of
having company of any sort. Her little flirtation with Drouet seemed
now an extraordinary thing.
"No," she said to herself, "he can't come here."
She asked Minnie for ink and paper, which were upon the mantel in
the dining-room, and when the latter had gone to bed at ten, got out
Drouet's card and wrote him.
"I cannot have you call on me here. You will have to wait until
you hear from me again. My sister's place is so small."
She troubled herself over what else to put in the letter. She wanted
to make some reference to their relations upon the train, but was
too timid. She concluded by thanking him for his kindness in a crude
way, then puzzled over the formality of signing her name, and
finally decided upon the severe, winding up with a "Very truly," which
she subsequently changed to "Sincerely." She sealed and addressed
the letter, and going in the front room, the alcove of which contained
her bed, drew the one small rocking-chair up to the open window, and
sat looking out upon the night and streets in silent wonder.
Finally, wearied by her own reflections, she began to grow dull in her
chair, and feeling the need of sleep, arranged her clothing for the
night and went to bed.
When she awoke at eight the next morning, Hanson had gone. Her
sister was busy in the dining-room, which was also the sitting-room,
sewing. She worked, after dressing, to arrange a little breakfast
for herself, and then advised with Minnie as to which way to look. The
latter had changed considerably since Carrie had seen her. She was now
a thin, though rugged, woman of twenty-seven, with ideas of life
coloured by her husband's, and fast hardening into narrower
conceptions of pleasure and duty than had ever been hers in a
thoroughly circumscribed youth. She had invited Carrie, not because
she longed for her presence, but because the latter was dissatisfied
at home, and could probably get work and pay her board here. She was
pleased to see her in a way, but reflected her husband's point of view
in the matter of work. Anything was good enough so long as it paid-
say, five dollars a week to begin with. A shop girl was the destiny
prefigured for the newcomer. She would get in one of the great shops
and do well enough until- well, until something happened. Neither of
them knew exactly what. They did not figure on promotion. They did not
exactly count on marriage. Things would go on, though, in a dim kind
of way until the better thing would eventuate, and Carrie would be
rewarded for coming and toiling in the city. It was under such
auspicious circumstances that she started out this morning to look for
work.
Before following her in her round of seeking, let us look at the
sphere in which her future was to lie. In 1889 Chicago had the
peculiar qualifications of growth which made such adventuresome
pilgrimages even on the part of young girls plausible. Its many and
growing commercial opportunities gave it widespread fame, which made
of it a giant magnet, drawing to itself, from all quarters, the
hopeful and the hopeless- those who had their fortune yet to make
and those whose fortunes and affairs had reached a disastrous climax
elsewhere. It was a city of over 500,000, with the ambition, the
daring, the activity of a metropolis of a million. Its streets and
houses were already scattered over an area of seventy-five square
miles. Its population was not so much thriving upon established
commerce as upon the industries which prepared for the arrival of
others. The sound of the hammer engaged upon the erection of new
structures was everywhere heard. Great industries were moving in.
The huge railroad corporations which had long before recognised the
prospects of the place had seized upon vast tracts of land for
transfer and shipping purposes. Street-car lines had been extended far
out into the open country in anticipation of rapid growth. The city
had laid miles and miles of streets and sewers through regions
where, perhaps, one solitary house stood out alone- a pioneer of the
populous ways to be. There were regions open to the sweeping winds and
rain, which were yet lighted throughout the night with long,
blinking lines of gas-lamps, fluttering in the wind. Narrow board
walks extended out, passing here a house, and there a store, at far
intervals, eventually ending on the open prairie.
In the central portion was the vast wholesale and shopping district,
to which the uninformed seeker for work usually drifted. It was a
characteristic of Chicago then, and one not generally shared by
other cities, that individual firms of any pretension occupied
individual buildings. The presence of ample ground made this possible.
It gave an imposing appearance to most of the wholesale houses,
whose offices were upon the ground floor and in plain view of the
street. The large plates of window glass, now so common, were then
rapidly coming into use, and gave to the ground floor offices a
distinguished and prosperous look. The casual wanderer could see as he
passed a polished array of office fixtures, much frosted glass, clerks
hard at work, and genteel business men in "nobby" suits and clean
linen lounging about or sitting in groups. Polished brass or nickel
signs at the square stone entrances announced the firm and the
nature of the business in rather neat and reserved terms. The entire
metropolitan centre possessed a high and mighty air calculated to
overawe and abash the common applicant, and to make the gulf between
poverty and success seem both wide and deep.
Into this important commercial region the timid Carrie went. She
walked east along Van Buren Street through a region of lessening
importance, until it deteriorated into a mass of shanties and
coal-yards, and finally verged upon the river. She walked bravely
forward, led by an honest desire to find employment and delayed at
every step by the interest of the unfolding scene, and a sense of
helplessness amid so much evidence of power and force which she did
not understand. These vast buildings, what were they? These strange
energies and huge interests, for what purposes were they there? She
could have understood the meaning of a little stone-cutter's yard at
Columbia City, carving little pieces of marble for individual use, but
when the yards of some huge stone corporation came into view, filled
with spur tracks and flat cars, transpierced by docks from the river
and traversed overhead by immense trundling cranes of wood and
steel, it lost all significance in her little world.
It was so with the vast railroad yards, with the crowded array of
vessels she saw at the river, and the huge factories over the way,
lining the water's edge. Through the open windows she could see the
figures of men and women in working aprons, moving busily about. The
great streets were wall-lined mysteries to her; the vast offices,
strange mazes which concerned far-off individuals of importance. She
could only think of people connected with them as counting money,
dressing magnificently, and riding in carriages. What they dealt in,
how they laboured, to what end it all came, she had only the vaguest
conception. It was all wonderful, all vast, all far removed, and she
sank in spirit inwardly and fluttered feebly at the heart as she
thought of entering any one of these mighty concerns and asking for
something to do- something that she could do- anything.
Chapter III.
WE QUESTION OF FORTUNE: FOUR-FIFTY A WEEK
Once across the river and into the wholesale district, she glanced
about her for some likely door at which to apply. As she
contemplated the wide windows and imposing signs, she became conscious
of being gazed upon and understood for what she was- a wage-seeker.
She had never done this thing before, and lacked courage. To avoid a
certain indefinable shame she felt at being caught spying about for
a position, she quickened her steps and assumed an air of indifference
supposedly common to one upon an errand. In this way she passed many
manufacturing and wholesale houses without once glancing in. At
last, after several blocks of walking, she felt that this would not
do, and began to look about again; though without relaxing her pace. A
little way on she saw a great door which, for some reason, attracted
her attention. It was ornamented by a small brass sign, and seemed
to be the entrance to a vast hive of six or seven floors. "Perhaps,"
she thought, "they may want some one," and crossed over to enter. When
she came within a score of feet of the desired goal, she saw through
the window a young man in a grey checked suit. That he had anything to
do with the concern, she could not tell, but because he happened to be
looking in her direction her weakening heart misgave her and she
hurried by, too overcome with shame to enter. Over the way stood a
great six-story structure, labelled Storm and King, which she viewed
with rising hope. It was a wholesale dry goods concern and employed
women. She could see them moving about now and then upon the upper
floors. This place she decided to enter, no matter what. She crossed
over and walked directly toward the entrance. As she did so, two men
came out and paused in the door. A telegraph messenger in blue
dashed past her and up the few steps that led to the entrance and
disappeared. Several pedestrians out of the hurrying throng which
filled the sidewalks passed about her as she paused, hesitating. She
looked helplessly around, and then, seeing herself observed,
retreated. It was too difficult a task. She could not go past them.
So severe a defeat told sadly upon her nerves. Her feet carried
her mechanically forward, every foot of her progress being a
satisfactory portion of a flight which she gladly made. Block after
block passed by. Upon street-lamps at the various corners she read
names such as Madison, Monroe, La Salle, Clark, Dearborn, State, and
still she went, her feet beginning to tire upon the broad stone
flagging. She was pleased in part that the streets were bright and
clean. The morning sun, shining down with steadily increasing
warmth, made the shady side of the streets pleasantly cool. She looked
at the blue sky overhead with more realisation of its charm than had
ever come to her before.
Her cowardice began to trouble her in a way. She turned back,
resolving to bunt up Storm and King and enter. On the way she
encountered a great wholesale shoe company, through the broad plate
windows of which she saw an enclosed executive department, hidden by
frosted glass. Without this enclosure, but just within the street
entrance, sat a grey-haired gentleman at a small table, with a large
open ledger before him. She walked by this institution several times
hesitating, but, finding herself unobserved, faltered past the
screen door and stood humbly waiting.
"Well, young lady," observed the old gentleman, looking at her
somewhat kindly, "what is it you wish?"
"I am, that is, do you- I mean, do you need any help?" she
stammered.
"Not just at present," he answered smiling. "Not just at present.
Come in some time next week. Occasionally we need some one."
She received the answer in silence and backed awkwardly out. The
pleasant nature of her reception rather astonished her. She had
expected that it would be more difficult, that something cold and
harsh would be said- she knew not what. That she had not been put to
shame and made to feel her unfortunate position, seemed remarkable.
Somewhat encouraged, she ventured into another large structure. It
was a clothing company, and more people were in evidence- well-dressed
men of forty and more, surrounded by brass railings.
An office boy approached her.
"Who is it you wish to see?" he asked.
"I want to see the manager," she said.
He ran away and spoke to one of a group of three men who were
conferring together. One of these came towards her.
"Well?" he said coldly. The greeting drove all courage from her at
once.
"Do you need any help?" she stammered.
"No," he replied abruptly, and turned upon his heel.
She went foolishly out, the office boy deferentially swinging the
door for her, and gladly sank into the obscuring crowd. It was a
severe setback to her recently pleased mental state.
Now she walked quite aimlessly for a time, turning here and there,
seeing one great company after another, but finding no courage to
prosecute her single inquiry. High noon came, and with it hunger.
She hunted out an unassuming restaurant and entered, but was disturbed
to find that the prices were exorbitant for the size of her purse. A
bowl of soup was all that she could afford, and, with this quickly
eaten, she went out again. It restored her strength somewhat and
made her moderately bold to pursue the search.
In walking a few blocks to fix upon some probable place, she again
encountered the firm of Storm and King, and this time managed to get
in. Some gentlemen were conferring close at hand, but took no notice
of her. She was left standing, gazing nervously upon the floor. When
the limit of her distress had been nearly reached, she was beckoned to
by a man at one of the many desks within the near-by railing.
"Who is it you wish to see?" he inquired.
"Why, any one, if you please," she answered. "I am looking for
something to do."
"Oh, you want to see Mr. McManus," he returned. "Sit down," and he
pointed to a chair against the neighbouring wall. He went on leisurely
writing, until after a time a short, stout gentleman came in from
the street.
"Mr. McManus," called the man at the desk, "this young woman wants
to see you."
The short gentleman turned about towards Carrie, and she arose and
came forward.
"What can I do for you, miss?" he inquired, surveying her curiously.
"I want to know if I can get a position," she inquired.
"As what?" he asked.
"Not as anything in particular," she faltered.
"Have you ever had any experience in the wholesale dry goods
business?" he questioned.
"No, sir," she replied.
"Are you a stenographer or typewriter?"
"No, sir."
"Well, we haven't anything here," he said. "We employ only
experienced help."
She began to step backward toward the door, when something about her
plaintive face attracted him.
"Have you ever worked at anything before?" he inquired.
"No, sir," she said.
"Well, now, it's hardly possible that you would get anything to do
in a wholesale house of this kind. Have you tried the department
stores?"
She acknowledged that she had not.
"Well, if I were you," he said, looking at her rather genially "I
would try the department stores. They often need young women as
clerks."
"Thank you," she said, her whole nature relieved by this spark of
friendly interest.
"Yes," he said, as she moved toward the door, "you try the
department stores," and off he went.
At that time the department store was in its earliest form of
successful operation, and there were not many. The first three in
the United States, established about 1884, were in Chicago. Carrie was
familiar with the names of several through the advertisements in the
"Daily News," and now proceeded to seek them. The words of Mr. McManus
had somehow managed to restore her courage, which had fallen low,
and she dared to hope that this new line would offer her something.
Some time she spent in wandering up and down, thinking to encounter
the buildings by chance, so readily is the mind, bent upon prosecuting
a hard but needful errand, eased by that self-deception which the
semblance of search, without the reality, gives. At last she
inquired of a police officer, and was directed to proceed "two
blocks up," where she would find "The Fair."
The nature of these vast retail combinations, should they ever
permanently disappear, will form an interesting chapter in the
commercial history of our nation. Such a flowering out of a modest
trade principle the world had never witnessed up to that time. They
were along the line of the most effective retail organisation, with
hundreds of stores coordinated into one and laid out upon the most
imposing and economic basis. They were handsome, bustling,
successful affairs, with a host of clerks and a swarm of patrons.
Carrie passed along the busy aisles, much affected by the remarkable
displays of trinkets, dress goods, stationery, and jewelry. Each
separate counter was a show place of dazzling interest and attraction.
She could not help feeling the claim of each trinket and valuable upon
her personally, and yet she did not stop. There was nothing there
which she could not have used- nothing which she did not long to
own. The dainty slippers and stockings, the delicately frilled
skirts and petticoats, the laces, ribbons, hair-combs, purses, all
touched her with individual desire, and she felt keenly the fact
that not any of these things were in the range of her purchase. She
was a work-seeker, an outcast without employment, one whom the average
employee could tell at a glance was poor and in need of a situation.
It must not be thought that any one could have mistaken her for a
nervous, sensitive, high-strung nature, cast unduly upon a cold,
calculating, and unpoetic world. Such certainly she was not. But women
are peculiarly sensitive to their adornment.
Not only did Carrie feel the drag of desire for all which was new
and pleasing in apparel for women, but she noticed too, with a touch
at the heart, the fine ladies who elbowed and ignored her, brushing
past in utter disregard of her presence, themselves eagerly enlisted
in the materials which the store contained. Carrie was not familiar
with the appearance of her more fortunate sisters of the city. Neither
had she before known the nature and appearance of the shop girls
with whom she now compared poorly. They were pretty in the main,
some even handsome, with an air of independence and indifference which
added, in the case of the more favoured, a certain piquancy. Their
clothes were neat, in many instances fine, and wherever she
encountered the eye of one it was only to recognise in it a keen
analysis of her own position- her individual shortcomings of dress and
that shadow of manner which she thought must hang about her and make
clear to all who and what she was. A flame of envy lighted in her
heart. She realised in a dim way how much the city held- wealth,
fashion, ease- every adornment for women, and she longed for dress and
beauty with a whole heart.
On the second floor were the managerial offices, to which, after
some inquiry, she was now directed. There she found other girls
ahead of her, applicants like herself, but with more of that
self-satisfied and independent air which experience of the city lends;
girls who scrutinised her in a painful manner. After a wait of perhaps
three-quarters of an hour, she was called in turn.
"Now," said a sharp, quick-mannered Jew, who was sitting at a
roll-top desk near the window, "have you ever worked in any other
store?"
"No, sir," said Carrie.
"Oh, you haven't," he said, eyeing her keenly.
"No, sir," she replied.
"Well, we prefer young women just now with some experience. I
guess we can't use you."
Carrie stood waiting a moment, hardly certain whether the
interview had terminated.
"Don't wait!" he exclaimed. "Remember we are very busy here."
Carrie began to move quickly to the door.
"Hold on," he said, calling her back. "Give me your name and
address. We want girls occasionally."
When she had gotten safely into the street, she could scarcely
restrain the tears. It was not so much the particular rebuff which she
had just experienced, but the whole abashing trend of the day. She was
tired and nervous. She abandoned the thought of appealing to the other
department stores and now wandered on, feeling a certain safety and
relief in mingling with the crowd.
In her indifferent wandering she turned into Jackson Street, not far
from the river, and was keeping her way along the south side of that
imposing thoroughfare, when a piece of wrapping paper, written on with
marking ink and tacked up on the door, attracted her attention. It
read, "Girls wanted- wrappers & stitchers." She hesitated a moment,
then entered.
The firm of Speigelheim & Co., makers of boys' caps, occupied one
floor of the building, fifty feet in width and some eighty feet in
depth. It was a place rather dingily lighted, the darkest portions
having incandescent lights, filled with machines and work benches.
At the latter laboured quite a company of girls and some men. The
former were drabby-looking creatures, stained in face with oil and
dust, clad in thin, shapeless, cotton dresses and shod with more or
less worn shoes. Many of them had their sleeves rolled up, revealing
bare arms, and in some cases, owing to the heat, their dresses were
open at the neck. They were a fair type of nearly the lowest order
of shop-girls- careless, slouchy, and more or less pale from
confinement. They were not timid, however; were rich in curiosity, and
strong in daring and slang.
Carrie looked about her, very much disturbed and quite sure that she
did not want to work here. Aside from making her uncomfortable by
sidelong glances, no one paid her the least attention. She waited
until the whole department was aware of her presence. Then some word
was sent around, and a foreman, in an apron and shirt sleeves, the
latter rolled up to his shoulders, approached.
"Do you want to see me?" he asked.
"Do you need any help?" said Carrie, already learning directness
of address.
"Do you know how to stitch caps?" he returned.
"No, sir," she replied.
"Have you ever had any experience at this kind of work?" he
inquired.
She answered that she had not.
"Well," said the foreman, scratching his ear meditatively, "we do
need a stitcher. We like experienced help, though. We've hardly got
time to break people in." He paused and looked away out of the window.
"We might, though, put you at finishing," he concluded reflectively.
"How much do you pay a week?" ventured Carrie, emboldened by a
certain softness in the man's manner and his simplicity of address.
"Three and a half," he answered.
"Oh," she was about to exclaim, but checked herself and allowed
her thoughts to die without expression.
"We're not exactly in need of anybody," he went on vaguely,
looking her over as one would a package. "You can come on Monday
morning, though," he added, "and I'll put you to work."
"Thank you," said Carrie weakly.
"If you come, bring an apron," he added.
He walked away and left her standing by the elevator, never so
much as inquiring her name.
While the appearance of the shop and the announcement of the price
paid per week operated very much as a blow to Carrie's fancy, the fact
that work of any kind was offered after so rude a round of
experience was gratifying. She could not begin to believe that she
would take the place, modest as her aspirations were. She had been
used to better than that. Her mere experience and the free out-of-door
life of the country caused her nature to revolt at such confinement.
Dirt had never been her share. Her sister's flat was clean. This place
was grimy and low, the girls were careless and hardened. They must
be bad-minded and hearted, she imagined. Still, a place had been
offered her. Surely Chicago was not so bad if she could find one place
in one day. She might find another and better later.
Her subsequent experiences were not of a reassuring nature, however.
From all the more pleasing or imposing places she was turned away
abruptly with the most chilling formality. In others where she applied
only the experienced were required. She met with painful rebuffs,
the most trying of which had been in a manufacturing cloak house,
where she had gone to the fourth floor to inquire.
"No, no," said the foreman, a rough, heavily built individual, who
looked after a miserably lighted workshop, "we don't want any one.
Don't come here."
With the wane of the afternoon went her hopes, her courage, and
her strength. She had been astonishingly persistent. So earnest an
effort was well deserving of a better reward. On every hand, to her
fatigued senses, the great business portion grew larger, harder,
more stolid in its indifference. It seemed as if it was all closed
to her, that the struggle was too fierce for her to hope to do
anything at all. Men and women hurried by in long, shifting lines. She
felt the flow of the tide of effort and interest- felt her own
helplessness without quite realising the wisp on the tide that she
was. She cast about vainly for some possible place to apply, but found
no door which she had the courage to enter. It would be the same thing
all over. The old humiliation of her plea, rewarded by curt denial.
Sick at heart and in body, she turned to the west, the direction of
Minnie's flat, which she had now fixed in mind, and began that
wearisome, baffled retreat which the seeker for employment at
nightfall too often makes. In passing through Fifth Avenue, south
towards Van Buren Street, where she intended to take a car, she passed
the door of a large wholesale shoe house, through the plate-glass
window of which she could see a middle-aged gentleman sitting a a
small desk. One of those forlorn impulses which often grow out of a
fixed sense of defeat, the last sprouting of a baffled and uprooted
growth of ideas, seized upon her. She walked deliberately through
the door and up to the gentleman, who looked at her weary face with
partially awakened interest.
"What is it?" he said.
"Can you give me something to do?" said Carrie.
"Now, I really don't know," he said kindly. "What kind of work is it
you want- you're not a typewriter, are you?"
"Oh, no," answered Carrie.
"Well, we only employ book-keepers and typewriters here. You might
go around to the side and inquire upstairs. They did want some help
upstairs a few days ago. Ask for Mr. Brown."
She hastened around to the side entrance and was taken up by the
elevator to the fourth floor.
"Call Mr. Brown, Willie," said the elevator man to a boy near by.
Willie went off and presently returned with the information that Mr.
Brown said she should sit down and that he would be around in a little
while.
It was a portion of the stock room which gave no idea of the general
character of the place, and Carrie could form no opinion of the nature
of the work.
"So you want something to do," said Mr. Brown, after he inquired
concerning the nature of her errand. "Have you ever been employed in a
shoe factory before?"
"No, sir," said Carrie.
"What is your name?" he inquired, and being informed, "Well, I don't
know as I have anything for you. Would you work for four and a half
a week?"
Carrie was too worn by defeat not to feel that it was
considerable. She had not expected that he would offer her less than
six. She acquiesced, however, and he took her name and address.
"Well," he said, finally, "you report here at eight o'clock Monday
morning. I think I can find something for you to do."
He left her revived by the possibilities, sure that she had found
something at last. Instantly the blood crept warmly over her body. Her
nervous tension relaxed. She walked out into the busy street and
discovered a new atmosphere. Behold, the throng was moving with a
lightsome step. She noticed that men and women were smiling. Scraps of
conversation and notes of laughter floated to her. The air was
light. People were already pouring out of the buildings, their
labour ended for the day. She noticed that they were pleased, and
thoughts of her sister's home and the meal that would be awaiting
her quickened her steps. She hurried on, tired perhaps, but no
longer weary of foot. What would not Minnie say! Ah, the long winter
in Chicago- the lights, the crowd, the amusement! This was a great,
pleasing metropolis after all. Her new firm was a goodly
institution. Its windows were of huge plate glass. She could
probably do well there. Thoughts of Drouet returned- of the things
he had told her. She now felt that life was better, that it was
livelier, sprightlier. She boarded a car in the best of spirits,
feeling her blood still flowing pleasantly. She would live in Chicago,
her mind kept saying to itself. She would have a better time than
she had ever had before- she would be happy.
Chapter IV.
THE SPENDINGS OF FANCY: FACTS ANSWER WITH SNEERS
For the next two days Carrie indulged in the most high-flown
speculations.
Her fancy plunged recklessly into privileges and amusements which
would have been much more becoming had she been cradled a child of
fortune. With ready will and quick mental selection she scattered
her meagre four-fifty per week with a swift and graceful hand. Indeed,
as she sat in her rocking-chair these several evenings before going to
bed and looked out upon the pleasantly lighted street, this money
cleared for its prospective possessor the way to every joy and every
bauble which the heart of woman may desire. "I will have a fine time,"
she thought.
Her sister Minnie knew nothing of these rather wild cerebrations,
though they exhausted the markets of delight. She was too busy
scrubbing the kitchen woodwork and calculating the purchasing power of
eighty cents for Sunday's dinner. When Carrie had returned home,
flushed with her first success and ready, for all her weariness, to
discuss the now interesting events which led up to her achievement,
the former had merely smiled approvingly and inquired whether she
would have to spend any of it for car fare. This consideration had not
entered in before, and it did not now for long affect the glow of
Carrie's enthusiasm. Disposed as she then was to calculate upon that
vague basis which allows the subtraction of one sum from another
without any perceptible diminution, she was happy.
When Hanson came home at seven o'clock, he was inclined to be a
little crusty- his usual demeanour before supper. This never showed so
much in anything he said as in a certain solemnity of countenance
and the silent manner in which he slopped about. He had a pair of
yellow carpet slippers which he enjoyed wearing, and these he would
immediately substitute for his solid pair of shoes. This, and
washing his face with the aid of common washing soap until it glowed a
shiny red, constituted his only preparation for his evening meal. He
would then get his evening paper and read in silence.
For a young man, this was rather a morbid turn of character, and
so affected Carrie. Indeed, it affected the entire atmosphere of the
flat, as such things are inclined to do, and gave to his wife's mind
its subdued and tactful turn, anxious to avoid taciturn replies. Under
the influence of Carrie's announcement he brightened up somewhat.
"You didn't lose any time, did you?" he remarked, smiling a little.
"No," returned Carrie with a touch of pride.
He asked her one or two more questions and then turned to play
with the baby, leaving the subject until it was brought up again by
Minnie at the table.
Carrie, however, was not to be reduced to the common level of
observation which prevailed in the flat.
"It seems to be such a large company," she said at one place. "Great
big plate-glass windows and lots of clerks. The man I saw said they
hired ever so many people."
"It's not very hard to get work now," put in Hanson, "if you look
right."
Minnie, under the warming influence of Carrie's good spirits and her
husband's somewhat conversational mood, began to tell Carrie of some
of the well-known things to see- things the enjoyment of which cost
nothing.
"You'd like to see Michigan Avenue. There are such fine houses. It
is such a fine street."
"Where is 'H. R. Jacob's'?" interrupted Carrie, mentioning one of
the theatres devoted to melodrama which went by that name at the time.
"Oh, it's not very far from here," answered Minnie. "It's in
Halstead Street, right up here."
"How I'd like to go there. I crossed Halstead Street to-day,
didn't I?"
At this there was a slight halt in the natural reply. Thoughts are a
strangely permeating factor. At her suggestion of going to the
theatre, the unspoken shade of disapproval to the doing of those
things which involved the expenditure of money- shades of feeling
which arose in the mind of Hanson and then in Minnie- slightly
affected the atmosphere of the table. Minnie answered "yes," but
Carrie could feel that going to the theatre was poorly advocated here.
The subject was put off for a little while until Hanson, through
with his meal, took his paper and went into the front room.
When they were alone, the two sisters began a somewhat freer
conversation, Carrie interrupting it to hum a little, as they worked
at the dishes.
"I should like to walk up and see Halstead Street, if it isn't too
far," said Carrie, after a time. "Why don't we go to the theatre
to-night?"
"Oh, I don't think Sven would want to go to-night," returned Minnie.
"He has to get up so early."
"He wouldn't mind- he'd enjoy it," said Carrie.
"No, he doesn't go very often," returned Minnie.
"Well, I'd like to go," rejoined Carrie. "Let's you and me go."
Minnie pondered a while, not upon whether she could or would go- for
that point was already negatively settled with her- but upon some
means of diverting the thoughts of her sister to some other topic.
"We'll go some other time," she said at last, finding no ready means
of escape.
Carrie sensed the root of the opposition at once.
"I have some money," she said. "You go with me."
Minnie shook her head.
"He could go along," said Carrie.
"No," returned Minnie softly, and rattling the dishes to drown the
conversation. "He wouldn't."
It had been several years since Minnie had seen Carrie, and in
that time that latter's character had developed a few shades.
Naturally timid in all things that related to her own advancement, and
especially so when without power or resource, her craving for pleasure
was so strong that it was the one stay of her nature. She would
speak for that when silent on all else.
"Ask him," she pleaded softly.
Minnie was thinking of the resource which Carrie's board would
add. It would pay the rent and would make the subject of expenditure a
little less difficult to talk about with her husband. But if Carrie
was going to think of running around in the beginning there would be a
hitch somewhere. Unless Carrie submitted to a solemn round of industry
and saw the need of hard work without longing for play, how was her
coming to the city to profit them? These thoughts were not those of
a cold, hard nature at all. They were the serious reflections of a
mind which invariably adjusted itself, without much complaining, to
such surroundings as its industry could make for it.
At last she yielded enough to ask Hanson. It was a half-hearted
procedure without a shade of desire on her part.
"Carrie wants us to go to the theatre," she said, looking in upon
her husband. Hanson looked up from his paper, and they exchanged a
mild look, which said as plainly as anything: "This isn't what we
expected."
"I don't care to go," he returned. "What does she want to see?"
"H. R. Jacob's," said Minnie.
He looked down at his paper and shook his head negatively.
When Carrie saw how they looked upon her proposition, she gained a
still clearer feeling of their way of life. It weighed on her, but
took no definite form of opposition.
"I think I'll go down and stand at the foot of the stairs," she
said, after a time.
Minnie made no objection to this, and Carrie put on her hat and went
below.
"Where has Carrie gone?" asked Hanson, coming back into the
dining-room when he heard the door close.
"She said she was going down to the foot of the stairs," answered
Minnie. "I guess she just wants to look out a while."
"She oughtn't to be thinking about spending her money on theatres
already, do you think?" he said.
"She just feels a little curious, I guess," ventured Minnie.
"Everything is so new."
"I don't know," said Hanson, and went over to the baby, his forehead
slightly wrinkled.
He was thinking of a full career of vanity and wastefulness which
a young girl might indulge in, and wondering how Carrie could
contemplate such a course when she had so little, as yet, with which
to do.
On Saturday Carrie went out by herself- first toward the river,
which interested her, and then back along Jackson Street, which was
then lined by the pretty houses and fine lawns which subsequently
caused it to be made into a boulevard. She was struck with the
evidences of wealth, although there was, perhaps, not a person on
the street worth more than a hundred thousand dollars. She was glad to
be out of the flat, because already she felt that it was a narrow,
humdrum place, and that interest and joy lay elsewhere. Her thoughts
now were of a more liberal character, and she punctuated them with
speculations as to the whereabouts of Drouet. She was not sure but
that he might call anyhow Monday night, and, while she felt a little
disturbed at the possibility, there was, nevertheless, just the
shade of a wish that he would.
On Monday she arose early and prepared to go to work. She dressed
herself in a worn shirt-waist of dotted blue percale, a skirt of
light-brown serge rather faded, and a small straw hat which she had
worn all summer at Columbia City. Her shoes were old, and her
necktie was in that crumpled, flattened state which time and much
wearing impart. She made a very average looking shop-girl with the
exception of her features. These were slightly more even than
common, and gave her a sweet, reserved, and pleasing appearance.
It is no easy thing to get up early in the morning when one is
used to sleeping until seven and eight, as Carrie had been at home.
She gained some inkling of the character of Hanson's life when, half
asleep, she looked out into the dining-room at six o'clock and saw him
silently finishing his breakfast. By the time she was dressed he was
gone, and she, Minnie, and the baby ate together, the latter being
just old enough to sit in a high chair and disturb the dishes with a
spoon. Her spirits were greatly subdued now when the fact of
entering upon strange and untried duties confronted her. Only the
ashes of all her fine fancies were remaining- ashes still
concealing, nevertheless, a few red embers of hope. So subdued was she
by her weakening nerves, that she ate quite in silence, going over
imaginary conceptions of the character of the shoe company the
nature of the work, her employer's attitude. She was vaguely feeling
that she would come in contact with the great owners, that her work
would be where grave, stylishly dressed men occasionally look on.
"Well, good luck," said Minnie, when she was ready to go. They had
agreed it was best to walk, that morning at least, to see if she could
do it every day- sixty cents a week for car fare being quite an item
under the circumstances.
"I'll tell you how it goes to-night," said Carrie.
Once in the sunlit street, with labourers tramping by in either
direction, the horse-cars passing crowded to the rails with the
small clerks and floor help in the great wholesale houses, and men and
women generally coming out of doors and passing about the
neighbourhood, Carrie felt slightly reassured. In the sunshine of
the morning, beneath the wide, blue heavens, with a fresh wind
astir, what fears, except the most desperate, can find a harbourage?
In the night, or the gloomy chambers of the day, fears and
misgivings wax strong, but out in the sunlight there is, for a time,
cessation even of the terror of death.
Carrie went straight forward until she crossed the river, and then
turned into Fifth Avenue. The thoroughfare, in this part, was like a
walled canon of brown stone and dark red brick. The big windows looked
shiny and clean. Trucks were rumbling in increasing numbers; men and
women, girls and boys were moving onward in all directions. She met
girls of her own age, who looked at her as if with contempt for her
diffidence. She wondered at the magnitude of this life and at the
importance of knowing much in order to do anything in it at all. Dread
at her own inefficiency crept upon her. She would not know how, she
would not be quick enough. Had not all the other places refused her
because she did not know something or other? She would be scolded,
abused, ignominiously discharged.
It was with weak knees and a slight catch in her breathing that
she came up to the great shoe company at Adams and Fifth Avenue and
entered the elevator. When she stepped out on the fourth floor there
was no one at hand, only great aisles of boxes piled to the ceiling.
She stood, very much frightened, awaiting some one.
Presently Mr. Brown came up. He did not seem to recognise her.
"What is it you want?" he inquired.
Carrie's heart sank.
"You said I should come this morning to see about work-"
"Oh," he interrupted. "Um- yes. What is your name?"
"Carrie Meeber."
"Yes," said he. "You come with me."
He led the way through dark, box-lined aisles which had the smell of
new shoes, until they came to an iron door which opened into the
factory proper. There was a large, low-ceiled room, with clacking,
rattling machines at which men in white shirt sleeves and blue gingham
aprons were working. She followed him diffidently through the
clattering automatons, keeping her eyes straight before her, and
flushing slightly. They crossed to a far corner and took an elevator
to the sixth floor. Out of the array of machines and benches, Mr.
Brown signalled a foreman.
"This is the girl," he said, and turning to Carrie, "You go with
him." He then returned, and Carrie followed her new superior to a
little desk in a corner, which he used as a kind of official centre.
"You've never worked at anything like this before, have you?" he
questioned, rather sternly.
"No, sir," she answered.
He seemed rather annoyed at having to bother with such help, but put
down her name and then led her across to where a line of girls
occupied stools in front of clacking machines. On the shoulder of
one of the girls who was punching eye-holes in one piece of the upper,
by the aid of the machine, he put his hand.
"You," he said, "show this girl how to do what you're doing. When
you get through, come to me."
The girl so addressed rose promptly and gave Carrie her place.
"It isn't hard to do," she said, bending over. "You just take this
so, fasten it with this clamp, and start the machine."
She suited action to word, fastened the piece of leather, which
was eventually to form the right half of the upper of a man's shoe, by
little adjustable clamps, and pushed a small steel rod at the side
of the machine. The latter jumped to the task of punching, with sharp,
snapping clicks, cutting circular bits of leather out of the side of
the upper, leaving the holes which were to hold the laces. After
observing a few times, the girl let her work at it alone. Seeing
that it was fairly well done, she went away.
The pieces of leather came from the girl at the machine to her
right, and were passed on to the girl at her left. Carrie saw at
once that an average speed was necessary or the work would pile up
on her and all those below would be delayed. She had no time to look
about, and bent anxiously to her task. The girls at her left and right
realised her predicament and feelings, and, in a way, tried to aid
her, as much as they dared, by working slower.
At this task she laboured incessantly for some time, finding
relief from her own nervous fears and imaginings in the humdrum,
mechanical movement of the machine. She felt, as the minutes passed,
that the room was not very light. It had a thick odour of fresh
leather, but that did not worry her. She felt the eyes of the other
help upon her, and troubled lest she was not working fast enough.
Once, when she was fumbling at the little clamp, having made a
slight error in setting in the leather, a great hand appeared before
her eyes and fastened the clamp for her. It was the foreman. Her heart
thumped so that she could scarcely see to go on.
"Start your machine," he said, "start your machine. Don't keep the
line waiting."
This recovered her sufficiently and she went excitedly on, hardly
breathing until the shadow moved away from behind her. Then she heaved
a great breath.
As the morning wore on the room became hotter. She felt the need
of a breath of fresh air and a drink of water, but did not venture
to stir. The stool she sat on was without a back or foot-rest, and she
began to feel uncomfortable. She found, after a time, that her back
was beginning to ache. She twisted and turned from one position to
another slightly different, but it did not case her for long. She
was beginning to weary.
"Stand up, why don't you?" said the girl at her right, without any
form of introduction. "They won't care."
Carrie looked at her gratefully. "I guess I will," she said.
She stood up from her stool and worked that way for a while, but
it was a more difficult position. Her neck and shoulders ached in
bending over.
The spirit of the place impressed itself on her in a rough way.
She did not venture to look around, but above the clack of the machine
she could hear an occasional remark. She could also note a thing or
two out of the side of her eye.
"Did you see Harry last night?" said the girl at her left,
addressing her neighbour.
"No."
"You ought to have seen the tie he had on. Gee, but he was a mark."
"S-s-t," said the other girl, bending over her work. The first,
silenced, instantly assumed a solemn face. The foreman passed slowly
along, eyeing each worker distinctly. The moment he was gone, the
conversation was resumed again.
"Say," began the girl at her left, "what jeh think he said?"
"I don't know."
"He said he saw us with Eddie Harris at Martin's last night."
"No!" They both giggled.
A youth with tan-coloured hair, that needed clipping very badly,
came shuffling along between the machines, bearing a basket of leather
findings under his left arm, and pressed against his stomach. When
near Carrie, he stretched out his right hand and gripped one girl
under the arm.
"Aw, let me go," she exclaimed angrily. "Duffer."
He only grinned broadly in return.
"Rubber!" he called back as she looked after him. There was
nothing of the gallant in him.
Carrie at last could scarcely sit still. Her legs began to tire
and she wanted to get up and stretch. Would noon never come? It seemed
as if she had worked an entire day. She was not hungry at all, but
weak, and her eyes were tired, straining at the one point where the
eye-punch came down. The girl at the right noticed her squirmings
and felt sorry for her. She was concentrating herself too
thoroughly- what she did really required less mental and physical
strain. There was nothing to be done, however. The halves of the
uppers came piling steadily down. Her hands began to ache at the
wrists and then in the fingers, and towards the last she seemed one
mass of dull, complaining muscles, fixed in an eternal position and
performing a single mechanical movement which became more and more
distasteful, until at last it was absolutely nauseating. When she
was wondering whether the strain would ever cease, a dull-sounding
bell clanged somewhere down an elevator shaft, and the end came. In an
instant there was a buzz of action and conversation. All the girls
instantly left their stools and hurried away in an adjoining room, men
passed through, coming from some department which opened on the right.
The whirling wheels began to sing in a steadily modifying key, until
at last they died away in a low buzz. There was an audible
stillness, in which the common voice sounded strange.
Carrie got up and sought her lunch box. She was stiff, a little
dizzy, and very thirsty. On the way to the small space portioned off
by wood, where all the wraps and lunches were kept, she encountered
the foreman, who stared at her hard.
"Well," he said, "did you get along all right?"
"I think so," she replied, very respectfully.
"Um," he replied, for want of something better, and walked on.
Under better material conditions, this kind of work would not have
been so bad, but the new socialism which involves pleasant working
conditions for employees had not then taken hold upon manufacturing
companies.
The place smelled of the oil of the machines and the new leather-
a combination which, added to the stale odours of the building, was
not pleasant even in cold weather. The floor, though regularly swept
every evening, presented a littered surface. Not the slightest
provision had been made for the comfort of the employees, the idea
being that something was gained by giving them as little and making
the work as hard and unremunerative as possible. What we know of
foot-rests, swivel-back chairs, dining-rooms for the girls, clean
aprons and curling irons supplied free, and a decent cloak room,
were unthought of. The washrooms were disagreeable, crude, if not foul
places, and the whole atmosphere was sordid.
Carrie looked about her, after she had drunk a tinful of water
from a bucket in one corner, for a place to sit and eat. The other
girls had ranged themselves about the windows or the work-benches of
those of the men who had gone out. She saw no place which did not hold
a couple or a group of girls, and being too timid to think of
intruding herself, she sought out her machine and, seated upon her
stool, opened her lunch on her lap. There she sat listening to the
chatter and comment about her. It was, for the most part, silly and
graced by the current slang. Several of the men in the room
exchanged compliments with the girls at long range.
"Say, Kitty," called one to a girl who was doing a waltz step in a
few feet of space near one of the windows, "are you going to the
ball with me?"
"Look out, Kitty," called another, "you'll jar your back hair."
"Go on, Rubber," was her only comment.
As Carrie listened to this and much more of similar familiar
badinage among the men and girls, she instinctively withdrew into
herself. She was not used to this type, and felt that there was
something hard and low about it all. She feared that the young boys
about would address such remarks to her- boys who, beside Drouet,
seemed uncouth and ridiculous. She made the average feminine
distinction between clothes, putting worth, goodness, and
distinction in a dress suit, and leaving all the unlovely qualities
and those beneath notice in overalls and jumper.
She was glad when the short half hour was over and the wheels
began to whirr again. Though wearied, she would be inconspicuous. This
illusion ended when another young man passed along the aisle and poked
her indifferently in the ribs with his thumb. She turned about,
indignation leaping to her eyes, but he had gone on and only once
turned to grin. She found it difficult to conquer an inclination to
cry.
The girl next her noticed her state of mind. "Don't you mind," she
said. "He's too fresh."
Carrie said nothing, but bent over her work. She felt as though
she could hardly endure such a life. Her idea of work had been so
entirely different. All during the long afternoon she thought of the
city outside and its imposing show, crowds, and fine buildings.
Columbia City and the better side of her home life came back. By three
o'clock she was sure it must be six, and by four it seemed as if
they had forgotten to note the hour and were letting all work
overtime. The foreman became a true ogre, prowling constantly about,
keeping her tied down to her miserable task. What she heard of the
conversation about her only made her feel sure that she did not want
to make friends with any of these. When six o'clock came she hurried
eagerly away, her arms aching and her limbs stiff from sitting in
one position.
As she passed out along the hall after getting her hat, a young
machine hand, attracted by her looks, made bold to jest with her.
"Say, Maggie," he called, "if you wait, I'll walk with you."
It was thrown so straight in her direction that she knew who was
meant, but never turned to look.
In the crowded elevator, another dusty, toil-stained youth tried
to make an impression on her by leering in her face.
One young man, waiting on the walk outside for the appearance of
another, grinned at her as she passed.
"Ain't going my way, are you?" he called jocosely.
Carrie turned her face to the west with a subdued heart. As she
turned the corner, she saw through the great shiny window the small
desk at which she had applied. There were the crowds, hurrying with
the same buzz and energy-yielding enthusiasm. She felt a slight
relief, but it was only at her escape. She felt ashamed in the face of
better dressed girls who went by. She felt as though she should be
better served, and her heart revolted.
Chapter V.
A GLITTERING NIGHT FLOWER: THE USE OF A NAME
Drouet did not call that evening. After receiving the letter, he had
laid aside all thought of Carrie for the time being and was floating
around having what he considered a gay time. On this particular
evening he dined at "Rector's," a restaurant of some local fame, which
occupied a basement at Clark and Monroe Streets. Thereafter he visited
the resort of Fitzgerald and Moy's in Adams Street, opposite the
imposing Federal Building. There he leaned over the splendid bar and
swallowed a glass of plain whiskey and purchased a couple of cigars,
one of which he lighted. This to him represented in part high life-
a fair sample of what the whole must be.
Drouet was not a drinker in excess. He was not a moneyed man. He
only craved the best, as his mind conceived it, and such doings seemed
to him a part of the best. Rector's, with its polished marble walls
and floor, its profusion of lights, its show of china and
silverware, and, above all, its reputation as a resort for actors
and professional men, seemed to him the proper place for a
successful man to go. He loved fine clothes, good eating, and
particularly the company and acquaintanceship of successful men.
When dining, it was a source of keen satisfaction to him to know
that Joseph Jefferson was wont to come to this same place, or that
Henry E. Dixie, a well-known performer of the day, was then only a few
tables off. At Rector's he could always obtain this satisfaction,
for there one could encounter politicians, brokers, actors, some
rich young "rounders" of the town, all eating and drinking amid a buzz
of popular commonplace conversation.
"That's So-and-so over there," was a common remark of these
gentlemen among themselves, particularly among those who had not yet
reached, but hoped to do so, the dazzling height which money to dine
here lavishly represented.
"You don't say so," would be the reply.
"Why, yes, didn't you know that? Why, he's manager of the Grand
Opera House."
When these things would fall upon Drouet's ears, he would straighten
himself a little more stiffly and eat with solid comfort. If he had
any vanity, this augmented it, and if he had any ambition, this
stirred it. He would be able to flash a roll of greenbacks too some
day. As it was, he could eat where they did.
His preference for Fitzgerald and Moy's Adams Street place was
another yard off the same cloth. This was really a gorgeous saloon
from a Chicago standpoint. Like Rector's, it was also ornamented
with a blaze of incandescent lights, held in handsome chandeliers. The
floors were of brightly coloured tiles, the walls a composition of
rich, dark, polished wood, which reflected the light, and coloured
stucco-work, which gave the place a very sumptuous appearance. The
long bar was a blaze of lights, polished wood-work, coloured and cut
glassware, and many fancy bottles. It was a truly swell saloon, with
rich screens, fancy wines, and a line of bar goods unsurpassed in
the country.
At Rector's, Drouet had met Mr. G. W. Hurstwood, manager of
Fitzgerald and Moy's. He had been pointed out as a very successful and
well-known man about town. Hurstwood looked the part, for, besides
being slightly under forty, he had a good, stout constitution, an
active manner, and a solid, substantial air, which was composed in
part of his fine clothes, his clean linen, his jewels, and, above all,
his own sense of his importance. Drouet immediately conceived a notion
of him as being some one worth knowing, and was glad not only to
meet him, but to visit the Adams Street bar thereafter whenever he
wanted a drink or a cigar.
Hurstwood was an interesting character after his kind. He was shrewd
and clever in many little things, and capable of creating a good
impression. His managerial position was fairly important- a kind of
stewardship which was imposing, but lacked financial control. He had
risen by perseverance and industry, through long years of service,
from the position of barkeeper in a commonplace saloon to his
present altitude. He had a little office in the place, set off in
polished cherry and grill-work, where he kept, in a roll-top desk, the
rather simple accounts of the place- supplies ordered and needed.
The chief executive and financial functions devolved 'upon the owners-
Messrs. Fitzgerald and Moy- and upon a cashier who looked after the
money taken in.
For the most part he lounged about, dressed in excellent tailored
suits of imported goods, a solitaire ring, a fine blue diamond in
his tie, a striking vest of some new pattern, and a watch-chain of
solid gold, which held a charm of rich design, and a watch of the
latest make and engraving. He knew by name, and could greet personally
with a "Well, old fellow," hundreds of actors, merchants, politicians,
and the general run of successful characters about town, and it was
part of his success to do so. He had a finely graduated scale of
informality and friendship, which improved from the "How do you do?"
addressed to the fifteen-dollar-a-week clerks and office attaches,
who, by long frequenting of the place, became aware of his position,
to the "Why, old man, how are you?" which he addressed to those
noted or rich individuals who knew him and were inclined to be
friendly. There was a class, however, too rich, too famous, or too
successful, with whom he could not attempt any familiarity of address,
and with these he was professionally tactful, assuming a grave and
dignified attitude, paying them the deference which would win their
good feeling without in the least compromising his own bearing and
opinions. There were, in the last place, a few good followers, neither
rich nor poor, famous, nor yet remarkably successful, with whom he was
friendly on the score of good-fellowship. These were the kind of men
with whom he would converse longest and most seriously. He loved to go
out and have a good time once in a while- to go to the races, the
theatres, the sporting entertainments at some of the clubs. He kept
a horse and neat trap, had his wife and two children, who were well
established in a neat house on the North Side near Lincoln Park, and
was altogether a very acceptable individual of our great American
upper class- the first grade below the luxuriously rich.
Hurstwood liked Drouet. The latter's genial nature and dressy
appearance pleased him. He knew that Drouet was only a travelling
salesman- and not one of many years at that- but the firm of Bartlett,
Caryoe & Company was a large and prosperous house, and Drouet stood
well. Hurstwood knew Caryoe quite well, having drunk a glass now and
then with him, in company with several others, when the conversation
was general. Drouet had what was a help in his business, a moderate
sense of humour, and could tell a good story when the occasion
required. He could talk races with Hurstwood, tell interesting
incidents concerning himself and his experiences with women, and
report the state of trade in the cities which he visited, and so
managed to make himself almost invariably agreeable. To-night he was
particularly so, since his report to the company had been favourably
commented upon, his new samples had been satisfactorily selected,
and his trip marked out for the next six weeks.
"Why, hello, Charlie, old man," said Hurstwood, as Drouet came in
that evening about eight o'clock. "How goes it?" The room was crowded.
Drouet shook hands, beaming good nature, and they strolled towards
the bar.
"Oh, all right."
"I haven't seen you in six weeks. When did you get in?"
"Friday," said Drouet. "Had a fine trip."
"Glad of it," said Hurstwood, his black eyes lit with a warmth which
half displaced the cold make-believe that usually dwelt in them. "What
are you going to take?" he added, as the barkeeper, in snowy jacket
and tie, leaned toward them from behind the bar. "Old Pepper," said
Drouet.
"A little of the same for me," put in Hurstwood.
"How long are you in town this time?" inquired Hurstwood.
"Only until Wednesday. I'm going up to St. Paul."
"George Evans was in here Saturday and said he saw you in
Milwaukee last week."
"Yes, I saw George," returned Drouet. "Great old boy, isn't he? We
had quite a time there together."
The barkeeper was setting out the glasses and bottle before them,
and they now poured out the draught as they talked, Drouet filling his
to within a third of full, as was considered proper, and Hurstwood
taking the barest suggestion of whiskey and modifying it with seltzer.
"What's become of Caryoe?" remarked Hurstwood. "I haven't seen him
around here in two weeks."
"Laid up, they say," exclaimed Drouet. "Say, he's a gouty old boy!"
"Made a lot of money in his time, though, hasn't he?"
"Yes, wads of it," returned Drouet. "He won't live much longer.
Barely comes down to the office now."
"Just one boy, hasn't he?" asked Hurstwood.
"Yes, and a swift-pacer," laughed Drouet.
"I guess he can't hurt the business very much, though, with the
other members all there."
"No, he can't injure that any, I guess."
Hurstwood was standing, his coat open, his thumbs in his pockets,
the light on his jewels and rings relieving them with agreeable
distinctness. He was the picture of fastidious comfort.
To one not inclined to drink, and gifted with a more serious turn of
mind, such a bubbling, chattering, glittering chamber must ever seem
an anomaly, a strange commentary on nature and life. Here come the
moths, in endless procession, to bask in the light of the flame.
Such conversation as one may hear would not warrant a commendation
of the scene upon intellectual grounds. It seems plain that schemers
would choose more sequestered quarters to arrange their plans, that
politicians would not gather here in company to discuss anything
save formalities, where the sharp-eared may hear, and it would
scarcely be justified on the score of thirst, (or the majority of
those who frequent these more gorgeous places have no craving for
liquor. Nevertheless, the fact that here men gather, here chatter,
here love to pass and rub elbows, must be explained upon some grounds.
It must be that a strange bundle of passions and vague desires give
rise to such a curious social institution or it would not be.
Drouet, for one, was lured as much by his longing for pleasure as by
his desire to shine among his betters. The many friends he met here
dropped in because they craved, without, perhaps, consciously
analysing it, the company, the glow, the atmosphere which they
found. One might take it, after all, as an augur of the better
social order, for the things which they satisfied here, though sensory
were not evil. No evil could come out of the contemplation of an
expensively decorated chamber. The worst effect of such a thing
would be, perhaps, to stir up in the material-minded an ambition to
arrange their lives upon a similarly splendid basis. In the last
analysis, that would scarcely be called the fault of the
decorations, but rather of the innate trend of the mind. That such a
scene might stir the less expensively dressed to emulate the more
expensively dressed could scarcely be laid at the door of anything
save the false ambition of the minds of those so affected. Remove
the element so thoroughly and solely complained of- liquor- and
there would not be one to gainsay the qualities of beauty and
enthusiasm which would remain. The pleased eye with which our modern
restaurants of fashion are looked upon is proof of this assertion.
Yet, here is the fact of the lighted chamber, the dressy, greedy
company, the small, self-interested palaver, the disorganized,
aimless, wandering mental action which it represents- the love of
light and show and finery which, to one outside, under the serene
light of the eternal stars, must seem a strange and shiny thing. Under
the stars and sweeping night winds, what a lamp-flower it must
bloom; a strange, glittering night-flower, odour-yielding,
insect-drawing, insect-infested rose of pleasure.
"See that fellow coming in there?" said Hurstwood, glancing at a
gentleman just entering, arrayed in a high hat and Prince Albert coat,
his fat cheeks puffed and red as with good eating.
"No, where?" said Drouet.
"There," said Hurstwood, indicating the direction by a cast of his
eye, "the man with the silk hat."
"Oh, yes," said Drouet, now affecting not to see. "Who is he?"
"That's Jules Wallace, the spiritualist."
Drouet followed him with his eyes, much interested.
"Doesn't look much like a man who sees spirits, does he?" said
Drouet.
"Oh, I don't know," returned Hurstwood. "He's got the money, all
right," and a little twinkle passed over his eyes.
"I don't go much on those things, do you?" asked Drouet.
"Well, you never can tell," said Hurstwood. "There may be
something to it. I wouldn't bother about it myself, though. By the
way," he added, "are you going anywhere to-night?"
"'The Hole in the Ground,'" said Drouet, mentioning the popular
farce of the time.
"Well, you'd better be going. It's half after eight already," and he
drew out his watch.
The crowd was already thinning out considerably- some bound for
the theatres, some to their clubs, and some to that most fascinating
of all the pleasures- for the type of man there represented, at least-
the ladies.
"Yes, I will," said Drouet.
"Come around after the show. I have something I want to show you,"
said Hurstwood.
"Sure," said Drouet, elated.
"You haven't anything on hand for the night, have you?" added
Hurstwood.
"Not a thing."
"Well, come round, then."
"I struck a little peach coming in on the train Friday," remarked
Drouet, by way of parting. "By George, that's so, I must go and call
on her before I go away."
"Oh, never mind her," Hurstwood remarked.
"Say, she was a little dandy, I tell you," went on Drouet
confidentially, and trying to impress his friend.
"Twelve o'clock," said Hurstwood.
"That's right," said Drouet, going out.
Thus was Carrie's name bandied about in the most frivolous and gay
of places, and that also when the little toiler was bemoaning her
narrow lot, which was almost inseparable from the early stages of
this, her unfolding fate.
Chapter VI.
THE MACHINE AND THE MAIDEN: A KNIGHT OF TODAY
At the flat that evening Carrie felt a new phase of its
atmosphere. The fact that it was unchanged, while her feelings were
different, increased her knowledge of its character. Minnie, after the
good spirits Carrie manifested at first, expected a fair report.
Hanson supposed that Carrie would be satisfied.
"Well," he said, as he came in from the hall in his working clothes,
and looked at Carrie through the dining-room door, "how did you make
out?"
"Oh," said Carrie, "it's pretty hard. I don't like it."
There was an air about her which showed plainer than any words
that she was both weary and disappointed.
"What sort of work is it?" he asked, lingering a moment as he turned
upon his heel to go into the bathroom.
"Running a machine," answered Carrie.
It was very evident that it did not concern him much, save from
the side of the flat's success. He was irritated a shade because it
could not have come about in the throw of fortune for Carrie to be
pleased.
Minnie worked with less elation than she had just before Carrie
arrived. The sizzle of the meat frying did not sound quite so pleasing
now that Carrie had reported her discontent. To Carrie, the one relief
of the whole day would have been a jolly home, a sympathetic
reception, a bright supper table, and some one to say: "Oh, well,
stand it a little while. You will get something better," but now
this was ashes. She began to see that they looked upon her complaint
as unwarranted, and that she was supposed to work on and say
nothing. She knew that she was to pay four dollars for her board and
room, and now she felt that it would be an exceedingly gloomy round,
living with these people.
Minnie was no companion for her sister- she was too old. Her
thoughts were staid and solemnly adapted to a condition. If Hanson had
any pleasant thoughts or happy feelings he concealed them. He seemed
to do all his mental operations without the aid of physical
expression. He was as still as a deserted chamber. Carrie, on the
other hand, had the blood of youth and some imagination. Her day of
love and the mysteries of courtship were still ahead. She could
think of things she would like to do, of clothes she would like to
wear, and of places she would like to visit. These were the things
upon which her mind ran, and it was like meeting with opposition at
every turn to find no one here to call forth or respond to her
feelings.
She had forgotten, in considering and explaining the result of her
day, that Drouet might come. Now, when she saw how unreceptive these
two people were, she hoped he would not. She did not know exactly what
she would do or how she would explain to Drouet, if he came. After
supper she changed her clothes. When she was trimly dressed she was
rather a sweet little being, with large eyes and a sad mouth. Her face
expressed the mingled expectancy, dissatisfaction and depression she
felt. She wandered about after the dishes were put away, talked a
little with Minnie, and then decided to go down and stand in the
door at the foot of the stairs. If Drouet came, she could meet him
there. Her face took on the semblance of a look of happiness as she
put on her hat to go below.
"Carrie doesn't seem to like her place very well," said Minnie to
her husband when the latter came out, paper in hand, to sit in the
dining-room a few minutes.
"She ought to keep it for a time, anyhow," said Hanson. "Has she
gone downstairs?"
"Yes," said Minnie.
"I'd tell her to keep it if I were you. She might be here weeks
without getting another one."
Minnie said she would, and Hanson read his paper.
"If I were you," he said a little later, "I wouldn't let her stand
in the door down there. It don't look good."
"I'll tell her," said Minnie.
The life of the streets continued for a long time to interest
Carrie. She never wearied of wondering where the people in the cars
were going or what their enjoyments were. Her imagination trod a
very narrow round, always winding up at points which concerned
money, looks, clothes, or enjoyment. She would have a far-off
thought of Columbia City now and then, or an irritating rush of
feeling concerning her experiences of the present day, but, on the
whole, the little world about her enlisted her whole attention.
The first floor of the building, of which Hanson's flat was the
third, was occupied by a bakery, and to this, while she was standing
there, Hanson came down to buy a loaf of bread. She was not aware of
his presence until he was quite near her.
"I'm after bread," was all he said as he passed.
The contagion of thought here demonstrated itself. While Hanson
really came for bread, the thought dwelt with him that now he would
see what Carrie was doing. No sooner did he draw near her with that in
mind than she felt it. Of course, she had no understanding of what put
it into her head, but, nevertheless, it aroused in her the first shade
of real antipathy to him. She knew now that she did not like him. He
was suspicious.
A thought will colour a world for us. The flow of Carrie's
meditations had been disturbed, and Hanson had not long gone
upstairs before she followed. She had realised with the lapse of the
quarter hours that Drouet was not coming, and somehow she felt a
little resentful, a little as if she had been forsaken- was not good
enough. She went upstairs, where everything was silent. Minnie was
sewing by a lamp at the table. Hanson had already turned in for the
night. In her weariness and disappointment Carrie did no more than
announce that she was going to bed.
"Yes you'd better," returned Minnie. "You've got to get up early,
you know."
The morning was no better. Hanson was just going out the door as
Carrie came from her room. Minnie tried to talk with her during
breakfast, but there was not much of interest which they could
mutually discuss. As on the previous morning, Carrie walked down town,
for she began to realise now that her four-fifty would not even
allow her car fare after she paid her board. This seemed a miserable
arrangement. But the morning light swept away the first misgivings
of the day, as morning light is ever wont to do.
At the shoe factory she put in a long day, scarcely so wearisome
as the preceding, but considerably less novel. The head foreman, on
his round, stopped by her machine.
"Where did you come from?" he inquired.
"Mr. Brown hired me," she replied.
"Oh, he did, eh!" and then, "See that you keep things going."
The machine girls impressed her even less favourably. They seemed
satisfied with their lot, and were in a sense "common." Carrie had
more imagination than they. She was not used to slang. Her instinct in
the matter of dress was naturally better. She disliked to listen to
the girl next to her, who was rather hardened by experience.
"I'm going to quit this," she heard her remark to her neighbour.
"What with the stipend and being up late, it's too much for me
health."
They were free with the fellows, young and old, about the place, and
exchanged banter in rude phrases, which at first shocked her. She
saw that she was taken to be of the same sort and addressed
accordingly.
"Hello," remarked one of the stout-wristed sole-workers to her at
noon. "You're a daisy." He really expected to hear the common "Aw!
go chase yourself!" in return, and was sufficiently abashed, by
Carrie's silently moving away, to retreat, awkwardly grinning.
That night at the flat she was even more lonely- the dull
situation was becoming harder to endure. She could see that the
Hansons seldom or never had any company. Standing at the street door
looking out, she ventured to walk out a little way. Her easy gait
and idle manner attracted attention of an offensive but common sort.
She was slightly taken back at the overtures of a well-dressed man
of thirty, who in passing looked at her, reduced his pace, turned
back, and said:
"Out for a little stroll, are you, this evening?"
Carrie looked at him in amazement, and then summoned sufficient
thought to reply: "Why, I don't know you," backing away as she did so.
"Oh, that don't matter," said the other affably.
She bandied no more words with him, but hurried away, reaching her
own door quite out of breath. There was something in the man's look
which frightened her.
During the remainder of the week it was very much the same. One or
two nights she found herself too tired to walk home and expended car
fare. She was not very strong, and sitting all day affected her
back. She went to bed one night before Hanson.
Transplantation is not always successful in the matter of flowers or
maidens. It requires sometimes a richer soil, a better atmosphere to
continue even a natural growth. It would have been better if her
acclimatization had been more gradual- less rigid. She would have done
better if she had not secured a position so quickly, and had seen more
of the city which she constantly troubled to know about.
On the first morning it rained she found that she had no umbrella.
Minnie loaned her one of hers, which was worn and faded. There was the
kind of vanity in Carrie that troubled at this. She went to one of the
great department stores and bought herself one, using a dollar and a
quarter of her small store to pay for it.
"What did you do that for, Carrie?" asked Minnie when she saw it.
"Oh, I need one," said Carrie.
"You foolish girl."
Carrie resented this, though she did not reply. She was not going to
be a common shop-girl, she thought; they need not think it, either.
On the first Saturday night Carrie paid her board, four dollars.
Minnie had a quaver of conscience as she took it, but did not know how
to explain to Hanson if she took less. That worthy gave up just four
dollars less toward the household expenses with a smile of
satisfaction. He contemplated increasing his Building and Loan
payments. As for Carrie, she studied over the problem of finding
clothes and amusement on fifty cents a week, She brooded over this
until she was in a state of mental rebellion.
"I'm going up the street for a walk," she said after supper.
"Not alone are you?" asked Hanson.
"Yes," returned Carrie.
"I wouldn't," said Minnie.
"I want to see something," said Carrie, and by the tone she put into
the last word they realised for the first time she was not pleased
with them.
"What's the matter with her?" asked Hanson, when she went into the
front room to get her hat.
"I don't know," said Minnie.
"Well, she ought to know better than to want to go out alone."
Carrie did not go very far, after all. She returned and stood in the
door. The next day they went out to Garfield Park, but it did not
please her. She did not look well enough. In the shop next day she
heard the highly coloured reports which girls give of their trivial
amusements. They had been happy. On several days it rained and she
used up car fare. One night she got thoroughly soaked, going to
catch the car at Van Buren Street. All that evening she sat alone in
the front room looking out upon the street, where the lights were
reflected on the wet pavements, thinking. She had imagination enough
to be moody.
On Saturday she paid another four dollars and pocketed her fifty
cents in despair. The speaking acquaintanceship which she formed
with some of the girls at the shop discovered to her the fact that
they had more of their earnings to use for themselves than she did.
They had young men of the kind whom she, since her experience with
Drouet, felt above, who took them about. She came to thoroughly
dislike the light-headed young fellows of the shop. Not one of them
had a show of refinement. She saw only their workday side.
There came a day when the first premonitory blast of winter swept
over the city. It scudded the fleecy clouds in the heavens, trailed
long, thin streamers of smoke from the tall stacks, and raced about
the streets and corners in sharp and sudden puffs. Carrie now felt the
problem of winter clothes. What was she to do? She had no winter
jacket, no hat, no shoes. It was difficult to speak to Minnie about
this, but at last she summoned the courage.
"I don't know what I'm going to do about clothes," she said one
evening when they were together. "I need a hat."
Minnie looked serious.
"Why don't you keep part of your money and buy yourself one?" she
suggested, worried over the situation which the withholding of
Carrie's money would create.
"I'd like to for a week or so, if you don't mind," ventured Carrie.
"Could you pay two dollars?" asked Minnie.
Carrie readily acquiesced, glad to escape the trying situation,
and liberal now that she saw a way out. She was elated and began
figuring at once. She needed a hat first of all. How Minnie
explained to Hanson she never knew. He said nothing at all, but
there were thoughts in the air which left disagreeable impressions.
The new arrangement might have worked if sickness had not
intervened. It blew up cold after a rain one afternoon when Carrie was
still without a jacket. She came out of the warm shop at six and
shivered as the wind struck her. In the morning she was sneezing,
and going down town made it worse. That day her bones ached and she
felt light-headed. Towards evening she felt very ill, and when she
reached home was not hungry. Minnie noticed her drooping actions and
asked her about herself.
"I don't know," said Carrie. "I feel real bad."
She hung about the stove, suffered a chattering chill, and went to
bed sick. The next morning she was thoroughly feverish.
Minnie was truly distressed at this, but maintained a kindly
demeanour. Hanson said perhaps she had better go back home for a
while. When she got up after three days, it was taken for granted that
her position was lost. The winter was near at hand, she had no clothes
and now she was out of work.
"I don't know," said Carrie; "I'll go down Monday and see if I can't
get something."
If anything, her efforts were more poorly rewarded on this trial
than the last. Her clothes were nothing suitable for fall wearing. Her
last money she had spent for a hat. For three days she wandered about,
utterly dispirited. The attitude of the flat was fast becoming
unbearable. She hated to think of going back there each evening.
Hanson was so cold. She knew it could not last much longer. Shortly
she would have to give up and go home.
On the fourth day she was down town all day, having borrowed ten
cents for lunch from Minnie. She had applied in the cheapest kind of
places without success. She even answered for a waitress in a small
restaurant where she saw a card in the window, but they wanted an
experienced girl. She moved through the thick throng of strangers,
utterly subdued in spirit. Suddenly a hand pulled her arm and turned
her about.
"Well, well!" said a voice. In the first glance she beheld Drouet.
He was not only rosy-cheeked, but radiant. He was the essence of
sunshine and good-humour. "Why, how are you, Carrie?" he said. "You're
a daisy. Where have you been?"
Carrie smiled under his irresistible flood of geniality.
"I've been out home," she said.
"Well," he said, "I saw you across the street there. I thought it
was you. I was just coming out to your place. How are you, anyhow?"
"I'm all right," said Carrie, smiling.
Drouet looked her over and saw something different.
"Well," he said, "I want to talk to you. You're not going anywhere
in particular, are you?"
"Not just now," said Carrie.
"Let's go up here and have something to eat. George! but I'm glad to
see you again."
She felt so relieved in his radiant presence, so much looked after
and cared for, that she assented gladly, though with the slightest air
of holding back.
"Well," he said as he took her arm- and there was an exuberance of
good-fellowship in the word which fairly warmed the cockles of her
heart.
They went through Monroe Street to the old Windsor dining-room,
which was then a large, comfortable place, with an excellent cuisine
and substantial service. Drouet selected a table close by the
window, where the busy rout of the street could be seen. He loved
the changing panorama of the street- to see and be seen as he dined.
"Now," he said, getting Carrie and himself comfortably settled, what
will you have?"
Carrie looked over the large bill of fare which the waiter handed
her without really considering it. She was very hungry, and the things
she saw there awakened her desires, but the high prices held her
attention. "Half broiled spring chicken- seventy-five. Sirloin steak
with mushrooms- one twenty-five." She had dimly heard of these things,
but it seemed strange to be called to order from the list.
"I'll fix this," exclaimed Drouet. "Sst! waiter."
That officer of the board, a full-chested, round-faced negro,
approached, and inclined his ear.
"Sirloin with mushrooms," said Drouet. "Stuffed tomatoes."
"Yassah," assented the negro, nodding his head.
"Hashed brown potatoes."
"Yassah."
"Asparagus."
"Yassah."
"And a pot of coffee."
Drouet turned to Carrie. "I haven't had a thing since breakfast.
Just got in from Rock Island. I was going off to dine when I saw you."
Carried smiled and smiled.
"What have you been doing?" he went on. "Tell me all about yourself.
How is your sister?"
"She's well," returned Carrie, answering the last query.
He looked at her hard.
"Say," he said, "you haven't been sick, have you?"
Carrie nodded.
"Well, now, that's a blooming shame, isn't it? You don't look very
well. I thought you looked a little pale. What have you been doing?"
"Working," said Carrie.
"You don't say so! At what?"
She told him.
"Rhodes, Morgenthau and Scott- why, I know that house. Over here
on Fifth Avenue, isn't it? They're a close-fisted concern. What made
you go there?"
"I couldn't get anything else," said Carrie frankly.
"Well, that's an outrage," said Drouet. "You oughtn't to be
working for those people. Have the factory right back of the store,
don't they?"
"Yes," said Carrie.
"That isn't a good house," said Drouet. "You don't want to work at
anything like that, anyhow."
He chattered on at a great rate, asking questions, explaining things
about himself, telling her what a good restaurant it was, until the
waiter returned with an immense tray, bearing the hot savoury dishes
which had been ordered. Drouet fairly shone in the matter of
serving. He appeared to great advantage behind the white napery and
silver platters of the table and displaying his arms with a knife
and fork. As he cut the meat his rings almost spoke. His new suit
creaked as he stretched to reach the plates, break the bread, and pour
the coffee. He helped Carrie to a rousing plateful and contributed the
warmth of his spirit to her body until she was a new girl. He was a
splendid fellow in the true popular understanding of the term, and
captivated Carrie completely.
That little soldier of fortune took her good turn in an easy way.
She felt a little out of place, but the great room soothed her and the
view of the well-dressed throng outside seemed a splendid thing. Ah,
what was it not to have money! What a thing it was to be able to
come in here and dine! Drouet must be fortunate. He rode on trains,
dressed in such nice clothes, was so strong, and ate in these fine
places. He seemed quite a figure of a man, and she wondered at his
friendship and regard for her.
"So you lost your place because you got sick, eh?" he said.
"What are you going to do now?"
"Look around," she said, a thought of the need that hung outside
this fine restaurant like a hungry dog at her heels passing into her
eyes.
"Oh, no," said Drouet, "that won't do. How long have you been
looking?"
"Four days," she answered.
"Think of that!" he said, addressing some problematical
individual. "You oughtn't to be doing anything like that. These
girls," and he waved an inclusion of all shop and factory girls,
"don't get anything. Why, you can't live on it, can you?"
He was a brotherly sort of creature in his demeanour. When he had
scouted the idea of that kind of toil, he took another tack. Carrie
was really very pretty. Even then, in her commonplace garb, her figure
was evidently not bad, and her eyes were large and gentle. Drouet
looked at her and his thoughts reached home. She felt his
admiration. It was powerfully backed by his liberality and
good-humour. She felt that she liked him- that she could continue to
like him ever so much. There was something even richer than that,
running as a hidden strain, in her mind. Every little while her eyes
would meet his, and by that means the interchanging current of feeling
would be fully connected.
"Why don't you stay down town and go to the theatre with me?" he
said, hitching his chair closer. The table was not very wide.
"Oh, I can't," she said.
"What are you going to do to-night?"
"Nothing," she answered, a little drearily.
"You don't like out there where you are, do you?"
"Oh, I don't know."
"What are you going to do if you don't get work?"
"Go back home, I guess."
There was the least quaver in her voice as she said this. Somehow,
the influence he was exerting was powerful. They came to an
understanding of each other without words- he of her situation, she of
the fact that he realised it.
"No," he said, "you can't make it!" genuine sympathy filling his
mind for the time. "Let me help you. You take some of my money."
"Oh, no!" she said, leaning back.
"What are you going to do?" he said.
She sat meditating, merely shaking her head.
He looked at her quite tenderly for his kind. There were some
loose bills in his vest pocket- greenbacks. They were soft and
noiseless, and he got his fingers about them and crumpled them up in
his hand.
"Come on," he said, "I'll see you through all right. Get yourself
some clothes."
It was the first reference he had made to that subject, and now
she realised how bad off she was. In his crude way he had struck the
key-note. Her lips trembled a little.
She had her hand out on the table before her. They were quite
alone in their corner, and he put his larger, warmer hand over it.
"Aw, come, Carrie," he said, "what can you do alone? Let me help
you."
He pressed her hand gently and she tried to withdraw it. At this
he held it fast, and she no longer protested. Then he slipped the
greenbacks he had into her palm, and when she began to protest, he
whispered:
"I'll loan it to you- that's all right. I'll loan it to you."
He made her take it. She felt bound to him by a strange tie of
affection now. They went out, and he walked with her far out south
toward Polk Street, talking.
"You don't want to live with those people?" he said in one place,
abstractedly. Carrie heard it, but it made only a slight impression.
"Come down and meet me to-morrow," he said, "and we'll go to the
matinee. Will you?"
Carrie protested a while, but acquiesced.
"You're not doing anything. Get yourself a nice pair of shoes and
a jacket."
She scarcely gave a thought to the complication which would
trouble her when he was gone. In his presence, she was of his own
hopeful, easy-way-out mood.
"Don't you bother about those people out there," he said at parting.
"I'll help you."
Carrie left him, feeling as though a great arm had slipped out
before her to draw off trouble. The money she had accepted was two
soft, green, handsome ten-dollar bills.
Chapter VII.
THE LURE OF THE MATERIAL: BEAUTY SPEAKS FOR ITSELF
The true meaning of money yet remains to be popularly explained
and comprehended. When each individual realises for himself that
this thing primarily stands for and should only be accepted as a moral
due- that it should be paid out as honestly stored energy, and not
as a usurped privilege- many of our social, religious, and political
troubles will have permanently passed. As for Carrie, her
understanding of the moral significance of money was the popular
understanding, nothing more. The old definition: "Money: something
everybody else has and I must get," would have expressed her
understanding of it thoroughly. Some of it she now held in her hand-
two soft, green ten-dollar bills- and she felt that she was
immensely better off for the having of them. It was something that was
power in itself. One of her order of mind would have been content to
be cast away upon a desert island with a bundle of money, and only the
long strain of starvation would have taught her that in some cases
it could have no value. Even then she would have had no conception
of the relative value of the thing; her one thought would,
undoubtedly, have concerned the pity of having so much power and the
inability to use it.
The poor girl thrilled as she walked away from Drouet. She felt
ashamed in part because she had been weak enough to take it, but her
need was so dire, she was still glad. Now she would have a nice new
jacket! Now she would buy a nice pair of pretty button shoes. She
would get stockings, too, and a skirt, and, and- until already, as
in the matter of her prospective salary, she had got beyond, in her
desires, twice the purchasing power of her bills.
She conceived a true estimate of Drouet. To her, and indeed to all
the world, he was a nice, good-hearted man. There was nothing evil
in the fellow. He gave her the money out of a good heart- out of a
realisation of her want. He would not have given the same amount to
a poor young man, but we must not forget that a poor young man could
not, in the nature of things, have appealed to him like a poor young
girl. Femininity affected his feelings. He was the creature of an
inborn desire. Yet no beggar could have caught his eye and said, "My
God, mister, I'm starving," but he would gladly have handed out what
was considered the proper portion to give beggars and thought no
more about it. There would have been no speculation, no
philosophising. He had no mental process in him worthy the dignity
of either of those terms. In his good clothes and fine health, he
was a merry, unthinking moth of the lamp. Deprived of his position,
and struck by a few of the involved and baffling forces which
sometimes play upon man he would have been as helpless as Carrie- as
helpless, as non-understanding, as pitiable, if you will, as she.
Now, in regard to his pursuit of women, he meant them no harm,
because he did not conceive of the relation which he hoped to hold
with them as being harmful. He loved to make advances to women, to
have them succumb to his charms, not because he was a cold-blooded,
dark, scheming villain, but because his inborn desire urged him to
that as a chief delight. He was vain, he was boastful, he was as
deluded by fine clothes as any silly-headed girl. A truly deep-dyed
villain could have hornswaggled him as readily as he could have
flattered a pretty shop-girl. His fine success as a salesman lay in
his geniality and the thoroughly reputable standing of his house. He
bobbed about among men, a veritable bundle of enthusiasm- no power
worthy the name of intellect, no thoughts worthy the adjective
noble, no feelings long continued in one strain. A Madame Sappho would
have called him a pig; a Shakespeare would have said "my merry child;"
old, drinking Caryoe thought him a clever, successful business man. In
short, he was as good as his intellect conceived.
The best proof that there was something open and commendable about
the man was the fact that Carrie took the money. No deep, sinister
soul with ulterior motives could have given her fifteen cents under
the guise of friendship. The unintellectual are not so helpless.
Nature has taught the beasts of the field to fly when some
unheralded danger threatens. She has put into the small, unwise head
of the chipmunk the untutored fear of poisons. "He keepeth His
creatures whole," was not, written of beasts alone. Carrie was unwise,
and, therefore, like the sheep in its unwisdom, strong in feeling. The
instinct of self-protection, strong in all such natures, was roused
but feebly, if at all, by the overtures of Drouet.
When Carrie had gone, he felicitated himself upon her good
opinion. By George, it was a shame young girls had to be knocked
around like that. Cold weather coming on and no clothes. Tough. He
would go around to Fitzgerald and Moy's and get a cigar. It made him
feel light of foot as he thought about her.
Carrie reached home in high good spirits, which she could scarcely
conceal. The possession of the money involved a number of points which
perplexed her seriously. How should she buy any clothes when Minnie
knew that she had no money? She had no sooner entered the flat than
this point was settled for her. It could not be done. She could
think of no way of explaining.
"How did you come out?" asked Minnie, referring to the day.
Carrie had none of the small deception which could feel one thing
and say something directly opposed. She would prevaricate, but it
would be in the line of her feelings at least. So; instead of
complaining when she felt so good, she said:
"I have the promise of something."
"Where?"
"At the Boston Store."
"Is it sure promised?" questioned Minnie.
"Well, I'm to find out to-morrow," returned Carrie, disliking to
draw out a lie any longer than was necessary.
Minnie felt the atmosphere of good feeling which Carrie brought with
her. She felt now was the time to express to Carrie the state of
Hanson's feeling about her entire Chicago venture.
"If you shouldn't get it-" she paused, troubled for an easy way.
"If I don't get something pretty soon, I think I'll go home."
Minnie saw her chance.
"Sven thinks it might be best for the winter, anyhow."
The situation flashed on Carrie at once. They were unwilling to keep
her any longer, out of work. She did not blame Minnie, she did not
blame Hanson very much. Now, as she sat there digesting the remark,
she was glad she had Drouet's money.
"Yes," she said after a few moments, "I thought of doing that."
She did not explain that the thought, however, had aroused all the
antagonism of her nature. Columbia City, what was there for her? She
knew its dull, little round by heart. Here was the great, mysterious
city which was still a magnet for her. What she had seen only
suggested its possibilities. Now to turn back on it and live the
little old life out there- she almost exclaimed against the thought.
She had reached home early and went in the front room to think. What
could she do? She could not buy new shoes and wear them here. She
would need to save part of the twenty to pay her fare home. She did
not want to borrow of Minnie for that. And yet, how could she
explain where she even got that money? If she could only get enough to
let her out easy.
She went over the tangle again and again. Here, in the morning,
Drouet would expect to see her in a new jacket, and that couldn't
be. The Hansons expected her to go home, and she wanted to get away,
and yet she did not want to go home. In the light of the way they
would look on her getting money without work, the taking of it now
seemed dreadful. She began to be ashamed. The whole situation
depressed her. It was all so clear when she was with Drouet. Now it
was all so tangled, so hopeless- much worse than it was before,
because she had the semblance of aid in her hand which she could not
use.
Her spirits sank so that at supper Minnie felt that she must have
had another hard day. Carrie finally decided that she would give the
money back. It was wrong to take it. She would go down in the
morning and hunt for work. At noon she would meet Drouet as agreed and
tell him. At this decision her heart sank, until she was the old
Carrie of distress.
Curiously, she could not hold the money in her hand without
feeling some relief. Even after all her depressing conclusions, she
could sweep away all thought about the matter and then the twenty
dollars seemed a wonderful and delightful thing. Ah, money, money,
money! What a thing it was to have. How plenty of it would clear
away all these troubles.
In the morning she got up and started out a little early. Her
decision to hunt for work was moderately strong, but the money in
her pocket, after all her troubling over it, made the work question
the least shade less terrible. She walked into the wholesale district,
but as the thought of applying came with each passing concern, her
heart shrank. What a coward she was, she thought to herself. Yet she
had applied so often. It would be the same old story. She walked on
and on, and finally did go into one place, with the old result. She
came out feeling that luck was against her. It was no use.
Without much thinking, she reached Dearborn Street. Here was the
great Fair store with its multitude of delivery wagons about, its long
window display, its crowd of shoppers. It readily changed her
thoughts, she who was so weary of them. It was here that she had
intended to come and get her new things. Now for relief from distress,
she thought she would go in and see. She would look at the jackets.
There is nothing in this world more delightful than that middle
state in which we mentally balance at times, possessed of the means,
lured by desire, and yet deterred by conscience or want of decision.
When Carrie began wandering around the store amid the fine displays
she was in this mood. Her original experience in this same place had
given her a high opinion of its merits. Now she paused at each
individual bit of finery, where before she had hurried on. Her woman's
heart was warm with desire for them. How would she look in this, how
charming that would make her! She came upon the corset counter and
paused in rich reverie as she noted the dainty concoctions of colour
and lace there displayed. If she would only make up her mind, she
could have one of those now. She lingered in the jewelry department.
She saw the earrings, the bracelets, the pins, the chains. What
would she not have given if she could have had them all! She would
look fine too, if only she had some of these things.
The jackets were the greatest attraction. When she entered the
store, she already had her heart fixed upon the peculiar little tan
jacket with large mother-of-pearl buttons which was all the rage
that fall. Still she delighted to convince herself that there was
nothing she would like better. She went about among the glass cases
and racks where these things were displayed, and satisfied herself
that the one she thought of was the proper one. All the time she
wavered in mind, now persuading herself that she could buy it right
away if she chose, now recalling to herself the actual condition. At
last the noon hour was dangerously near, and she had done nothing. She
must go now and return the money.
Drouet was on the corner when she came up.
"Hello," he said, "where is the jacket and"- looking down- "the
shoes?"
Carrie had thought to lead up to her decision in some intelligent
way, but this swept the whole fore-schemed situation by the board.
"I came to tell you that- that I can't take the money."
"Oh, that's it, is it?" he returned. "Well, you come on with me.
Let's go over here to Partridge's."
Carrie walked with him. Behold, the whole fabric of doubt and
impossibility had slipped from her mind. She could not get at the
points that were so serious, the things she was going to make plain to
him.
"Have you had lunch yet? Of course you haven't. Let's go in here,"
and Drouet turned into one of the very nicely furnished restaurants
off State Street, in Monroe.
"I mustn't take the money," said Carrie, after they were settled
in a cosey corner, and Drouet had ordered the lunch. "I can't wear
those things out there. They- they wouldn't know where I got them."
"What do you want to do," he smiled, "go without them?"
"I think I'll go home," she said, wearily.
"Oh, come," he said, "you've been thinking it over too long. I'll
tell you what you do. You say you can't wear them out there. Why don't
you rent a furnished room and leave them in that for a week?"
Carrie shook her head. Like all women, she was there to object and
be convinced. It was for him to brush the doubts away and clear the
path if he could.
"Why are you going home?" he asked.
"Oh, I can't get anything here."
"They won't keep you?" he remarked, intuitively.
"They can't," said Carrie.
"I'll tell you what you do," he said. "You come with me. I'll take
care of you."
Carrie heard this passively. The peculiar state which she was in
made it sound like the welcome breath of an open door. Drouet seemed
of her own spirit and pleasing. He was clean, handsome,
well-dressed, and sympathetic. His voice was the voice of a friend.
"What can you do back at Columbia City?" he went on, rousing by
the words in Carrie's mind a picture of the dull world she had left.
"There isn't anything down there. Chicago's the place. You can get a
nice room here and some clothes, and then you can do something."
Carrie looked out through the window into the busy street. There
it was, the admirable, great city, so fine when you are not poor. An
elegant coach, with a prancing pair of bays, passed by, carrying in
its upholstered depths a young lady.
"What will you have if you go back?" asked Drouet. There was no
subtle undercurrent to the question. He imagined that she would have
nothing at all of the things he thought worth while.
Carrie sat still, looking out. She was wondering what she could
do. They would be expecting her to go home this week.
Drouet turned to the subject of the clothes she was going to buy.
"Why not get yourself a nice little jacket? You've got to have it.
I'll loan you the money. You needn't worry about taking it. You can
get yourself a nice room by yourself. I won't hurt you."
Carrie saw the drift, but could not express her thoughts. She felt
more than ever the helplessness of her case.
"If I could only get something to do," she said.
"Maybe you can," went on Drouet, "if you stay here. You can't if you
go away. They won't let you stay out there. Now, why not let me get
you a nice room? I won't bother you- you needn't be afraid. Then, when
you get fixed up, maybe you could get something."
He looked at her pretty face and it vivified his mental resources.
She was a sweet little mortal to him- there was no doubt of that.
She seemed to have some power back of her actions. She was not like
the common run of store-girls. She wasn't silly.
In reality, Carrie had more imagination than he- more taste. It
was a finer mental strain in her that made possible her depression and
loneliness. Her poor clothes were neat, and she held her head
unconsciously in a dainty way.
"Do you think I could get something?" she asked.
"Sure," he said, reaching over and filling her cup with tea. "I'll
help you."
She looked at him, and he laughed reassuringly.
"Now I'll tell you what well do. We'll go over here to Partridge's
and you pick out what you want. Then we'll look around for a room
for you. You can leave the things there. Then we'll go to the show
to-night."
Carrie shook her head.
"Well, you can go out to the flat then, that's all right. You
don't need to stay in the room. Just take it and leave your things
there."
She hung in doubt about this until the dinner was over.
"Let's go over and look at the jackets," he said.
Together they went. In the store they found that shine and rustle of
new things which immediately laid hold of Carrie's heart. Under the
influence of a good dinner and Drouet's radiating presence, the scheme
proposed seemed feasible. She looked about and picked a jacket like
the one which she had admired at The Fair. When she got it in her hand
it seemed so much nicer. The saleswoman helped her on with it, and, by
accident, it fitted perfectly. Drouet's face lightened as he saw the
improvement. She looked quite smart.
"That's the thing," he said.
Carrie turned before the glass. She could not help feeling pleased
as she looked at herself. A warm glow crept into her cheeks.
"That's the thing," said Drouet. "Now pay for it."
"It's nine dollars," said Carrie.
"That's all right- take it," said Drouet.
She reached in her purse and took out one of the bills. The woman
asked if she would wear the coat and went off. In a few minutes she
was back and the purchase was closed.
From Partridge's they went to a shoe store, where Carrie was
fitted for shoes. Drouet stood by, and when he saw how nice they
looked, said, "Wear them." Carrie shook her head, however. She was
thinking of returning to the flat. He bought her a purse for one
thing, and a pair of gloves for another, and let her buy the
stockings.
"To-morrow," he said, "you come down here and buy yourself a skirt."
In all of Carrie's actions there was a touch of misgiving. The
deeper she sank into the entanglement, the more she imagined that
the thing hung upon the few remaining things she had not done. Since
she had not done these, there was a way out.
Drouet knew a place in Wabash Avenue where there were rooms. He
showed Carrie the outside of these, and said: "Now, you're my sister."
He carried the arrangement off with an easy hand when it came to the
selection, looking around, criticising, opining. "Her trunk will be
here in a day or so," he observed to the landlady, who was very
pleased.
When they were alone, Drouet did not change in the least. He
talked in the same general way as if they were out in the street.
Carrie left her things.
"Now," said Drouet, "why don't you move to-night?"
"Oh, I can't," said Carrie.
"Why not?"
"I don't want to leave them so."
He took that up as they walked along the avenue. It was a warm
afternoon. The sun had come out and the wind had died down. As he
talked with Carrie, he secured an accurate detail of the atmosphere of
the flat.
"Come out of it," he said, "they won't care. I'll help you get
along."
She listened until her misgivings vanished. He would show her
about a little and then help her get something. He really imagined
that he would. He would be out on the road and she could be working.
"Now, I'll tell you what you do," he said, "you go out there and get
whatever you want and come away."
She thought a long time about this. Finally she agreed. He would
come out as far as Peoria Street and wait for her. She was to meet him
at half-past eight. At half-past five she reached home, and at six her
determination was hardened.
"So you didn't get it?" said Minnie, referring to Carrie's story
of the Boston Store.
Carrie looked at her out of the corner of her eye. "No," she
answered.
"I don't think you'd better try any more this fall," said Minnie.
Carrie said nothing.
When Hanson came home he wore the same inscrutable demeanour. He
washed in silence and went off to read his paper. At dinner Carrie
felt a little nervous. The strain of her own plans was considerable,
and the feeling that she was not welcome here was strong.
"Didn't find anything, eh?" said Hanson.
"No."
He turned to his eating again, the thought that it was a burden to
have her here dwelling in his mind. She would have to go home, that
was all. Once she was away, there would be no more coming back in
the spring.
Carrie was afraid of what she was going to do, but she was
relieved to know that this condition was ending. They would not
care. Hanson particularly would be glad when she went. He would not
care what became of her.
After dinner she went into the bathroom, where they could not
disturb her, and wrote a little note.
"Good-bye, Minnie," it read. "I'm not going home. I'm going to
stay in Chicago a little while and look for work. Don't worry. I'll be
all right."
In the front room Hanson was reading his paper. As usual, she helped
Minnie clear away the dishes and straighten up. Then she said:
"I guess I'll stand down at the door a little while." She could
scarcely prevent her voice from trembling.
Minnie remembered Hanson's remonstrance.
"Sven doesn't think it looks good to stand down there," she said.
"Doesn't he?" said Carrie. "I won't do it any more after this."
She put on her hat and fidgeted around the table in the little
bedroom, wondering where to slip the note. Finally she put it under
Minnie's hair-brush.
When she had closed the hall-door, she paused a moment and
wondered what they would think. Some thought of the queerness of her
deed affected her. She went slowly down the stairs. She looked back up
the lighted step, and then affected to stroll up the street. When
she reached the corner she quickened her pace.
As she was hurrying away, Hanson came back to his wife.
"Is Carrie down at the door again?" he asked.
"Yes," said Minnie; "she said she wasn't going to do it any more."
He went over to the baby where it was playing on the floor and began
to poke his finger at it.
Drouet was on the corner waiting, in good spirits.
"Hello, Carrie," he said, as a sprightly figure of a girl drew
near him. "Got here safe, did you? Well, we'll take a car."
Chapter VIII.
INTIMATIONS BY WINTER: AN AMBASSADOR SUMMONED
Among the forces which sweep and play throughout the universe,
untutored man is but a wisp in the wind. Our civilisation is still
in a middle stage, scarcely beast, in that it is no longer wholly
guided by instinct; scarcely human, in that it is not yet wholly
guided by reason. On the tiger no responsibility rests. We see him
aligned by nature with the forces of life- he is born into their
keeping and without thought he is protected. We see man far removed
from the lairs of the jungles, his innate instincts dulled by too near
an approach to free-will, his free-will not sufficiently developed
to replace his instincts and afford him perfect guidance. He is
becoming too wise to hearken always to instincts and desires; he is
still too weak to always prevail against them. As a beast, the
forces of life aligned him with them; as a man, he has not yet
wholly learned to align himself with the forces. In this
intermediate stage he wavers- neither drawn in harmony with nature
by his instincts nor yet wisely putting himself into harmony by his
own free-will. He is even as a wisp in the wind, moved by every breath
of passion, acting now by his will and now by his instincts, erring
with one, only to retrieve by the other, falling by one, only to
rise by the other- a creature of incalculable variability. We have the
consolation of knowing that evolution is ever in action, that the
ideal is a light that cannot fail. He will not forever balance thus
between good and evil. When this jangle of free-will and instinct
shall have been adjusted, when perfect understanding has given the
former the power to replace the latter entirely, man will no longer
vary. The needle of understanding will yet point steadfast and
unwavering to the distant pole of truth.
In Carrie- as in how many of our worldlings do they not?- instinct
and reason, desire and understanding, were at war for the mastery. She
followed whither her craving led. She was as yet more drawn than she
drew.
When Minnie found the note next morning, after a night of mingled
wonder and anxiety, which was not exactly touched by yearning, sorrow,
or love, she exclaimed: "Well, what do you think of that?"
"What?" said Hanson.
"Sister Carrie has gone to live somewhere else."
Hanson jumped out of bed with more celerity than he usually
displayed and looked at the note. The only indication of his
thoughts came in the form of a little clicking sound made by his
tongue; the sound some people make when they wish to urge on a horse.
"Where do you suppose she's gone to?" said Minnie, thoroughly
aroused.
"I don't know," a touch of cynicism lighting his eye. "Now she has
gone and done it."
Minnie moved her head in a puzzled way.
"Oh, oh," she said, "she doesn't know what she has done."
"Well," said Hanson, after a while, sticking his hands out before
him, "what can you do?"
Minnie's womanly nature was higher than this. She figured the
possibilities in such cases.
"Oh," she said at last, "poor Sister Carrie!"
At the time of this particular conversation, which occurred at 5
A.M., that little soldier of fortune was sleeping a rather troubled
sleep in her new room, alone.
Carrie's new state was remarkable in that she saw possibilities in
it. She was no sensualist, longing to drowse sleepily in the lap of
luxury. She turned about, troubled by her daring, glad of her release,
wondering whether she would get something to do, wondering what Drouet
would do. That worthy had his future fixed for him beyond a
peradventure. He could not help what he was going to do. He could
not see clearly enough to wish to do differently. He was drawn by
his innate desire to act the old pursuing part. He would need to
delight himself with Carrie as surely as he would need to eat his
heavy breakfast. He might suffer the least rudimentary twinge of
conscience in whatever he did, and in just so far he was evil and
sinning. But whatever twinges of conscience he might have would be
rudimentary, you may be sure.
The next day he called upon Carrie, and she saw him in her
chamber. He was the same jolly, enlivening soul.
"Aw," he said, "what are you looking so blue about? Come on out to
breakfast. You want to get your other clothes to-day."
Carrie looked at him with the hue of shifting thought in her large
eyes.
"I wish I could get something to do," she said.
"You'll get that all right," said Drouet. "What's the use worrying
right now? Get yourself fixed up. See the city. I won't hurt you."
"I know you won't," she remarked, half truthfully.
"Got on the new shoes, haven't you? Stick 'em out. George, they look
fine. Put on your jacket."
Carrie obeyed.
"Say, that fits like a T, don't it?" he remarked, feeling the set of
it at the waist and eyeing it from a few paces with real pleasure.
"What you need now is a new skirt. Let's go to breakfast."
Carrie put on her hat.
"Where are the gloves?" he inquired.
"Here," she said, taking them out of the bureau drawer.
"Now, come on," he said.
Thus the first hour of misgiving was swept away.
It went this way on every occasion. Drouet did not leave her much
alone. She had time for some lone wanderings, but mostly he filled her
hours with sight-seeing. At Carson, Pirie's he bought her a nice skirt
and shirt waist. With his money she purchased the little necessaries
of toilet, until at last she looked quite another maiden. The mirror
convinced her of a few things which she had long believed. She was
pretty, yes, indeed! How nice her hat set, and weren't her eyes
pretty. She caught her little red lip with her teeth and felt her
first thrill of power. Drouet was so good.
They went to see "The Mikado" one evening, an opera which was
hilariously popular at that time. Before going, they made off for
the Windsor dining-room, which was in Dearborn Street, a
considerable distance from Carrie's room. It was blowing up cold,
and out of her window Carrie could see the western sky, still pink
with the fading light, but steely blue at the top where it met the
darkness. A long, thin cloud of pink hung in midair, shaped like
some island in a far-off sea. Somehow the swaying of some dead
branches of trees across the way brought back the picture with which
she was familiar when she looked from their front window in December
days at home.
She paused and wrung her little hands.
"What's the matter?" said Drouet.
"Oh, I don't know," she said, her lip trembling.
He sensed something, and slipped his arm over her shoulder,
patting her arm.
"Come on," he said gently, "you're all right."
She turned to slip on her jacket.
"Better wear that boa about your throat to-night."
They walked north on Wabash to Adams Street and then west. The
lights in the stores were already shining out in gushes of golden hue.
The arc lights were sputtering overhead, and high up were the
lighted windows of the tall office buildings. The chill wind whipped
in and out in gusty breaths. Homeward bound, the six o'clock throng
bumped and jostled. Light overcoats were turned up about the ears,
hats were pulled down. Little shop-girls went fluttering by in pairs
and fours, chattering, laughing. It was a spectacle of warm-blooded
humanity.
Suddenly a pair of eyes met Carrie's in recognition. They were
looking out from a group of poorly dressed girls. Their clothes were
faded and loose-hanging, their jackets old, their general make-up
shabby.
Carrie recognised the glance and the girl. She was one of those
who worked at the machines in the shoe factory. The latter looked, not
quite sure, and then turned her head and looked. Carrie felt as if
some great tide had rolled between them. The old dress and the old
machine came back. She actually started. Drouet didn't notice until
Carrie bumped into a pedestrian.
"You must be thinking," he said.
They dined and went to the theatre. That spectacle pleased Carrie
immensely. The colour and grace of it caught her eye. She had vain
imaginings about place and power, about far-off lands and
magnificent people. When it was over, the clatter of coaches and the
throng of fine ladies made her stare.
"Wait a minute," said Drouet, holding her back in the showy foyer
where ladies and gentlemen were moving in a social crush, skirts
rustling, lace-covered heads nodding, white teeth showing through
parted lips. "Let's see."
"Sixty-seven," the coach-caller was saying, his voice lifted in a
sort of euphonious cry. "Sixty-seven."
"Isn't it fine?" said Carrie.
"Great," said Drouet. He was as much affected by this show of finery
and gayety as she. He pressed her arm warmly. Once she looked up,
her even teeth glistening through her smiling lips, her eyes alight.
As they were moving out he whispered down to her, "You look lovely!"
They were right where the coach-caller was swinging open a
coach-door and ushering in two ladies.
"You stick to me and we'll have a coach," laughed Drouet.
Carrie scarcely heard, her head was so full of the swirl of life.
They stopped in at a restaurant for a little after-theatre lunch.
Just a shade of a thought of the hour entered Carrie's head, but there
was no household law to govern her now. If any habits ever had time to
fix upon her, they would have operated here. Habits are peculiar
things. They will drive the really non-religious mind out of bed to
say prayers that are only a custom and not a devotion. The victim of
habit, when he has neglected the thing which it was his custom to
do, feels a little scratching in the brain, a little irritating
something which comes of being out of the rut, and imagines it to be
the prick of conscience, the still, small voice that is urging him
ever to righteousness. If the digression is unusual enough, the drag
of habit will be heavy enough to cause the unreasoning victim to
return and perform the perfunctory thing. "Now, bless me," says such a
mind, "I have done my duty," when, as a matter of fact, it has
merely done its old, unbreakable trick once again.
Carrie had no excellent home principles fixed upon her. If she
had, she would have been more consciously distressed. Now the lunch
went off with considerable warmth. Under the influence of the varied
occurrences, the fine, invisible passion which was emanating from
Drouet, the food, the still unusual luxury, she relaxed and heard with
open ears. She was again the victim of the city's hypnotic influence.
"Well," said Drouet at last, "we had better be going."
They had been dawdling over the dishes, and their eyes had
frequently met. Carrie could not help but feel the vibration of
force which followed, which, indeed, was his gaze. He had a way of
touching her hand in explanation, as if to impress a fact upon her. He
touched it now as he spoke of going.
They arose and went out into the street. The downtown section was
now bare, save for a few whistling strollers, a few owl cars, a few
open resorts whose windows were still bright. Out Wabash Avenue they
strolled, Drouet still pouring forth his volume of small
information. He had Carrie's arm in his, and held it closely as he
explained. Once in a while, after some witticism, he would look
down, and his eyes would meet hers. At last they came to the steps,
and Carrie stood up on the first one, her head now coming even with
his own. He took her hand and held it genially. He looked steadily
at her as she glanced about, warmly musing.
At about that hour, Minnie was soundly sleeping, after a long
evening of troubled thought. She had her elbow in an awkward
position under her side. The muscles so held irritated a few nerves,
and now a vague scene floated in on the drowsy mind. She fancied she
and Carrie were somewhere beside an old coal-mine. She could see the
tall runway and the heap of earth and coal cast out. There was a
deep pit, into which they were looking; they could see the curious wet
stones far down where the wall disappeared in vague shadows. An old
basket, used for descending, was hanging there, fastened by a worn
rope.
"Let's get in," said Carrie.
"Oh, no," said Minnie.
"Yes, come on," said Carrie.
She began to pull the basket over, and now, in spite of all protest,
she had swung over and was going down.
"Carrie," she called, "Carrie, come back;" but Carrie was far down
now and the shadow had swallowed her completely.
She moved her arm.
Now the mystic scenery merged queerly and the place was by waters
she had never seen. They were upon some board or ground or something
that reached far out, and at the end of this was Carrie. They looked
about, and now the thing was sinking, and Minnie heard the low sip
of the encroaching water.
"Come on, Carrie," she called, but Carrie was reaching farther
out. She seemed to recede, and now it was difficult to call to her.
"Carrie," she called, "Carrie," but her own voice sounded far
away, and the strange waters were blurring everything. She came away
suffering as though she had lost something. She was more inexpressibly
sad than she had even been in life.
It was this way through many shifts of the tired brain, those
curious phantoms of the spirit slipping in, blurring strange scenes,
one with the other. The last one made her cry out, for Carrie was
slipping away somewhere over a rock, and her fingers had let loose and
she had seen her falling.
"Minnie! What's the matter? Here, wake up," said Hanson,
disturbed, and shaking her by the shoulder.
"Wha- what's the matter?" said Minnie, drowsily.
"Wake up," he said, "and turn over. You're talking in your sleep."
A week or so later Drouet strolled into Fitzgerald and Moy's, spruce
in dress and manner.
"Hello, Charley," said Hurstwood, looking out from his office door.
Drouet strolled over and looked in upon the manager at his desk.
"When do you go out on the road again?" he inquired.
"Pretty soon," said Drouet.
"Haven't seen much of you this trip," said Hurstwood.
"Well, I've been busy," said Drouet.
They talked some few minutes on general topics.
"Say," said Drouet, as if struck by a sudden idea, "I want you to
come out some evening."
"Out where?" inquired Hurstwood.
"Out to my house, of course," said Drouet, smiling.
Hurstwood looked up quizzically, the least suggestion of a smile
hovering about his lips. He studied the face of Drouet in his wise
way, and then with the demeanour of a gentleman, said: "Certainly;
glad to."
"We'll have a nice game of euchre."
"May I bring a nice little bottle of Sec?" asked Hurstwood.
"Certainly," said Drouet. "I'll introduce you."
Chapter IX.
CONVENTION'S OWN TINDER-BOX: THE EYE THAT IS GREEN
Hurstwood's residence on the North Side, near Lincoln Park, was a
brick building of a very popular type then, a three-story affair
with the first floor sunk a very little below the level of the street.
It had a large bay window bulging out from the second floor, and was
graced in front by a small grassy plot, twenty-five feet wide and
ten feet deep. There was also a small rear yard, walled in by the
fences of the neighbours and holding a stable where he kept his
horse and trap.
The ten rooms of the house were occupied by himself, his wife Julia,
and his son and daughter, George, Jr., and Jessica. There were besides
these a maid-servant, represented from time to time by girls of
various extraction, for Mrs. Hurstwood was not always easy to please.
"George, I let Mary go yesterday," was not an unfrequent
salutation at the dinner table.
"All right," was his only reply. He had long since wearied of
discussing the rancorous subject.
A lovely home atmosphere is one of the flowers of the world, than
which there is nothing more tender, nothing more delicate, nothing
more calculated to make strong and just the natures cradled and
nourished within it. Those who have never experienced such a
beneficent influence will not understand wherefore the tear springs
glistening to the eyelids at some strange breath in lovely music.
The mystic chords which bind and thrill the heart of the nation,
they will never know.
Hurstwood's residence could scarcely be said to be infused with this
home spirit. It lacked that toleration and regard without which the
home is nothing. There was fine furniture, arranged as soothingly as
the artistic perception of the occupants warranted. There were soft
rugs, rich, upholstered chairs and divans, a grand piano, a marble
carving of some unknown Venus by some unknown artist, and a number
of small bronzes gathered from heaven knows where, but generally
sold by the large furniture houses along with everything else which
goes to make the "perfectly appointed house."
In the dining-room stood a sideboard laden with glistening decanters
and other utilities and ornaments in glass, the arrangement of which
could not be questioned. Here was something Hurstwood knew about. He
had studied the subject for years in his business. He took no little
satisfaction in telling each Mary, shortly after she arrived,
something of what the art of the thing required. He was not
garrulous by any means. On the contrary, there was a fine reserve in
his manner toward the entire domestic economy of his life which was
all that is comprehended by the popular term, gentlemanly. He would
not argue, he would not talk freely. In his manner was something of
the dogmatist. What he could not correct, he would ignore. There was a
tendency in him to walk away from the impossible thing.
There was a time when he had been considerably enamoured of his
Jessica, especially when he was younger and more confined in his
success. Now, however, in her seventeenth year, Jessica had
developed a certain amount of reserve and independence which was not
inviting to the richest form of parental devotion. She was in the high
school, and had notions of life which were decidedly those of a
patrician. She liked nice clothes and urged for them constantly.
Thoughts of love and elegant individual establishments were running in
her head. She met girls at the high school whose parents were truly
rich and whose fathers had standing locally as partners or owners of
solid businesses. These girls gave themselves the airs befitting the
thriving domestic establishments from whence they issued. They were
the only ones of the school about whom Jessica concerned herself.
Young Hurstwood, Jr., was in his twentieth year, and was already
connected in a promising capacity with a large real estate firm. He
contributed nothing for the domestic expenses of the family, but was
thought to be saving his money to invest in real estate. He had some
ability, considerable vanity, and a love of pleasure that had not,
as yet, infringed upon his duties, whatever they were. He came in
and went out, pursuing his own plans and fancies, addressing a few
words to his mother occasionally, relating some little incident to his
father, but for the most part confining himself to those
generalities with which most conversation concerns itself. He was
not laying bare his desires for any one to see. He did not find any
one in the house who particularly cared to see.
Mrs. Hurstwood was the type of the woman who has ever endeavoured to
shine and has been more or less chagrined at the evidences of superior
capability in this direction elsewhere. Her knowledge of life extended
to that little conventional round of society of which she was not- but
longed to be- a member. She was not without realisation already that
this thing was impossible, so far as she was concerned. For her
daughter, she hoped better things. Through Jessica she might rise a
little. Through George, Jr.'s, possible success she might draw to
herself the privilege of pointing proudly. Even Hurstwood was doing
well enough, and she was anxious that his small real estate adventures
should prosper. His property holdings, as yet, were rather small,
but his income was pleasing and his position with Fitzgerald and Moy
was fixed. Both those gentlemen were on pleasant and rather informal
terms with him.
The atmosphere which such personalities would create must be
apparent to all. It worked out in a thousand little conversations, all
of which were of the same calibre.
"I'm going up to Fox Lake to-morrow," announced George. Jr., at
the dinner table one Friday evening.
"What's going on up there?" queried Mrs. Hurstwood.
"Eddie Fahrway's got a new steam launch, and he wants me to come
up and see how it works."
"How much did it cost him?" asked his mother.
"Oh, over two thousand dollars. He says it's a dandy."
"Old Fahrway must be making money," put in Hurstwood.
"He is, I guess. Jack told me they were shipping Vega-cura to
Australia now- said they sent a whole box to Cape Town last week."
"Just think of that!" said Mrs. Hurstwood, "and only four years
ago they had that basement in Madison Street."
"Jack told me they were going to put up a six-story building next
spring in Robey Street."
"Just think of that!" said Jessica.
On this particular occasion Hurstwood wished to leave early.
"I guess I'll be going down town," he remarked, rising.
"Are we going to McVicker's Monday?" questioned Mrs. Hurstwood,
without rising.
"Yes," he said indifferently.
They went on dining, while he went upstairs for his hat and coat.
Presently the door clicked.
"I guess papa's gone," said Jessica.
The latter's school news was of a particular stripe.
"They're going to give a performance in the Lyceum, upstairs," she
reported one day, "and I'm going to be in it."
"Are you?" said her mother.
"Yes, and I'll have to have a new dress. Some of the nicest girls in
the school are going to be in it. Miss Palmer is going to take the
part of Portia."
"Is she?" said Mrs. Hurstwood.
"They've got that Martha Griswold in it again. She thinks she can
act."
"Her family doesn't amount to anything, does it?" said Mrs.
Hurstwood sympathetically. "They haven't anything, have they?"
"No," returned Jessica, "they're poor as church mice."
She distinguished very carefully between the young boys of the
school, many of whom were attracted by her beauty.
"What do you think?" she remarked to her mother one evening; "that
Herbert Crane tried to make friends with me."
"Who is he, my dear?" inquired Mrs. Hurstwood.
"Oh, no one," said Jessica, pursing her pretty lips. "He's just a
student there. He hasn't anything."
The other half of this picture came when young Blyford, son of
Blyford, the soap manufacturer, walked home with her. Mrs. Hurstwood
was on the third floor, sitting in a rocking-chair reading, and
happened to look out at the time.
"Who was that with you, Jessica?" she inquired, as Jessica came
upstairs.
"It's Mr. Blyford, mamma," she replied.
"Is it?" said Mrs. Hurstwood.
"Yes, and he wants me to stroll over into the park with him,"
explained Jessica, a little flushed with running up the stairs.
"All right, my dear," said Mrs. Hurstwood. "Don't be gone long."
As the two went down the street, she glanced interestedly out of the
window. It was a most satisfactory spectacle indeed, most
satisfactory.
In this atmosphere Hurstwood had moved for a number of years, not
thinking deeply concerning it. His was not the order of nature to
trouble for something better, unless the better was immediately and
sharply contrasted. As it was, he received and gave, irritated
sometimes by the little displays of selfish indifference, pleased at
times by some show of finery which supposedly made for dignity and
social distinction. The life of the resort which he managed was his
life. There he spent most of his time. When he went home evenings
the house looked nice. With rare exceptions the meals were acceptable,
being the kind that an ordinary servant can arrange. In part, he was
interested in the talk of his son and daughter, who always looked
well. The vanity of Mrs. Hurstwood caused her to keep her person
rather showily arrayed, but to Hurstwood this was much better than
plainness. There was no love lost between them. There was no great
feeling of dissatisfaction. Her opinion on any subject was not
startling. They did not talk enough together to come to the argument
of any one point. In the accepted and popular phrase, she had her
ideas and he had his. Once in a while he would meet a woman whose
youth, sprightliness, and humour would make his wife seem rather
deficient by contrast, but the temporary dissatisfaction which such an
encounter might arouse would be counterbalanced by his social position
and a certain matter of policy. He could not complicate his home life,
because it might affect his relations with his employers. They
wanted no scandals. A man, to hold his position, must have a dignified
manner, a clean record, a respectable home anchorage. Therefore he was
circumspect in all he did, and whenever he appeared in the public ways
in the afternoon, or on Sunday, it was with his wife, and sometimes
his children. He would visit the local resorts, or those near by in
Wisconsin, and spend a few stiff, polished days strolling about
conventional places doing conventional things. He knew the need of it.
When some one of the many middle-class individuals whom he knew, who
had money, would get into trouble, he would shake his head. It
didn't do to talk about those things. If it came up for discussion
among such friends as with him passed for close, he would deprecate
the folly of the thing. "It was all right to do it- all men do those
things- but why wasn't he careful? A man can't be too careful." He
lost sympathy for the man that made a mistake and was found out.
On this account he still devoted some time to showing his wife
about- time which would have been wearisome indeed if it had not
been for the people he would meet and the little enjoyments which
did not depend upon her presence or absence. He watched her with
considerable curiosity at times, for she was still attractive in a way
and men looked at her. She was affable, vain, subject to flattery, and
this combination, he knew quite well, might produce a tragedy in a
woman of her home position. Owing to his order of mind, his confidence
in the sex was not great. His wife never possessed the virtues which
would win the confidence and admiration of a man of his nature. As
long as she loved him vigorously he could see how confidence could be,
but when that was no longer the binding chain- well, something might
happen.
During the last year or two the expenses of the family seemed a
large thing. Jessica wanted fine clothes, and Mrs. Hurstwood, not to
be outshone by her daughter, also frequently enlivened her apparel.
Hurstwood had said nothing in the past, but one day he murmured.
"Jessica must have a new dress this month," said Mrs. Hurstwood
one morning.
Hurstwood was arraying himself in one of his perfection vests before
the glass at the time.
"I thought she just bought one," he said.
"That was just something for evening wear," returned his wife
complacently.
"It seems to me," returned Hurstwood, "that she's spending a good
deal for dresses of late."
"Well, she's going out more," concluded his wife, but the tone of
his voice impressed her as containing something she had not heard
there before.
He was not a man who travelled much, but when he did, he had been
accustomed to take her along. On one occasion recently a local
aldermanic junket had been arranged to visit Philadelphia- a junket
that was to last ten days. Hurstwood had been invited.
"Nobody knows us down there," said one, a gentleman whose face was a
slight improvement over gross ignorance and sensuality. He always wore
a silk hat of most imposing proportions. "We can have a good time."
His left eye moved with just the semblance of a wink. "You want to
come along, George."
The next day Hurstwood announced his intention to his wife.
"I'm going away, Julia," he said, "for a few days."
"Where?" she asked, looking up.
"To Philadelphia, on business."
She looked at him consciously, expecting something else.
"I'll have to leave you behind this time."
"All right," she replied, but he could see that she was thinking
that it was a curious thing. Before he went she asked him a few more
questions, and that irritated him. He began to feel that she was a
disagreeable attachment.
On this trip he enjoyed himself thoroughly, and when it was over
he was sorry to get back. He was not willingly a prevaricator, and
hated thoroughly to make explanations concerning it. The whole
incident was glossed over with general remarks, but Mrs. Hurstwood
gave the subject considerable thought. She drove out more, dressed
better, and attended theatres freely to make up for it.
Such an atmosphere could hardly come under the category of home
life. It ran along by force of habit, by force of conventional
opinion. With the lapse of time it must necessarily become dryer and
dryer- must eventually be tinder, easily lighted and destroyed.
Chapter X.
THE COUNSEL OF WINTER: FORTUNE'S AMBASSADOR CALLS
In the light of the world's attitude toward woman and her duties,
the nature of Carrie's mental state deserves consideration. Actions
such as hers are measured by an arbitrary scale. Society possesses a
conventional standard whereby it judges all things. All men should
be good, all women virtuous. Wherefore, villain, hast thou failed?
For all the liberal analysis of Spencer and our modern
naturalistic philosophers, we have but an infantile perception of
morals. There is more in the subject than mere conformity to a law
of evolution. It is yet deeper than conformity to things of earth
alone. It is more involved than we, as yet, perceive. Answer, first,
why the heart thrills; explain wherefore some plaintive note goes
wandering about the world, undying; make clear the rose's subtle
alchemy evolving its ruddy lamp in light and rain. In the essence of
these facts lie the first principles of morals.
"Oh," thought Drouet, "how delicious is my conquest."
"Ah," thought Carrie, with mournful misgivings, "what is it I have
lost?"
Before this world-old proposition we stand, serious, interested,
confused; endeavouring to evolve the true theory of morals- the true
answer to what is right.
In the view of a certain stratum of society, Carrie was
comfortably established- in the eyes of the starveling, beaten by
every wind and gusty sheet of rain, she was safe in a halcyon harbour.
Drouet had taken three rooms, furnished, in Ogden Place, facing
Union Park, on the West Side. That was a little, green-carpeted
breathing spot, than which, to-day, there is nothing more beautiful in
Chicago. It afforded a vista pleasant to contemplate. The best room
looked out upon the lawn of the park, now sear and brown, where a
little lake lay sheltered. Over the bare limbs of the trees, which now
swayed in the wintry wind, rose the steeple of the Union Park
Congregational Church, and far off the towers of several others.
The rooms were comfortably enough furnished. There was a good
Brussels carpet on the floor, rich in dull red and lemon shades, and
representing large jardinieres filled with gorgeous, impossible
flowers. There was a large pier-glass mirror between the two
windows. A large, soft, green, plush-covered couch occupied one
corner, and several rocking-chairs were set about. Some pictures,
several rugs, a few small pieces of bric-a-brac, and the tale of
contents is told.
In the bedroom, off the front room, was Carrie's trunk, bought by
Drouet, and in the wardrobe built into the wall quite an array of
clothing- more than she had ever possessed before, and of very
becoming designs. There was a third room for possible use as a
kitchen, where Drouet had Carrie establish a little portable gas stove
for the preparation of small lunches, oysters, Welsh rarebits, and the
like, of which he was exceedingly fond; and, lastly, a bath. The whole
place was cosey, in that it was lighted by gas and heated by furnace
registers, possessing also a small grate, set with an asbestos back, a
method of cheerful warming which was then first coming into use. By
her industry and natural love of order, which now developed, the place
maintained an air pleasing in the extreme.
Here, then, was Carrie, established in a pleasant fashion, free of
certain difficulties which most ominously confronted her, laden with
many new ones which were of a mental order, and altogether so turned
about in all of her earthly relationships that she might well have
been a new and different individual. She looked into her glass and saw
a prettier Carrie than she had seen before; she looked into her
mind, a mirror prepared of her own and the world's opinions, and saw a
worse. Between these two images she wavered, hesitating which to
believe.
"My, but you're a little beauty," Drouet was wont to exclaim to her.
She would look at him with large, pleased eyes.
"You know it, don't you?" he would continue.
"Oh, I don't know," she would reply, feeling delight in the fact
that one should think so, hesitating to believe, though she really
did, that she was vain enough to think so much of herself.
Her conscience, however, was not a Drouet, interested to praise.
There she heard a different voice, with which she argued, pleaded,
excused. It was no just and sapient counsellor, in its last
analysis. It was only an average little conscience, a thing which
represented the world, her past environment, habit, convention, in a
confused way. With it, the voice of the people was truly the voice
of God.
"Oh, thou failure!" said the voice.
"Why?" she questioned.
"Look at those about," came the whispered answer. "Look at those who
are good. How would they scorn to do what you have done. Look at the
good girls; how will they draw away from such as you when they know
you have been weak. You had not tried before you failed."
It was when Carrie was alone, looking out across the park, that
she would be listening to this. It would come infrequently- when
something else did not interfere, when the pleasant side was not too
apparent, when Drouet was not there. It was somewhat clear in
utterance at first, but never wholly convincing. There was always an
answer, always the December days threatened. She was alone; she was
desireful; she was fearful of the whistling wind. The voice of want
made answer for her.
Once the bright days of summer pass by, a city takes on that
sombre garb of grey, wrapt in which it goes about its labours during
the long winter. Its endless buildings look grey, its sky and its
streets assume a sombre hue; the scattered, leafless trees and
wind-blown dust and paper but add to the general solemnity of
colour. There seems to be something in the chill breezes which
scurry through the long, narrow thoroughfares productive of rueful
thoughts. Not poets alone, nor artists, nor that superior order of
mind which arrogates to itself all refinement, feel this, but dogs and
all men. These feel as much as the poet, though they have not the same
power of expression. The sparrow upon the wire, the cat in the
doorway, the dray horse tugging his weary load, feel the long, keen
breaths of winter. It strikes to the heart of all life, animate and
inanimate. If it were not for the artificial fires of merriment, the
rush of profit-seeking trade, and pleasure-selling amusements; if
the various merchants failed to make the customary display within
and without their establishments; if our streets were not strung
with signs of gorgeous hues and thronged with hurrying purchasers,
we would quickly discover how firmly the chill hand of winter lays
upon the heart; how dispiriting are the days during which the sun
withholds a portion of our allowance of light and warmth. We are
more dependent upon these things than is often thought. We are insects
produced by heat, and pass without it.
In the drag of such a grey day the secret voice would reassert
itself, feebly and more feebly.
Such mental conflict was not always uppermost. Carrie was not by any
means a gloomy soul. More, she had not the mind to get firm hold
upon a definite truth. When she could not find her way out of the
labyrinth of ill-logic which thought upon the subject created, she
would turn away entirely.
Drouet, all the time, was conducting himself in a model way for
one of his sort. He took her about a great deal, spent money upon her,
and when he travelled took her with him. There were times when she
would be alone for two or three days, while he made the shorter
circuits of his business, but, as a rule, she saw a great deal of him.
"Say, Carrie," he said one morning, shortly after they had so
established themselves, "I've invited my friend Hurstwood to come
out some day and spend the evening with us."
"Who is he?" asked Carrie, doubtfully.
"Oh, he's a nice man. He's manager of Fitzgerald and Moy's."
"What's that?" said Carrie.
"The finest resort in town. It's a way-up, swell place."
Carrie puzzled a moment. She was wondering what Drouet had told him,
what her attitude would be.
"That's all right," said Drouet, feeling her thought. "He doesn't
know anything. You're Mrs. Drouet now."
There was something about this which struck Carrie as slightly
inconsiderate. She could see that Drouet did not have the keenest
sensibilities.
"Why don't we get married?" she inquired, thinking of the voluble
promises he had made.
"Well, we will," he said, "just as soon as I get this little deal of
mine closed up."
He was referring to some property which he said he had, and which
required so much attention, adjustment, and what not, that somehow
or other it interfered with his free moral, personal actions.
"Just as soon as I get back from my Denver trip in January we'll
do it."
Carrie accepted this as basis for hope- it was a sort of salve to
her conscience, a pleasant way out. Under the circumstances, things
would be righted. Her actions would be justified.
She really was not enamoured of Drouet. She was more clever than he.
In a dim way, she was beginning to see where he lacked. If it had
not been for this, if she had not been able to measure and judge him
in a way, she would have been worse off than she was. She would have
adored him. She would have been utterly wretched in her fear of not
gaining his affection, of losing his interest, of being swept away and
left without an anchorage. As it was, she wavered a little, slightly
anxious, at first, to gain him completely, but later feeling at ease
in waiting. She was not exactly sure what she thought of him- what she
wanted to do.
When Hurstwood called, she met a man who was more clever than Drouet
in a hundred ways. He paid that peculiar deference to women which
every member of the sex appreciates. He was not overawed, he was not
overbold. His great charm was attentiveness. Schooled in winning those
birds of fine feather among his own sex, the merchants and
professionals who visited his resort, he could use even greater tact
when endeavouring to prove agreeable to some one who charmed him. In a
pretty woman of any refinement of feeling whatsoever he found his
greatest incentive. He was mild, placid, assured, giving the
impression that he wished to be of service only- to do something which
would make the lady more pleased.
Drouet had ability in this line himself when the game was worth
the candle, but he was too much the egotist to reach the polish
which Hurstwood possessed. He was too buoyant, too full of ruddy life,
too assured. He succeeded with many who were not quite schooled in the
art of love. He failed dismally where the woman was slightly
experienced and possessed innate refinement. In the case of Carrie
he found a woman who was all of the latter, but none of the former. He
was lucky in the fact that opportunity tumbled into his lap, as it
were. A few years later, with a little more experience, the
slightest tide of success, and he had not been able to approach Carrie
at all.
"You ought to have a piano here, Drouet," said Hurstwood, smiling at
Carrie, on the evening in question, "so that your wife could play."
Drouet had not thought of that.
"So we ought," he observed readily.
"Oh, I don't play," ventured Carrie.
"It isn't very difficult," returned Hurstwood. "You could do very
well in a few weeks."
He was in the best form for entertaining this evening. His clothes
were particularly new and rich in appearance. The coat lapels stood
out with that medium stiffness which excellent cloth possesses. The
vest was of a rich Scotch plaid, set with a double row of round
mother-of-pearl buttons. His cravat was a shiny combination of
silken threads, not loud, not inconspicuous. What he wore did not
strike the eye so forcibly as that which Drouet had on, but Carrie
could see the elegance of the material. Hurstwood's shoes were of
soft, black calf, polished only to a dull shine. Drouet wore patent
leather, but Carrie could not help feeling that there was a
distinction in favour of the soft leather, where all else was so rich.
She noticed these things almost unconsciously. They were things
which would naturally flow from the situation. She was used to
Drouet's appearance.
"Suppose we have a little game of euchre?" suggested Hurstwood,
after a light round of conversation. He was rather dexterous in
avoiding everything that would suggest that he knew anything of
Carrie's past. He kept away from personalities altogether, and
confined himself to those things which did not concern individuals
at all. By his manner, he put Carrie at her ease, and by his deference
and pleasantries he amused her. He pretended to be seriously
interested in all she said.
"I don't know how to play," said Carrie.
"Charlie, you are neglecting a part of your duty," he observed to
Drouet most affably. "Between us, though," he went on, "we can show
you."
By his tact he made Drouet feel that he admired his choice. There
was something in his manner that showed that he was pleased to be
there. Drouet felt really closer to him than ever before. It gave
him more respect for Carrie. Her appearance came into a new light,
under Hurstwood's appreciation. The situation livened considerably.
"Now, let me see," said Hurstwood, looking over Carrie's shoulder
very deferentially. "What have you?" He studied for a moment.
"That's rather good," he said.
"You're lucky. Now, I'll show you how to trounce your husband. You
take my advice."
"Here," said Drouet, "if you two are going to scheme together, I
won't stand a ghost of a show. Hurstwood's a regular sharp."
"No, it's your wife. She brings me luck. Why shouldn't she win?"
Carrie looked gratefully at Hurstwood, and smiled at Drouet. The
former took the air of a mere friend. He was simply there to enjoy
himself. Anything that Carrie did was pleasing to him, nothing more.
"There," he said, holding back one of his own good cards, and giving
Carrie a chance to take a trick. "I count that clever playing for a
beginner."
The latter laughed gleefully as she saw the hand coming her way.
It was as if she were invincible when Hurstwood helped her.
He did not look at her often. When he did, it was with a mild
light in his eye. Not a shade was there of anything save geniality and
kindness. He took back the shifty, clever gleam, and replaced it
with one of innocence. Carrie could not guess but that it was pleasure
with him in the immediate thing. She felt that he considered she was
doing a great deal.
"It's unfair to let such playing go without earning something," he
said after a time, slipping his finger into the little coin pocket
of his coat. "Let's play for dimes."
"All right," said Drouet, fishing for bills.
Hurstwood was quicker. His fingers were full of new ten-cent pieces.
"Here we are," he said, supplying each one with a little stack.
"Oh, this is gambling," smiled Carrie. "It's bad."
"No," said Drouet, "only fun. If you never play for more than
that, you will go to Heaven."
"Don't you moralise," said Hurstwood to Carrie gently, "until you
see what becomes of the money."
Drouet smiled.
"If your husband gets them, he'll tell you how bad it is."
Drouet laughed loud.
There was such an ingratiating tone about Hurstwood's voice, the
insinuation was so perceptible that even Carrie got the humour of it.
"When do you leave?" said Hurstwood to Drouet.
"On Wednesday," he replied.
"It's rather hard to have your husband running about like that,
isn't it?" said Hurstwood, addressing Carrie.
"She's going along with me this time," said Drouet.
"You must both go with me to the theatre before you go."
"Certainly," said Drouet, "Eh, Carrie?"
"I'd like it ever so much," she replied.
Hurstwood did his best to see that Carrie won the money. He rejoiced
in her success, kept counting her winnings, and finally gathered and
put them in her extended hand. They spread a little lunch, at which he
served the wine, and afterwards he used fine tact in going.
"Now," he said, addressing first Carrie and then Drouet with his
eyes, "you must be ready at 7:30. I'll come and get you."
They went with him to the door and there was his cab waiting, its
red lamps gleaming cheerfully in the shadow.
"Now," he observed to Drouet, with a tone of good-fellowship,
"when you leave your wife alone, you must let me show her around a
little. It will break up her loneliness."
"Sure," said Drouet, quite pleased at the attention shown.
"You're so kind," observed Carrie.
"Not at all," said Hurstwood, "I would want your husband to do as
much for me."
He smiled and went lightly away. Carrie was thoroughly impressed.
She had never come in contact with such grace. As for Drouet, he was
equally pleased.
"There's a nice man," he remarked to Carrie, as they returned to
their cosey chamber. "A good friend of mine, too."
"He seems to be," said Carrie.
Chapter XI.
THE PERSUASION OF FASHION: FEELING GUARDS O'ER ITS OWN
Carrie was an apt student of fortune's ways- of fortune's
superficialities. Seeing a thing, she would immediately set to
inquiring how she would look, properly related to it. Be it known that
this is not fine feeling, it is not wisdom. The greatest minds are not
so afflicted; and, on the contrary the lowest order of mind is not
so disturbed. Fine clothes to her were a vast persuasion; they spoke
tenderly and Jesuitically for themselves. When she came within earshot
of their pleading, desire in her bent a willing ear. The voice of
the so-called inanimate! Who shall translate for us the language of
the stones?
"My dear," said the lace collar she secured from Partridge's, "I fit
you beautifully; don't give me up."
"Ah, such little feet," said the leather of the soft new shoes; "how
effectively I cover them. What a pity they should ever want my aid."
Once these things were in her hand, on her person, she might dream
of giving them up; the method by which they came might intrude
itself so forcibly that she would ache to be rid of the thought of it,
but she would not give them up. "Put on the old clothes- that torn
pair of shoes," was called to her by her conscience in vain. She could
possibly have conquered the fear of hunger and gone back; the
thought of hard work and a narrow round of suffering would, under
the last pressure of conscience, have yielded, but spoil her
appearance?- be old-clothed and poor-appearing?- never!
Drouet heightened her opinion on this and allied subjects in such
a manner as to weaken her power of resisting their influence. It is so
easy to do this when the thing opined is in the line of what we
desire. In his hearty way, he insisted upon her good looks. He
looked at her admiringly, and she took it at its full value. Under the
circumstances, she did not need to carry herself as pretty women do.
She picked that knowledge up fast enough for herself. Drouet had a
habit, characteristic of his kind, of looking after stylishly
dressed or pretty women on the street and remarking upon them. He
had just enough of the feminine love of dress to be a good judge-
not of intellect, but of clothes. He saw how they set their little
feet, how they carried their chins, with what grace and sinuosity they
swung their bodies. A dainty, self-conscious swaying of the hips by
a woman was to him as alluring as the glint of rare wine to a toper.
He would turn and follow the disappearing vision with his eyes. He
would thrill as a child with the unhindered passion that was in him.
He loved the thing that women love in themselves, grace. At this,
their own shrine, he knelt with them, an ardent devotee.
"Did you see that woman who went by just now?" he said to Carrie
on the first day they took a walk together. "Fine stepper, wasn't
she?"
Carrie looked, and observed the grace commended.
"Yes, she is," she returned, cheerfully, a little suggestion of
possible defect in herself awakening in her mind. If that was so fine,
she must look at it more closely. Instinctively, she felt a desire
to imitate it. Surely she could do that too.
When one of her mind sees many things emphasized and reemphasized
and admired, she gathers the logic of it and applies accordingly.
Drouet was not shrewd enough to see that this was not tactful. He
could not see that it would be better to make her feel that she was
competing with herself, not others better than herself. He would not
have done it with an older, wiser woman, but in Carrie he saw only the
novice. Less clever than she, he was naturally unable to comprehend
her sensibility. He went on educating and wounding her, a thing rather
foolish in one whose admiration for his pupil and victim was apt to
grow.
Carrie took the instructions affably. She saw what Drouet liked;
in a vague way she saw where he was weak. It lessens a woman's opinion
of a man when she learns that his admiration is so pointedly and
generously distributed. She sees but one object of supreme
compliment in this world, and that is herself. If a man is to
succeed with many women, he must be all in all to each.
In her own apartments Carrie saw things which were lessons in the
same school.
In the same house with her lived an official of one of the theatres,
Mr. Frank A. Hale, manager of the Standard, and his wife, a
pleasing-looking brunette of thirty-five. They were people of a sort
very common in America today, who live respectably from hand to mouth.
Hale received a salary of forty-five dollars a week. His wife, quite
attractive, affected the feeling of youth, and objected to that sort
of home life which means the care of a house and the raising of a
family. Like Drouet and Carrie, they also occupied three rooms on
the floor above.
Not long after she arrived Mrs. Hale established social relations
with her, and together they went about. For a long time this was her
only companionship, and the gossip of the manager's wife formed the
medium through which she saw the world. Such trivialities, such
praises of wealth, such conventional expression of morals as sifted
through this passive creature's mind, fell upon Carrie and for the
while confused her.
On the other hand, her own feelings were a corrective influence. The
constant drag to something better was not to be denied. By those
things which address the heart was she steadily recalled. In the
apartments across the hall were a young girl and her mother. They were
from Evansville, Indiana, the wife and daughter of a railroad
treasurer. The daughter was here to study music, the mother to keep
her company.
Carrie did not make their acquaintance, but she saw the daughter
coming in and going out. A few times she had seen her at the piano
in the parlour, and not infrequently had heard her play. This young
woman was particularly dressy for her station, and wore a jewelled
ring or two which flashed upon her white fingers as she played.
Now Carrie was affected by music. Her nervous composition
responded to certain strains, much as certain strings of a harp
vibrate when a corresponding key of a piano is struck. She was
delicately moulded in sentiment, and answered with vague ruminations
to certain wistful chords. They awoke longings for those things
which she did not have. They caused her to cling closer to things
she possessed. One short song the young lady played in a most
soulful and tender mood. Carrie heard it through the open door from
the parlour below. It was at that hour between afternoon and night
when, for the idle, the wanderer, things are apt to take on a
wistful aspect. The mind wanders forth on far journeys and returns
with sheaves of withered and departed joys. Carrie sat at her window
looking out. Drouet had been away since ten in the morning. She had
amused herself with a walk, a book by Bertha M. Clay which Drouet
had left there, though she did not wholly enjoy the latter, and by
changing her dress for the evening. Now she sat looking out across the
park as wistful and depressed as the nature which craves variety and
life can be under such circumstances. As she contemplated her new
state, the strain from the parlour below stole upward. With it her
thoughts became coloured and enmeshed. She reverted to the things
which were best and saddest within the small limit of her
experience. She became for the moment a repentant.
While she was in this mood Drouet came in, bringing with him an
entirely different atmosphere. It was dusk and Carrie had neglected to
light the lamp. The fire in the grate, too, had burned low.
"Where are you, Cad?" he said, using a pet name he had given her.
"Here," she answered.
There was something delicate and lonely in her voice, but he could
not hear it. He had not the poetry in him that would seek a woman
out under such circumstances and console her for the tragedy of
life. Instead, he struck a match and lighted the gas.
"Hello," he exclaimed, "you've been crying."
Her eyes were still wet with a few vague tears.
"Pshaw," he said, "you don't want to do that."
He took her hand, feeling in his good-natured egotism that it was
probably lack of his presence which had made her lonely.
"Come on, now," he went on; "it's all right. Let's waltz a little to
that music."
He could not have introduced a more incongruous proposition. It made
clear to Carrie that he could not sympathise with her. She could not
have framed thoughts which would have expressed his defect or made
clear the difference between them, but she felt it. It was his first
great mistake.
What Drouet said about the girl's grace, as she tripped out evenings
accompanied by her mother, caused Carrie to perceive the nature and
value of those little modish ways which women adopt when they would
presume to be something. She looked in the mirror and pursed up her
lips, accompanying it with a little toss of the head, as she had
seen the railroad treasurer's daughter do. She caught up her skirts
with an easy swing, for had not Drouet remarked that in her and
several others, and Carrie was naturally imitative. She began to get
the hang of those little things which the pretty woman who has
vanity invariably adopts. In short, her knowledge of grace doubled,
and with it her appearance changed. She became a girl of
considerable taste.
Drouet noticed this. He saw the new bow in her hair and the new
way of arranging her locks which she affected one morning.
"You look fine that way, Cad," he said.
"Do I?" she replied, sweetly. It made her try for other effects that
selfsame day.
She used her feet less heavily, a thing that was brought about by
her attempting to imitate the treasurer's daughter's graceful
carriage. How much influence the presence of that young woman in the
same house had upon her it would be difficult to say. But, because
of all these things, when Hurstwood called he had found a young
woman who was much more than the Carrie to whom Drouet had first
spoken. The primary defects of dress and manner had passed. She was
pretty, graceful, rich in the timidity born of uncertainty, and with a
something childlike in her large eyes which captured the fancy of this
starched and conventional poser among men. It was the ancient
attraction of the fresh for the stale. If there was a touch of
appreciation left in him for the bloom and unsophistication which is
the charm of youth, it rekindled now. He looked into her pretty face
and felt the subtle waves of young life radiating therefrom. In that
large clear eye he could see nothing that his blase nature could
understand as guile. The little vanity, if he could have perceived
it there, would have touched him as a pleasant thing.
"I wonder," he said, as he rode away in his cab, "how Drouet came to
win her."
He gave her credit for feelings superior to Drouet at the first
glance.
The cab plopped along between the far-receding lines of gas lamps on
either hand. He folded his gloved hands and saw only the lighted
chamber and Carrie's face. He was pondering over the delight of
youthful beauty.
"I'll have a bouquet for her," he thought. "Drouet won't mind."
He never for a moment concealed the fact of her attraction for
himself. He troubled himself not at all about Drouet's priority. He
was merely floating those gossamer threads of thought which, like
the spider's, he hoped would lay hold somewhere. He did not know, he
could not guess, what the result would be.
A few weeks later Drouet, in his peregrinations, encountered one
of his well-dressed lady acquaintances in Chicago on his return from a
short trip to Omaha. He had intended to hurry out to Ogden Place and
surprise Carrie, but now he fell into an interesting conversation
and soon modified his original intention.
"Let's go to dinner," he said, little recking any chance meeting
which might trouble his way.
"Certainly," said his companion.
They visited one of the better restaurants for a social chat. It was
five in the afternoon when they met; it was seven-thirty before the
last bone was picked.
Drouet was just finishing a little incident he was relating, and his
face was expanding into a smile, when Hurstwood's eye caught his
own. The latter had come in with several friends, and, seeing Drouet
and some woman, not Carrie, drew his own conclusion.
"Ah, the rascal," he thought, and then, with a touch of righteous
sympathy, "that's pretty hard on the little girl."
Drouet jumped from one easy thought to another as he caught
Hurstwood's eye. He felt but very little misgiving, until he saw
that Hurstwood was cautiously pretending not to see. Then some of
the latter's impression forced itself upon him. He thought of Carrie
and their last meeting. By George, he would have to explain this to
Hurstwood. Such a chance half-hour with an old friend must not have
anything more attached to it than it really warranted.
For the first time he was troubled. Here was a moral complication of
which he could not possibly get the ends. Hurstwood would laugh at him
for being a fickle boy. He would laugh with Hurstwood. Carrie would
never hear, his present companion at table would never know, and yet
he could not help feeling that he was getting the worst of it- there
was some faint stigma attached, and he was not guilty. He broke up the
dinner by becoming dull, and saw his companion on her car. Then he
went home.
"He hasn't talked to me about any of these later flames," thought
Hurstwood to himself. "He thinks I think he cares for the girl out
there."
"He ought not to think I'm knocking around, since I have just
introduced him out there," thought Drouet.
"I saw you," Hurstwood said, genially, the next time Drouet
drifted in to his polished resort, from which he could not stay
away. He raised his forefinger indicatively, as parents do to
children.
"An old acquaintance of mine that I ran into just as I was coming up
from the station," explained Drouet. "She used to be quite a beauty."
"Still attracts a little, eh?" returned the other, affecting to
jest.
"Oh, no," said Drouet, "just couldn't escape her this time."
"How long are you here?" asked Hurstwood.
"Only a few days."
"You must bring the girl down and take dinner with me," he said.
"I'm afraid you keep her cooped up out there. I'll get a box for Joe
Jefferson."
"Not me," answered the drummer. "Sure I'll come."
This pleased Hurstwood immensely. He gave Drouet no credit for any
feelings toward Carrie whatever. He envied him, and now, as he
looked at the well-dressed, jolly salesman, whom he so much liked, the
gleam of the rival glowed in his eye. He began to "size up" Drouet
from the standpoints of wit and fascination. He began to look to see
where he was weak. There was no disputing that, whatever he might
think of him as a good fellow, he felt a certain amount of contempt
for him as a lover. He could hood-wink him all right. Why, if he would
just let Carrie see one such little incident as that of Thursday, it
would settle the matter. He ran on in thought, almost exulting, the
while he laughed and chatted, and Drouet felt nothing. He had no power
of analysing the glance and the atmosphere of a man like Hurstwood. He
stood and smiled and accepted the invitation while his friend examined
him with the eye of a hawk.
The object of this peculiarly involved comedy was not thinking of
either. She was busy adjusting her thoughts and feelings to newer
conditions, and was not in danger of suffering disturbing pangs from
either quarter.
One evening Drouet found her dressing herself before the glass.
"Cad," said he, catching her, "I believe you're getting vain."
"Nothing of the kind," she returned, smiling.
"Well, you're mighty pretty," he went on, slipping his arm around
her. "Put on that navy-blue dress of yours and I'll take you to the
show."
"Oh, I've promised Mrs. Hale to go with her to the Exposition
to-night," she returned, apologetically.
"You did, eh?" he said, studying the situation abstractedly. "I
wouldn't care to go to that myself."
"Well, I don't know," answered Carrie, puzzling, but not offering to
break her promise in his favour.
Just then a knock came at their door and the maid-serveant handed
a letter in.
"He says there's an answer expected," she explained.
"It's from Hurstwood," said Drouet, noting the superscription as
he tore it open.
"You are to come down and see Joe Jefferson with me tonight," it ran
in part. "It's my turn, as we agreed the other day. All other bets are
off."
"Well, what do you say to this?" asked Drouet, innocently, while
Carrie's mind bubbled with favourable replies.
"You had better decide, Charlie," she said, reservedly.
"I guess we had better go, if you can break that engagement
upstairs," said Drouet.
"Oh, I can," returned Carrie without thinking.
Drouet selected writing paper while Carrie went to change her dress.
She hardly explained to herself why this latest invitation appealed to
her most.
"Shall I wear my hair as I did yesterday?" she asked, as she came
out with several articles of apparel pending.
"Sure," he returned, pleasantly.
She was relieved to see that he felt nothing. She did not credit her
willingness to go to any fascination Hurstwood held for her. It seemed
that the combination of Hurstwood, Drouet, and herself was more
agreeable than anything else that had been suggested. She arrayed
herself most carefully and they started off, extending excuses
upstairs.
"I say," said Hurstwood, as they came up the theatre lobby, "we
are exceedingly charming this evening."
Carrie fluttered under his approving glance.
"Now, then," he said, leading the way up the foyer into the theatre.
If ever there was dressiness it was here. It was the personification
of the old term spick and span.
"Did you ever see Jefferson?" he questioned, as he leaned toward
Carrie in the box.
"I never did," she returned.
"He's delightful, delightful," he went on, giving the commonplace
rendition of approval which such men know. He sent Drouet after a
programme, and then discoursed to Carrie concerning Jefferson as he
had heard of him. The former was pleased beyond expression, and was
really hypnotised by the environment, the trappings of the box, the
elegance of her companion. Several times their eyes accidentally
met, and then there poured into hers such a flood of feeling as she
had never before experienced. She could not for the moment explain it,
for in the next glance or the next move of the hand there was
seeming indifference, mingled only with the kindest attention.
Drouet shared in the conversation, but he was almost dull in
comparison. Hurstwood entertained them both, and now it was driven
into Carrie's mind that here was the superior man. She instinctively
felt that he was stronger and higher, and yet withal so simple. By the
end of the third act she was sure that Drouet was only a kindly
soul, but otherwise defective. He sank every moment in her
estimation by the strong comparison.
"I have had such a nice time," said Carrie, when it was all over and
they were coming out.
"Yes, indeed," added Drouet, who was not in the least aware that a
battle had been fought and his defences weakened. He was like the
Emperor of China, who sat glorying in himself, unaware that his
fairest provinces were being wrested from him.
"Well, you have saved me a dreary evening," returned Hurstwood.
"Good-night."
He took Carrie's little hand, and a current of feeling swept from
one to the other.
"I'm so tired," said Carrie, leaning back in the car when Drouet
began to talk.
"Well, you rest a little while I smoke," he said, rising, and then
he foolishly went to the forward platform of the car and left the game
as it stood.
Chapter XII.
OF THE LAMPS OF THE MANSIONS: THE AMBASSADOR'S PLEA
Mrs. Hurstwood was not aware of any of her husband's moral
defections, though she might readily have suspected his tendencies,
which she well understood. She was a woman upon whose action under
provocation you could never count. Hurstwood, for one, had not the
slightest idea of what she would do under certain circumstances. He
had never seen her thoroughly aroused. In fact, she was not a woman
who would fly into a passion. She had too little faith in mankind
not to know that they were erring. She was too calculating to
jeopardise any advantage she might gain in the way of information by
fruitless clamour. Her wrath would never wreak itself in one fell
blow. She would wait and brood, studying the details and adding to
them until her power might be commensurate with her desire for
revenge. At the same time, she would not delay to inflict any
injury, big or little, which would wound the object of her revenge and
still leave him uncertain as to the source of the evil. She was a
cold, self-centered woman, with many a thought of her own which
never found expression, not even by so much as the glint of an eye.
Hurstwood felt some of this in her nature, though he did not
actually perceive it. He dwelt with her in peace and some
satisfaction. He did not fear her in the least- there was no cause for
it. She still took a faint pride in him, which was augmented by her
desire to have her social integrity maintained. She was secretly
somewhat pleased by the fact that much of her husband's property was
in her name, a precaution which Hurstwood had taken when his home
interests were somewhat more alluring than at present. His wife had
not the slightest reason to feel that anything would ever go amiss
with their household, and yet the shadows which run before gave her
a thought of the good of it now and then. She was in a position to
become refractory with considerable advantage, and Hurstwood conducted
himself circumspectly because he felt that he could not be sure of
anything once she became dissatisfied.
It so happened that on the night when Hurstwood, Carrie, and
Drouet were in the box at McVickar's, George, Jr., was in the sixth
row of the parquet with the daughter of H. B. Carmichael, the third
partner of a wholesale drygoods house of that city. Hurstwood did
not see his son, for he sat, as was his wont, as far back as possible,
leaving himself just partially visible, when he bent forward, to those
within the first six rows in question. It was his wont to sit this way
in every theatre- to make his personality as inconspicuous as possible
where it would be no advantage to him to have it otherwise.
He never moved but what, if there was any danger of his conduct
being misconstrued or ill-reported, he looked carefully about him
and counted the cost of every inch of conspicuity.
The next morning at breakfast his son said:
"I saw you, Governor, last night."
"Were you at McVickar's?" said Hurstwood, with the best grace in the
world.
"Yes," said young George.
"Who with?"
"Miss Carmichael."
Mrs. Hurstwood directed an inquiring glance at her husband, but
could not judge from his appearance whether it was any more than a
casual look into the theatre which was referred to.
"How was the play?" she inquired.
"Very good," returned Hurstwood, "only it's the same old thing, 'Rip
Van Winkle'."
"Whom did you go with?" queried his wife, with assumed indifference.
"Charlie Drouet and his wife. They are friends of Moy's, visiting
here."
Owing to the peculiar nature of his position, such a disclosure as
this would ordinarily create no difficulty. His wife took it for
granted that his situation called for certain social movements in
which she might not be included. But of late he had pleaded office
duty on several occasions when his wife asked for his company to any
evening entertainment. He had done so in regard to the very evening in
question only the morning before.
"I thought you were going to be busy," she remarked, very carefully.
"So I was," he exclaimed. "I couldn't help the interruption, but I
made up for it afterward by working until two."
This settled the discussion for the time being, but there was a
residue of opinion which was not satisfactory. There was no time at
which the claims of his wife could have been more unsatisfactorily
pushed. For years he had been steadily modifying his matrimonial
devotion, and found her company dull. Now that a new light shone
upon the horizon, this older luminary paled in the west. He was
satisfied to turn his face away entirely, and any call to look back
was irksome.
She, on the contrary, was not at all inclined to accept anything
less than a complete fulfilment of the letter of their relationship,
though the spirit might be wanting.
"We are coming down town this afternoon," she remarked, a few days
later. "I want you to come over to Kinsley's and meet Mr. Phillips and
his wife. They're stopping at the Tremont, and we're going to show
them around a little."
After the occurrence of Wednesday, he could not refuse, though the
Phillips were about as uninteresting as vanity and ignorance could
make them. He agreed, but it was with short grace. He was angry when
he left the house.
"I'll put a stop to this," he thought. "I'm not going to be bothered
fooling around with visitors when I have work to do."
Not long after this Mrs. Hurstwood came with a similar
proposition, only it was to a matinee this time.
"My dear," he returned, "I haven't time. I'm too busy."
"You find time to go with other people, though," she replied, with
considerable irritation.
"Nothing of the kind," he answered. "I can't avoid business
relations, and that's all there is to it."
"Well, never mind," she exclaimed. Her lips tightened. The feeling
of mutual antagonism was increased.
On the other hand, his interest in Drouet's little shop-girl grew in
an almost evenly balanced proportion. That young lady, under the
stress of her situation and the tutelage of her new friend, changed
effectively. She had the aptitude of the struggler who seeks
emancipation. The glow of a more showy life was not lost upon her. She
did not grow in knowledge so much as she awakened in the matter of
desire. Mrs. Hale's extended harangues upon the subjects of wealth and
position taught her to distinguish between degrees of wealth.
Mrs. Hale loved to drive in the afternoon in the sun when it was
fine, and to satisfy her soul with a sight of those mansions and lawns
which she could not afford. On the North Side had been erected a
number of elegant mansions along what is now known as the North
Shore Drive. The present lake wall of stone and granitoid was not then
in place, but the road had been well laid out, the intermediate spaces
of lawn were lovely to look upon, and the houses were thoroughly new
and imposing. When the winter season had passed and the first fine
days of the early spring appeared, Mrs. Hale secured a buggy for an
afternoon and invited Carrie. They rode first through Lincoln Park and
on far out towards Evanston, turning back at four and arriving at
the north end of the Shore Drive at about five o'clock. At this time
of year the days are still comparatively short, and the shadows of the
evening were beginning to settle down upon the great city. Lamps
were beginning to burn with that mellow radiance which seems almost
watery and translucent to the eye. There was a softness in the air
which speaks with an infinite delicacy of feeling to the flesh as well
as to the soul. Carrie felt that it was a lovely day. She was
ripened by it in spirit for many suggestions. As they drove along
the smooth pavement an occasional carriage passed. She saw one stop
and the footman dismount, opening the door for a gentleman who
seemed to be leisurely returning from some afternoon pleasure.
Across the broad lawns, now first freshening into green, she saw lamps
faintly glowing upon rich interiors. Now it was but a chair, now a
table, now an ornate corner, which met her eye, but it appealed to her
as almost nothing else could. Such childish fancies as she had had
of fairy palaces and kingly quarters now came back. She imagined
that across these richly carved entrance-ways, where the globed and
crystalled lamps shone upon panelled doors set with stained and
designed panes of glass, was neither care nor unsatisfied desire.
She was perfectly certain that here was happiness. If she could but
stroll up yon broad walk, cross that rich entrance-way, which to her
was of the beauty of a jewel, and sweep in grace and luxury to
possession and command- oh! how quickly would sadness flee; how, in an
instant, would the heartache end. She gazed and gazed, wondering,
delighting, longing, and all the while the siren voice of the
unrestful was whispering in her ear.
"If we could have such a home as that," said Mrs. Hale sadly, "how
delightful it would be."
"And yet they do say," said Carrie, "that no one is ever happy."
She had heard so much of the canting philosophy of the grapeless
fox.
"I notice," said Mrs. Hale, "that they all try mighty hard,
though, to take their misery in a mansion."
When she came to her own rooms, Carrie saw their comparative
insignificance. She was not so dull but that she could perceive they
were but three small rooms in a moderately well-furnished
boarding-house. She was not contrasting it now with what she had
had, but what she had so recently seen. The glow of the palatial doors
was still in her eye, the roll of cushioned carriages still in her
ears. What, after all, was Drouet? What was she? At her window, she
thought it over, rocking to and fro, and gazing out across the
lamp-lit park toward the lamp-lit houses on Warren and Ashland
avenues. She was too wrought up to care to go down to eat, too pensive
to do aught but rock and sing. Some old tunes crept to her lips,
and, as she sang them, her heart sank. She longed and longed and
longed. It was now for the old cottage room in Columbia City, now
the mansion upon the Shore Drive, now the fine dress of some lady, now
the elegance of some scene. She was sad beyond measure, and yet
uncertain, wishing, fancying. Finally, it seemed as if all her state
was one of loneliness and forsakenness, and she could scarce refrain
from trembling at the lip. She hummed and hummed as the moments went
by, sitting in the shadow by the window, and was therein as happy,
though she did not perceive it, as she ever would be.
While Carrie was still in this frame of mind, the house-servant
brought up the intelligence that Mr. Hurstwood was in the parlour
asking to see Mr. and Mrs. Drouet.
"I guess he doesn't know that Charlie is out of town," thought
Carrie.
She had seen comparatively little of the manager during the
winter, but had been kept constantly in mind of him by one thing and
another, principally by the strong impression he had made. She was
quite disturbed for the moment as to her appearance, but soon
satisfied herself by the aid of the mirror, and went below.
Hurstwood was in his best form, as usual. He hadn't heard that
Drouet was out of town. He was but slightly affected by the
intelligence, and devoted himself to the more general topics which
would interest Carrie. It was surprising- the ease with which he
conducted a conversation. He was like every man who has had the
advantage of practice and knows he has sympathy. He knew that Carrie
listened to him pleasurably, and, without the least effort, he fell
into a train of observation which absorbed her fancy. He drew up his
chair and modulated his voice to such a degree that what he said
seemed wholly confidential. He confined himself almost exclusively
to his observation of men and pleasures. He had been here and there,
he had seen this and that. Somehow he made Carrie wish to see
similar things, and all the while kept her aware of himself. She could
not shut out the consciousness of his individuality and presence for a
moment. He would raise his eyes slowly in smiling emphasis of
something, and she was fixed by their magnetism. He would draw out,
with the easiest grace, her approval. Once he touched her hand for
emphasis and she only smiled. He seemed to radiate an atmosphere which
suffused her being. He was never dull for a minute, and seemed to make
her clever. At least, she brightened under his influence until all her
best side was exhibited. She felt that she was more clever with him
than with others. At least, he seemed to find so much in her to
applaud. There was not the slightest touch of patronage. Drouet was
full of it.
There had been something so personal, so subtle, in each meeting
between them, both when Drouet was present and when he was absent,
that Carrie could not speak of it without feeling a sense of
difficulty. She was no talker. She could never arrange her thoughts in
fluent order. It was always a matter of feeling with her, strong and
deep. Each time there had been no sentence of importance which she
could relate, and as for the glances and sensations, what woman
would reveal them? Such things had never been between her and
Drouet. As a matter of fact, they could never be. She had been
dominated by distress and the enthusiastic forces of relief which
Drouet represented at an opportune moment when she yielded to him. Now
she was persuaded by secret current feelings which Drouet had never
understood. Hurstwood's glance was as effective as the spoken words of
a lover, and more. They called for no immediate decision, and could
not be answered.
People in general attach too much importance to words. They are
under the illusion that talking effects great results. As a matter
of fact, words are, as a rule, the shallowest portion of all the
argument. They but dimly represent the great surging feelings and
desires which lie behind. When the distraction of the tongue is
removed, the heart listens.
In this conversation she heard, instead of his words, the voices
of the things which he represented. How suave was the counsel of his
appearance! How feelingly did his superior state speak for itself! The
growing desire he felt for her lay upon her spirit as a gentle hand.
She did not need to tremble at all, because it was invisible; she
did not need to worry over what other people would say- what she
herself would say- because it had no tangibility. She was being
pleaded with, persuaded, led into denying old rights and assuming
new ones, and yet there were no words to prove it. Such conversation
as was indulged in held the same relationship to the actual mental
enactments of the twain that the low music of the orchestra does to
the dramatic incident which it is used to cover.
"Have you ever seen the houses along the Lake Shore on the North
Side?" asked Hurstwood.
"Why, I was just over there this afternoon- Mrs. Hale and I.
Aren't they beautiful?"
"They're very fine," he answered.
"Oh, me," said Carrie, pensively. "I wish I could live in such a
place."
"You're not happy," said Hurstwood, slowly, after a slight pause.
He had raised his eyes solemnly and was looking into her own. He
assumed that he had struck a deep chord. Now was a slight chance to
say a word in his own behalf. He leaned over quietly and continued his
steady gaze. He felt the critical character of the period. She
endeavoured to stir, but it was useless. The whole strength of a man's
nature was working. He had good cause to urge him on. He looked and
looked, and the longer the situation lasted the more difficult it
became. The little shop-girl was getting into deep water. She was
letting her few supports float away from her.
"Oh," she said at last, "you mustn't look at me like that."
"I can't help it," he answered.
She relaxed a little and let the situation endure, giving him
strength.
"You are not satisfied with life, are you?"
"No," she answered, weakly.
He saw he was the master of the situation- he felt it. He reached
over and touched her hand.
"You mustn't," she exclaimed, jumping up.
"I didn't intend to," he answered, easily.
She did not run away, as she might have done. She did not
terminate the interview, but he drifted off into a pleasant field of
thought with the readiest grace. Not long after he rose to go, and she
felt that he was in power.
"You mustn't feel bad," he said, kindly; "things will straighten out
in the course of time."
She made no answer, because she could think of nothing to say.
"We are good friends, aren't we?" he said, extending his hand.
"Yes," she answered.
"Not a word, then, until I see you again."
He retained a hold on her hand.
"I can't promise," she said, doubtfully.
"You must be more generous than that," he said, in such a simple way
that she was touched.
"Let's not talk about it any more," she returned.
"All right," he said, brightening.
He went down the steps and into his cab. Carrie closed the door
and ascended into her room. She undid her broad lace collar before the
mirror and unfastened her pretty alligator belt which she had recently
bought.
"I'm getting terrible," she said, honestly affected by a feeling
of trouble and shame. "I don't seem to do anything right."
She unloosed her hair after a time, and let it hang in loose brown
waves. Her mind was going over the events of the evening.
"I don't know," she murmured at last, "what I can do."
"Well," said Hurstwood as he rode away, "she likes me all right;
that I know."
The aroused manager whistled merrily for a good four miles to his
office an old melody that he had not recalled for fifteen years.
Chapter XIII.
HIS CREDENTIALS ACCEPTED: A BABEL OF TONGUES
It was not quite two days after the scene between Carrie and
Hurstwood in the Ogden Place parlour before he again put in his
appearance. He had been thinking almost uninterruptedly of her. Her
leniency had, in a way, inflamed his regard. He felt that he must
succeed with her, and that speedily.
The reason for his interest, not to say fascination, was deeper than
mere desire. It was a flowering out of feelings which had been
withering in dry and almost barren soil for many years. It is probable
that Carrie represented a better order of woman than had ever
attracted him before. He had had no love affair since that which
culminated in his marriage, and since then time and the world had
taught him how raw and erroneous was his original judgment. Whenever
he thought of it, he told himself that, if he had it to do over again,
he would never marry such a woman. At the same time, his experience
with women in general had lessened his respect for the sex. He
maintained a cynical attitude, well grounded on numerous
experiences. Such women as he had known were of nearly one type,
selfish, ignorant, flashy. The wives of his friends were not inspiring
to look upon. His own wife had developed a cold, commonplace nature
which to him was anything but pleasing. What he knew of that
under-world where grovel the beast-men of society (and he knew a great
deal) had hardened his nature. He looked upon most women with
suspicion- a single eye to the utility of beauty and dress. He
followed them with a keen, suggestive glance. At the same time, he was
not so dull but that a good woman commanded his respect. Personally,
he did not attempt to analyse the marvel of a saintly woman. He
would take off his hat, and would silence the light-tongued and the
vicious in her presence- much as the Irish keeper of a Bowery hall
will humble himself before a Sister of Mercy, and pay toll to
charity with a willing and reverent hand. But he would not think
much upon the question of why he did so.
A man in his situation who comes, after a long round of worthless or
hardening experiences, upon a young, unsophisticated, innocent soul,
is apt either to hold aloof, out of a sense of his own remoteness,
or to draw near and become fascinated and elated by his discovery.
It is only by a roundabout process that such men ever do draw near
such a girl. They have no method, no understanding of how to
ingratiate themselves in youthful favour, save when they find virtue
in the toils. If, unfortunately, the fly has got caught in the net,
the spider can come forth and talk business upon its own terms. So
when maidenhood has wandered into the moil of the city, when it is
brought within the circle of the "rounder" and the roue, even though
it be at the outermost rim, they can come forth and use their alluring
arts.
Hurstwood had gone, at Drouet's invitation, to meet a new baggage of
fine clothes and pretty features. He entered, expecting to indulge
in an evening of lightsome frolic, and then lose track of the newcomer
forever. Instead he found a woman whose youth and beauty attracted
him. In the mild light of Carrie's eye was nothing of the
calculation of the mistress. In the diffident manner was nothing of
the art of the courtesan. He saw at once that a mistake had been made,
that some difficult conditions had pushed this troubled creature
into his presence, and his interest was enlisted. Here sympathy sprang
to the rescue, but it was not unmixed with selfishness. He wanted to
win Carrie because he thought her fate mingled with his was better
than if it were united with Drouet's. He envied the drummer his
conquest as he had never envied any man in all the course of his
experience.
Carrie was certainly better than this man, as she was superior,
mentally, to Drouet. She came fresh from the air of the village, the
light of the country still in her eye. Here was neither guile nor
rapacity. There were slight inherited traits of both in her, but
they were rudimentary. She was too full of wonder and desire to be
greedy. She still looked about her upon the great maze of the city
without understanding. Hurstwood felt the bloom and the youth. He
picked her as he would the fresh fruit of a tree. He felt as fresh
in her presence as one who is taken out of the flash of summer to
the first cool breath of spring.
Carrie, left alone since the scene in question, and having no one
with whom to counsel, had at first wandered from one strange mental
conclusion to another, until at last, tired out, she gave it up. She
owed something to Drouet, she thought. It did not seem more than
yesterday that he had aided her when she was worried and distressed.
She had the kindliest feelings for him in every way. She gave him
credit for his good looks, his generous feelings, and even, in fact,
failed to recollect his egotism when he was absent; but she could
not feel any binding influence keeping her for him as against all
others. In fact, such a thought had never had any grounding, even in
Drouet's desires.
The truth is, that this goodly drummer carried the doom of all
enduring relationships in his own lightsome manner and unstable fancy.
He went merrily on, assured that he was alluring all, that affection
followed tenderly in his wake, that things would endure unchangingly
for his pleasure. When he missed some old face, or found some door
finally shut to him, it did not grieve him deeply. He was too young,
too successful. He would remain thus young in spirit until he was
dead.
As for Hurstwood, he was alive with thoughts and feelings concerning
Carrie. He had no definite plans regarding her, but he was
determined to make her confess an affection for him. He thought he saw
in her drooping eye, her unstable glance, her wavering manner, the
symptoms of a budding passion. He wanted to stand near her and make
her lay her hand in his- he wanted to find out what her next step
would be- what the next sign of feeling for him would be. Such anxiety
and enthusiasm had not affected him for years. He was a youth again in
feeling- a cavalier in action.
In his position opportunity for taking his evenings out was
excellent. He was a most faithful worker in general, and a man who
commanded the confidence of his employers in so far as the
distribution of his time was concerned. He could take such hours off
as he chose, for it was well known that he fulfilled his managerial
duties successfully, whatever time he might take. His grace, tact, and
ornate appearance gave the place an air which was most essential,
while at the same time his long experience made him a most excellent
judge of its stock necessities. Bartenders and assistants might come
and go, singly or in groups, but, so long as he was present, the
host of old-time customers would barely notice the change. He gave the
place the atmosphere to which they were used. Consequently, he
arranged his hours very much to suit himself, taking now an afternoon,
now an evening, but invariably returning between eleven and twelve
to witness the last hour or two of the day's business and look after
the closing details.
"You see that things are safe and all the employees are out when you
go home, George," Moy had once remarked to him, and he never once,
in all the period of his long service, neglected to do this. Neither
of the owners had for years been in the resort after five in the
afternoon, and yet their manager as faithfully fulfilled this
request as if they had been there regularly to observe.
On this Friday afternoon, scarcely two days after his previous
visit, he made up his mind to see Carrie. He could not stay away
longer.
"Evans," he said, addressing the head barkeeper, "if any one
calls, I will be back between four and five."
He hurried to Madison Street and boarded a horse-car, which
carried him to Ogden Place in half an hour.
Carrie had thought of going for a walk, and had put on a light
grey woollen dress with a jaunty double-breasted jacket. She had out
her hat and gloves, and was fastening a white lace tie about her
throat when the housemaid brought up the information that Mr.
Hurstwood wished to see her.
She started slightly at the announcement, but told the girl to say
that she would come down in a moment, and proceeded to hasten her
dressing.
Carrie could not have told herself at this moment whether she was
glad or sorry that the impressive manager was awaiting her presence.
She was slightly flurried and tingling in the cheeks, but it was
more nervousness than either fear or favour. She did not try to
conjecture what the drift of the conversation would be. She only
felt that she must be careful, and that Hurstwood had an indefinable
fascination for her. Then she gave her tie its last touch with her
fingers and went below.
The deep-feeling manager was himself a little strained in the nerves
by the thorough consciousness of his mission. He felt that he must
make a strong play on this occasion, but now that the hour was come,
and he heard Carrie's feet upon the stair, his nerve failed him. He
sank a little in determination, for he was not so sure, after all,
what her opinion might be.
When she entered the room, however, her appearance gave him courage.
She looked simple and charming enough to strengthen the daring of
any lover. Her apparent nervousness dispelled his own.
"How are you?" he said, easily. "I could not resist the temptation
to come out this afternoon, it was so pleasant."
"Yes," said Carrie, halting before him, "I was just preparing to
go for a walk myself."
"Oh, were you?" he said. "Supposing, then, you get your hat and we
both go?"
They crossed the park and went west along Washington Boulevard,
beautiful with its broad macadamised road, and large frame houses
set back from the sidewalks. It was a street where many of the more
prosperous residents of the West Side lived, and Hurstwood could not
help feeling nervous over the publicity of it. They had gone but a few
blocks when a livery stable sign in one of the side streets solved the
difficulty for him. He would take her to drive along the new
Boulevard.
The Boulevard at that time was little more than a country road.
The part he intended showing her was much farther out on this same
West Side, where there was scarcely a house. It connected Douglas Park
with Washington or South Park, and was nothing more than a neatly made
road, running due south for some five miles over an open, grassy
prairie, and then due east over the same kind of prairie for the
same distance. There was not a house to be encountered anywhere
along the larger part of the route, and any conversation would be
pleasantly free of interruption.
At the stable he picked a gentle horse, and they were soon out of
range of either public observation or hearing.
"Can you drive?" he said, after a time.
"I never tried," said Carrie.
He put the reins in her hand, and folded his arms.
"You see there's nothing to it much," he said, smilingly.
"Not when you have a gentle horse," said Carrie.
"You can handle a horse as well as any one, after a little
practice," he added, encouragingly.
He had been looking for some time for a break in the conversation
when he could give it a serious turn. Once or twice he had held his
peace, hoping that in silence her thoughts would take the colour of
his own, but she had lightly continued the subject. Presently,
however, his silence controlled the situation. The drift of his
thoughts began to tell. He gazed fixedly at nothing in particular,
as if he were thinking of something which concerned her not at all.
His thoughts, however, spoke for themselves. She was very much aware
that a climax was pending.
"Do you know," he said, "I have spent the happiest evenings in years
since I have known you?"
"Have you?" she said, with assumed airiness, but still excited by
the conviction which the tone of his voice carried.
"I was going to tell you the other evening," he added, "but
somehow the opportunity slipped away."
Carrie was listening without attempting to reply. She could think of
nothing worth while to say. Despite all the ideas concerning right
which had troubled her vaguely since she had last seen him, she was
now influenced again strongly in his favour.
"I came out here to-day," he went on, solemnly, "to tell you just
how I feel- to see if you wouldn't listen to me."
Hurstwood was something of a romanticist after his kind. He was
capable of strong feelings- often poetic ones- and under a stress of
desire, such as the present, he waxed eloquent. That is, his
feelings and his voice were coloured with that seeming repression
and pathos which is the essence of eloquence.
"You know," he said, putting his hand on her arm, and keeping a
strange silence while he formulated words, "that I love you?"
Carrie did not stir at the words. She was bound up completely in the
man's atmosphere. He would have church-like silence in order to
express his feelings, and she kept it. She did not move her eyes
from the flat, open scene before her. Hurstwood waited for a few
moments, and then repeated the words.
"You must not say that," she said, weakly.
Her words were not convincing at all. They were the result of a
feeble thought that something ought to be said. He paid no attention
to them whatever.
"Carrie," he said, using her first name with sympathetic
familiarity, "I want you to love me. You don't know how much I need
some one to waste a little affection on me. I am practically alone.
There is nothing in my life that is pleasant or delightful. It's all
work and worry with people who are nothing to me."
As he said this, Hurstwood really imagined that his state was
pitiful. He had the ability to get off at a distance and view
himself objectively- of seeing what he wanted to see in the things
which made up his existence. Now, as he spoke, his voice trembled with
that peculiar vibration which is the result of tensity. It went
ringing home to his companion's heart.
"Why, I should think," she said, turning upon him large eyes which
were full of sympathy and feeling, "that you would be very happy.
You know so much of the world."
"That is it," he said, his voice dropping to a soft minor, "I know
too much of the world."
It was an important thing to her to hear one so well-positioned
and powerful speaking in this manner. She could not help feeling the
strangeness of her situation. How was it that, in so little a while,
the narrow life of the country had fallen from her as a garment, and
the city, with all its mystery, taken its place? Here was this
greatest mystery, the man of money and affairs sitting beside her,
appealing to her. Behold, he had ease and comfort, his strength was
great, his position high, his clothing rich, and yet he was
appealing to her. She could formulate no thought which would be just
and right. She troubled herself no more upon the matter. She only
basked in the warmth of his feeling, which was as a grateful blaze
to one who is cold. Hurstwood glowed with his own intensity, and the
heat of his passion was already melting the wax of his companion's
scruples.
"You think," he said, "I am happy; that I ought not to complain?
If you were to meet all day with people who care absolutely nothing
about you, if you went day after day to a place where there was
nothing but show and indifference, if there was not one person in
all those you knew to whom you could appeal for sympathy or talk to
with pleasure, perhaps you would be unhappy too."
He was striking a chord now which found sympathetic response in
her own situation. She knew what it was to meet with people who were
indifferent, to walk alone amid so many who cared absolutely nothing
about you. Had not she? Was not she at this very moment quite alone?
Who was there among all whom she knew to whom she could appeal for
sympathy? Not one. She was left to herself to brood and wonder.
"I could be content," went on Hurstwood, "if I had you to love me.
If I had you to go to; you for a companion. As it is, I simply move
about from place to place without any satisfaction. Time hangs heavily
on my hands. Before you came I did nothing but idle and drift into
anything that offered itself. Since you came- well, I've had you to
think about."
The old illusion that here was some one who needed her aid began
to grow in Carrie's mind. She truly pitied this sad, lonely figure. To
think that all his fine state should be so barren for want of her;
that he needed to make such an appeal when she herself was lonely
and without anchor. Surely, this was too bad.
"I am not very bad," he said, apologetically, as if he owed it to
her to explain on this score. "You think, probably, that I roam
around, and get into all sorts of evil? I have been rather reckless,
but I could easily come out of that. I need you to draw me back, if my
life ever amounts to anything."
Carrie looked at him with the tenderness which virtue ever feels
in its hope of reclaiming vice. How could such a man need
reclaiming? His errors, what were they, that she could correct?
Small they must be, where all was so fine. At worst, they were
gilded affairs, and with what leniency are gilded errors viewed.
He put himself in such a lonely light that she was deeply moved.
"Is it that way?" she mused.
He slipped his arm about her waist, and she could not find the heart
to draw away. With his free hand he seized upon her fingers. A
breath of soft spring wind went bounding over the road, rolling some
brown twigs of the previous autumn before it. The horse paced
leisurely on, unguided.
"Tell me," he said, softly, "that you love me."
Her eyes fell consciously.
"Own to it, dear," he said, feelingly; "you do, don't you?"
She made no answer, but he felt his victory.
"Tell me," he said, richly, drawing her so close that their lips
were near together. He pressed her hand warmly, and then released it
to touch her cheek.
"You do?" he said, pressing his lips to her own.
For answer, her lips replied.
"Now," he said, joyously, his fine eyes ablaze, "you're my own girl,
aren't you?"
By way of further conclusion, her head lay softly upon his shoulder.
Chapter XIV.
WITH EYES AND NOT SEEING: ONE INFLUENCE WANES
Carrie in her rooms that evening was in a fine glow, physically
and mentally. She was deeply rejoicing in her affection for
Hurstwood and his love, and looked forward with fine fancy to their
next meeting Sunday night. They had agreed, without any feeling of
enforced secrecy, that she should come down town and meet him, though,
after all, the need of it was the cause.
Mrs. Hale, from her upper window, saw her come in.
"Um," she thought to herself, "she goes riding with another man when
her husband is out of the city. He had better keep an eye on her."
The truth is that Mrs. Hale was not the only one who had a thought
on this score. The house-maid who had welcomed Hurstwood had her
opinion also. She had no particular regard for Carrie, whom she took
to be cold and disagreeable. At the same time, she had a fancy for the
merry and easy-mannered Drouet, who threw her a pleasant remark now
and then, and in other ways extended her the evidence of that regard
which he had for all members of the sex. Hurstwood was more reserved
and critical in his manner. He did not appeal to this bodiced
functionary in the same pleasant way. She wondered that he came so
frequently, that Mrs. Drouet should go out with him this afternoon
when Mr. Drouet was absent. She gave vent to her opinions in the
kitchen where the cook was. As a result, a hum of gossip was set going
which moved about the house in that secret manner common to gossip.
Carrie, now that she had yielded sufficiently to Hurstwood to
confess her affection, no longer troubled about her attitude towards
him. Temporarily she gave little thought to Drouet, thinking only of
the dignity and grace of her lover and of his consuming affection
for her. On the first evening, she did little but go over the
details of the afternoon. It was the first time her sympathies had
ever been thoroughly aroused, and they threw a new light on her
character. She had some power of initiative, latent before, which
now began to exert itself. She looked more practically upon her
state and began to see glimmerings of a way out. Hurstwood seemed a
drag in the direction of honour. Her feelings were exceedingly
creditable, in that they constructed out of these recent
developments something which conquered freedom from dishonour. She had
no idea what Hurstwood's next word would be. She only took his
affection to be a fine thing, and appended better, more generous
results accordingly.
As yet, Hurstwood had only a thought of pleasure without
responsibility. He did not feel that he was doing anything to
complicate his life. His position was secure, his home-life, if not
satisfactory, was at least undisturbed, his personal liberty rather
untrammelled. Carrie's love represented only so much added pleasure.
He would enjoy this new gift over and above his ordinary allowance
of pleasure. He would be happy with her and his own affairs would go
on as they had, undisturbed.
On Sunday evening Carrie dined with him at a place he had selected
in East Adams Street, and thereafter they took a cab to what was
then a pleasant evening resort out on Cottage Grove Avenue near 39th
Street. In the process of his declaration he soon realised that Carrie
took his love upon a higher basis than he had anticipated. She kept
him at a distance in a rather earnest way, and submitted only to those
tender tokens of affection which better become the inexperienced
lover. Hurstwood saw that she was not to be possessed for the
asking, and deferred pressing his suit too warmly.
Since he feigned to believe in her married state he found that he
had to carry out the part. His triumph, he saw, was still at a
little distance. How far he could not guess.
They were returning to Ogden Place in the cab, when he asked:
"When will I see you again?"
"I don't know," she answered, wondering herself.
"Why not come down to The Fair," he suggested, "next Tuesday?"
She shook her head.
"Not so soon," she answered.
"I'll tell you what I'll do," he added. "I'll write you, care of
this West Side Post-office. Could you call next Tuesday?"
Carrie assented.
The cab stopped one door out of the way according to his call.
"Good-night," he whispered, as the cab rolled away.
Unfortunately for the smooth progression of this affair, Drouet
returned. Hurstwood was sitting in his imposing little office the next
afternoon when he saw Drouet enter.
"Why, hello, Charles," he called affably; "back again?"
"Yes," smiled Drouet, approaching and looking in at the door.
Hurstwood arose.
"Well," he said, looking the drummer over, "rosy as ever, eh?"
They began talking of the people they knew and things that had
happened.
"Been home yet?" finally asked Hurstwood.
"No, I am going, though," said Drouet.
"I remembered the little girl out there," said Hurstwood, "and
called once. Thought you wouldn't want her left quite alone."
"Right you are," agreed Drouet. "How is she?"
"Very well," said Hurstwood. "Rather anxious about you, though.
You'd better go out now and cheer her up."
"I will," said Drouet, smilingly.
"Like to have you both come down and go to the show with me
Wednesday," concluded Hurstwood at parting.
"Thanks, old man," said his friend, "I'll see what the girl says and
let you know."
They separated in the most cordial manner.
"There's a nice fellow," Drouet thought to himself as he turned
the corner towards Madison.
"Drouet is a good fellow," Hurstwood thought to himself as he went
back into his office, "but he's no man for Carrie."
The thought of the latter turned his mind into a most pleasant vein,
and he wondered how he would get ahead of the drummer.
When Drouet entered Carrie's presence, he caught her in his arms
as usual, but she responded to his kiss with a tremour of opposition.
"Well," he said, "I had a great trip."
"Did you? How did you come out with that La Crosse man you were
telling me about?"
"Oh, fine; sold him a complete line. There was another fellow there,
representing Burnstein, a regular hook-nosed sheeny, but he wasn't
in it. I made him look like nothing at all."
As he undid his collar and unfastened his studs, preparatory to
washing his face and changing his clothes, he dilated upon his trip.
Carrie could not help listening with amusement to his animated
descriptions.
"I tell you," he said, "I surprised the people at the office. I've
sold more goods this last quarter than any other man of our house on
the road. I sold three thousand dollars' worth in La Crosse."
He plunged his face in a basin of water, and puffed and blew as he
rubbed his neck and ears with his hands, while Carrie gazed upon him
with mingled thoughts of recollection and present judgment. He was
still wiping his face, when he continued:
"I'm going to strike for a raise in June. They can afford to pay it,
as much business as I turn in. I'll get it too, don't you forget."
"I hope you do," said Carrie.
"And then if that little real estate deal I've got on goes
through, we'll get married," he said with a great show of earnestness,
the while he took his place before the mirror and began brushing his
hair.
"I don't believe you ever intend to marry me, Charlie," Carrie
said ruefully. The recent protestations of Hurstwood had given her
courage to say this.
"Oh, yes I do- course I do- what put that into your head?"
He had stopped his trifling before the mirror now and crossed over
to her. For the first time Carrie felt as if she must move away from
him.
"But you've been saying that so long," she said, looking with her
pretty face upturned into his.
"Well, and I mean it too, but it takes money to live as I want to.
Now, when I get this increase, I can come pretty near fixing things
all right, and I'll do it. Now, don't you worry, girlie."
He patted her reassuringly upon the shoulder, but Carrie felt how
really futile had been her hopes. She could clearly see that this
easy-going soul intended no move in her behalf. He was simply
letting things drift because he preferred the free round of his
present state to any legal trammellings.
In contrast, Hurstwood appeared strong and sincere. He had no easy
manner of putting her off. He sympathised with her and showed her what
her true value was. He needed her, while Drouet did not care.
"Oh, no," she said remorsefully, her tone reflecting some of her own
success and more of her helplessness, "you never will."
"Well, you wait a little while and see," he concluded. "I'll marry
you all right."
Carrie looked at him and felt justified. She was looking for
something which would calm her conscience, and here it was, a light,
airy disregard of her claims upon his justice. He had faithfully
promised to marry her, and this was the way he fulfilled his promise.
"Say," he said, after he had, as he thought, pleasantly disposed
of the marriage question, "I saw Hurstwood to-day, and he wants us
to go to the theatre with him."
Carrie started at the name, but recovered quickly enough to avoid
notice.
"When?" she asked, with assumed indifference.
"Wednesday. We'll go, won't we?"
"If you think so," she answered, her manner being so enforcedly
reserved as to almost excite suspicion. Drouet noticed something,
but he thought it was due to her feelings concerning their talk
about marriage.
"He called once, he said."
"Yes," said Carrie, "he was out here Sunday evening."
"Was he?" said Drouet. "I thought from what he said that he had
called a week or so ago."
"So he did," answered Carrie, who was wholly unaware of what
conversation her lovers might have held. She was all at sea
mentally, and fearful of some entanglement which might ensue from what
she would answer.
"Oh, then he called twice?" said Drouet, the first shade of
misunderstanding showing in his face.
"Yes," said Carrie innocently, feeling now that Hurstwood must
have mentioned but one call.
Drouet imagined that he must have misunderstood his friend. He did
not attach particular importance to the information, after all.
"What did he have to say?" he queried, with slightly increased
curiosity.
"He said he came because he thought I might be lonely. You hadn't
been in there so long he wondered what had become of you."
"George is a fine fellow," said Drouet, rather gratified by his
conception of the manager's interest. "Come on and we'll go out to
dinner."
When Hurstwood saw that Drouet was back he wrote at once to
Carrie, saying:
"I told him I called on you, dearest, when he was away. I did not
say how often, but he probably thought once. Let me know of anything
you may have said. Answer by special messenger when you get this, and,
darling, I must see you. Let me know if you can't meet me at Jackson
and Throop Streets Wednesday afternoon at two o'clock. I want to speak
with you before we meet at the theatre."
Carrie received this Tuesday morning when she called at the West
Side branch of the post-office, and answered at once.
"I said you called twice," she wrote. "He didn't seem to mind. I
will try and be at Throop Street if nothing interferes. I seem to be
getting very bad. It's wrong to act as I do, I know."
Hurstwood, when he met her as agreed, reassured her on this score.
"You mustn't worry, sweetheart," he said. "Just as soon as he goes
on the road again we will arrange something. We'll fix it so that
you won't have to deceive any one."
Carrie imagined that he would marry her at once, though he had not
directly said so, and her spirits rose. She proposed to make the
best of the situation until Drouet left again.
"Don't show any more interest in me than you ever have," Hurstwood
counselled concerning the evening at the theatre.
"You mustn't look at me steadily then," she answered, mindful of the
power of his eyes.
"I won't," he said, squeezing her hand at parting and giving the
glance she had just cautioned against.
"There," she said playfully, pointing a finger at him.
"The show hasn't begun yet," he returned.
He watched her walk from him with tender solicitation. Such youth
and prettiness reacted upon him more subtly than wine.
At the theatre things passed as they had in Hurstwood's favour. If
he had been pleasing to Carrie before, how much more so was he now.
His grace was more permeating because it found a readier medium.
Carrie watched his every movement with pleasure. She almost forgot
poor Drouet, who babbled on as if he were the host.
Hurstwood was too clever to give the slightest indication of a
change. He paid, if anything, more attention to his old friend than
usual, and yet in no way held him up to that subtle ridicule which a
lover in favour may so secretly practise before the mistress of his
heart. If anything, he felt the injustice of the game as it stood, and
was not cheap enough to add to it the slightest mental taunt.
Only the play produced an ironical situation, and this was due to
Drouet alone.
The scene was one in "The Covenant," in which the wife listened to
the seductive voice of a lover in the absence of her husband.
"Served him right," said Drouet afterward, even in view of her
keen expiation of her error. "I haven't any pity for a man who would
be such a chump as that."
"Well, you never can tell," returned Hurstwood gently. "He
probably thought he was right."
"Well, a man ought to be more attentive than that to his wife if
he wants to keep her."
They had come out of the lobby and made their way through the
showy crush about the entrance way.
"Say, mister," said a voice at Hurstwood's side, "would you mind
giving me the price of a bed?"
Hurstwood was interestedly remarking to Carrie.
"Honest to God, mister, I'm without a place to sleep."
The plea was that of a gaunt-faced man of about thirty, who looked
the picture of privation and wretchedness. Drouet was the first to
see. He handed over a dime with an upwelling feeling of pity in his
heart. Hurstwood scarcely noticed the incident. Carrie quickly forgot.
Chapter XV.
THE IRK OF THE OLD TIES: THE MAGIC OF YOUTH
The complete ignoring by Hurstwood of his own home came with the
growth of his affection for Carrie. His actions, in all that related
to his family, were of the most perfunctory kind. He sat at
breakfast with his wife and children, absorbed in his own fancies,
which reached far without the realm of their interests. He read his
paper, which was heightened in interest by the shallowness of the
themes discussed by his son and daughter. Between himself and his wife
ran a river of indifference.
Now that Carrie had come, he was in a fair way to be blissful again.
There was delight in going down town evenings. When he walked forth in
the short days, the street lamps had a merry twinkle. He began to
experience the almost forgotten feeling which hastens the lover's
feet. When he looked at his fine clothes, he saw them with her eyes-
and her eyes were young.
When in the flush of such feelings he heard his wife's voice, when
the insistent demands of matrimony recalled him from dreams to a stale
practice, how it grated. He then knew that this was a chain which
bound his feet.
"George," said Mrs. Hurstwood, in that tone of voice which had
long since come to be associated in his mind with demands, "we want
you to get us a season ticket to the races."
"Do you want to go to all of them?" he said with a rising
inflection.
"Yes," she answered.
The races in question were soon to open at Washington Park, on the
South Side, and were considered quite society affairs among those
who did not affect religious rectitude and conservatism. Mrs.
Hurstwood had never asked for a whole season ticket before, but this
year certain considerations decided her to get a box. For one thing,
one of her neighbours, a certain Mr. and Mrs. Ramsey, who were
possessors of money, made out of the coal business, had done so. In
the next place, her favourite physician, Dr. Beale, a gentleman
inclined to horses and betting, had talked with her concerning his
intention to enter a two-year-old in the Derby. In the third place,
she wished to exhibit Jessica, who was gaining in maturity and beauty,
and whom she hoped to marry to a man of means. Her own desire to be
about in such things and parade among her acquaintances and the common
throng was as much an incentive as anything.
Hurstwood thought over the proposition a few moments without
answering. They were in the sitting-room on the second floor,
waiting for supper. It was the evening of his engagement with Carrie
and Drouet to see "The Covenant," which had brought him home to make
some alterations in his dress.
"You're sure separate tickets wouldn't do as well?" he asked,
hesitating to say anything more rugged.
"No," she replied impatiently.
"Well," he said, taking offence at her manner, "you needn't get
mad about it. I'm just asking you."
"I'm not mad," she snapped. "I'm merely asking you for a season
ticket."
"And I'm telling you," be returned, fixing a clear, steady eye on
her, "that it's no easy thing to get. I'm not sure whether the manager
will give it to me."
He had been thinking all the time of his "pull" with the
race-track magnates.
"We can buy it then," she exclaimed sharply.
"You talk easy," he said. "A season family ticket costs one
hundred and fifty dollars."
"I'll not argue with you," she replied with determination. "I want
the ticket and that's all there is to it."
She had risen, and now walked angrily out of the room.
"Well, you get it then," he said grimly, though in a modified tone
of voice.
As usual, the table was one short that evening.
The next morning he had cooled down considerably, and later the
ticket was duly secured, though it did not heal matters. He did not
mind giving his family a fair share of all that he earned, but he
did not like to be forced to provide against his will.
"Did you know, mother," said Jessica another day, "the Spencers
are getting ready to go away?"
"No. Where, I wonder?"
"Europe," said Jessica. "I met Georgine yesterday and she told me.
She just put on more airs about it."
"Did she say when?"
"Monday, I think. They'll get a notice in the papers again- they
always do."
"Never mind," said Mrs. Hurstwood consolingly, "we'll go one of
these days."
Hurstwood moved his eyes over the paper slowly, but said nothing.
"'We sail for Liverpool from New York,'" Jessica exclaimed,
mocking her acquaintance. "'Expect to spend most of the "summah" in
France,'- vain thing. As if it was anything to go to Europe."
"It must be if you envy her so much," put in Hurstwood.
It grated upon him to see the feeling his daughter displayed.
"Don't worry over them, my dear," said Mrs. Hurstwood.
"Did George get off?" asked Jessica of her mother another day,
thus revealing something that Hurstwood had heard nothing about.
"Where has he gone?" he asked, looking up. He had never before
been kept in ignorance concerning departures.
"He was going to Wheaton," said Jessica, not noticing the slight put
upon her father.
"What's out there?" he asked, secretly irritated and chagrined to
think that he should be made to pump for information in this manner.
"A tennis match," said Jessica.
"He didn't say anything to me," Hurstwood concluded, finding it
difficult to refrain from a bitter tone.
"I guess he must have forgotten," exclaimed his wife blandly.
In the past he had always commanded a certain amount of respect,
which was a compound of appreciation and awe. The familiarity which in
part still existed between himself and his daughter he had courted. As
it was, it did not go beyond the light assumption of words. The tone
was always modest. Whatever had been, however, had lacked affection,
and now he saw that he was losing track of their doings. His knowledge
was no longer intimate. He sometimes saw them at table, and
sometimes did not. He heard of their doings occasionally, more often
not. Some days he found that he was all at sea as to what they were
talking about- things they had arranged to do or that they had done in
his absence. More affecting was the feeling that there were little
things going on of which he no longer heard. Jessica was beginning
to feel that her affairs were her own. George, Jr., flourished about
as if he were a man entirely and must needs have private matters.
All this Hurstwood could see, and it left a trace of feeling, for he
was used to being considered- in his official position, at least-
and felt that his importance should not begin to wane here. To
darken it all, he saw the same indifference and independence growing
in his wife, while he looked on and paid the bills.
He consoled himself with the thought, however, that, after all, he
was not without affection. Things might go as they would at his house,
but he had Carrie outside of it. With his mind's eye he looked into
her comfortable room in Ogden Place, where he had spent several such
delightful evenings, and thought how charming it would be when
Drouet was disposed of entirely and she was waiting evenings in
cosey little quarters for him. That no cause would come up whereby
Drouet would be led to inform Carrie concerning his married state,
he felt hopeful. Things were going so smoothly that he believed they
would not change. Shortly now he would persuade Carrie and all would
be satisfactory.
The day after their theatre visit he began writing her regularly-
a letter every morning, and begging her to do as much for him. He
was not literary by any means, but experience of the world and his
growing affection gave him somewhat of a style. This he exercised at
his office desk with perfect deliberation. He purchased a box of
delicately coloured and scented writing paper in monogram, which he
kept locked in one of the drawers. His friends now wondered at the
cleric and very official-looking nature of his position. The five
bartenders viewed with respect the duties which could call a man to do
so much desk-work and penmanship.
Hurstwood surprised himself with his fluency. By the natural law
which governs all effort, what he wrote reacted upon him. He began
to feel those subtleties which he could find words to express. With
every expression came increased conception. Those inmost breathings
which there found words took bold upon him. He thought Carrie worthy
of all the affection he could there express.
Carrie was indeed worth loving if ever youth and grace are to
command that token of acknowledgment from life in their bloom.
Experience had not yet taken away that freshness of the spirit which
is the charm of the body. Her soft eyes contained in their liquid
lustre no suggestion of the knowledge of disappointment. She had
been troubled in a way by doubt and longing, but these had made no
deeper impression than could be traced in a certain open wistfulness
of glance and speech. The mouth had the expression at times, in
talking and in repose, of one who might be upon the verge of tears. It
was not that grief was thus ever present. The pronunciation of certain
syllables gave to her lips this peculiarity of formation- a
formation as suggestive and moving as pathos itself.
There was nothing bold in her manner. Life had not taught her
domination- superciliousness of grace, which is the lordly power of
some women. Her longing for consideration was not sufficiently
powerful to move her to demand it. Even now she lacked self-assurance,
but there was that in what she had already experienced which left
her a little less than timid. She wanted pleasure, she wanted
position, and yet she was confused as to what these things might be.
Every hour the kaleidoscope of human affairs threw a new lustre upon
something, and therewith it became for her the desired- the all.
Another shift of the box, and some other had become the beautiful, the
perfect.
On her spiritual side, also, she was rich in feeling, as such a
nature well might be. Sorrow in her was aroused by many a spectacle-
an uncritical upwelling of grief for the weak and the helpless. She
was constantly pained by the sight of the white-faced, ragged men
who slopped desperately by her in a sort of wretched mental stupor.
The poorly clad girls who went blowing by her window evenings,
hurrying home from some of the shops of the West Side, she pitied from
the depths of her heart. She would stand and bite her lips as they
passed, shaking her little head and wondering. They had so little, she
thought. It was so sad to be ragged and poor. The hang of faded
clothes pained her eyes.
"And they have to work so hard!" was her only comment.
On the street sometimes she would see men working- Irishmen with
picks, coal-heavers with great loads to shovel, Americans busy about
some work which was a mere matter of strength- and they touched her
fancy. Toil, now that she was free of it, seemed even a more
desolate thing than when she was part of it. She saw it through a mist
of fancy- a pale, sombre half-light, which was the essence of poetic
feeling. Her old father, in his flour-dusted miller's suit,
sometimes returned to her in memory, revived by a face in a window.
A shoemaker pegging at his last, a blastman seen through a narrow
window in some basement where iron was being melted, a bench-worker
seen high aloft in some window, his coat off, his sleeves rolled up;
these took her back in fancy to the details of the mill. She felt,
though she seldom expressed them, sad thoughts upon this score. Her
sympathies were ever with that under-world of toil from which she
had so recently sprung, and which she best understood.
Though Hurstwood did not know it, he was dealing with one whose
feelings were as tender and as delicate as this. He did not know,
but it was this in her, after all, which attracted him. He never
attempted to analyse the nature of his affection. It was sufficient
that there was tenderness in her eye, weakness in her manner,
good-nature and hope, in her thoughts. He drew near this lily, which
had sucked its waxen beauty and perfume from below a depth of waters
which he had never penetrated, and out of ooze and mould which he
could not understand. He drew near because it was waxen and fresh.
It lightened his feelings for him. It made the morning worth while.
In a material way, she was considerably improved. Her awkwardness
had all but passed, leaving, if anything, a quaint residue which was
as pleasing as perfect grace. Her little shoes now fitted her
smartly and had high heels. She had learned much about laces and those
little neck-pieces which add so much to a woman's appearance. Her form
had filled out until it was admirably plump and well-rounded.
Hurstwood wrote her one morning, asking her to meet him in Jefferson
Park, Monroe Street. He did not consider it policy to call any more,
even when Drouet was at home.
The next afternoon he was in the pretty little park by one, and
had found a rustic bench beneath the green leaves of a lilac bush
which bordered one of the paths. It was at that season of the year
when the fulness of spring had not yet worn quite away. At a little
pond near by some cleanly dressed children were sailing white canvas
boats. In the shade of a green pagoda a bebuttoned officer of the
law was resting, his arms folded, his club at rest in his belt. An old
gardener was upon the lawn, with a pair of pruning shears, looking
after some bushes. High overhead was the clear blue sky of the new
summer, and in the thickness of the shiny green leaves of the trees
hopped and twittered the busy sparrows.
Hurstwood had come out of his own home that morning feeling much
of the same old annoyance. At his store he had idled, there being no
need to write. He had come away to this place with the lightness of
heart which characterises those who put weariness behind. Now, in
the shade of this cool, green bush, he looked about him with the fancy
of the lover. He heard the carts go lumbering by upon the neighbouring
streets, but they were far off, and only buzzed upon his ear. The
hum of the surrounding city was faint, the clang of an occasional bell
was as music. He looked and dreamed a new dream of pleasure which
concerned his present fixed condition not at all. He got back in fancy
to the old Hurstwood, who was neither married nor fixed in a solid
position for life. He remembered the light spirit in which he once
looked after the girls- how he had danced, escorted them home, hung
over their gates. He almost wished he was back there again- here in
this pleasant scene he felt as if he were wholly free.
At two Carrie came tripping along the walk toward him, rosy and
clean. She had just recently donned a sailor hat for the season with a
hand of pretty white-dotted blue silk. Her skirt was of a rich blue
material, and her shirt waist matched it, with a thin stripe of blue
upon a snow-white ground- stripes that were as fine as hairs. Her
brown shoes peeped occasionally from beneath her skirt. She carried
her gloves in her hand.
Hurstwood looked up at her with delight.
"You came, dearest," he said eagerly, standing to meet her and
taking her hand.
"Of course," she said, smiling; "did you think I wouldn't?"
"I didn't know," he replied.
He looked at her forehead, which was moist from her brisk walk. Then
he took out one of his own soft, scented silk handkerchiefs and
touched her face here and there.
"Now," he said affectionately, "you're all right."
They were happy in being near one another- in looking into each
other's eyes. Finally, when the long flush of delight had subsided, he
said:
"When is Charlie going away again?"
"I don't know," she answered. "He says he has some things to do
for the house here now."
Hurstwood grew serious, and he lapsed into quiet thought. He
looked up after a time to say:
"Come away and leave him."
He turned his eyes to the boys with the boats, as if the request
were of little importance.
"Where would we go?" she asked in much the same manner, rolling
her gloves, and looking into a neighbouring tree.
"Where do you want to go?" he enquired.
There was something in the tone in which he said this which made her
feel as if she must record her feelings against any local habitation.
"We can't stay in Chicago," she replied.
He had no thought that this was in her mind- that any removal
would be suggested.
"Why not?" he asked softly.
"Oh, because," she said, "I wouldn't want to."
He listened to this, with but dull perception of what it meant. It
had no serious ring to it. The question was not up for immediate
decision.
"I would have to give up my position," he said.
The tone he used made it seem as if the matter deserved only
slight consideration. Carrie thought a little, the while enjoying
the pretty scene.
"I wouldn't like to live in Chicago and him here," she said,
thinking of Drouet.
"It's a big town, dearest," Hurstwood answered. "It would be as good
as moving to another part of the country to move to the South Side."
He had fixed upon that region as an objective point.
"Anyhow," said Carrie, "I shouldn't want to get married as long as
he is here. I wouldn't want to run away."
The suggestion of marriage struck Hurstwood forcibly. He saw clearly
that this was her idea- he felt that it was not to be gotten over
easily. Bigamy lightened the horizon of his shadowy thoughts for a
moment. He wondered for the life of him how it would all come out.
He could not see that he was making any progress save in her regard.
When he looked at her now, he thought her beautiful. What a thing it
was to have her love him, even if it be entangling! She increased
in, value in his eyes because of her objection. She was something to
struggle for, and that was everything. How different from the women
who yielded willingly! He swept the thought of them from his mind.
"And you don't know when he'll go away?" asked Hurstwood, quietly.
She shook her head.
He sighed.
"You're a determined little miss, aren't you?" he said, after a
few moments, looking up into her eyes.
She felt a wave of feeling sweep over her at this. It was pride at
what seemed his admiration- affection for the man who could feel
this concerning her.
"No," she said coyly, "but what can I do?"
Again he folded his hands and looked away over the lawn into the
street.
"I wish," he said pathetically, "you would come to me. I don't
like to be away from you this way. What good is there in waiting?
You're not any happier, are you?"
"Happier!" she exclaimed softly, "you know better than that."
"Here we are then," he went on in the same tone, "wasting our
days. If you are not happy, do you think I am? I sit and write to
you the biggest part of the time. I'll tell you what, Carrie," he
exclaimed, throwing sudden force of expression into his voice and
fixing her with his eyes, "I can't live without you, and that's all
there is to it. Now," he concluded, showing the palm of one of his
white hands in a sort of at-an-end, helpless expression, "what shall I
do?"
This shifting of the burden to her appealed to Carrie. The semblance
of the load without the weight touched the woman's heart.
"Can't you wait a little while yet?" she said tenderly. "I'll try
and find out when he's going."
"What good will it do?" he asked, holding the same strain of
feeling.
"Well, perhaps we can arrange to go somewhere."
She really did not see anything clearer than before, but she was
getting into that frame of mind where, out of sympathy, a woman
yields.
Hurstwood did not understand. He was wondering how she was to be
persuaded- what appeal would move her to forsake Drouet. He began to
wonder how far her affection for him would carry her. He was
thinking of some question which would make her tell.
Finally he hit upon one of those problematical propositions which
often disguise our own desires while leading us to an understanding of
the difficulties which others make for us, and so discover for us a
way. It had not the slightest connection with anything intended on his
part, and was spoken at random before he had given it a moment's
serious thought.
"Carrie," he said, looking into her face and assuming a serious look
which he did not feel, "suppose I were to come to you next week, or
this week for that matter- tonight say- and tell you I had to go away-
that I couldn't stay another minute and wasn't coming back any more-
would you come with me?"
His sweetheart viewed him with the most affectionate glance, her
answer ready before the words were out of his mouth.
"Yes," she said.
"You wouldn't stop to argue or arrange?"
"Not if you couldn't wait."
He smiled when he saw that she took him seriously, and he thought
what a chance it would afford for a possible junket of a week or
two. He had a notion to tell her that he was joking and so brush
away her sweet seriousness, but the effect of it was too delightful.
He let it stand.
"Suppose we didn't have time to get married here?" he added, an
afterthought striking him.
"If we got married as soon as we got to the other end of the journey
it would be all right."
"I meant that," he said.
"Yes."
The morning seemed peculiarly bright to him now. He wondered
whatever could have put such a thought into his head. Impossible as it
was, he could not help smiling at its cleverness. It showed how she
loved him. There was no doubt in his mind now, and he would find a way
to win her.
"Well," he said, jokingly, "I'll come and get you one of these
evenings," and then he laughed.
"I wouldn't stay with you, though, if you didn't marry me," Carrie
added reflectively.
"I don't want you to," he said tenderly, taking her hand.
She was extremely happy now that she understood. She loved him the
more for thinking that he would rescue her so. As for him, the
marriage clause did not dwell in his mind. He was thinking that with
such affection there could be no bar to his eventual happiness.
"Let's stroll about," he said gayly, rising and surveying all the
lovely park.
"All right," said Carrie.
They passed the young Irishman, who looked after them with envious
eyes.
"'Tis a foine couple," he observed to himself. "They must be rich."
Chapter XVI.
A WITLESS ALADDIN: THE GATE TO THE WORLD
In the course of his present stay in Chicago, Drouet paid some
slight attention to the secret order to which he belonged. During
his last trip he had received a new light on its importance.
"I tell you," said another drummer to him, "it's a great thing. Look
at Hazenstab. He isn't so deuced clever. Of course he's got a good
house behind him, but that won't do alone. I tell you it's his degree.
He's a way-up Mason, and that goes a long way. He's got a secret
sign that stands for something."
Drouet resolved then and there that he would take more interest in
such matters. So when he got back to Chicago he repaired to his
local lodge headquarters.
"I say, Drouet," said Mr. Harry Quincel, an individual who was
very prominent in this local branch of the Elks, "you're the man
that can help us out."
It was after the business meeting and things were going socially
with a hum. Drouet was bobbing around chatting and joking with a score
of individuals whom he knew.
"What are you up to?" he inquired genially, turning a smiling face
upon his secret brother.
"We're trying to get up some theatricals for two weeks from
to-day, and we want to know if you don't know some young lady who
could take a part- it's an easy part."
"Sure," said Drouet, "what is it?" He did not trouble to remember
that he knew no one to whom he could appeal on this score. His
innate good-nature, however, dictated a favourable reply.
"Well, now, I'll tell you what we are trying to do," went on Mr.
Quincel. "We are trying to get a new set of furniture for the lodge.
There isn't enough money in the treasury at the present time, and we
thought we would raise it by a little entertainment."
"Sure," interrupted Drouet, "that's a good idea."
"Several of the boys around here have got talent. There's Harry
Burbeck, he does a fine black-face turn. Mac Lewis is all right at
heavy dramatics. Did you ever hear him recite 'Over the Hills'?"
"Never did."
"Well, I tell you, he does it fine."
"And you want me to get some woman to take a part?" questioned
Drouet, anxious to terminate the subject and get on to something else.
"What are you going to play?"
"'Under the Gaslight,'" said Mr. Quincel, mentioning Augustin Daly's
famous production, which had worn from a great public success down
to an amateur theatrical favourite, with many of the troublesome
accessories cut out and the dramatis personae reduced to the
smallest possible number.
Drouet had seen this play some time in the past.
"That's it," he said; "that's a fine play. It will go all right. You
ought to make a lot of money out of that."
"We think we'll do very well," Mr. Quincel replied. "Don't you
forget now," he concluded, Drouet showing signs of restlessness; "some
young woman to take the part of Laura."
"Sure, I'll attend to it."
He moved away, forgetting almost all about it the moment Mr. Quincel
had ceased talking. He had not even thought to ask the time or place.
Drouet was reminded of his promise a day or two later by the receipt
of a letter announcing that the first rehearsal was set for the
following Friday evening, and urging him to kindly forward the young
lady's address at once, in order that the part might be delivered to
her.
"Now, who the deuce do I know?" asked the drummer reflectively,
scratching his rosy ear. "I don't know any one that knows anything
about amateur theatricals."
He went over in memory the names of a number of women he knew, and
finally fixed on one, largely because of the convenient location of
her home on the West Side, and promised himself that as he came out
that evening he would see her. When, however, he started west on the
car he forgot, and was only reminded of his delinquency by an item
in the "Evening News"- a small three-line affair under the head of
Secret Society Notes- which stated the Custer Lodge of the Order of
Elks would give a theatrical performance in Avery Hall on the 16th,
when "Under the Gaslight" would be produced.
"George!" exclaimed Drouet, "I forgot that."
"What?" inquired Carrie.
They were at their little table in the room which might have been
used for a kitchen, where Carrie occasionally served a meal.
To-night the fancy had caught her, and the little table was spread
with a pleasing repast.
"Why, my lodge entertainment. They're going to give a play, and they
wanted me to get them some young lady to take a part."
"What is it they're going to play?"
"'Under the Gaslight.'"
"When?"
"On the 16th."
"Well, why don't you?" asked Carrie.
"I don't know any one," he replied.
Suddenly he looked up.
"Say," he said, "how would you like to take the part?"
"Me?" said Carrie. "I can't act."
"How do you know?" questioned Drouet reflectively.
"Because," answered Carrie, "I never did."
Nevertheless, she was pleased to think he would ask. Her eyes
brightened, for if there was anything that enlisted her sympathies
it was the art of the stage.
True to his nature, Drouet clung to this idea as an easy way out.
"That's nothing. You can act all you have to down there."
"No, I can't," said Carrie weakly, very much drawn toward the
proposition and yet fearful.
"Yes, you can. Now, why don't you do it? They need some one, and
it will be lots of fun for you."
"Oh, no, it won't," said Carrie seriously.
"You'd like that. I know you would. I've seen you dancing around
here and giving imitations and that's why I asked you. You're clever
enough, all right."
"No, I'm not," said Carrie shyly.
"Now, I'll tell you what you do. You go down and see about it. It'll
be fun for you. The rest of the company isn't going to be any good.
They haven't any experience. What do they know about theatricals?"
He frowned as he thought of their ignorance.
"Hand me the coffee," he added.
"I don't believe I could act, Charlie," Carrie went on pettishly.
"You don't think I could, do you?"
"Sure. Out o' sight. I bet you make a hit. Now you want to go, I
know you do. I knew it when I came home. That's why I asked you."
"What is the play, did you say?"
"'Under the Gaslight.'"
"What part would they want me to take?"
"Oh, one of the heroines- I don't know."
"What sort of a play is it?"
"Well," said Drouet, whose memory for such things was not the
best, "it's about a girl who gets kidnapped by a couple of crooks- a
man and a woman that live in the slums. She had some money or
something and they wanted to get it. I don't know now how it did go
exactly."
"Don't you know what part I would have to take?"
"No, I don't, to tell the truth." He thought a moment. "Yes, I do,
too. Laura, that's the thing- you're to be Laura."
"And you can't remember what the part is like?"
"To save me, Cad, I can't," he answered. "I ought to, too; I've seen
the play enough. There's a girl in it that was stolen when she was
an infant- was picked off the street or something- and she's the one
that's hounded by the two old criminals I was telling you about." He
stopped with a mouthful of pie poised on a fork before his face.
"She comes very near getting drowned- no, that's not it. I'll tell you
what I'll do," he concluded hopelessly, "I'll get you the book. I
can't remember now for the life of me."
"Well, I don't know," said Carrie, when he had concluded, her
interest and desire to shine dramatically struggling with her timidity
for the mastery. "I might go if you thought I'd do all right."
"Of course, you'll do," said Drouet, who, in his efforts to
enthuse Carrie, had interested himself. "Do you think I'd come home
here and urge you to do something that I didn't think you would make a
success of? You can act all right. It'll be good for you."
"When must I go?" said Carrie, reflectively.
"The first rehearsal is Friday night. I'll get the part for you
to-night."
"All right," said Carrie resignedly, "I'll do it, but if I make a
failure now it's your fault."
"You won't fail," assured Drouet. "Just act as you do around here.
Be natural. You're all right. I've often thought you'd make a
corking good actress."
"Did you really?" asked Carrie.
"That's right," said the drummer.
He little knew as he went out of the door that night what a secret
flame he had kindled in the bosom of the girl he left behind. Carrie
was possessed of that sympathetic, impressionable nature which, ever
in the most developed form, has been the glory of the drama. She was
created with that passivity of soul which is always the mirror of
the active world. She possessed an innate taste for imitation and no
small ability. Even without practice, she could sometimes restore
dramatic situations she had witnessed by re-creating, before her
mirror, the expressions of the various faces taking part in the scene.
She loved to modulate her voice after the conventional manner of the
distressed heroine, and repeat such pathetic fragments as appealed
most to her sympathies. Of late, seeing the airy grace of the
ingenue in several well-constructed plays, she had been moved to
secretly imitate it, and many were the little movements and
expressions of the body in which she indulged from time to time in the
privacy of her chamber. On several occasions, when Drouet had caught
her admiring herself, as he imagined, in the mirror, she was doing
nothing more than recalling some little grace of the mouth or the eyes
which she had witnessed in another. Under his airy accusation she
mistook this for vanity and accepted the blame with a faint sense of
error, though, as a matter of fact, it was nothing more than the first
subtle outcroppings of an artistic nature, endeavouring to re-create
the perfect likeness of some phase of beauty which appealed to her. In
such feeble tendencies, be it known, such outworking of desire to
reproduce life, lies the basis of all dramatic art.
Now, when Carrie heard Drouet's laudatory opinion of her dramatic
ability, her body tingled with satisfaction. Like the flame which
welds the loosened particles into a solid mass, his words united those
floating wisps of feeling which she had felt, but never believed,
concerning her possible ability, and made them into a gaudy shred of
hope. Like all human beings, she had a touch of vanity. She felt
that she could do things if she only had a chance. How often had she
looked at the well-dressed actresses on the stage and wondered how she
would look, how delightful she would feel if only she were in their
place. The glamour, the tense situation, the fine clothes, the
applause, these had lured her until she felt that she, too, could act-
that she, too, could compel acknowledgment of power. Now she was
told that she really could- that little things she had done about
the house had made even him feel her power. It was a delightful
sensation while it lasted.
When Drouet was gone, she sat down in her rocking-chair by the
window to think about it. As usual, imagination exaggerated the
possibilities for her. It was as if he had put fifty cents in her hand
and she had exercised the thoughts of a thousand dollars. She saw
herself in a score of pathetic situations in which she assumed a
tremulous voice and suffering manner. Her mind delighted itself with
scenes of luxury and refinement, situations in which she was the
cynosure of all eyes, the arbiter of all fates. As she rocked to and
fro she felt the tensity of woe in abandonment, the magnificence of
wrath after deception, the languour of sorrow after defeat. Thoughts
of all the charming women she had seen in plays- every fancy, every
illusion which she had concerning the stage- now came back as a
returning tide after the ebb. She built up feelings and a
determination which the occasion did not warrant.
Drouet dropped in at the lodge when he went down town, and swashed
around with a great air, as Quincel met him.
"Where is that young lady you were going to get for us?" asked the
latter.
"I've got her," said Drouet.
"Have you?" said Quincel, rather surprised by his promptness;
"that's good. What's her address?" and he pulled out his note-book
in order to be able to send her part to her.
"You want to send her her part?" asked the drummer.
"Yes."
"Well, I'll take it. I'm going right by her house in the morning."
"What did you say her address was? We only want it in case we have
any information to send her."
"Twenty-nine Ogden Place."
"And her name?"
"Carrie Madenda," said the drummer, firing at random. The lodge
members knew him to be single.
"That sounds like somebody that can act, doesn't it?" said Quincel.
"Yes, it does."
He took the part home to Carrie and handed it to her with the manner
of one who does a favour.
"He says that's the best part. Do you think you can do it?"
"I don't know until I look it over. You know I'm afraid, now that
I've said I would."
"Oh, go on. What have you got to be afraid of? It's a cheap company.
The rest of them aren't as good as you are."
"Well, I'll see," said Carrie, pleased to have the part, for all her
misgivings.
He sidled around, dressing and fidgeting before he arranged to
make his next remark.
"They were getting ready to print the programmes," he said, "and I
gave them the name of Carrie Madenda. Was that all right?"
"Yes, I guess so," said his companion, looking up at him. She was
thinking it was slightly strange.
"If you didn't make a hit, you know," he went on.
"Oh, yes," she answered, rather pleased now with his caution. It was
clever for Drouet.
"I didn't want to introduce you as my wife, because you'd feel worse
then if you didn't go. They all know me so well. But you'll go all
right. Anyhow, you'll probably never meet any of them again."
"Oh, I don't care," said Carrie desperately. She was determined
now to have a try at the fascinating game.
Drouet breathed a sigh of relief. He had been afraid that he was
about to precipitate another conversation upon the marriage question.
The part of Laura, as Carrie found out when she began to examine it,
was one of suffering and tears. As delineated by Mr. Daly, it was true
to the most sacred traditions of melodrama as he found it when he
began his career. The sorrowful demeanour, the tremolo music, the
long, explanatory, cumulative addresses, all were there.
"Poor fellow," read Carrie, consulting the text and drawing her
voice out pathetically. "Martin, be sure and give him a glass of
wine before he goes."
She was surprised at the briefness of the entire part, not knowing
that she must be on the stage while others were talking, and not
only be there, but also keep herself in harmony with the dramatic
movement of the scenes.
"I think I can do that, though," she concluded.
When Drouet came the next night, she was very much satisfied with
her day's study.
"Well, how goes it, Caddie?" he said.
"All right," she laughed. "I think I have it memorised nearly."
"That's good," he said. "Let's hear some of it."
"Oh, I don't know whether I can get up and say it off here," she
said bashfully.
"Well, I don't know why you shouldn't. It'll be easier here than
it will there."
"I don't know about that," she answered.
Eventually she took off the ball-room episode with considerable
feeling, forgetting, as she got deeper in the scene, all about Drouet,
and letting herself rise to a fine state of feeling.
"Good," said Drouet; "fine; out o' sight! You're all right,
Caddie, I tell you."
He was really moved by her excellent representation and the
general appearance of the pathetic little figure as it swayed and
finally fainted to the floor. He had bounded up to catch her, and
now held her laughing in his arms.
"Ain't you afraid you'll hurt yourself?" he asked.
"Not a bit."
"Well, you're a wonder. Say, I never knew you could do anything like
that."
"I never did, either," said Carrie merrily, her face flushed with
delight.
"Well, you can bet that you're all right," said Drouet. "You can
take my word for that. You won't fail."
Chapter XVII.
A GLIMPSE THROUGH THE GATEWAY: HOPE LIGHTENS THE EYE
The, to Carrie, very important theatrical performance was to take
place at the Avery on conditions which were to make it more noteworthy
than was at first anticipated. The little dramatic student had written
to Hurstwood the very morning her part was brought her that she was
going to take part in a play.
"I really am," she wrote, feeling that he might take it as a jest;
"I have my part now, honest, truly."
Hurstwood smiled in an indulgent way as he read this.
"I wonder what it is going to be? I must see that."
He answered at once, making a pleasant reference to her ability.
"I haven't the slightest doubt you will make a success. You must
come to the park to-morrow morning and tell me all about it."
Carrie gladly complied, and revealed all the details of the
undertaking as she understood it.
"Well," he said, "that's fine. I'm glad to hear it. Of course, you
will do well, you're so clever."
He had truly never seen so much spirit in the girl before. Her
tendency to discover a touch of sadness had for the nonce disappeared.
As she spoke her eyes were bright, her cheeks red. She radiated much
of the pleasure which her undertakings gave her. For all her
misgivings- and they were as plentiful as the moments of the day-
she was still happy. She could not repress her delight in doing this
little thing which, to an ordinary observer, had no importance at all.
Hurstwood was charmed by the development of the fact that the girl
had capabilities. There is nothing so inspiring in life as the sight
of a legitimate ambition, no matter how incipient. It gives colour,
force, and beauty to the possessor.
Carrie was now lightened by a touch of this divine afflatus. She
drew to herself commendation from her two admirers which she had not
earned. Their affection for her naturally heightened their
perception of what she was trying to do and their approval of what she
did. Her inexperience conserved her own exuberant fancy, which ran
riot with every straw of opportunity, making of it a golden divining
rod whereby the treasure of life was to be discovered.
"Let's see," said Hurstwood, "I ought to know some of the boys in
the lodge. I'm an Elk myself."
"Oh, you mustn't let him know I told you."
"That's so," said the manager.
"I'd like for you to be there, if you want to come, but I don't
see how you can unless he asks you."
"I'll be there," said Hurstwood affectionately. "I can fix it so
he won't know you told me. You leave it to me."
This interest of the manager was a large thing in itself for the
performance, for his standing among the Elks was something worth
talking about. Already he was thinking of a box with some friends, and
flowers for Carrie. He would make it a dress-suit affair and give
the little girl a chance.
Within a day or two, Drouet dropped into the Adams Street resort,
and he was at once spied by Hurstwood. It was at five in the afternoon
and the place was crowded with merchants, actors, managers,
politicians, a goodly company of rotund, rosy figures, silk-hatted,
starchy-bosomed, beringed and bescarfpinned to the queen's taste. John
L. Sullivan, the pugilist, was at one end of the glittering bar,
surrounded by a company of loudly dressed sports, who were holding a
most animated conversation. Drouet came across the floor with a
festive stride, a new pair of tan shoes squeaking audibly at his
progress.
"Well, sir," said Hurstwood, "I was wondering what had become of
you. I thought you had gone out of town again."
Drouet laughed.
"If you don't report more regularly we'll have to cut you off the
list."
"Couldn't help it," said the drummer, "I've been busy."
They strolled over toward the bar amid the noisy, shifting company
of notables. The dressy manager was shaken by the hand three times
in as many minutes.
"I hear your lodge is going to give a performance," observed
Hurstwood, in the most offhand manner.
"Yes, who told you?"
"No one," said Hurstwood. "They just sent me a couple of tickets,
which I can have for two dollars. Is it going to be any good?"
"I don't know," replied the drummer. "They've been trying to get
me to get some woman to take a part."
"I wasn't intending to go," said the manager easily. "I'll
subscribe, of course. How are things over there?"
"All right. They're going to fit things up out of the proceeds."
"Well," said the manager, "I hope they make a success of it. Have
another?"
He did not intend to say any more. Now, if he should appear on the
scene with a few friends, he could say that he had been urged to
come along. Drouet had a desire to wipe out the possibility of
confusion.
"I think the girl is going to take a part in it," he said
abruptly, after thinking it over.
"You don't say so! How did that happen?"
"Well, they were short and wanted me to find them some one. I told
Carrie, and she seems to want to try."
"Good for her," said the manager. "It'll be a real nice affair. Do
her good, too. Has she ever had any experience?"
"Not a bit."
"Oh, well, it isn't anything very serious."
"She's clever, though," said Drouet, casting off any imputation
against Carrie's ability. "She picks up her part quick enough."
"You don't say so!" said the manager.
"Yes, sir; she surprised me the other night. By George, if she
didn't."
"We must give her a nice little send-off," said the manager. "I'll
look after the flowers."
Drouet smiled at his good-nature.
"After the show you must come with me and we'll have a little
supper."
"I think she'll do all right," said Drouet.
"I want to see her. She's got to do all right. We'll make her,"
and the manager gave one of his quick, steely half-smiles, which was a
compound of good-nature and shrewdness.
Carrie, meanwhile, attended the first rehearsal. At this performance
Mr. Quincel presided, aided by Mr. Millice, a young man who had some
qualifications of past experience, which were not exactly understood
by any one. He was so experienced and so business-like, however,
that he came very near being rude- failing to remember, as he did,
that the individuals he was trying to instruct were volunteer
players and not salaried underlings.
"Now, Miss Madenda," he said, addressing Carrie, who stood in one
part uncertain as to what move to make, "you don't want to stand
like that. Put expression in your face. Remember, you are troubled
over the intrusion of the stranger. Walk so," and he struck out across
the Avery stage in a most drooping manner.
Carrie did not exactly fancy the suggestion, but the novelty of
the situation, the presence of strangers, all more or less nervous,
and the desire to do anything rather than make a failure, made her
timid. She walked in imitation of her mentor as requested, inwardly
feeling that there was something strangely lacking.
"Now, Mrs. Morgan," said the director to one young married woman who
was to take the part of Pearl, "you sit here. Now, Mr. Bamberger,
you stand here, so. Now, what is it you say?"
"Explain," said Mr. Bamberger feebly. He had the part of Ray,
Laura's lover, the society individual who was to waver in his thoughts
of marrying her, upon finding that she was a waif and a nobody by
birth.
"How is that- what does your text say?"
"Explain," repeated Mr. Bamberger, looking intently at his part.
"Yes, but it also says," the director remarked, "that you are to
look shocked. Now, say it again, and see if you can't look shocked."
"Explain!" demanded Mr. Bamberger vigorously.
"No, no, that won't do! Say it this way- explain."
"Explain," said Mr. Bamberger, giving a modified imitation.
"That's better. Now go on."
"One night," resumed Mrs. Morgan, whose lines came next, "father and
mother were going to the opera. When they were crossing Broadway,
the usual crowd of children accosted them for alms-"
"Hold on," said the director, rushing forward, his arm extended.
"Put more feeling into what you are saying."
Mrs. Morgan looked at him as if she feared a personal assault. Her
eye lightened with resentment.
"Remember, Mrs. Morgan," he added, ignoring the gleam, but modifying
his manner, "that you're detailing a pathetic story. You are now
supposed to be telling something that is a grief to you. It requires
feeling, repression, thus: 'The usual crowd of children accosted
them for alms.'"
"All right," said Mrs. Morgan.
"Now, go on."
"As mother felt in her pocket for some change, her fingers touched a
cold and trembling hand which had clutched her purse."
"Very good," interrupted the director, nodding his head
significantly.
"A pickpocket! Well!" exclaimed Mr. Bamberger, speaking the lines
that here fell to him.
"No, no, Mr. Bamberger," said the director, approaching, "not that
way. 'A pickpocket- well?' so. That's the idea."
"Don't you think," said Carrie weakly, noticing that it had not been
proved yet whether the members of the company knew their lines, let
alone the details of expression, "that it would be better if we just
went through our lines once to see if we know them? We might pick up
some points."
"A very good idea, Miss Madenda," said Mr. Quincel, who sat at the
side of the stage, looking serenely on and volunteering opinions which
the director did not heed.
"All right," said the latter, somewhat abashed, "it might be well to
do it." Then brightening, with a show of authority, "Suppose we run
right through, putting in as much expression as we can."
"Good," said Mr. Quincel.
"This hand," resumed Mrs. Morgan, glancing up at Mr. Bamberger and
down at her book, as the lines proceeded, "my mother grasped in her
own, and so tight that a small, feeble voice uttered an exclamation of
pain. Mother looked down, and there beside her was a little ragged
girl."
"Very good," observed the director, now hopelessly idle.
"The thief!" exclaimed Mr. Bamberger.
"Louder," put in the director, finding it almost impossible to
keep his hands off.
"The thief!" roared poor Bamberger.
"Yes, but a thief hardly six years old, with a face like an angel's.
'Stop,' said my mother. 'What are you doing?'
"'Trying to steal,' said the child.
"'Don't you know that it is wicked to do so?' asked my father.
"'No,' said the girl, 'but it is dreadful to be hungry.'
"'Who told you to steal?' asked my mother.
"'She- there,' said the child, pointing to a squalid woman in a
doorway opposite, who fled suddenly down the street. 'That is old
Judas,' said the girl."
Mrs. Morgan read this rather flatly, and the director was in
despair. He fidgeted around, and then went over to Mr. Quincel.
"What do you think of them?" he asked.
"Oh, I guess we'll be able to whip them into shape," said the
latter, with an air of strength under difficulties.
"I don't know," said the director. "That fellow Bamberger strikes me
as being a pretty poor shift for a lover."
"He's all we've got," said! Quincel, rolling up his eyes.
"Harrison went back on me at the last minute. Who else can we get?"
"I don't know," said the director. "I'm afraid he'll never pick up."
At this moment Bamberger was exclaiming, "Pearl, you are joking with
me."
"Look at that now," said the director, whispering behind his hand.
"My Lord! what can you do with a man who drawls out a sentence like
that?"
"Do the best you can," said Quincel consolingly.
The rendition ran on in this wise until it came to where Carrie,
as Laura, comes into the room to explain to Ray, who, after hearing
Pearl's statement about her birth, had written the letter
repudiating her, which, however, he did not deliver. Bamberger was
just concluding the words of Ray, "I must go before she returns. Her
step! Too late," and was cramming the letter in his pocket, when she
began sweetly with:
"Ray!"
"Miss- Miss Courtland," Bamberger faltered weakly.
Carrie looked at him a moment and forgot all about the company
present. She began to feel the part, and summoned an indifferent smile
to her lips, turning as the lines directed and going to a window, as
if he were not present. She did it with a grace which was
fascinating to look upon.
"Who is that woman?" asked the director, watching Carrie in her
little scene with Bamberger.
"Miss Madenda," said Quincel.
"I know her name," said the director, "but what does she do?"
"I don't know," said Quincel. "She's a friend of one of our
members."
"Well, she's got more gumption than any one I've seen here so far-
seems to take an interest in what she's doing."
"Pretty, too, isn't she?" said Quincel.
The director strolled away without answering.
In the second scene, where she was supposed to face the company in
the ball-room, she did even better, winning the smile of the director,
who volunteered, because of her fascination for him, to come over
and speak with her.
"Were you ever on the stage?" he asked insinuatingly.
"No," said Carrie.
"You do so well, I thought you might have had some experience."
Carrie only smiled consciously.
He walked away to listen to Bamberger, who was feebly spouting
some ardent line.
Mrs. Morgan saw the drift of things and gleamed at Carrie with
envious and snapping black eyes.
"She's some cheap professional," she gave herself the satisfaction
of thinking, and scorned and hated her accordingly.
The rehearsal ended for one day, and Carrie went home feeling that
she had acquitted herself satisfactorily. The words of the director
were ringing in her ears, and she longed for an opportunity to tell
Hurstwood. She wanted him to know just how well she was doing. Drouet,
too, was an object for her confidences. She could hardly wait until he
should ask her, and yet she did not have the vanity to bring it up.
The drummer, however, had another line of thought to-night, and her
little experience did not appeal to him as important. He let the
conversation drop, save for what she chose to recite without
solicitation, and Carrie was not good at that. He took it for
granted that she was doing very well and he was relieved of further
worry. Consequently he threw Carrie into repression, which was
irritating. She felt his indifference keenly and longed to see
Hurstwood. It was as if he were now the only friend she had on
earth. The next morning Drouet was interested again, but the damage
had been done.
She got a pretty letter from the manager, saying that by the time
she got it he would be waiting for her in the park. When she came,
he shone upon her as the morning sun.
"Well, my dear," he asked, "how did you come out?"
"Well enough," she said, still somewhat reduced after Drouet.
"Now, tell me just what you did. Was it pleasant?"
Carrie related the incidents of the rehearsal, warming up as she
proceeded.
"Well, that's delightful," said Hurstwood. "I'm so glad. I must
get over there to see you. When is the next rehearsal?"
"Tuesday," said Carrie, "but they don't allow visitors."
"I imagine I could get in," said Hurstwood significantly.
She was completely restored and delighted by his consideration,
but she made him promise not to come around.
"Now you must do your best to please me," he said encouragingly.
"Just remember that I want you to succeed. We will make the
performance worth while. You do that now."
"I'll try," said Carrie, brimming with affection and enthusiasm.
"That's the girl," said Hurstwood fondly. "Now, remember," shaking
an affectionate finger at her, "your best."
"I will," she answered, looking back.
The whole earth was brimming sunshine that morning. She tripped
along, the clear sky pouring liquid blue into her soul. Oh, blessed
are the children of endeavour in this, that they try and are
hopeful. And blessed also are they who, knowing, smile and approve.
Chapter XVIII.
JUST OVER THE BORDER: A HAIL AND FAREWELL
By the evening of the 16th the subtle hand of Hurstwood had made
itself apparent. He had given the word among his friends- and they
were many and influential- that here was something which they ought to
attend, and, as a consequence, the sale of tickets by Mr. Quincel,
acting for the lodge, had been large. Small four-line notes had
appeared in all of the daily newspapers. These he had arranged for
by the aid of one of his newspaper friends on the "Times," Mr. Harry
McGarren, the managing editor.
"Say, Harry," Hurstwood said to him one evening, as the latter stood
at the bar drinking before wending his belated way homeward, "you
can help the boys out, I guess."
"What is it?" said McGarren, pleased to be consulted by the
opulent manager.
"The Custer Lodge is getting up a little entertainment for their own
good, and they'd like a little newspaper notice. You know what I mean-
a squib or two saying that it's going to take place."
"Certainly," said McGarren, "I can fix that for you, George."
At the same time Hurstwood kept himself wholly in the background.
The members of Custer Lodge could scarcely understand why their little
affair was taking so well. Mr. Harry Quincel was looked upon as
quite a star for this sort of work.
By the time the 16th had arrived Hurstwood's friends had rallied
like Romans to a senator's call. A well-dressed, good-natured,
flatteringly-inclined audience was assured from the moment he
thought of assisting Carrie.
That little student had mastered her part to her own satisfaction,
much as she trembled for her fate when she should once face the
gathered throng, behind the glare of the footlights. She tried to
console herself with the thought that a score of other persons, men
and women, were equally tremulous concerning the outcome of their
efforts, but she could not disassociate the general danger from her
own individual liability. She feared that she would forget her
lines, that she might be unable to master the feeling which she now
felt concerning her own movements in the play. At times she wished
that she had never gone into the affair; at others, she trembled
lest she should be paralysed with fear and stand white and gasping,
not knowing what to say and spoiling the entire performance.
In the matter of the company, Mr. Bamberger had disappeared. That
hopeless example had fallen under the lance of the director's
criticism. Mrs. Morgan was still present, but envious and
determined, if for nothing more than spite, to do as well as Carrie at
least. A loafing professional had been called in to assume the role of
Ray, and, while he was a poor stick of his kind, he was not troubled
by any of those qualms which attack the spirit of those who have never
faced an audience. He swashed about (cautioned though he was to
maintain silence concerning his past theatrical relationships) in such
a self-confident manner that he was like to convince every one of
his identity by mere matter of circumstantial evidence.
"It is so easy," he said to Mrs. Morgan, in the usual affected stage
voice. "An audience would be the last thing to trouble me. It's the
spirit of the part, you know, that is difficult."
Carrie disliked his appearance, but she was too much the actress not
to swallow his qualities with complaisance, seeing that she must
suffer his fictitious love for the evening.
At six she was ready to go. Theatrical paraphernalia had been
provided over and above her care. She had practised her make-up in the
morning, had rehearsed and arranged her material for the evening by
one o'clock, and had gone home to have a final look at her part,
waiting for the evening to come.
On this occasion the lodge sent a carriage. Drouet rode with her
as far as the door, and then went about the neighbouring stores,
looking for some good cigars. The little actress marched nervously
into her dressing-room and began that painfully anticipated matter
of make-up which was to transform her, a simple maiden, to Laura,
The Belle of Society.
The flare of the gas-jets, the open trunks, suggestive of travel and
display, the scattered contents of the make-up box- rouge, pearl
powder, whiting, burnt cork, India ink, pencils for the eyelids, wigs,
scissors, looking-glasses, drapery- in short, all the nameless
paraphernalia of disguise, have a remarkable atmosphere of their
own. Since her arrival in the city many things had influenced her, but
always in a far-removed manner. This new atmosphere was more friendly.
It was wholly unlike the great brilliant mansions which waved her
coldly away, permitting her only awe and distant wonder. This took her
by the hand kindly, as one who says, "My dear, come in." It opened for
her as if for its own. She had wondered at the greatness of the
names upon the bill-boards, the marvel of the long notices in the
papers, the beauty of the dresses upon the stage, the atmosphere of
carriages, flowers, refinement. Here was no illusion. Here was an open
door to see all of that. She had come upon it as one who stumbles upon
a secret passage, and, behold, she was in the chamber of diamonds
and delight!
As she dressed with a flutter, in her little stage room, hearing the
voices outside, seeing Mr. Quincel hurrying here and there, noting
Mrs. Morgan and Mrs. Hoagland at their nervous work of preparation,
seeing all the twenty members of the cast moving about and worrying
over what the result would be, she could not help thinking what a
delight this would be if it would endure; how perfect a state, if
she could only do well now, and then some time get a place as a real
actress. The thought had taken a mighty hold upon her. It hummed in
her ears as the melody of an old song.
Outside in the little lobby another scene was being enacted. Without
the interest of Hurstwood, the little hall would probably have been
comfortably filled, for the members of the lodge were moderately
interested in its welfare. Hurstwood's word, however, had gone the
rounds. It was to be a full-dress affair. The four boxes had been
taken. Dr. Norman McNeill Hale and his wife were to occupy one. This
was quite a card. C. R. Walker, drygoods merchant and possessor of
at least two hundred thousand dollars, had taken another; a well-known
coal merchant had been induced to take the third, and Hurstwood and
his friends the fourth. Among the latter was Drouet. The people who
were now pouring here were not celebrities, nor even local
notabilities, in a general sense. They were the lights of a certain
circle- the circle of small fortunes and secret order distinctions.
These gentlemen Elks knew the standing of one another. They had regard
for the ability which could amass a small fortune, own a nice home,
keep a barouche or carriage, perhaps, wear fine clothes, and
maintain a good mercantile position. Naturally, Hurstwood, who was a
little above the order of mind which accepted this standard as
perfect, who had shrewdness and much assumption of dignity, who held
an imposing and authoritative position, and commanded friendship by
intuitive tact in handling people, was quite a figure. He was more
generally known than most others in the same circle, and was looked
upon as some one whose reserve covered a mine of influence and solid
financial prosperity.
To-night he was in his element. He came with several friends
directly from Rector's in a carriage. In the lobby he met Drouet,
who was just returning from a trip for more cigars. All five now
joined in an animated conversation concerning the company present
and the general drift of lodge affairs.
"Who's here?" said Hurstwood, passing into the theatre proper, where
the lights were turned up and a company of gentlemen were laughing and
talking in the open space back of the seats.
"Why, how do you do, Mr. Hurstwood?" came from the first
individual recognised.
"Glad to see you," said the latter, grasping his hand lightly.
"Looks quite an affair, doesn't it?"
"Yes, indeed," said the manager.
"Custer seems to have the backing of its members," observed the
friend.
"So it should," said the knowing manager. "I'm glad to see it."
"Well, George," said another rotund citizen, whose avoirdupois
made necessary an almost alarming display of starched shirt bosom,
"how goes it with you?"
"Excellent," said the manager.
"What brings you over here? You're not a member of Custer."
"Good-nature," returned the manager. "Like to see the boys, you
know."
"Wife here?"
"She couldn't come to-night. She's not well."
"Sorry to hear it- nothing serious, I hope."
"No, just feeling a little ill."
"I remember Mrs. Hurstwood when she was travelling once with you
over to St. Joe-" and here the newcomer launched off in a trivial
recollection, which was terminated by the arrival of more friends.
"Why, George, how are you?" said another genial West Side politician
and lodge member. "My, but I'm glad to see you again; how are
things, anyhow?"
"Very well; I see you got that nomination for alderman."
"Yes, we whipped them out over there without much trouble."
"What do you suppose Hennessy will do now?"
"Oh, he'll go back to his brick business. He has a brick-yard, you
know."
"I didn't know that," said the manager. "Felt pretty sore, I
suppose, over his defeat."
"Perhaps," said the other, winking shrewdly.
Some of the more favoured of his friends whom he had invited began
to roll up in carriages now. They came shuffling in with a great
show of finery and much evident feeling of content and importance.
"Here we are," said Hurstwood, turning to one from a group with whom
he was talking.
"That's right," returned the newcomer, a gentleman of about
forty-five.
"And say," he whispered, jovially, pulling Hurstwood over by the
shoulder so that he might whisper in his ear, "if this isn't a good
show, I'll punch your head."
"You ought to pay for seeing your old friends. Bother the show!"
To another who inquired, "Is it something really good?" the
manager replied:
"I don't know. I don't suppose so." Then, lifting his hand
graciously, "For the lodge."
"Lots of boys out, eh?"
"Yes, look up Shanahan. He was just asking for you a moment ago."
It was thus that the little theatre resounded to a babble of
successful voices, the creak of fine clothes, the commonplace of
good-nature, and all largely because of this man's bidding. Look at
him any time within the half hour before the curtain was up, he was
a member of an eminent group- a rounded company of five or more
whose stout figures, large white bosoms, and shining pins bespoke
the character of their success. The gentlemen who brought their
wives called him out to shake hands. Seats clicked, ushers bowed while
he looked blandly on. He was evidently a light among them,
reflecting in his personality the ambitions of those who greeted
him. He was acknowledged, fawned upon, in a way lionised. Through it
all one could see the standing of the man. It was greatness in a
way, small as it was.
Chapter XIX.
AN HOUR IN ELFLAND: A CLAMOUR HALF HEARD
At last the curtain was ready to go up. All the details of the
make-up had been completed, and the company settled down as the leader
of the small, hired orchestra tapped significantly upon his music rack
with his baton and began the soft curtain-raising strain. Hurstwood
ceased talking, and went with Drouet and his friend Sagar Morrison
around to the box.
"Now, we'll see how the little girl does," he said to Drouet, in a
tone which no one else could hear.
On the stage, six of the characters had already appeared in the
opening parlour scene. Drouet and Hurstwood saw at a glance that
Carrie was not among them, and went on talking in a whisper. Mrs.
Morgan, Mrs. Hoagland, and the actor who had taken Bamberger's part
were representing the principal roles in this scene. The professional,
whose name was Patton, had little to recommend him outside of his
assurance, but this at the present moment was most palpably needed.
Mrs. Morgan, as Pearl, was stiff with fright. Mrs. Hoagland was
husky in the throat. The whole company was so weak-kneed that the
lines were merely spoken, and nothing more. It took all the hope and
uncritical good-nature of the audience to keep from manifesting pity
by that unrest which is the agony of failure.
Hurstwood was perfectly indifferent. He took it for granted that
it would be worthless. All he cared for was to have it endurable
enough to allow for pretension and congratulation afterward.
After the first rush of fright, however, the players got over the
danger of collapse. They rambled weakly forward, losing nearly all the
expression which was intended, and making the thing dull in the
extreme, when Carrie came in.
One glance at her, and both Hurstwood and Drouet saw plainly that
she also was weak-kneed. She came faintly across the stage, saying:
"And you, sir; we have been looking for you since eight o'clock,"
but with so little colour and in such a feeble voice that it was
positively painful.
"She's frightened," whispered Drouet to Hurstwood.
The manager made no answer.
She had a line presently which was supposed to be funny.
"Well, that's as much as to say that I'm a sort of life pill."
It came out so flat, however, that it was a deathly thing. Drouet
fidgeted. Hurstwood moved his toe the least bit.
There was another place in which Laura was to rise and, with a sense
of impending disaster, say, sadly:
"I wish you hadn't said that, Pearl. You know the old proverb, 'Call
a maid by a married name.'"
The lack of feeling in the thing was ridiculous. Carrie did not
get it at all. She seemed to be talking in her sleep. It looked as
if she were certain to be a wretched failure. She was more hopeless
than Mrs. Morgan, who had recovered somewhat, and was now saying her
lines clearly at least. Drouet looked away from the stage at the
audience. The latter held out silently, hoping for a general change,
of course. Hurstwood fixed his eye on Carrie, as if to hypnotise her
into doing better. He was pouring determination of his own in her
direction. He felt sorry for her.
In a few more minutes it fell to her to read the letter sent in by
the strange villain. The audience had been slightly diverted by a
conversation between the professional actor and a character called
Snorky, impersonated by a short little American, who really
developed some humour as a half-crazed, one-armed soldier, turned
messenger for a living. He bawled his lines out with such defiance
that, while they really did not partake of the humour intended, they
were funny. Now he was off, however, and it was back to pathos, with
Carrie as the chief figure. She did not recover. She wandered
through the whole scene between herself and the intruding villain,
straining the patience of the audience, and finally exiting, much to
their relief.
"She's too nervous," said Drouet, feeling in the mildness of the
remark that he was lying for once.
"Better go back and say a word to her."
Drouet was glad to do anything for relief. He fairly hustled
around to the side entrance, and was let in by the friendly
door-keeper. Carrie was standing in the wings, weakly waiting her next
cue, all the snap and nerve gone out of her.
"Say, Cad," he said, looking at her, "you mustn't be nervous. Wake
up. Those guys out there don't amount to anything. What are you afraid
of?"
"I don't know," said Carrie. "I just don't seem to be able to do
it."
She was grateful for the drummer's presence, though. She had found
the company so nervous that her own strength had gone.
"Come on," said Drouet. "Brace up. What are you afraid of? Go on out
there now, and do the trick. What do you care?"
Carrie revived a little under the drummer's electrical, nervous
condition.
"Did I do so very bad?"
"Not a bit. All you need is a little more ginger. Do it as you
showed me. Get that toss of your head you had the other night."
Carrie remembered her triumph in the room. She tried to think she
could do it.
"What's next?" he said, looking at her part, which she had been
studying.
"Why, the scene between Ray and me when I refuse him."
"Well, now you do that lively," said the drummer. "Put in snap,
that's the thing. Act as if you didn't care."
"Your turn next, Miss Madenda," said the prompter.
"Oh, dear," said Carrie.
"Well, you're a chump for being afraid," said Drouet. "Come on
now, brace up. I'll watch you from right here."
"Will you?" said Carrie.
"Yes, now go on. Don't be afraid."
The prompter signalled her.
She started out, weak as ever, but suddenly her nerve partially
returned. She thought of Drouet looking.
"Ray," she said, gently, using a tone of voice much more calm than
when she had last appeared. It was the scene which had pleased the
director at the rehearsal.
"She's easier," thought Hurstwood to himself.
She did not do the part as she had at rehearsal, but she was better.
The audience was at least not irritated. The improvement of the work
of the entire company took away direct observation from her. They were
making very fair progress, and now it looked as if the play would be
passable, in the less trying parts at least.
Carrie came off warm and nervous.
"Well," she said, looking at him, "was it any better?"
"Well, I should say so. That's the way. Put life into it. You did
that about a thousand per cent. better than you did the other scene.
Now go on and fire up. You can do it. Knock 'em."
"Was it really better?"
"Better, I should say so. What comes next?"
"That ballroom scene."
"Well, you can do that all right," he said.
"I don't know," answered Carrie.
"Why, woman," he exclaimed, "you did it for me! Now you go out there
and do it. It'll be fun for you. Just do as you did in the room. If
you'll reel it off that way, I'll bet you make a hit. Now, what'll you
bet? You do it."
The drummer usually allowed his ardent good-nature to get the better
of his speech. He really did think that Carrie had acted this
particular scene very well, and he wanted her to repeat it in
public. His enthusiasm was due to the mere spirit of the occasion.
When the time came, he buoyed Carrie up most effectually. He began
to make her feel as if she had done very well. The old melancholy of
desire began to come back as he talked at her, and by the time the
situation rolled around she was running high in feeling.
"I think I can do this."
"Sure you can. Now you go ahead and see."
On the stage, Mrs. Van Dam was making her cruel insinuation
against Laura.
Carrie listened, and caught the infection of something- she did
not know what. Her nostrils sniffed thinly.
"It means," the professional actor began, speaking as Ray, "that
society is a terrible avenger of insult. Have you ever heard of the
Siberian wolves? When one of the pack falls through weakness, the
others devour him. It is not an elegant comparison, but there is
something wolfish in society. Laura has mocked it with a pretence, and
society, which is made up of pretence, will bitterly resent the
mockery."
At the sound of her stage name Carrie started. She began to feel the
bitterness of the situation. The feelings of the outcast descended
upon her. She hung at the wing's edge, wrapt in her own mounting
thoughts. She hardly heard anything more, save her own rumbling blood.
"Come, girls," said Mrs. Van Dam, solemnly, "let us look after our
things. They are no longer safe when such an accomplished thief
enters."
"Cue," said the prompter, close to her side, but she did not hear.
Already she was moving forward with a steady grace, born of
inspiration. She dawned upon the audience, handsome and proud,
shifting, with the necessity of the situation, to a cold, white,
helpless object, as the social pack moved away from her scornfully.
Hurstwood blinked his eyes and caught the infection. The radiating
waves of feeling and sincerity were already breaking against the
farthest walls of the chamber. The magic of passion, which will yet
dissolve the world, was here at work.
There was a drawing, too, of attention, a riveting of feeling,
heretofore wandering.
"Ray! Ray! Why do you not come back to her?" was the cry of Pearl.
Every eye was fixed on Carrie, still proud and scornful. They
moved as she moved. Their eyes were with her eyes.
Mrs. Morgan, as Pearl, approached her.
"Let us go home," she said.
"No," answered Carrie, her voice assuming for the first time a
penetrating quality which it had never known. "Stay with him!"
She pointed an almost accusing hand toward her lover. Then, with a
pathos which struck home because of its utter simplicity, "He shall
not suffer long."
Hurstwood realised that he was seeing something extraordinarily
good. It was heightened for him by the applause of the audience as the
curtain descended and the fact that it was Carrie. He thought now that
she was beautiful. She had done something which was above his
sphere. He felt a keen delight in realising that she was his.
"Fine," he said, and then, seized by a sudden impulse, arose and
went about to the stage door.
When he came in upon Carrie she was still with Drouet. His
feelings for her were most exuberant. He was almost swept away by
the strength and feeling she exhibited. His desire was to pour forth
his praise with the unbounded feelings of a lover, but here was
Drouet, whose affection was also rapidly reviving. The latter was more
fascinated, if anything, than Hurstwood. At least, in the nature of
things, it took a more ruddy form.
"Well, well," said Drouet, "you did out of sight. That was simply
great. I knew you could do it. Oh, but you're a little daisy!"
Carrie's eyes flamed with the light of achievement.
"Did I do all right?"
"Did you? Well, I guess. Didn't you hear the applause?"
There was some faint sound of clapping yet.
"I thought I got it something like- I felt it."
Just then Hurstwood came in. Instinctively he felt the change in
Drouet. He saw that the drummer was near to Carrie, and jealousy
leaped alight in his bosom. In a flash of thought, he reproached
himself for having sent him back. Also, he hated him as an intruder.
He could scarcely pull himself down to the level where he would have
to congratulate Carrie as a friend. Nevertheless, the man mastered
himself, and it was a triumph. He almost jerked the old subtle light
to his eyes.
"I thought," he said, looking at Carrie, "I would come around and
tell you how well you did, Mrs. Drouet. It was delightful."
Carrie took the cue, and replied:
"Oh, thank you."
"I was just telling her," put in Drouet, now delighted with his
possession, "that I thought she did fine."
"Indeed you did," said Hurstwood, turning upon Carrie eyes in
which she read more than the words.
Carrie laughed luxuriantly.
"If you do as well in the rest of the play, you will make us all
think you are a born actress."
Carrie smiled again. She felt the acuteness of Hurstwood's position,
and wished deeply that she could be alone with him, but she did not
understand the change in Drouet. Hurstwood found that he could not
talk, repressed as he was, and grudging Drouet every moment of his
presence, he bowed himself out with the elegance of a Faust. Outside
he set his teeth with envy.
"Damn it!" he said, "is he always going to be in the way?" He was
moody when he got back to the box, and could not talk for thinking
of his wretched situation.
As the curtain for the next act arose, Drouet came back. He was very
much enlivened in temper and inclined to whisper, but Hurstwood
pretended interest. He fixed his eyes on the stage, although Carrie
was not there, a short bit of melodramatic comedy preceding her
entrance. He did not see what was going on, however. He was thinking
his own thoughts, and they were wretched.
The progress of the play did not improve matters for him. Carrie,
from now on, was easily the centre of interest. The audience, which
had been inclined to feel that nothing could be good after the first
gloomy impression, now went to the other extreme and saw power where
it was not. The general feeling reacted on Carrie. She presented her
part with some felicity, though nothing like the intensity which had
aroused the feeling at the end of the long first act.
Both Hurstwood and Drouet viewed her pretty figure with rising
feelings. The fact that such ability should reveal itself in her, that
they should see it set forth under such effective circumstances,
framed almost in massy gold and shone upon by the appropriate lights
of sentiment and personality, heightened her charm for them. She was
more than the old Carrie to Drouet. He longed to be at home with her
until he could tell her. He awaited impatiently the end, when they
should go home alone.
Hurstwood, on the contrary, saw in the strength of her new
attractiveness his miserable predicament. He could have cursed the man
beside him. By the Lord, he could not even applaud feelingly as he
would. For once he must simulate when it left a taste in his mouth.
It was in the last act that Carrie's fascination for her lovers
assumed its most effective character.
Hurstwood listened to its progress, wondering when Carrie would come
on. He had not long to wait. The author had used the artifice of
sending all the merry company for a drive, and now Carrie came in
alone. It was the first time that Hurstwood had had a chance to see
her facing the audience quite alone, for nowhere else had she been
without a foil of some sort. He suddenly felt, as she entered, that
her old strength- the power that had grasped him at the end of the
first act- had come back. She seemed to be gaining feeling, now that
the play was drawing to a close and the opportunity for great action
was passing.
"Poor Pearl," she said, speaking with natural pathos. "It is a sad
thing to want for happiness, but it is a terrible thing to see another
groping about blindly for it, when it is almost within the grasp."
She was gazing now sadly out upon the open sea, her arm resting
listlessly upon the polished door-post.
Hurstwood began to feel a deep sympathy for her and for himself.
He could almost feel that she was talking to him. He was, by a
combination of feelings and entanglements, almost deluded by that
quality of voice and manner which, like a pathetic strain of music,
seems ever a personal and intimate thing. Pathos has this quality,
that it seems ever addressed to one alone.
"And yet, she can be very happy with him," went on the little
actress. "Her sunny temper, her joyous face will brighten any home."
She turned slowly toward the audience without seeing. There was so
much simplicity in her movements that she seemed wholly alone. Then
she found a seat by a table, and turned over some books, devoting a
thought to them.
"With no longings for what I may not have," she breathed in
conclusion- and it was almost a sigh- "my existence hidden from all
save two in the wide world, and making my joy out of the joy of that
innocent girl who will soon be his wife."
Hurstwood was sorry when a character, known as Peach Blossom,
interrupted her. He stirred irritably, for he wished her to go on.
He was charmed by the pale face, the lissome figure, draped in pearl
grey, with a coiled string of pearls at the throat. Carrie had the air
of one who was weary and in need of protection, and, under the
fascinating make-believe of the moment, he rose in feeling until he
was ready in spirit to go to her and ease her out of her misery by
adding to his own delight.
In a moment Carrie was alone again, and was saying, with animation:
"I must return to the city, no matter what dangers may lurk here.
I must go, secretly if I can; openly, if I must."
There was a sound of horses' hoofs outside, and then Ray's voice
saying:
"No, I shall not ride again. Put him up."
He entered, and then began a scene which had as much to do with
the creation of the tragedy of affection in Hurstwood as anything in
his peculiar and involved career. For Carrie had resolved to make
something of this scene, and, now that the cue had come, it began to
take a feeling hold upon her. Both Hurstwood and Drouet noted the
rising sentiment as she proceeded.
"I thought you had gone with Pearl," she said to her lover.
"I did go part of the way, but I left the party a mile down the
road."
"You and Pearl had no disagreement?"
"No- yes; that is, we always have. Our social barometers always
stand at 'cloudy' and 'overcast.'
"And whose fault is that?" she said, easily.
"Not mine," he answered, pettishly. "I know I do all I can- I say
all I can- but she-"
This was rather awkwardly put by Patton, but Carrie redeemed it with
a grace which was inspiring.
"But she is your wife," she said, fixing her whole attention upon
the stilled actor, and softening the quality of her voice until it was
again low and musical. "Ray, my friend, courtship is the text from
which the whole sermon of married life takes its theme. Do not let
yours be discontented and unhappy."
She put her two little hands together and pressed them appealingly.
Hurstwood gazed with slightly parted lips. Drouet was fidgeting with
satisfaction.
"To be my wife, yes," went on the actor in a manner which was weak
by comparison, but which could not now spoil the tender atmosphere
which Carrie had created and maintained. She did not seem to feel that
he was wretched. She would have done nearly as well with a block of
wood. The accessories she needed were within her own imagination.
The acting of others could not affect them.
"And you repent already?" she said, slowly.
"I lost you," he said, seizing her little hand, "and I was at the
mercy of any flirt who chose to give me an inviting look. It was
your fault- you know it was- why did you leave me?"
Carrie turned slowly away, and seemed to be mastering some impulse
in silence. Then she turned back.
"Ray," she said, "the greatest happiness I have ever felt has been
the thought that all your affection was forever bestowed upon a
virtuous woman, your equal in family, fortune, and accomplishments.
What a revelation do you make to me now! What is it makes you
continually war with your happiness?"
The last question was asked so simply that it came to the audience
and the lover as a personal thing.
At last it came to the part where the lover exclaimed, "Be to me
as you used to be."
Carrie answered, with affecting sweetness, "I cannot be that to you,
but I can speak in the spirit of the Laura who is dead to you
forever."
"Be it as you will," said Patton.
Hurstwood leaned forward. The whole audience was silent and intent.
"Let the woman you look upon be wise or vain," said Carrie, her eyes
bent sadly upon the lover, who had sunk into a seat, "beautiful or
homely, rich or poor, she has but one thing she can really give or
refuse- her heart,"
Drouet felt a scratch in his throat.
"Her beauty, her wit, her accomplishments, she may sell to you;
but her love is the treasure without money and without price."
The manager suffered this as a personal appeal. It came to him as if
they were alone, and he could hardly restrain the tears for sorrow
over the hopeless, pathetic, and yet dainty and appealing woman whom
he loved. Drouet also was beside himself. He was resolving that he
would be to Carrie what he had never been before. He would marry
her, by George! She was worth it.
"She asks only in return," said Carrie, scarcely hearing the
small, scheduled reply of her lover, and putting herself even more
in harmony with the plaintive melody now issuing from the orchestra,
"that when you look upon her your eyes shall speak devotion; that when
you address her your voice shall be gentle, loving, and kind; that you
shall not despise her because she cannot understand all at once your
vigorous thoughts and ambitious designs; for, when misfortune and evil
have defeated your greatest purposes, her love remains to console you.
You look to the trees," she continued, while Hurstwood restrained
his feelings only by the grimmest repression, "for strength and
grandeur; do not despise the flowers because their fragrance is all
they have to give. Remember," she concluded, tenderly, "love is all
a woman has to give," and she laid a strange, sweet accent on the all,
"but it is the only thing which God permits us to carry beyond the
grave."
The two men were in the most harrowed state of affection. They
scarcely heard the few remaining words with which the scene concluded.
They only saw their idol, moving about with appealing grace,
continuing a power which to them was a revelation.
Hurstwood resolved a thousand things, Drouet as well. They joined
equally in the burst of applause which called Carrie out. Drouet
pounded his hands until they ached. Then he jumped up again and
started out. As he went, Carrie came out, and, seeing an immense
basket of flowers being hurried down the aisle toward her, she waited.
They were Hurstwood's. She looked toward the manager's box for a
moment, caught his eye, and smiled. He could have leaped out of the
box to enfold her. He forgot the need of circumspectness which his
married state enforced. He almost forgot that he had with him in the
box those who knew him. By the Lord, he would have that lovely girl if
it took his all. He would act at once. This should be the end of
Drouet, and don't you forget it. He would not wait another day. The
drummer should not have her.
He was so excited that he could not stay in the box. He went into
the lobby, and then into the street, thinking. Drouet did not
return. In a few minutes the last act was over, and he was crazy to
have Carrie alone. He cursed the luck that could keep him smiling,
bowing, shamming, when he wanted to tell her that he loved her, when
he wanted to whisper to her alone. He groaned as he saw that his hopes
were futile. He must even take her to supper, shamming. He finally
went about and asked how she was getting along. The actors were all
dressing, talking, hurrying about. Drouet was palavering himself
with the looseness of excitement and passion. The manager mastered
himself only by a great effort.
"We are going to supper, of course," he said, with a voice that
was a mockery of his heart.
"Oh, yes," said Carrie, smiling.
The little actress was in fine feather. She was realising now what
it was to be petted. For once she was the admired, the sought-for. The
independence of success now made its first faint showing. With the
tables turned, she was looking down, rather than up, to her lover. She
did not fully realise that this was so, but there was something in
condescension coming from her which was infinitely sweet. When she was
ready they climbed into the waiting coach and drove down town; once,
only, did she find an opportunity to express her feeling, and that was
when the manager preceded Drouet in the coach and sat beside her.
Before Drouet was fully in she had squeezed Hurstwood's hand in a
gentle, impulsive manner. The manager was beside himself with
affection. He could have sold his soul to be with her alone. "Ah,"
he thought, "the agony of it."
Drouet hung on, thinking he was all in all. The dinner was spoiled
by his enthusiasm. Hurstwood went home feeling as if he should die
if he did not find affectionate relief. He whispered "to-morrow"
passionately to Carrie, and she understood. He walked away from the
drummer and his prize at parting feeling as if he could slay him and
not regret. Carrie also felt the misery of it.
"Good-night," he said, simulating an easy friendliness.
"Good-night," said the little actress, tenderly.
"The fool!" he said, now hating Drouet. "The idiot! I'll do him yet,
and that quick! We'll see to-morrow."
"Well, if you aren't a wonder," Drouet was saying, complacently,
squeezing Carrie's arm. "You are the dandiest little girl on earth."
Chapter XX.
THE LURE OF THE SPIRIT: THE FLESH IN PURSUIT
Passion in a man of Hurstwood's nature takes a vigorous form. It
is no musing, dreamy thing. There is none of the tendency to sing
outside of my lady's window- to languish and repine in the face of
difficulties. In the night he was long getting to sleep because of too
much thinking, and in the morning he was early awake, seizing with
alacrity upon the same dear subject and pursuing it with vigour. He
was out of sorts physically, as well as disordered mentally, for did
he not delight in a new manner in his Carrie, and was not Drouet in
the way? Never was man more harassed than he by the thoughts of his
love being held by the elated, flush-mannered drummer. He would have
given anything, it seemed to him, to have the complication ended- to
have Carrie acquiesce to an arrangement which would dispose of
Drouet effectually and forever.
What to do. He dressed thinking. He moved about in the same
chamber with his wife, unmindful of her presence.
At breakfast he found himself without an appetite. The meat to which
he helped himself remained on his plate untouched. His coffee grew
cold, while he scanned the paper indifferently. Here and there he read
a little thing, but remembered nothing. Jessica had not yet come down.
His wife sat at one end of the table revolving thoughts of her own
in silence. A new servant had been recently installed and had forgot
the napkins. On this account the silence was irritably broken by a
reproof.
"I've told you about this before, Maggie," said Mrs. Hurstwood. "I'm
not going to tell you again."
Hurstwood took a glance at his wife. She was frowning. Just now
her manner irritated him excessively. Her next remark was addressed to
him.
"Have you made up your mind, George, when you will take your
vacation?"
It was customary for them to discuss the regular summer outing at
this season of the year.
"Not yet," he said, "I'm very busy just now."
"Well, you'll want to make up your mind pretty soon, won't you, if
we're going?" she returned.
"I guess we have a few days yet," he said.
"Hmff," she returned. "Don't wait until the season's over."
She stirred in aggravation as she said this.
"There you go again," he observed. "One would think I never did
anything, the way you begin."
"Well, I want to know about it," she reiterated.
"You've got a few days yet," he insisted. "You'll not want to
start before the races are over."
He was irritated to think that this should come up when he wished to
have his thoughts for other purposes.
"Well, we may. Jessica doesn't want to stay until the end of the
races."
"What did you want with a season ticket, then?"
"Uh!" she said, using the sound as an exclamation of disgust,
"I'll not argue with you," and therewith arose to leave the table.
"Say," he said, rising, putting a note of determination in his voice
which caused her to delay her departure, "what's the matter with you
of late? Can't I talk with you any more?"
"Certainly, you can talk with me," she replied, laying emphasis on
the word.
"Well, you wouldn't think so by the way you act. Now, you want to
know when I'll be ready- not for a month yet. Maybe not then."
"We'll go without you."
"You will, eh?" he sneered.
"Yes, we will."
He was astonished at the woman's determination, but it only
irritated him the more.
"Well, we'll see about that. It seems to me you're trying to run
things with a pretty high hand of late. You talk as though you settled
my affairs for me. Well, you don't. You don't regulate anything that's
connected with me. If you want to go, go, but you won't hurry me by
any such talk as that."
He was thoroughly aroused now. His dark eyes snapped, and he
crunched his paper as he laid it down. Mrs. Hurstwood said nothing
more. He was just finishing when she turned on her heel and went out
into the hall and upstairs. He paused for a moment, as if
hesitating, then sat down and drank a little coffee, and thereafter
arose and went for his hat and gloves upon the main floor.
His wife had really not anticipated a row of this character. She had
come down to the breakfast table feeling a little out of sorts with
herself and revolving a scheme which she had in her mind. Jessica
had called her attention to the fact that the races were not what they
were supposed to be. The social opportunities were not what they had
thought they would be this year. The beautiful girl found going
every day a dull thing. There was an earlier exodus this year of
people who were anybody to the watering places and Europe. In her
own circle of acquaintances several young men in whom she was
interested had gone to Waukesha. She began to feel that she would like
to go too, and her mother agreed with her.
Accordingly, Mrs. Hurstwood decided to broach the subject. She was
thinking this over when she came down to the table, but for some
reason the atmosphere was wrong. She was not sure, after it was all
over, just how the trouble had begun. She was determined now, however,
that her husband was a brute, and that, under no circumstances,
would she let this go by unsettled. She would have more lady-like
treatment or she would know why.
For his part, the manager was loaded with the care of this new
argument until he reached his office and started from there to meet
Carrie. Then the other complications of love, desire, and opposition
possessed him. His thoughts fled on before him upon eagles' wings.
He could hardly wait until he should meet Carrie face to face. What
was the night, after all, without her- what the day? She must and
should be his.
For her part, Carrie had experienced a world of fancy and feeling
since she had left him, the night before. She had listened to Drouet's
enthusiastic maunderings with much regard for that part which
concerned herself, with very little for that which affected his own
gain. She kept him at such lengths as she could, because her
thoughts were with her own triumph. She felt Hurstwood's passion as
a delightful background to her own achievement, and she wondered
what he would have to say. She was sorry for him, too, with that
peculiar sorrow which finds something complimentary to itself in the
misery of another. She was now experiencing the first shades of
feeling of that subtle change which removes one out of the ranks of
the suppliants into the lines of the dispensers of charity. She was,
all in all, exceedingly happy.
On the morrow, however, there was nothing in the papers concerning
the event, and, in view of the flow of common, everyday things
about, it now lost a shade of the glow of the previous evening. Drouet
himself was not talking so much of as for her. He felt instinctively
that, for some reason or other, he needed reconstruction in her
regard.
"I think," he said, as he spruced around their chambers the next
morning, preparatory to going down town, "that I'll straighten out
that little deal of mine this month and then we'll get married. I
was talking with Mosher about that yesterday."
"No, you won't," said Carrie, who was coming to feel a certain faint
power to jest with the drummer.
"Yes, I will," he exclaimed, more feelingly than usual, adding, with
the tone of one who pleads, "Don't you believe what I've told you?"
Carrie laughed a little.
"Of course I do," she answered.
Drouet's assurance now misgave him. Shallow as was his mental
observation, there was that in the things which had happened which
made his little power of analysis useless. Carrie was still with
him, but not helpless and pleading. There was a lilt in her voice
which was new. She did not study him with eyes expressive of
dependence. The drummer was feeling the shadow of something which
was coming. It coloured his feelings and made him develop those little
attentions and say those little words which were mere forefendations
against danger.
Shortly afterward he departed, and Carrie prepared for her meeting
with Hurstwood. She hurried at her toilet, which was soon made, and
hastened down the stairs. At the corner she passed Drouet, but they
did not see each other.
The drummer had forgotten some bills which he wished to turn into
his house. He hastened up the stairs and burst into the room, but
found only the chambermaid, who was cleaning up.
"Hello," he exclaimed, half to himself, "has Carrie gone?"
"Your wife? Yes, she went out just a few minutes ago."
"That's strange," thought Drouet. "She didn't say a word to me. I
wonder where she went?"
He hastened about, rummaging in his valise for what he wanted, and
finally pocketing it. Then he turned his attention to his fair
neighbour, who was good-looking and kindly disposed towards him.
"What are you up to?" he said, smiling.
"Just cleaning," she replied, stopping and winding a dusting towel
about her hand.
"Tired of it?"
"Not so very."
"Let me show you something," he said, affably, coming over and
taking out of his pocket a little lithographed card which had been
issued by a wholesale tobacco company. On this was printed a picture
of a pretty girl, holding a striped parasol, the colours of which
could be changed by means of a revolving disk in the back, which
showed red, yellow, green, and blue through little interstices made in
the ground occupied by the umbrella top.
"Isn't that clever?" he said, handing it to her and showing her
how it worked. "You never saw anything like that before."
"Isn't it nice?" she answered.
"You can have it if you want it," he remarked.
"That's a pretty ring you have," he said, touching a commonplace
setting which adorned the hand holding the card he had given her.
"Do you think so?"
"That's right," he answered, making use of a pretence at examination
to secure her finger. "That's fine."
The ice being thus broken, he launched into further observation,
pretending to forget that her fingers were still retained by his.
She soon withdrew them, however, and retreated a few feet to rest
against the window-sill.
"I didn't see you for a long time," she said, coquettishly,
repulsing one of his exuberant approaches. "You must have been away."
"I was," said Drouet.
"Do you travel far?"
"Pretty far- yes."
"Do you like it?"
"Oh, not very well. You get tired of it after a while."
"I wish I could travel," said the girl, gazing idly out of the
window.
"What has become of your friend, Hurstwood?" she suddenly asked,
bethinking herself of the manager, who, from her own observation,
seemed to contain promising material.
"He's here in town. What makes you ask about him?"
"Oh, nothing, only he hasn't been here since you got back."
"How did you come to know him?"
"Didn't I take up his name a dozen times in the last month?"
"Get out," said the drummer, lightly. "He hasn't called more than
half a dozen times since we've been here."
"He hasn't, eh?" said the girl, smiling. "That's all you know
about it."
Drouet took on a slightly more serious tone. He was uncertain as
to whether she was joking or not.
"Tease," he said, "what makes you smile that way?"
"Oh, nothing."
"Have you seen him recently?"
"Not since you came back," she laughed.
"Before?"
"Certainly."
"How often?"
"Why, nearly every day."
She was a mischievous newsmonger, and was keenly wondering what
the effect of her words would be.
"Who did he come to see?" asked the drummer, incredulously.
"Mrs. Drouet."
He looked rather foolish at this answer, and then attempted to
correct himself so as not to appear a dupe.
"Well," he said, "what of it?"
"Nothing," replied the girl, her head cocked coquettishly on one
side.
"He's an old friend," he went on, getting deeper into the mire.
He would have gone on further with his little flirtation, but the
taste for it was temporarily removed. He was quite relieved when the
girl's name was called from below.
"I've got to go," she said, moving away from him airily.
"I'll see you later," he said, with a pretence of disturbance at
being interrupted.
When she was gone, he gave freer play to his feelings. His face,
never easily controlled by him, expressed all the perplexity and
disturbance which he felt. Could it be that Carrie had received so
many visits and yet said nothing about them? Was Hurstwood lying? What
did the chambermaid mean by it, anyway? He had thought there was
something odd about Carrie's manner at the time. Why did she look so
disturbed when he had asked her how many times Hurstwood had called?
By George! he remembered now. There was something strange about the
whole thing.
He sat down in a rocking-chair to think the better, drawing up one
leg on his knee and frowning mightily. His mind ran on at a great
rate.
And yet Carrie hadn't acted out of the ordinary. It couldn't be,
by George, that she was deceiving him. She hadn't acted that way. Why,
even last night she had been as friendly toward him as could be, and
Hurstwood too. Look how they acted! He could hardly believe they would
try to deceive him.
His thoughts burst into words.
"She did act sort of funny at times. Here she had dressed and gone
out this morning and never said a word."
He scratched his head and prepared to go down town. He was still
frowning. As he came into the hall he encountered the girl, who was
now looking after another chamber. She had on a white dusting cap,
beneath which her chubby face shone good-naturedly. Drouet almost
forgot his worry in the fact that she was smiling on him. He put his
hand familiarly on her shoulder, as if only to greet her in passing.
"Got over being mad?" she said, still mischievously inclined.
"I'm not mad," he answered.
"I thought you were," she said, smiling.
"Quit your fooling about that," he said, in an offhand way. "Were
you serious?"
"Certainly," she answered. Then, with an air of one who did not
intentionally mean to create trouble, "He came lots of times. I
thought you knew."
The game of deception was up with Drouet. He did not try to simulate
indifference further.
"Did he spend the evenings here?" he asked.
"Sometimes. Sometimes they went out."
"In the evening?"
"Yes. You mustn't look so mad, though."
"I'm not," he said. "Did any one else see him?"
"Of course," said the girl, as if, after all, it were nothing in
particular.
"How long ago was this?"
"Just before you came back."
The drummer pinched his lip nervously.
"Don't say anything, will you?" he asked, giving the girl's arm a
gentle squeeze.
"Certainly not," she returned. "I wouldn't worry over it."
"All right," he said, passing on, seriously brooding for once, and
yet not wholly unconscious of the fact that he was making a most
excellent impression upon the chambermaid.
"I'll see her about that," he said to himself, passionately, feeling
that he had been unduly wronged. "I'll find out, b'George, whether
she'll act that way or not."
Chapter XXI.
THE LURE OF THE SPIRIT: THE FLESH IN PURSUIT
When Carrie came Hurstwood had been waiting many minutes. His
blood was warm; his nerves wrought up. He was anxious to see the woman
who had stirred him so profoundly the night before.
"Here you are," he said, repressedly, feeling a spring in his
limbs and an elation which was tragic in itself.
"Yes," said Carrie.
They walked on as if bound for some objective point, while Hurstwood
drank in the radiance of her presence. The rustle of her pretty
skirt was like music to him.
"Are you satisfied?" he asked, thinking of how well she did the
night before.
"Are you?"
He tightened his fingers as he saw the smile she gave him.
"It was wonderful."
Carrie laughed ecstatically.
"That was one of the best things I've seen in a long time," he
added.
He was dwelling on her attractiveness as he had felt it the evening
before, and mingling it with the feeling her presence inspired now.
Carrie was dwelling in the atmosphere which this man created for
her. Already she was enlivened and suffused with a glow. She felt
his drawing toward her in every sound of his voice.
"Those were such nice flowers you sent me," she said, after a moment
or two. "They were beautiful."
"Glad you liked them," he answered, simply.
He was thinking all the time that the subject of his desire was
being delayed. He was anxious to turn the talk to his own feelings.
All was ripe for it. His Carrie was beside him. He wanted to plunge in
and expostulate with her, and yet he found himself fishing for words
and feeling for a way.
"You got home all right," he said, gloomily, of a sudden, his tone
modifying itself to one of self-commiseration.
"Yes," said Carrie, easily.
He looked at her steadily for a moment, slowing his pace and
fixing her with his eye.
She felt the flood of feeling.
"How about me?" he asked.
This confused Carrie considerably, for she realised the floodgates
were open. She didn't know exactly what to answer.
"I don't know," she answered.
He took his lower lip between his teeth for a moment, and then let
it go. He stopped by the walk side and kicked the grass with his
toe. He searched her face with a tender, appealing glance.
"Won't you come away from him?" he asked, intensely.
"I don't know," returned Carrie, still illogically drifting and
finding nothing at which to catch.
As a matter of fact, she was in a most hopeless quandary. Here was a
man whom she thoroughly liked, who exercised an influence over her,
sufficient almost to delude her into the belief that she was possessed
of a lively passion for him. She was still the victim of his keen
eyes, his suave manners, his fine clothes. She looked and saw before
her a man who was most gracious and sympathetic, who leaned toward her
with a feeling that was a delight to observe. She could not resist the
glow of his temperament, the light of his eye. She could hardly keep
from feeling what he felt.
And yet she was not without thoughts which were disturbing. What did
he know? What had Drouet told him? Was she a wife in his eyes, or
what? Would he marry her? Even while he talked, and she softened,
and her eyes were lighted with a tender glow, she was asking herself
if Drouet had told him they were not married. There was never anything
at all convincing about what Drouet said.
And yet she was not grieved at Hurstwood's love. No strain of
bitterness was in it for her, whatever he knew. He was evidently
sincere. His passion was real and warm. There was power in what he
said. What should she do? She went on thinking this, answering
vaguely, languishing affectionately, and altogether drifting, until
she was on a borderless sea of speculation.
"Why don't you come away?" he said, tenderly. "I will arrange for
you whatever-"
"Oh, don't," said Carrie.
"Don't what?" he asked. "What do you mean?"
There was a look of confusion and pain in her face. She was
wondering why that miserable thought must be brought in. She was
struck as by a blade with the miserable provision which was outside
the pale of marriage.
He himself realised that it was a wretched thing to have dragged in.
He wanted to weigh the effects of it, and yet he could not see. He
went beating on, flushed by her presence, clearly awakened,
intensely enlisted in his plan.
"Won't you come?" he said, beginning over and with a more reverent
feeling. "You know I can't do without you- you know it- it can't go on
this way- can it?"
"I know," said Carrie.
"I wouldn't ask if I- I wouldn't argue with you if I could help
it. Look at me, Carrie. Put yourself in my place. You don't want to
stay away from me, do you?"
She shook her head as if in deep thought.
"Then why not settle the whole thing, once and for all?"
"I don't know," said Carrie.
"Don't know! Ah, Carrie, what makes you say that? Don't torment
me. Be serious."
"I am," said Carrie, softly.
"You can't be, dearest, and say that. Not when you know how I love
you. Look at last night."
His manner as he said this was the most quiet imaginable. His face
and body retained utter composure. Only his eyes moved, and they
flashed a subtle, dissolving fire. In them the whole intensity of
the man's nature was distilling itself.
Carrie made no answer.
"How can you act this way, dearest?" he inquired, after a time. "You
love me, don't you?"
He turned on her such a storm of feeling that she was overwhelmed.
For the moment all doubts were cleared away.
"Yes," she answered, frankly and tenderly.
"Well, then you'll come, won't you- come to-night?"
Carrie shook her head in spite of her distress.
"I can't wait any longer," urged Hurstwood. "If that is too soon,
come Saturday."
"When will we be married?" she asked, diffidently, forgetting in her
difficult situation that she had hoped he took her to be Drouet's
wife.
The manager started, hit as he was by a problem which was more
difficult than hers. He gave no sign of the thoughts that flashed like
messages to his mind.
"Any time you say," he said, with ease, refusing to discolour his
present delight with this miserable problem.
"Saturday?" asked Carrie.
He nodded his head.
"Well, if you will marry me then," she said, "I'll go."
The manager looked at his lovely prize, so beautiful, so winsome, so
difficult to be won, and made strange resolutions. His passion had
gotten to that stage now where it was no longer coloured with
reason. He did not trouble over little barriers of this sort in the
face of so much loveliness. He would accept the situation with all its
difficulties; he would not try to answer the objections which cold
truth thrust upon him. He would promise anything, everything, and
trust to fortune to disentangle him. He would make a try for Paradise,
whatever might be the result. He would be happy, by the Lord, if it
cost all honesty of statement, all abandonment of truth.
Carrie looked at him tenderly. She could have laid her head upon his
shoulder, so delightful did it all seem.
"Well," she said, "I'll try and get ready then."
Hurstwood looked into her pretty face, crossed with little shadows
of wonder and misgiving, and thought he had never seen anything more
lovely.
"I'll see you again to-morrow," he said, joyously, "and we'll talk
over the plans."
He walked on with her, elated beyond words, so delightful had been
the result. He impressed a long story of joy and affection upon her,
though there was but here and there a word. After a half-hour he began
to realise that the meeting must come to an end, so exacting is the
world.
"To-morrow," he said at parting, a gayety of manner adding
wonderfully to his brave demeanour.
"Yes," said Carrie, tripping elatedly away.
There had been so much enthusiasm engendered that she was
believing herself deeply in love. She sighed as she thought of her
handsome adorer. Yes, she would get ready by Saturday. She would go,
and they would be happy.
Chapter XXII.
THE BLAZE OF THE TINDER: FLESH WARS WITH THE FLESH
The misfortune of the Hurstwood household was due to the fact that
jealousy, having been born of love, did not perish with it. Mrs.
Hurstwood retained this in such form that subsequent influences
could transform it into hate. Hurstwood was still worthy, in a
physical sense, of the affection his wife had once bestowed upon
him, but in a social sense he fell short. With his regard died his
power to be attentive to her, and this, to a woman, is much greater
than outright crime toward another. Our self-love dictates our
appreciation of the good or evil in another. In Mrs. Hurstwood it
discoloured the very hue of her husband's indifferent nature. She
saw design in deeds and phrases which sprung only from a faded
appreciation of her presence.
As a consequence, she was resentful and suspicious. The jealousy
that prompted her to observe every falling away from the little
amenities of the married relation on his part served to give her
notice of the airy grace with which he still took the world. She could
see from the scrupulous care which he exercised in the matter of his
personal appearance that his interest in life had abated not a jot.
Every motion, every glance had something in it of the pleasure he felt
in Carrie, of the zest this new pursuit of pleasure lent to his
days. Mrs. Hurstwood felt something, sniffing change, as animals do
danger, afar off.
This feeling was strengthened by actions of a direct and more potent
nature on the part of Hurstwood. We have seen with what irritation
he shirked those little duties which no longer contained any amusement
or satisfaction for him, and the open snarls with which, more
recently, he resented her irritating goads. These little rows were
really precipitated by an atmosphere which was surcharged with
dissension. That it would shower, with a sky so full of blackening
thunder-clouds, would scarcely be thought worthy of comment. Thus,
after leaving the breakfast table this morning, raging inwardly at his
blank declaration of indifference at her plans, Mrs. Hurstwood
encountered Jessica in her dressing-room, very leisurely arranging her
hair. Hurstwood had already left the house.
"I wish you wouldn't be so late coming down to breakfast," she said,
addressing Jessica, while making for her crochet basket. "Now here the
things are quite cold, and you haven't eaten."
Her natural composure was sadly ruffled, and Jessica was doomed to
feel the fag end of the storm.
"I'm not hungry," she answered.
"Then why don't you say so, and let the girl put away the things,
instead of keeping her waiting all morning?"
"She doesn't mind," answered Jessica, coolly.
"Well, I do, if she doesn't," returned the mother, "and, anyhow, I
don't like you to talk that way to me. You're too young to put on such
an air with your mother."
"Oh, mamma, don't row," answered Jessica. "What's the matter this
morning, anyway?"
"Nothing's the matter, and I'm not rowing. You mustn't think because
I indulge you in some things that you can keep everybody waiting. I
won't have it."
"I'm not keeping anybody waiting," returned Jessica, sharply,
stirred out of a cynical indifference to a sharp defence. "I said I
wasn't hungry. I don't want any breakfast."
"Mind how you address me, missy. I'll not have it. Hear me now; I'll
not have it!"
Jessica heard this last while walking out of the room, with a toss
of her head and a flick of her pretty skirts indicative of the
independence and indifference she felt. She did not propose to be
quarrelled with.
Such little arguments were all too frequent, the result of a
growth of natures which were largely independent and selfish.
George, Jr., manifested even greater touchiness and exaggeration in
the matter of his individual rights, and attempted to make all feel
that he was a man with a man's privileges- an assumption which, of all
things, is most groundless and pointless in a youth of nineteen.
Hurstwood was a man of authority and some fine feeling, and it
irritated him excessively to find himself surrounded more and more
by a world upon which he had no hold, and of which he had a
lessening understanding.
Now, when such little things, such as the proposed earlier start
to Waukesha, came up, they made clear to him his position. He was
being made to follow, was not leading. When, in addition, a sharp
temper was manifested, and to the process of shouldering him out of
his authority was added a rousing intellectual kick, such as a sneer
or a cynical laugh, he was unable to keep his temper. He flew into
hardly repressed passion, and wished himself clear of the whole
household. It seemed a most irritating drag upon all his desires and
opportunities.
For all this, he still retained the semblance of leadership and
control, even though his wife was straining to revolt. Her display
of temper and open assertion of opposition were based upon nothing
more than the feeling that she could do it. She had no special
evidence wherewith to justify herself- the knowledge of something
which would give her both authority and excuse. The latter was all
that was lacking, however, to give a solid foundation to what, in a
way, seemed groundless discontent. The clear proof of one overt deed
was the cold breath needed to convert the lowering clouds of suspicion
into a rain of wrath.
An inkling of untoward deeds on the part of Hurstwood had come.
Doctor Beale, the handsome resident physician of the neighbourhood,
met Mrs. Hurstwood at her own doorstep some days after Hurstwood and
Carrie had taken the drive west on Washington Boulevard. Dr. Beale,
coming east on the same drive, had recognised Hurstwood, but not
before he was quite past him. He was not so sure of Carrie- did not
know whether it was Hurstwood's wife or daughter.
"You don't speak to your friends when you meet them out driving,
do you?" he said, jocosely, to Mrs. Hurstwood.
"If I see them, I do. Where was I?"
"On Washington Boulevard," he answered, expecting her eye to light
with immediate remembrance.
She shook her head.
"Yes, out near Hoyne Avenue. You were with your husband."
"I guess you're mistaken," she answered. Then, remembering her
husband's part in the affair, she immediately fell a prey to a host of
young suspicions, of which, however, she gave no sign.
"I know I saw your husband," he went on. "I wasn't so sure about
you. Perhaps it was your daughter."
"Perhaps it was," said Mrs. Hurstwood, knowing full well that such
was not the case, as Jessica had been her companion for weeks. She had
recovered herself sufficiently to wish to know more of the details.
"Was it in the afternoon?" she asked, artfully, assuming an air of
acquaintanceship with the matter.
"Yes, about two or three."
"It must have been Jessica," said Mrs. Hurstwood, not wishing to
seem to attach any importance to the incident.
The physician had a thought or two of his own, but dismissed the
matter as worthy of no further discussion on his part at least.
Mrs. Hurstwood gave this bit of information considerable thought
during the next few hours, and even days. She took it for granted that
the doctor had really seen her husband, and that he had been riding,
most likely, with some other woman, after announcing himself as busy
to her. As a consequence, she recalled, with rising feeling, how often
he had refused to go to places with her, to share in little visits,
or, indeed, take part in any of the social amenities which furnished
the diversion of her existence. He had been seen at the theatre with
people whom he called Moy's friends; now he was seen driving, and,
most likely, would have an excuse for that. Perhaps there were
others of whom she did not hear, or why should he be so busy, so
indifferent, of late? In the last six weeks he had become strangely
irritable- strangely satisfied to pick up and go out, whether things
were right or wrong in the house. Why?
She recalled, with more subtle emotions, that he did not look at her
now with any of the old light of satisfaction or approval in his
eye. Evidently, along with other things, he was taking her to be
getting old and uninteresting. He saw her wrinkles, perhaps. She was
fading, while he was still preening himself in his elegance and youth.
He was still an interested factor in the merry-makings of the world,
while she- but she did not pursue the thought. She only found the
whole situation bitter, and hated him for it thoroughly.
Nothing came of this incident at the time, for the truth is it did
not seem conclusive enough to warrant any discussion. Only the
atmosphere of distrust and ill-feeling was strengthened, precipitating
every now and then little sprinklings of irritable conversation,
enlivened by flashes of wrath. The matter of the Waukesha outing was
merely a continuation of other things of the same nature.
The day after Carrie's appearance on the Avery stage, Mrs. Hurstwood
visited the races with Jessica and a youth of her acquaintance, Mr.
Bart Taylor, the son of the owner of a local house-furnishing
establishment. They had driven out early, and, as it chanced,
encountered several friends of Hurstwood, all Elks, and two of whom
had attended the performance the evening before. A thousand chances
the subject of the performance had never been brought up had Jessica
not been so engaged by the attentions of her young companion, who
usurped as much time as possible. This left Mrs. Hurstwood in the mood
to extend the perfunctory greetings of some who knew her into short
conversations, and the short conversations of friends into long
ones. It was from one who meant but to greet her perfunctorily that
this interesting intelligence came.
"I see," said this individual, who wore sporting clothes of the most
attractive pattern, and had a field-glass strung over his shoulder,
"that you did not get over to our little entertainment last evening."
"No?" said Mrs. Hurstwood, inquiringly, and wondering why he
should be using the tone he did in noting the fact that she had not
been to something she knew nothing about. It was on her lips to say,
"What was it?" when he added, "I saw your husband."
Her wonder was at once replaced by the more subtle quality of
suspicion.
"Yes," she said, cautiously, "was it pleasant? He did not tell me
much about it."
"Very. Really one of the best private theatricals I ever attended.
There was one actress who surprised us all."
"Indeed," said Mrs. Hurstwood.
"It's too bad you couldn't have been there, really. I was sorry to
hear you weren't feeling well."
Feeling well! Mrs. Hurstwood could have echoed the words after him
open-mouthed. As it was, she extricated herself from her mingled
impulse to deny and question, and said, almost raspingly:
"Yes, it is too bad."
"Looks like there will be quite a crowd here to-day, doesn't it?"
the acquaintance observed, drifting off upon another topic.
The manager's wife would have questioned farther, but she saw no
opportunity. She was for the moment wholly at sea, anxious to think
for herself, and wondering what new deception was this which caused
him to give out that she was ill when she was not. Another case of her
company not wanted, and excuses being made. She resolved to find out
more.
"Were you at the performance last evening?" she asked of the next of
Hurstwood's friends who greeted her, as she sat in her box.
"Yes. You didn't get around."
"No," she answered, "I was not feeling very well."
"So your husband told me," he answered. "Well, it was really very
enjoyable. Turned out much better than I expected."
"Were there many there?"
"The house was full. It was quite an Elk night. I saw quite a number
of your friends- Mrs. Harrison, Mrs. Barnes, Mrs. Collins."
"Quite a social gathering."
"Indeed it was. My wife enjoyed it very much."
Mrs. Hurstwood bit her lip.
"So," she thought, "that's the way he does. Tells my friends I am
sick and cannot come."
She wondered what could induce him to go alone. There was
something back of this. She rummaged her brain for a reason.
By evening, when Hurstwood reached home, she had brooded herself
into a state of sullen desire for explanation and revenge. She
wanted to know what this peculiar action of his imported. She was
certain there was more behind it all than what she had heard, and evil
curiosity mingled well with distrust and the remnants of her wrath
of the morning. She, impending disaster itself, walked about with
gathered shadow at the eyes and the rudimentary muscles of savagery
fixing the hard lines of her mouth.
On the other hand, as we may well believe, the manager came home
in the sunniest mood. His conversation and agreement with Carrie had
raised his spirits until he was in the frame of mind of one who
sings joyously. He was proud of himself, proud of his success, proud
of Carrie. He could have been genial to all the world, and he bore
no grudge against his wife. He meant to be pleasant, to forget her
presence, to live in the atmosphere of youth and pleasure which had
been restored to him.
So now, the house, to his mind, had a most pleasing and
comfortable appearance. In the hall he found an evening paper, laid
there by the maid and forgotten by Mrs. Hurstwood. In the
dining-room the table was clean laid with linen and napery and shiny
with glasses and decorated china. Through an open door he saw into the
kitchen, where the fire was crackling in the stove and the evening
meal already well under way. Out in the small back yard was George,
Jr., frolicking with a young dog he had recently purchased, and in the
parlour Jessica was playing at the piano, the sound of a merry waltz
filling every nook and corner of the comfortable home. Every one, like
himself, seemed to have regained his good spirits, to be in sympathy
with youth and beauty, to be inclined to joy and merry-making. He felt
as if he could say a good word all around himself, and took a most
genial glance at the spread table and polished sideboard before
going upstairs to read his paper in the comfortable arm-chair of the
sitting-room which looked through the open windows into the street.
When he entered there, however, he found his wife brushing her hair
and musing to herself the while.
He came lightly in, thinking to smooth over any feeling that might
still exist by a kindly word and a ready promise, but Mrs. Hurstwood
said nothing. He seated himself in the large chair, stirred lightly in
making himself comfortable, opened his paper, and began to read. In
a few moments he was smiling merrily over a very comical account of
a baseball game which had taken place between the Chicago and
Detroit teams.
The while he was doing this Mrs. Hurstwood was observing him
casually though the medium of the mirror which was before her. She
noticed his pleasant and contented manner, his airy grace and
smiling humour, and it merely aggravated her the more. She wondered
how he could think to carry himself so in her presence after the
cynicism, indifference, and neglect he had heretofore manifested and
would continue to manifest so long as she would endure it. She thought
how she should like to tell him- what stress and emphasis she would
lend her assertions, how she could drive over this whole affair
until satisfaction should be rendered her. Indeed, the shining sword
of her wrath was but weakly suspended by a thread of thought.
In the meanwhile Hurstwood encountered a humorous item concerning
a stranger who had arrived in the city and became entangled with a
bunco-steerer. It amused him immensely, and at last he stirred and
chuckled to himself. He wished that he might enlist his wife's
attention and read it to her.
"Ha, ha," he exclaimed softly, as if to himself, "that's funny."
Mrs. Hurstwood kept on arranging her hair, not so much as deigning a
glance.
He stirred again and went on to another subject. At last he felt
as if his good-humour must find some outlet. Julia was probably
still out of humour over that affair of this morning, but that could
easily be straightened. As a matter of fact, she was in the wrong, but
he didn't care. She could go to Waukesha right away if she wanted
to. The sooner the better. He would tell her that as soon as he got
a chance, and the whole thing would blow over.
"Did you notice," he said, at last, breaking forth concerning
another item which he had found, "that they have entered suit to
compel the Illinois Central to get off the lake front, Julia?" he
asked.
She could scarcely force herself to answer, but managed to say "No,"
sharply.
Hurstwood pricked up his ears. There was a note in her voice which
vibrated keenly.
"It would be a good thing if they did," he went on, half to himself,
half to her, though he felt that something was amiss in that
quarter. He withdrew his attention to his paper very circumspectly,
listening mentally for the little sounds which should show him what
was on foot.
As a matter of fact, no man as clever as Hurstwood- as observant and
sensitive to atmospheres of many sorts, particularly upon his own
plane of thought- would have made the mistake which he did in regard
to his wife, wrought up as she was, had he not been occupied
mentally with a very different train of thought. Had not the influence
of Carrie's regard for him, the elation which her promise aroused in
him, lasted over, he would not have seen the house in so pleasant a
mood. It was not extraordinarily bright and merry this evening. He was
merely very much mistaken, and would have been much more fitted to
cope with it had he come home in his normal state.
After he had studied his paper a few moments longer, he felt that he
ought to modify matters in some way or other. Evidently his wife was
not going to patch up peace at a word. So he said:
"Where did George get the dog he has there in the yard?"
"I don't know," she snapped.
He put his paper down on his knees and gazed idly out of the window.
He did not propose to lose his temper, but merely to be persistent and
agreeable, and by a few questions bring around a mild understanding of
some sort.
"Why do you feel so bad about that affair of this morning?" he said,
at last. "We needn't quarrel about that. You know you can go to
Waukesha if you want to."
"So you can stay here and trifle around with some one else?" she
exclaimed, turning to him a determined countenance upon which was
drawn a sharp and wrathful sneer.
He stopped as if slapped in the face. In an instant his
persuasive, conciliatory manner fled. He was on the defensive at a
wink and puzzled for a word to reply.
"What do you mean?" he said at last, straightening himself and
gazing at the cold, determined figure before him, who paid no
attention, but went on arranging herself before the mirror.
"You know what I mean," she said, finally, as if there were a
world of information which she held in reserve- which she did not need
to tell.
"Well, I don't," he said, stubbornly, yet nervous and alert for what
should come next. The finality of the woman's manner took away his
feeling of superiority in battle.
She made no answer.
"Hmph!" he murmured, with a movement of his head to one side. It was
the weakest thing he had ever done. It was totally unassured.
Mrs. Hurstwood noticed the lack of colour in it. She turned upon
him, animal-like, able to strike an effectual second blow.
"I want the Waukesha money to-morrow morning," she said.
He looked at her in amazement. Never before had he seen such a cold,
steely determination in her eye- such a cruel look of indifference.
She seemed a thorough master of her mood- thoroughly confident and
determined to wrest all control from him. He felt that all his
resources could not defend him. He must attack.
"What do you mean?" he said, jumping up. "You want! I'd like to know
what's got into you to-night."
"Nothing's got into me," she said, flaming. "I want that money.
You can do your swaggering afterwards."
"Swaggering, eh! What! You'll get nothing from me. What do you
mean by your insinuations, anyhow?"
"Where were you last night?" she answered. The words were hot as
they came. "Who were you driving with on Washington Boulevard? Who
were you with at the theatre when George saw you? Do you think I'm a
fool to be duped by you? Do you think I'll sit at home here and take
your 'too busys' and 'can't come,' while you parade around and make
out that I'm unable to come? I want you to know that lordly airs
have come to an end so far as I am concerned. You can't dictate to
me nor my children. I'm through with you entirely."
"It's a lie," he said, driven to a corner and knowing no other
excuse.
"Lie, eh!" she said, fiercely, but with returning reserve; "you
may call it a lie if you want to, but I know."
"It's a lie, I tell you," he said, in a low, sharp voice. "You've
been searching around for some cheap accusation for months, and now
you think you have it. You think you'll spring something and get the
upper hand. Well, I tell you, you can't. As long as I'm in this
house I'm master of it, and you or any one else won't dictate to me-
do you hear?"
He crept toward her with a light in his eye that was ominous.
Something in the woman's cool, cynical, upper-handish manner, as if
she were already master, caused him to feel for the moment as if he
could strangle her.
She gazed at him- a pythoness in humour.
"I'm not dictating to you," she returned; "I'm telling you what I
want."
The answer was so cool, so rich in bravado, that somehow it took the
wind out of his sails. He could not attack her, he could not ask her
for proofs. Somehow he felt evidence, law, the remembrance of all
his property which she held in her name, to be shining in her
glance. He was like a vessel, powerful and dangerous, but rolling
and floundering without sail.
"And I'm telling you," he said in the end, slightly recovering
himself, "what you'll not get."
"We'll see about it," she said. "I'll find out what my rights are.
Perhaps you'll talk to a lawyer, if you won't to me."
It was a magnificent play, and had its effect. Hurstwood fell back
beaten. He knew now that he had more than mere bluff to contend
with. He felt that he was face to face with a dull proposition. What
to say he hardly knew. All the merriment had gone out of the day. He
was disturbed, wretched, resentful. What should he do?
"Do as you please," he said, at last. "I'll have nothing more to
do with you," and out he strode.
Chapter XXIII.
A SPIRIT IN TRAVAIL: ONE RUNG PUT BEHIND
When Carrie reached her own room she had already fallen a prey to
those doubts and misgivings which are ever the result of a lack of
decision. She could not persuade herself as to the advisability of her
promise, or that now, having given her word, she ought to keep it. She
went over the whole ground in Hurstwood's absence, and discovered
little objections that had not occurred to her in the warmth of the
manager's argument. She saw where she had put herself in a peculiar
light, namely, that of agreeing to marry when she was already
supposedly married. She remembered a few things Drouet had done, and
now that it came to walking away from him without a word, she felt
as if she were doing wrong. Now, she was comfortably situated, and
to one who is more or less afraid of the world, this is an urgent
matter, and one which puts up strange, uncanny arguments. "You do
not know what will come. There are miserable things outside. People go
a-begging. Women are wretched. You never can tell what will happen.
Remember the time you were hungry. Stick to what you have."
Curiously, for all her leaning towards Hurstwood, he had not taken a
firm hold on her understanding. She was listening, smiling, approving,
and yet not finally agreeing. This was due to a lack of power on his
part, a lack of that majesty of passion that sweeps the mind from
its seat, fuses and melts all arguments and theories into a tangled
mass, and destroys for the time being the reasoning power. This
majesty of passion is possessed by nearly every man once in his
life, but it is usually an attribute of youth and conduces to the
first successful mating.
Hurstwood, being an older man, could scarcely be said to retain
the fire of youth, though he did possess a passion warm and
unreasoning. It was strong enough to induce the leaning toward him
which, on Carrie's part, we have seen. She might have been said to
be imagining herself in love, when she was not. Women frequently do
this. It flows from the fact that in each exists a bias towards
affection, a craving for the pleasure of being loved. The longing to
be shielded, bettered, sympathised with, is one of the attributes of
the sex. This, coupled with sentiment and a natural tendency to
emotion, often makes refusing difficult. It persuades them that they
are in love.
Once at home, she changed her clothes and straightened the rooms for
herself. In the matter of the arrangement of the furniture she never
took the house-maid's opinion. That young woman invariably put one
of the rocking-chairs in the corner, and Carrie as regularly moved
it out. To-day she hardly noticed that it was in the wrong place, so
absorbed was she in her own thoughts. She worked about the room
until Drouet put in appearance at five o'clock. The drummer was
flushed and excited and full of determination to know all about her
relations with Hurstwood. Nevertheless, after going over the subject
in his mind the livelong day, he was rather weary of it and wished
it over with. He did not foresee serious consequences of any sort, and
yet he rather hesitated to begin. Carrie was sitting by the window
when he came in, rocking and looking out.
"Well," she said innocently, weary of her own mental discussion
and wondering at his haste and ill-concealed excitement, "what makes
you hurry so?"
Drouet hesitated, now that he was in her presence, uncertain as to
what course to pursue. He was no diplomat. He could neither read nor
see.
"When did you get home?" he asked foolishly.
"Oh, an hour or so ago. What makes you ask that?"
"You weren't here," he said, "when I came back this morning, and I
thought you had gone out."
"So I did," said Carrie simply. "I went for a walk."
Drouet looked at her wonderingly. For all his lack of dignity in
such matters he did not know how to begin. He stared at her in the
most flagrant manner until at last she said:
"What makes you stare at me so? What's the matter?"
"Nothing," he answered. "I was just thinking."
"Just thinking what?" she returned smilingly, puzzled by his
attitude.
"Oh, nothing- nothing much."
"Well, then, what makes you look so?"
Drouet was standing by the dresser, gazing at her in a comic manner.
He had laid off his hat and gloves and was now fidgeting with the
little toilet pieces which were nearest him. He hesitated to believe
that the pretty woman before him was involved in anything so
unsatisfactory to himself. He was very much inclined to feel that it
was all right, after all. Yet the knowledge imparted to him by the
chambermaid was rankling in his mind. He wanted to plunge in with a
straight remark of some sort, but he knew not what.
"Where did you go this morning?" he finally asked weakly.
"Why, I went for a walk," said Carrie.
"Sure you did?" he asked.
"Yes, what makes you ask?"
She was beginning to see now that he knew something. Instantly she
drew herself into a more reserved position. Her cheeks blanched
slightly.
"I thought maybe you didn't," he said, beating about the bush in the
most useless manner.
Carrie gazed at him, and as she did so her ebbing courage halted.
She saw that he himself was hesitating, and with a woman's intuition
realised that there was no occasion for great alarm.
"What makes you talk like that?" she asked, wrinkling her pretty
forehead. "You act so funny to-night."
"I feel funny," he answered.
They looked at one another for a moment, and then Drouet plunged
desperately into his subject.
"What's this about you and Hurstwood?" he asked.
"Me and Hurstwood- what do you mean?"
"Didn't he come here a dozen times while I was away?"
"A dozen times," repeated Carrie, guiltily. "No, but what do you
mean?"
"Somebody said that you went out riding with him and that he came
here every night."
"No such thing," answered Carrie. "It isn't true. Who told you
that?"
She was flushing scarlet to the roots of her hair, but Drouet did
not catch the full hue of her face, owing to the modified light of the
room. He was regaining much confidence as Carrie defended herself with
denials.
"Well, some one," he said. "You're sure you didn't?"
"Certainly," said Carrie. "You know how often he came."
Drouet paused for a moment and thought.
"I know what you told me," he said finally.
He moved nervously about, while Carrie looked at him confusedly.
"Well, I know that I didn't tell you any such thing as that," said
Carrie, recovering herself.
"If I were you," went on Drouet, ignoring her last remark, "I
wouldn't have anything to do with him. He's a married man, you know."
"Who- who is?" said Carrie, stumbling at the word.
"Why, Hurstwood," said Drouet, noting the effect and feeling that he
was delivering a telling blow.
"Hurstwood!" exclaimed Carrie, rising. Her face had changed
several shades since this announcement was made. She looked within and
without herself in a half-dazed way.
"Who told you this?" she asked, forgetting that her interest was out
of order and exceedingly incriminating.
"Why, I know it. I've always known it," said Drouet.
Carrie was feeling about for a right thought. She was making a
most miserable showing, and yet feelings were generating within her
which were anything but crumbling cowardice.
"I thought I told you," he added.
"No, you didn't," she contradicted, suddenly recovering her voice.
"You didn't do anything of the kind."
Drouet listened to her in astonishment. This was something new.
"I thought I did," he said.
Carrie looked around her very solemnly and then went over to the
window.
"You oughtn't to have had anything to do with him," said Drouet in
an injured tone, "after all I've done for you."
"You," said Carrie, "you! What have you done for me?"
Her little brain had been surging with contradictory feelings- shame
at exposure, shame at Hurstwood's perfidy, anger at Drouet's
deception, the mockery he had made of her. Now one clear idea came
into her head. He was at fault. There was no doubt about it. Why did
he bring Hurstwood out- Hurstwood, a married man, and never say a word
to her? Never mind now about Hurstwood's perfidy- why had he done
this? Why hadn't he warned her? There he stood now, guilty of this
miserable breach of confidence and talking about what he had done
for her!
"Well, I like that," exclaimed Drouet, little realising the fire his
remark had generated. "I think I've done a good deal."
"You have, eh?" she answered. "You've deceived me- that's what
you've done. You've brought your friends out here under false
pretences. You've made me out to be- Oh," and with this her voice
broke and she pressed her two little hands together tragically.
"I don't see what that's got to do with it," said the drummer
quaintly.
"No," she answered, recovering herself and shutting her teeth.
"No, of course you don't see. There isn't anything you see. You
couldn't have told me in the first place, could you? You had to make
me out wrong until it was too late. Now you come sneaking around
with your information and your talk about what you have done."
Drouet had never suspected this side of Carrie's nature. She was
alive with feeling, her eyes snapping, her lips quivering, her whole
body sensible of the injury she felt, and partaking of her wrath.
"Who's sneaking?" he asked, mildly conscious of error on his part,
but certain that he was wronged.
"You are," stamped Carrie. "You're a horrid, conceited coward,
that's what you are. If you had any sense of manhood in you, you
wouldn't have thought of doing any such thing."
The drummer stared.
"I'm not a coward," he said. "What do you mean by going with other
men, anyway?"
"Other men!" exclaimed Carrie. "Other men- you know better than
that. I did go with Mr. Hurstwood, but whose fault was it? Didn't
you bring him here? You told him yourself that he should come out here
and take me out. Now, after it's all over, you come and tell me that I
oughtn't to go with him and that he's a married man."
She paused at the sound of the last two words and wrung her hands.
The knowledge of Hurstwood's perfidy wounded her like a knife.
"Oh," she sobbed, repressing herself wonderfully and keeping her
eyes dry. "Oh, oh!"
"Well, I didn't think you'd be running around with him when I was
away," insisted Drouet.
"Didn't think!" said Carrie, now angered to the core by the man's
peculiar attitude. "Of course not. You thought only of what would be
to your satisfaction. You thought you'd make a toy of me- a plaything.
Well, I'll show you that you won't. I'll have nothing more to do
with you at all. You can take your old things and keep them," and
unfastening a little pin he had given her, she flung it vigorously
upon the floor and began to move about as if to gather up the things
which belonged to her.
By this Drouet was not only irritated but fascinated the more. He
looked at her in amazement, and finally said:
"I don't see where your wrath comes in. I've got the right of this
thing. You oughtn't to have done anything that wasn't right after
all I did for you."
"What have you done for me?" asked Carrie blazing, her head thrown
back and her lips parted.
"I think I've done a good deal," said the drummer, looking around.
"I've given you all the clothes you wanted, haven't I? I've taken
you everywhere you wanted to go. You've had as much as I've had, and
more too."
Carrie was not ungrateful, whatever else might be said of her. In so
far as her mind could construe, she acknowledged benefits received.
She hardly knew how to answer this, and yet her wrath was not
placated. She felt that the drummer had injured her irreparably.
"Did I ask you to?" she returned.
"Well, I did it," said Drouet, "and you took it."
"You talk as though I had persuaded you," answered Carrie. "You
stand there and throw up what you've done. I don't want your old
things. I'll not have them. You take them to-night and do what you
please with them. I'll not stay here another minute."
"That's nice!" he answered, becoming angered now at the sense of his
own approaching loss. "Use everything and abuse me and then walk
off. That's just like a woman. I take you when you haven't got
anything, and then when some one else comes along, why I'm no good.
I always thought it'd come out that way."
He felt really hurt as he thought of his treatment, and looked as if
he saw no way of obtaining justice.
"It's not so," said Carrie, "and I'm not going with anybody else.
You have been as miserable and inconsiderate as you can be. I hate
you, I tell you, and I wouldn't live with you another minute. You're a
big, insulting"- here she hesitated and used no word at all- "or you
wouldn't talk that way."
She had secured her hat and jacket and slipped the latter on over
her little evening dress. Some wisps of wavy hair had loosened from
the bands at the side of her head and were straggling over her hot,
red cheeks. She was angry, mortified, grief-stricken. Her large eyes
were full of the anguish of tears, but her lids were not yet wet.
She was distracted and uncertain, deciding and doing things without an
aim or conclusion, and she had not the slightest conception of how the
whole difficulty would end.
"Well, that's a fine finish," said Drouet. "Pack up and pull out,
eh? You take the cake. I bet you were knocking around with Hurstwood
or you wouldn't act like that. I don't want the old rooms. You needn't
pull out for me. You can have them for all I care, but b'George, you
haven't done me right."
"I'll not live with you," said Carrie. "I don't want to live with
you. You've done nothing but brag around ever since you've been here."
"Aw, I haven't anything of the kind," he answered.
Carrie walked over to the door.
"Where are you going?" he said, stepping over and heading her off.
"Let me out," she said.
"Where are you going?" he repeated.
He was, above all, sympathetic, and the sight of Carrie wandering
out, he knew not where, affected him, despite his grievance.
Carrie merely pulled at the door.
The strain of the situation was too much for her, however. She
made one more vain effort and then burst into tears.
"Now, be reasonable, Cad," said Drouet gently. "What do you want
to rush out for this way? You haven't any place to go. Why not stay
here now and be quiet? I'll not bother you. I don't want to stay
here any longer."
Carrie had gone sobbing from the door to the window. She was so
overcome she could not speak.
"Be reasonable now," he said. "I don't want to hold you. You can
go if you want to, but why don't you think it over? Lord knows, I
don't want to stop you."
He received no answer. Carrie was quieting, however, under the
influence of his plea.
"You stay here now, and I'll go," he added at last.
Carrie listened to this with mingled feelings. Her mind was shaken
loose from the little mooring of logic that it had. She was stirred by
this thought, angered by that- her own injustice, Hurstwood's,
Drouet's, their respective qualities of kindness and favour, the
threat of the world outside, in which she had failed once before,
the impossibility of this state inside, where the chambers were no
longer justly hers, the effect of the argument upon her nerves, all
combined to make her a mass of jangling fibres- an anchorless,
storm-beaten little craft which could do absolutely nothing but drift.
"Say," said Drouet, coming over to her after a few moments, with a
new idea, and putting his hand upon her.
"Don't!" said Carrie, drawing away, but not removing her
handkerchief from her eyes.
"Never mind about this quarrel now. Let it go. You stay here until
the month's out, anyhow, and then you can tell better what you want to
do. Eh?"
Carrie made no answer.
"You'd better do that," he said. "There's no use your packing up
now. You can't go anywhere."
Still he got nothing for his words.
"If you'll do that, we'll call it off for the present and I'll get
out."
Carrie lowered her handkerchief slightly and looked out of the
window.
"Will you do that?" he asked.
Still no answer.
"Will you?" he repeated.
She only looked vaguely into the street.
"Aw! come on," he said, "tell me. Will you?"
"I don't know," said Carrie softly, forced to answer.
"Promise me you'll do that," he said, "and we'll quit talking
about it. It'll be the best thing for you."
Carrie heard him, but she could not bring herself to answer
reasonably. She felt that the man was gentle, and that his interest in
her had not abated, and it made her suffer a pang of regret. She was
in a most helpless plight.
As for Drouet, his attitude had been that of the jealous lover.
Now his feelings were a mixture of anger at deception, sorrow at
losing Carrie, misery at being defeated. He wanted his rights in
some way or other, and yet his rights included the retaining of
Carrie, the making her feel her error.
"Will you?" he urged.
"Well, I'll see," said Carrie.
This left the matter as open as before, but it was something. It
looked as if the quarrel would blow over, if they could only get
some way of talking to one another. Carrie was ashamed, and Drouet
aggrieved. He pretended to take up the task of packing some things
in a valise.
Now, as Carrie watched him out of the corner of her eye, certain
sound thoughts came into her head. He had erred, true, but what had
she done? He was kindly and good-natured for all his egotism.
Throughout this argument he had said nothing very harsh. On the
other hand there was Hurstwood- a greater deceiver than he. He had
pretended all this affection, all this passion, and he was lying to
her all the while. Oh, the perfidy of men! And she had loved him.
There could be nothing more in that quarter. She would see Hurstwood
no more. She would write him and let him know what she thought.
Thereupon what would she do? Here were these rooms. Here was Drouet,
pleading for her to remain. Evidently things could go on here somewhat
as before, if all were arranged. It would be better than the street,
without a place to lay her head.
All this she thought of as Drouet rummaged the drawers for collars
and laboured long and painstakingly at finding a shirt-stud. He was in
no hurry to rush this matter. He felt an attraction to Carrie which
would not down. He could not think that the thing would end by his
walking out of the room. There must be some way round, some way to
make her own up that he was right and she was wrong- to patch up a
peace and shut out Hurstwood for ever. Mercy how he turned at the
man's shameless duplicity.
"Do you think," he said, after a few moments' silence, "that
you'll try and get on the stage?"
He was wondering what she was intending.
"I don't know what I'll do yet," said Carrie.
"If you do, maybe I can help you. I've got a lot of friends in
that line."
She made no answer to this.
"Don't go and try to knock around now without any money. Let me help
you," he said. "It's no easy thing to go on your own hook here."
Carrie only rocked back and forth in her chair.
"I don't want you to go up against a hard game that way."
He bestirred himself about some other details and Carrie rocked on.
"Why don't you tell me all about this thing," he said, after a time,
"and let's call it off? You don't really care for Hurstwood, do you?"
"Why do you want to start on that again?" said Carrie. "You were
to blame."
"No, I wasn't," he answered.
"Yes, you were, too," said Carrie. "You shouldn't have ever told
me such a story as that."
"But you didn't have much to do with him, did you?" went on
Drouet, anxious for his own peace of mind to get some direct denial
from her.
"I won't talk about it," said Carrie, pained at the quizzical turn
the peace arrangement had taken.
"What's the use of acting like that now, Cad?" insisted the drummer,
stopping in his work and putting up a hand expressively. "You might
let me know where I stand, at least."
"I won't," said Carrie, feeling no refuge but in anger. "Whatever
has happened is your own fault."
"Then you do care for him?" said Drouet, stopping completely and
experiencing a rush of feeling.
"Oh, stop!" said Carrie.
"Well, I'll not be made a fool of," exclaimed Drouet. "You may
trifle around with him if you want to, but you can't lead me. You
can tell me or not, just as you want to, but I won't fool any longer!"
He shoved the last few remaining things. he had laid out into his
valise and snapped it with a vengeance. Then he grabbed his coat,
which he had laid off to work, picked up his gloves, and started out.
"You can go to the deuce as far as I am concerned," he said, as he
reached the door. "I'm no sucker," and with that he opened it with a
jerk and closed it equally vigorously.
Carrie listened at her window view, more astonished than anything
else at this sudden rise of passion in the drummer. She could hardly
believe her senses- so good-natured and tractable had he invariably
been. It was not for her to see the wellspring of human passion. A
real flame of love is a subtle thing. It burns as a
will-o'-the-wisp, dancing onward to fairy lands of delight. It roars
as a furnace. Too often jealousy is the quality upon which it feeds.
Chapter XXIV.
ASHES OF TINDER: A FACE AT THE WINDOW
That night Hurstwood remained down town entirely, going to the
Palmer House for a bed after his work was through. He was in a fevered
state of mind, owing to the blight his wife's action threatened to
cast upon his entire future. While he was not sure how much
significance might be attached to the threat she had made, he was sure
that her attitude, if long continued, would cause him no end of
trouble. She was determined, and had worsted him in a very important
contest. How would it be from now on? He walked the floor of his
little office, and later that of his room, putting one thing and
another together to no avail.
Mrs. Hurstwood, on the contrary, had decided not to lose her
advantage by inaction. Now that she had practically cowed him, she
would follow up her work with demands, the acknowledgment of which
would make her word law in the future. He would have to pay her the
money which she would now regularly demand or there would be
trouble. It did not matter what he did. She really did not care
whether he came home any more or not. The household would move along
much more pleasantly without him, and she could do as she wished
without consulting any one. Now she proposed to consult a lawyer and
hire a detective. She would find out at once just what advantages
she could gain.
Hurstwood walked the floor, mentally arranging the chief points of
his situation. "She has that property in her name," he kept saying
to himself. "What a fool trick that was. Curse it! What a fool move
that was."
He also thought of his managerial position. "If she raises a row now
I'll lose this thing. They won't have me around if my name gets in the
papers. My friends, too!" He grew more angry as he thought of the talk
any action on her part would create. How would the papers talk about
it? Every man he knew would be wondering. He would have to explain and
deny and make a general mark of himself. Then Moy would come and
confer with him and there would be the devil to pay.
Many little wrinkles gathered between his eyes as he contemplated
this, and his brow moistened. He saw no solution of anything- not a
loophole left.
Through all this thoughts of Carrie flashed upon him, and the
approaching affair of Saturday. Tangled as all his matters were, he
did not worry over that. It was the one pleasing thing in this whole
rout of trouble. He could arrange that satisfactorily, for Carrie
would be glad to wait, if necessary. He would see how things turned
out to-morrow, and then he would talk to her. They were going to
meet as usual. He saw only her pretty face and neat figure and
wondered why life was not arranged so that such joy as he found with
her could be steadily maintained. How much more pleasant it would
be. Then he would take up his wife's threat again, and the wrinkles
and moisture would return.
In the morning he came over from the hotel and opened his mail,
but there was nothing in it outside the ordinary run. For some
reason he felt as if something might come that way, and was relieved
when all the envelopes had been scanned and nothing suspicious
noticed. He began to feel the appetite that had been wanting before he
had reached the office, and decided before going out to the park to
meet Carrie to drop in at the Grand Pacific and have a pot of coffee
and some rolls. While the danger had not lessened, it had not as yet
materialised, and with him no news was good news. If he could only get
plenty of time to think, perhaps something would turn up. Surely,
surely, this thing would not drift along to catastrophe and he not
find a way out.
His spirits fell, however, when, upon reaching the park, he waited
and waited and Carrie did not come. He held his favourite post for
an hour or more, then arose and began to walk about restlessly.
Could something have happened out there to keep her away? Could she
have been reached by his wife? Surely not. So little did he consider
Drouet that it never once occurred to him to worry about his finding
out. He grew restless as he ruminated, and then decided that perhaps
it was nothing. She had not been able to get away this morning. That
was why no letter notifying him had come. He would get one today. It
would probably be on his desk when he got back. He would look for it
at once.
After a time he gave up waiting and drearily headed for the
Madison car. To add to his distress, the bright blue sky became
overcast with little fleecy clouds which shut out the sun. The wind
veered to the east, and by the time he reached his office it was
threatening to drizzle all afternoon.
He went in and examined his letters, but there was nothing from
Carrie. Fortunately, there was nothing from his wife either. He
thanked his stars that he did not have to confront that proposition
just now when he needed to think so much. He walked the floor again,
pretending to be in an ordinary mood, but secretly troubled beyond the
expression of words.
At one-thirty he went to Rector's for lunch, and when he returned
a messenger was waiting for him. He looked at the little chap with a
feeling of doubt.
"I'm to bring an answer," said the boy.
Hurstwood recognised his wife's writing. He tore it open and read
without a show of feeling. It began in the most formal manner and
was sharply and coldly worded throughout.
"I want you to send the money I asked for at once. I need it to
carry out my plans. You can stay away if you want to. It doesn't
matter in the least. I must have some money. So don't delay, but
send it by the boy."
When he had finished it, he stood holding it in his hands. The
audacity of the thing took his breath. It roused his ire also- the
deepest element of revolt in him. His first impulse was to write but
four words in reply- "Go to the devil!"- but he compromised by telling
the boy that there would be no reply. Then he sat down in his chair
and gazed without seeing, contemplating the result of his work. What
would she do about that? The confounded wretch! Was she going to try
to bulldoze him into submission? He would go up there and have it
out with her, that's what he would do. She was carrying things with
too high a hand. These were his first thoughts.
Later, however, his old discretion asserted itself. Something had to
be done. A climax was near and she would not sit idle. He knew her
well enough to know that when she had decided upon a plan she would
follow it up. Possibly matters would go into a lawyer's hands at once.
"Damn her!" he said softly, with his teeth firmly set, "I'll make it
hot for her if she causes me trouble. I'll make her change her tone if
I have to use force to do it!"
He arose from his chair and went and looked out into the street. The
long drizzle had begun. Pedestrians had turned up collars, and
trousers at the bottom. Hands were hidden in the pockets of the
umbrellaless; umbrellas were up. The street looked like a sea of round
black cloth roofs, twisting, bobbing, moving. Trucks and vans were
rattling in a noisy line and everywhere men were shielding
themselves as best they could. He scarcely noticed the picture. He was
forever confronting his wife, demanding of her to change her
attitude toward him before he worked her bodily harm.
At four o'clock another note came, which simply said that if the
money was not forthcoming that evening the matter would be laid before
Fitzgerald and Moy on the morrow, and other steps would be taken to
get it.
Hurstwood almost exclaimed out loud at the insistency of this thing.
Yes, he would send her the money. He'd take it to her- he would go
up there and have a talk with her, and that at once.
He put on his hat and looked around for his umbrella. He would
have some arrangement of this thing.
He called a cab and was driven through the dreary rain to the
North Side. On the way his temper cooled as he thought of the
details of the case. What did she know? What had she done? Maybe she'd
got hold of Carrie, who knows- or Drouet. Perhaps she really had
evidence, and was prepared to fell him as a man does another from
secret ambush. She was shrewd. Why should she taunt him this way
unless she had good grounds?
He began to wish that he had compromised in some way or other-
that he had sent the money. Perhaps he could do it up here. He would
go in and see, anyhow. He would have no row.
By the time he reached his own street he was keenly alive to the
difficulties of his situation and wished over and over that some
solution would offer itself, that he could see his way out. He
alighted and went up the steps to the front door, but it was with a
nervous palpitation of the heart. He pulled out his key and tried to
insert it, but another key was on the inside. He shook at the knob,
but the door was locked. Then he rang the bell. No answer. He rang
again- this time harder. Still no answer. He jangled it fiercely
several times in succession, but without avail. Then he went below.
There was a door which opened under the steps into the kitchen,
protected by an iron grating, intended as a safeguard against
burglars. When he reached this he noticed that it also was bolted
and that the kitchen windows were down. What could it mean? He rang
the bell and then waited. Finally, seeing that no one was coming, he
turned and went back to his cab.
"I guess they've gone out," he said apologetically to the individual
who was hiding his red face in a loose tarpaulin rain-coat.
"I saw a young girl up in that winder," returned the cabby.
Hurstwood looked, but there was no face there now. He climbed
moodily into the cab, relieved and distressed.
So this was the game, was it? Shut him out and make him pay. Well,
by the Lord, that did beat all!
Chapter XXV.
ASHES OF TINDER: THE LOOSING OF STAYS
When Hurstwood got back to his office again he was in a greater
quandary than ever. Lord, Lord, he thought, what had he got into?
How could things have taken such a violent turn, and so quickly? He
could hardly realise how it had all come about. It seemed a monstrous,
unnatural, unwarranted condition which had suddenly descended upon him
without his let or hindrance.
Meanwhile he gave a thought now and then to Carrie. What could be
the trouble in that quarter? No letter had come, no word of any
kind, and yet here it was late in the evening and she had agreed to
meet him that morning. To-morrow they were to have met and gone off-
where? He saw that in the excitement of recent events he had not
formulated a plan upon that score. He was desperately in love, and
would have taken great chances to win her under ordinary
circumstances, but now- now what? Supposing she had found out
something? Supposing she, too, wrote him and told him that she knew
all- that she would have nothing more to do with him? It would be just
like this to happen as things were going now. Meanwhile he had not
sent the money.
He strolled up and down the polished floor of the resort, his
hands in his pockets, his brow wrinkled, his mouth set. He was getting
some vague comfort out of a good cigar, but it was no panacea for
the ill which affected him. Every once in a while he would clinch
his fingers and tap his foot- signs of the stirring mental process
he was undergoing. His whole nature was vigorously and powerfully
shaken up, and he was finding what limits the mind has to endurance.
He drank more brandy and soda than he had any evening in months. He
was altogether a fine example of great mental perturbation.
For all his study nothing came of the evening except this- he sent
the money. It was with great opposition, after two or three hours of
the most urgent mental affirmation and denial, that at last he got
an envelope, placed in it the requested amount, and slowly sealed it
up.
Then he called Harry, the boy of all work around the place.
"You take this to this address," he said, handing him the
envelope, "and give it to Mrs. Hurstwood."
"Yes, sir," said the boy.
"If she isn't there bring it back."
"Yes, sir."
"You've seen my wife?" he asked as a precautionary measure as the
boy turned to go.
"Oh, yes, sir. I know her."
"All right, now. Hurry right back."
"Any answer?"
"I guess not."
The boy hastened away and the manager fell to his musings. Now he
had done it. There was no use speculating over that. He was beaten for
to-night and he might just as well make the best of it. But, oh, the
wretchedness of being forced this way! He could see her meeting the
boy at the door and smiling sardonically. She would take the
envelope and know that she had triumphed. If he only had that letter
back he wouldn't send it. He breathed heavily and wiped the moisture
from his face.
For relief, he arose and joined in conversation with a few friends
who were drinking. He tried to get the interest of things about him,
but it was not to be. All the time his thoughts would run out to his
home and see the scene being therein enacted. All the time he was
wondering what she would say when the boy handed her the envelope.
In about an hour and three-quarters the boy returned. He had
evidently delivered the package, for, as he came up, he made no sign
of taking anything out of his pocket.
"Well?" said Hurstwood.
"I gave it to her."
"My wife?"
"Yes, sir."
"Any answer?"
"She said it was high time."
Hurstwood scowled fiercely.
There was no more to be done upon that score that night. He went
on brooding over his situation until midnight, when he repaired
again to the Palmer House. He wondered what the morning would bring
forth, and slept anything but soundly upon it.
Next day he went again to the office and opened his mail, suspicious
and hopeful of its contents. No word from Carrie. Nothing from his
wife, which was pleasant.
The fact that he had sent the money and that she had received it
worked to the ease of his mind, for, as the thought that he had done
it receded, his chagrin at it grew less and his hope of peace more. He
fancied, as he sat at his desk, that nothing would be done for a
week or two. Meanwhile, he would have time to think.
This process of thinking began by a reversion to Carrie and the
arrangement by which he was to get her away from Drouet. How about
that now? His pain at her failure to meet or write him rapidly
increased as he devoted himself to this subject. He decided to write
her care of the West Side Post-office and ask for an explanation, as
well as to have her meet him. The thought that this letter would
probably not reach her until Monday chafed him exceedingly. He must
get some speedier method- but how?
He thought upon it for a half-hour, not contemplating a messenger or
a cab direct to the house, owing to the exposure of it, but finding
that time was slipping away to no purpose, he wrote the letter and
then began to think again.
The hours slipped by, and with them the possibility of the union
he had contemplated. He had thought to be joyously aiding Carrie by
now in the task of joining her interests to his, and here it was
afternoon and nothing done. Three o'clock came, four, five, six, and
no letter. The helpless manager paced the floor and grimly endured the
gloom of defeat. He saw a busy Saturday ushered out, the Sabbath in,
and nothing done. All day, the bar being closed, he brooded alone,
shut out from home, from the excitement of his resort, from Carrie,
and without the ability to alter his condition one iota. It was the
worst Sunday he had spent in his life.
In Monday's second mail he encountered a very legal-looking letter
which held his interest for some time. It bore the imprint of the
law offices of McGregor, James and Hay, and with a very formal "Dear
Sir," and "We beg to state," went on to inform him briefly that they
had been retained by Mrs. Julia Hurstwood to adjust certain matters
which related to her sustenance and property rights, and would he
kindly call and see them about the matter at once.
He read it through carefully several times, and then merely shook
his head. It seemed as if his family troubles were just beginning.
"Well!" he said after a time, quite audibly, "I don't know."
Then he folded it up and put it in his pocket.
To add to his misery there was no word from Carrie. He was quite
certain now that she knew he was married and was angered at his
perfidy. His loss seemed all the more bitter now that he needed her
most. He thought he would go out and insist on seeing her if she did
not send him word of some sort soon. He was really affected most
miserably of all by this desertion. He had loved her earnestly enough,
but now that the possibility of losing her stared him in the face
she seemed much more attractive. He really pined for a word, and
looked out upon her with his mind's eye in the most wistful manner. He
did not propose to lose her, whatever she might think. Come what
might, he would adjust this matter, and soon. He would go to her and
tell her all his family complications. He would explain to her just
where he stood and how much he needed her. Surely she couldn't go back
on him now? It wasn't possible. He would plead until her anger would
melt- until she would forgive him.
Suddenly he thought: "Supposing she isn't out there- suppose she has
gone?"
He was forced to take his feet. It was too much to think of and
sit still.
Nevertheless, his rousing availed him nothing.
On Tuesday it was the same way. He did manage to bring himself
into the mood to go out to Carrie, but when he got in Ogden Place he
thought he saw a man watching him and went away. He did not go
within a block of the house.
One of the galling incidents of this visit was that he came back
on a Randolph Street car, and without noticing arrived almost opposite
the building of the concern with which his son was connected. This
sent a pang through his heart. He had called on his boy there
several times. Now the lad had not sent him a word. His absence did
not seem to be noticed by either of his children. Well, well,
fortune plays a man queer tricks. He got back to his office and joined
in a conversation with friends. It was as if idle chatter deadened the
sense of misery.
That night he dined at Rector's and returned at once to his
office. In the bustle and show of the latter was his only relief. He
troubled over many little details and talked perfunctorily to
everybody. He stayed at his desk long after all others had gone, and
only quitted it when the night watchman on his round pulled at the
front door to see if it was safely locked.
On Wednesday, he received another polite note from McGregor, James
and Hay. It read:
Dear Sir:
We beg to inform you that we are instructed to wait until tomorrow
(Thursday) at one o'clock, before filing suit against you, on behalf
of Mrs. Julia Hurstwood, for divorce and alimony. If we do not hear
from you before that time we shall consider that you do not wish to
compromise the matter in any way and act accordingly.
Very truly yours, etc.
"Compromise!" exclaimed Hurstwood bitterly. "Compromise!" Again he
shook his head.
So here it was spread out clear before him, and now he knew what
to expect. If he didn't go and see them they would sue him promptly.
If he did, he would be offered terms that would make his blood boil.
He folded the letter and put it with the other one. Then he put on his
hat and went for a turn about the block.
Chapter XXVI.
THE AMBASSADOR FALLEN: A SEARCH FOR THE GATE
Carrie, left alone by Drouet, listened to his retreating steps,
scarcely realising what had happened. She knew that he had stormed
out. It was some moments before she questioned whether he would
return, not now exactly, but ever. She looked around her upon the
rooms, out of which the evening light was dying, and wondered why
she did not feel quite the same towards them. She went over to the
dresser and struck a match, lighting the gas. Then she went back to
the rocker to think.
It was some time before she could collect her thoughts, but when she
did, this truth began to take on importance. She was quite alone.
Suppose Drouet did not come back? Suppose she should never hear
anything more of him? This fine arrangement of chambers would not last
long. She would have to quit them.
To her credit, be it said, she never once counted on Hurstwood.
She could only approach that subject with a pang of sorrow and regret.
For a truth, she was rather shocked and frightened by this evidence of
human depravity. He would have tricked her without turning an eyelash.
She would have been led into a newer and worse situation. And yet
she could not keep out the pictures of his looks and manners. Only
this one deed seemed strange and miserable. It contrasted sharply with
all she felt and knew concerning the man.
But she was alone. That was the greater thought just at present. How
about that? Would she go out to work again? Would she begin to look
around in the business district? The stage! Oh, yes. Drouet had spoken
about that. Was there any hope there? She moved to and fro, in deep
and varied thoughts, while the minutes slipped away and night fell
completely. She had had nothing to eat, and yet there she sat,
thinking it over.
She remembered that she was hungry and went to the little cupboard
in the rear room where were the remains of one of their breakfasts.
She looked at these things with certain misgivings. The
contemplation of food had more significance than usual.
While she was eating she began to wonder how much money she had.
It struck her as exceedingly important, and without ado she went to
look for her purse. It was on the dresser, and in it were seven
dollars in bills and some change. She quailed as she thought of the
insignificance of the amount and rejoiced because the rent was paid
until the end of the month. She began also to think what she would
have done if she had gone out into the street when she first
started. By the side of that situation, as she looked at it now, the
present seemed agreeable. She had a little time at least, and then,
perhaps, everything would come out all right, after all.
Drouet had gone, but what of it? He did not seem seriously angry. He
only acted as if he were hurry. He would come back- of course he
would. There was his cane in the corner. Here was one of his
collars. He had left his light overcoat in the wardrobe. She looked
about and tried to assure herself with the sight of a dozen such
details, but, alas, the secondary thought arrived. Supposing he did
come back. Then what?
Here was another proposition nearly, if not quite, as disturbing.
She would have to talk with and explain to him. He would want her to
admit that he was right. It would be impossible for her to live with
him.
On Friday Carrie remembered her appointment with Hurstwood, and
the passing of the hour when she should, by all right of promise, have
been in his company served to keep the calamity which had befallen her
exceedingly fresh and clear. In her nervousness and stress of mind she
felt it necessary to act, and consequently put on a brown street
dress, and at eleven o'clock started to visit the business portion
once again. She must look for work.
The rain, which threatened at twelve and began at one, served
equally well to cause her to retrace her steps and remain within doors
as it did to reduce Hurstwood's spirits and give him a wretched day.
The morrow was Saturday, a half-holiday in many business quarters,
and besides it was a balmy, radiant day, with the trees and grass
shining exceedingly green after the rain of the night before. When she
went out the sparrows were twittering merrily in joyous choruses.
She could not help feeling, as she looked across the lovely park, that
life was a joyous thing for those who did not need to worry, and she
wished over and over that something might interfere now to preserve
for her the comfortable state which she had occupied. She did not want
Drouet or his money when she thought of it, nor anything more to do
with Hurstwood, but only the content and ease of mind she had
experienced, for, after all, she had been happy- happier, at least,
than she was now when confronted by the necessity of making her way
alone.
When she arrived in the business part it was quite eleven o'clock,
and the business had little longer to run. She did not realise this at
first, being affected by some of the old distress which was a result
of her earlier adventure into this strenuous and exacting quarter. She
wandered about, assuring herself that she was making up her mind to
look for something, and at the same time feeling that perhaps it was
not necessary to be in such haste about it. The thing was difficult to
encounter, and she had a few days. Besides, she was not sure that
she was really face to face again with the bitter problem of
self-sustenance. Anyhow, there was one change for the better. She knew
that she had improved in appearance. Her manner had vastly changed.
Her clothes were becoming, and men- well-dressed men, some of the kind
who before had gazed at her indifferently from behind their polished
railings and imposing office partitions- now gazed into her face
with a soft light in their eyes. In a way, she felt the power and
satisfaction of the thing, but it did not wholly reassure her. She
looked for nothing save what might come legitimately and without the
appearance of special favour. She wanted something, but no man
should buy her by false protestations or favour. She proposed to
earn her living honestly.
"This store closes at one on Saturdays," was a pleasing and
satisfactory legend to see upon doors which she felt she ought to
enter and inquire for work. It gave her an excuse, and after
encountering quite a number of them, and noting that the clock
registered 12.15, she decided that it would be no use to seek
further to-day, so she got on a car and went to Lincoln Park. There
was always something to see there- the flowers, the animals, the lake-
and she flattered herself that on Monday she would be up betimes and
searching. Besides, many things might happen between now and Monday.
Sunday passed with equal doubts, worries, assurances, and heaven
knows what vagaries of mind and spirit. Every half-hour in the day the
thought would come to her most sharply, like the tail of a swishing
whip, that action- immediate action- was imperative. At other times
she would look about her and assure herself that things were not so
bad- that certainly she would come out safe and sound. At such times
she would think of Drouet's advice about going on the stage, and saw
some chance for herself in that quarter. She decided to take up that
opportunity on the morrow.
Accordingly, she arose early Monday morning and dressed herself
carefully. She did not know just how such applications were made,
but she took it to be a matter which related more directly to the
theatre buildings. All you had to do was to inquire of some one
about the theatre for the manager and ask for a position. If there was
anything, you might get it, or, at least, he could tell you how.
She had had no experience with this class of individuals whatsoever,
and did not know the salacity and humour of the theatrical tribe.
She only knew of the position which Mr. Hale occupied, but, of all
things, she did not wish to encounter that personage, on account of
her intimacy with his wife.
There was, however, at this time, one theatre, the Chicago Opera
House, which was considerably in the public eye, and its manager,
David A. Henderson, had a fair local reputation. Carrie had seen one
or two elaborate performances there and had heard of several others.
She knew nothing of Henderson nor of the methods of applying, but
she instinctively felt that this would be a likely place, and
accordingly strolled about in that neighbourhood. She came bravely
enough to the showy entrance way, with the polished and begilded
lobby, set with framed pictures out of the current attraction, leading
up to the quiet box-office, but she could get no further. A noted
comic opera comedian was holding forth that week, and the air of
distinction and prosperity overawed her. She could not imagine that
there would be anything in such a lofty sphere for her. She almost
trembled at the audacity which might have carried her on to a terrible
rebuff. She could find heart only to look at the pictures which were
showy and then walk out. It seemed to her as if she had made a
splendid escape and that it would be foolhardy to think of applying in
that quarter again.
This little experience settled her hunting for one day. She looked
around elsewhere, but it was from the outside. She got the location of
several playhouses fixed in her mind- notably the Grand Opera House
and McVickar's, both of which were leading in attractions- and then
came away. Her spirits were materially reduced, owing to the newly
restored sense of magnitude of the great interests and the
insignificance of her claims upon society, such as she understood them
to be.
That night she was visited by Mrs. Hale, whose chatter and
protracted stay made it impossible to dwell upon her predicament or
the fortune of the day. Before retiring, however, she sat down to
think, and gave herself up to the most gloomy forebodings. Drouet
had not put in an appearance. She had had no word from any quarter,
she had spent a dollar of her precious sum in procuring food and
paying car fare. It was evident that she would not endure long.
Besides, she had discovered no resource.
In this situation her thoughts went out to her sister in Van Buren
Street, whom she had not seen since the night of her flight, and to
her home at Columbia City, which seemed now a part of something that
could not be again. She looked for no refuge in that direction.
Nothing but sorrow was brought her by thoughts of Hurstwood, which
would return. That he could have chosen to dupe her in so ready a
manner seemed a cruel thing.
Tuesday came, and with it appropriate indecision and speculation.
She was in no mood, after her failure of the day before, to hasten
forth upon her work-seeking errand, and yet she rebuked herself for
what she considered her weakness the day before. Accordingly she
started out to revisit the Chicago Opera House, but possessed scarcely
enough courage to approach.
She did manage to inquire at the box-office, however.
"Manager of the company or the house?" asked the smartly dressed
individual who took care of the tickets. He was favourably impressed
by Carrie's looks.
"I don't know," said Carrie, taken back by the question.
"You couldn't see the manager of the house to-day, anyhow,"
volunteered the young man. "He's out of town."
He noted her puzzled look, and then added: "What is it you wish to
see about?"
"I want to see about getting a position," she answered.
"You'd better see the manager of the company," he returned, "but
he isn't here now."
"When will he be in?" asked Carrie, somewhat relieved by this
information.
"Well, you might find him in between eleven and twelve. He's here
after two o'clock."
Carrie thanked him and walked briskly out, while the young man gazed
after her through one of the side windows of his gilded coop.
"Good-looking," he said to himself, and proceeded to visions of
condescensions on her part which were exceedingly flattering to
himself.
One of the principal comedy companies of the day was playing an
engagement at the Grand opera House. Here Carrie asked to see the
manager of the company. She little knew the trivial authority of
this individual, or that had there been a vacancy an actor would
have been sent on from New York to fill it.
"His office is upstairs," said a man in the box-office.
Several persons were in the manager's office, two lounging near a
window, another talking to an individual sitting at a roll-top desk-
the manager. Carrie glanced nervously about, and began to fear that
she should have to make her appeal before the assembled company, two
of whom- the occupants of the window- were already observing her
carefully.
"I can't do it," the manager was saying; "it's a rule of Mr.
Frohman's never to allow visitors back of the stage. No, no!"
Carrie timidly waited, standing. There were chairs, but no one
motioned her to be seated. The individual to whom the manager had been
talking went away quite crest-fallen. That luminary gazed earnestly at
some papers before him, as if they were of the greatest concern.
"Did you see that in the 'Herald' this morning about Nat Goodwin,
Harris?"
"No," said the person addressed. "What was it?"
"Made quite a curtain address at Hooley's last night. Better look it
up."
Harris reached over to a table and began to look for the "Herald."
"What is it?" said the manager to Carrie, apparently noticing her
for the first time. He thought he was going to be held up for free
tickets.
Carrie summoned up all her courage, which was little at best. She
realised that she was a novice, and felt as if a rebuff were
certain. Of this she was so sure that she only wished now to pretend
she had called for advice.
"Can you tell me how to go about getting on the stage?"
It was the best way after all to have gone about the matter. She was
interesting, in a manner, to the occupant of the chair, and the
simplicity of her request and attitude took his fancy. He smiled, as
did the others in the room, who, however, made some slight effort to
conceal their humour.
"I don't know," he answered, looking her brazenly over. "Have you
ever had any experience upon the stage?"
"A little," answered Carrie. "I have taken part in amateur
performances."
She thought she had to make some sort of showing in order to
retain his interest.
"Never studied for the stage?" he said, putting on an air intended
as much to impress his friends with his discretion as Carrie.
"No, sir."
"Well, I don't know," he answered, tipping lazily back in his
chair while she stood before him. "What makes you want to get on the
stage?"
She felt abashed at the man's daring, but could only smile in answer
to his engaging smirk, and say:
"I need to make a living."
"Oh," he answered, rather taken by her trim appearance, and
feeling as if he might scrape up an acquaintance with her. "That's a
good reason, isn't it? Well, Chicago is not a good place for what
you want to do. You ought to be in New York. There's more chance
there. You could hardly expect to get started out here."
Carrie smiled genially, grateful that he should condescend to advise
her even so much. He noticed the smile, and put a slightly different
construction on it. He thought he saw an easy chance for a little
flirtation.
"Sit down," he said, pulling a chair forward from the side of his
desk and dropping his voice so that the two men in the room should not
hear. Those two gave each other the suggestion of a wink.
"Well, I'll be going, Barney," said one, breaking away and so
addressing the manager. "See you this afternoon."
"All right," said the manager.
The remaining individual took up a paper as if to read.
"Did you have any idea what sort of part you would like to get?"
asked the manager softly.
"Oh, no," said Carrie. "I would take anything to begin with."
"I see," he said. "Do you live here in the city?"
"Yes, sir."
The manager smiled most blandly.
"Have you ever tried to get in as a chorus girl?" he asked, assuming
a more confidential air.
Carrie began to feel that there was something exuberant and
unnatural in his manner.
"No," she said.
"That's the way most girls begin," he went on, "who go on the stage.
It's a good way to get experience."
He was turning on her a glance of the companionable and persuasive
manner.
"I didn't know that," said Carrie.
"It's a difficult thing," he went on, "but there's always a
chance, you know." Then, as if he suddenly remembered, he pulled out
his watch and consulted it. "I've an appointment at two," he said,
"and I've got to go to lunch now. Would you care to come and dine with
me? We can talk it over there."
"Oh, no," said Carrie, the whole motive of the man flashing on her
at once. "I have an engagement myself."
"That's too bad," he said, realising that he had been a little
beforehand in his offer and that Carrie was about to go away. "Come in
later. I may know of something."
"Thank you," she answered, with some trepidation, and went out.
"She was good-looking, wasn't she?" said the manager's companion,
who had not caught all the details of the game he had played.
"Yes, in a way," said the other, sore to think the game had been
lost. "She'd never make an actress, though. Just another chorus
girl-that's all."
This little experience nearly destroyed her ambition to call upon
the manager at the Chicago Opera House, but she decided to do so after
a time. He was of a more sedate turn of mind. He said at once that
there was no opening of any sort, and seemed to consider her search
foolish.
"Chicago is no place to get a start," he said. "You ought to be in
New York."
Still she persisted, and went to McVickar's, where she could not
find any one. "The Old Homestead" was running there, but the person to
whom she was referred was not to be found.
These little expeditions took up her time until quite four
o'clock, when she was weary enough to go home. She felt as if she
ought to continue and inquire elsewhere, but the results so far were
too dispiriting. She took the car and arrived at Ogden Place in
three-quarters of an hour, but decided to ride on to the West Side
branch of the Post-office, where she was accustomed to receive
Hurstwood's letters. There was one there now, written Saturday,
which she tore open and read with mingled feelings. There was so
much warmth in it and such tense complaint at her having failed to
meet him, and her subsequent silence, that she rather pitied the
man. That he loved her was evident enough. That he had wished and
dared to do so, married as he was, was the evil. She felt as if the
thing deserved an answer, and consequently decided that she would
write and let him know that she knew of his married state and was
justly incensed at his deception. She would tell him that it was all
over between them.
At her room, the wording of this missive occupied her for some time,
for she fell to the task at once. It was most difficult.
"You do not need to have me explain why I did not meet you," she
wrote in part. "How could you deceive me so? You cannot expect me to
have anything more to do with you. I wouldn't under any circumstances.
Oh, how could you act so?" she added in a burst of feeling. "You
have caused me more misery than you can think. I hope you will get
over your infatuation for me. We must not meet any more. Good-bye."
She took the letter the next morning, and at the corner dropped it
reluctantly into the letter-box, still uncertain as to whether she
should do so or not. Then she took the car and went down town.
This was the dull season with the department stores, but she was
listened to with more consideration than was usually accorded to young
women applicants, owing to her neat and attractive appearance. She was
asked the same old questions with which she was already familiar.
"What can you do? Have you ever worked in a retail store before? Are
you experienced?"
At The Fair, See and Company's, and all the great stores it was much
the same. It was the dull season, she might come in a little later,
possibly they would like to have her.
When she arrived at the house at the end of the day, weary and
disheartened, she discovered that Drouet had been there. His
umbrella and light overcoat were gone. She thought she missed other
things, but could not be sure. Everything had not been taken.
So his going was crystallising into staying. What was she to do now?
Evidently she would be facing the world in the same old way within a
day or two. Her clothes would get poor. She put her two hands together
in her customary expressive way and pressed her fingers. Large tears
gathered in her eyes and broke hot across her cheeks. She was alone,
very much alone.
Drouet really had called, but it was with a very different mind from
that which Carrie had imagined. He expected to find her, to justify
his return by claiming that he came to get the remaining portion of
his wardrobe, and before he got away again to patch up a peace.
Accordingly, when he arrived, he was disappointed to find Carrie
out. He trifled about, hoping that she was somewhere in the
neighbourhood and would soon return. He constantly listened, expecting
to hear her foot on the stair.
When he did so, it was his intention to make believe that he had
just come in and was disturbed at being caught. Then he would
explain his need of his clothes and find out how things stood.
Wait as he did, however, Carrie did not come. From pottering
around among the drawers, in momentary expectation of her arrival,
he changed to looking out of the window, and from that to resting
himself in the rocking-chair. Still no Carrie. He began to grow
restless and lit a cigar. After that he walked the floor. Then he
looked out of the window and saw clouds gathering. He remembered an
appointment at three. He began to think that it would be useless to
wait, and got hold of his umbrella and light coat, intending to take
these things, any way. It would scare her, he hoped. To-morrow he
would come back for the others. He would find out how things stood.
As he started to go he felt truly sorry that he had missed her.
There was a little picture of her on the wall, showing her arrayed
in the little jacket he had first bought her- her face a little more
wistful than he had seen it lately. He was really touched by it, and
looked into the eyes of it with a rather rare feeling for him.
"You didn't do me right, Cad," he said, as if he were addressing her
in the flesh.
Then he went to the door, took a good look around, and went out.
Chapter XXVII.
WHEN WATERS ENGULF US WE REACH FOR A STAR
It was when he returned from his disturbed stroll about the streets,
after receiving the decisive note from McGregor, James and Hay, that
Hurstwood found the letter Carrie had written him that morning. He
thrilled intensely as he noted the handwriting, and rapidly tore it
open.
"Then," he thought, "she loves me or she would not have written to
me at all."
He was slightly depressed at the tenor of the note for the first few
minutes, but soon recovered. "She wouldn't write at all if she
didn't care for me."
This was his one resource against the depression which held him.
He could extract little from the wording of the letter, but the spirit
he thought he knew.
There was really something exceedingly human- if not pathetic- in
his being thus relieved by a clearly worded reproof. He who had for so
long remained satisfied with himself now looked outside of himself for
comfort- and to such a source. The mystic cords of affection! How they
bind us all.
The colour came to his cheeks. For the moment he forgot the letter
from McGregor, James and Hay. If he could only have Carrie, perhaps he
could get out of the whole entanglement- perhaps it would not
matter. He wouldn't care what his wife did with herself if only he
might not lose Carrie. He stood up and walked about, dreaming his
delightful dream of a life continued with this lovely possessor of his
heart.
It was not long, however, before the old worry was back for
consideration, and with it what weariness! He thought of the morrow
and the suit. He had done nothing, and here was the afternoon slipping
away. It was now a quarter of four. At five the attorneys would have
gone home. He still had the morrow until noon. Even as he thought, the
last fifteen minutes passed away and it was five. Then he abandoned
the thought of seeing them any more that day and turned to Carrie.
It is to be observed that the man did not justify himself to
himself. He was not troubling about that. His whole thought was the
possibility of persuading Carrie. Nothing was wrong in that. He
loved her dearly. Their mutual happiness depended upon it. Would
that Drouet were only away!
While he was thinking thus elatedly, he remembered that he wanted
some clean linen in the morning.
This he purchased, together with a half-dozen ties, and went to
the Palmer House. As he entered he thought he saw Drouet ascending the
stairs with a key. Surely not Drouet! Then he thought, perhaps they
had changed their abode temporarily. He went straight up to the desk.
"Is Mr. Drouet stopping here?" he asked of the clerk.
"I think he is," said the latter, consulting his private registry
list. "Yes."
"Is that so?" exclaimed Hurstwood, otherwise concealing his
astonishment. "Alone?" he added.
"Yes," said the clerk.
Hurstwood turned away and set his lips so as best to express and
conceal his feelings.
"How's that?" he thought. "They've had a row."
He hastened to his room with rising spirits and changed his linen.
As he did so, he made up his mind that if Carrie was alone, or if
she had gone to another place, it behooved him to find out. He decided
to call at once.
"I know what I'll do," he thought. "I'll go to the door and ask if
Mr. Drouet is at home. That will bring out whether he is there or
not and where Carrie is."
He was almost moved to some muscular display as he thought of it. He
decided to go immediately after supper.
On coming down from his room at six, he looked carefully about to
see if Drouet was present and then went out to lunch. He could
scarcely eat, however, he was so anxious to be about his errand.
Before starting he thought it well to discover where Drouet would
be, and returned to his hotel.
"Has Mr. Drouet gone out?" he asked of the clerk.
"No," answered the latter, "he's in his room. Do you wish to send up
a card?"
"No, I'll call around later," answered Hurstwood, and strolled out.
He took a Madison car and went direct to Ogden Place, this time
walking boldly up to the door. The chambermaid answered his knock.
"Is Mr. Drouet in?" said Hurstwood blandly.
"He is out of the city," said the girl, who had heard Carrie tell
this to Mrs. Hale.
"Is Mrs. Drouet in?"
"No, she has gone to the theatre."
"Is that so?" said Hurstwood, considerably taken back; then, as if
burdened with something important, "You don't know to which theatre?"
The girl really had no idea where she had gone, but not liking
Hurstwood, and wishing to cause him trouble, answered: "Yes,
Hooley's."
"Thank you," returned the manager, and tipping his hat slightly,
went away.
"I'll look in at Hooley's," thought he, but as a matter of fact he
did not. Before he had reached the central portion of the city he
thought the whole matter over and decided it would be useless. As much
as he longed to see Carrie, he knew she would be with some one and did
not wish to intrude with his plea there. A little later he might do
so- in the morning. Only in the morning he had the lawyer question
before him.
This little pilgrimage threw quite a wet blanket upon his rising
spirits. He was soon down again to his old worry, and reached the
resort anxious to find relief. Quite a company of gentlemen were
making the place lively with their conversation. A group of Cook
County politicians were conferring about a round cherry-wood table
in the rear portion of the room. Several young merry-makers were
chattering at the bar before making a belated visit to the theatre.
A shabbily-genteel individual, with a red nose and an old high hat,
was sipping a quiet glass of ale alone at one end of the bar.
Hurstwood nodded to the politicians and went into his office.
About ten o'clock a friend of his, Mr. Frank L. Taintor, a local
sport and racing man, dropped in, and seeing Hurstwood alone in his
office came to the door.
"Hello, George!" he exclaimed.
"How are you, Frank?" said Hurstwood, somewhat relieved by the sight
of him. "Sit down," and he motioned him to one of the chairs in the
little room.
"What's the matter, George?" asked Taintor. "You look a little glum.
Haven't lost at the track, have you?"
"I'm not feeling very well to-night. I had a slight cold the other
day."
"Take whiskey, George," said Taintor. "You ought to know that."
Hurstwood smiled.
While they were still conferring there, several other of Hurstwood's
friends entered, and not long after eleven, the theatres being out,
some actors began to drop in- among them some notabilities.
Then began one of those pointless social conversations so common
in America resorts where the would-be gilded attempt to rub off gilt
from those who have it in abundance. If Hurstwood had one leaning,
it was toward notabilities. He considered that, if anywhere, he
belonged among them. He was too proud to toady, too keen not to
strictly observe the plane he occupied when there were those present
who did not appreciate him, but, in situations like the present, where
he could shine as a gentleman and be received without equivocation
as a friend and equal among men of known ability, he was most
delighted. It was on such occasions, if ever, that he would "take
something." When the social flavour was strong enough he would even
unbend to the extent of drinking glass for glass with his
associates, punctiliously observing his turn to pay as if he were an
outsider like the others. If he ever approached intoxication- or
rather that ruddy warmth and comfortableness which precedes the more
sloven state- it was when individuals such as these were gathered
about him, when he was one of a circle of chatting celebrities.
To-night, disturbed as was his state, he was rather relieved to find
company, and now that notabilities were gathered, he laid aside his
troubles for the nonce, and joined in right heartily.
It was not long before the imbibing began to tell. Stories began
to crop up- those ever-enduring, droll stories which form the major
portion of the conversation among American men under such
circumstances.
Twelve o'clock arrived, the hour for closing, and with it the
company took leave. Hurstwood shook hands with them most cordially. He
was very roseate physically. He had arrived at that state where his
mind, though clear, was, nevertheless, warm in its fancies. He felt as
if his troubles were not very serious. Going into his office, he began
to turn over certain accounts, awaiting the departure of the
bartenders and the cashier, who soon left.
It was the manager's duty, as well as his custom, after all were
gone to see that everything was safely closed up for the night. As a
rule, no money except the cash taken in after banking hours was kept
about the place, and that was locked in the safe by the cashier,
who, with the owners, was joint keeper of the secret combination, but,
nevertheless, Hurstwood nightly took the precaution to try the cash
drawers and the safe in order to see that they were tightly closed.
Then he would lock his own little office and set the proper light
burning near the safe, after which he would take his departure.
Never in his experience had he found anything out of order, but
to-night, after shutting down his desk, he came out and tried the
safe. His way was to give a sharp pull. This time the door
responded. He was slightly surprised at that, and looking in found the
money cases as left for the day, apparently unprotected. His first
thought was, of course, to inspect the drawers and shut the door.
"I'll speak to Mayhew about this to-morrow," he thought.
The latter had certainly imagined upon going out a half-hour
before that he had turned the knob on the door so as to spring the
lock. He had never failed to do so before. But to-night Mayhew had
other thoughts. He had been revolving the problem of a business of his
own.
"I'll look in here," thought the manager, pulling out the money
drawers. He did not know why he wished to look in there. It was
quite a superfluous action, which another time might not have happened
at all.
As he did so, a layer of bills, in parcels of a thousand, such as
banks issue, caught his eye. He could not tell how much they
represented, but paused to view them. Then he pulled out the second of
the cash drawers. In that were the receipts of the day.
"I didn't know Fitzgerald and Moy ever left any money this way," his
mind said to itself. "They must have forgotten it."
He looked at the other drawer and paused again.
"Count them," said a voice in his ear.
He put his hand into the first of the boxes and lifted the stack,
letting the separate parcels fall. They were bills of fifty and one
hundred dollars done in packages of a thousand. He thought he
counted ten such.
"Why don't I shut the safe?" his mind said to itself, lingering.
"What makes me pause here?"
For answer there came the strangest words:
"Did you ever have ten thousand dollars in ready money?"
Lo, the manager remembered that he had never had so much. All his
property had been slowly accumulated, and now his wife owned that.
He was worth more than forty thousand, all told- but she would get
that.
He puzzled as he thought of these things, then pushed in the drawers
and closed the door, pausing with his hand upon the knob, which
might so easily lock it all beyond temptation. Still he paused.
Finally he went to the windows and pulled down the curtains. Then he
tried the door, which he had previously locked. What was this thing,
making him suspicious? Why did he wish to move about so quietly. He
came back to the end of the counter as if to rest his arm and think.
Then he went and unlocked his little office door and turned on the
light. He also opened his desk, sitting down before it, only to
think strange thoughts.
"The safe is open," said a voice. "There is just the least little
crack in it. The lock has not been sprung."
The manager floundered among a jumble of thoughts. Now all the
entanglement of the day came back. Also the thought that here was a
solution. That money would do it. If he had that and Carrie. He rose
up and stood stock-still, looking at the floor.
"What about it?" his mind asked, and for answer he put his hand
slowly up and scratched his head.
The manager was no fool to be led blindly away by such an errant
proposition as this, but his situation was peculiar. Wine was in his
veins. It had crept up into his head and given him a warm view of
the situation. It also coloured the possibilities of ten thousand
for him. He could see great opportunities with that. He could get
Carrie. Oh, yes, he could! He could get rid of his wife. That
letter, too, was waiting discussion to-morrow morning. He would not
need to answer that. He went back to the safe and put his hand on
the knob. Then he pulled the door open and took the drawer with the
money quite out.
With it once out and before him, it seemed a foolish thing to
think about leaving it. Certainly it would. Why, he could live quietly
with Carrie for years.
Lord! what was that? For the first time he was tense, as if a
stern hand had been laid upon his shoulder. He looked fearfully
around. Not a soul was present. Not a sound. Some one was shuffling by
on the sidewalk. He took the box and the money and put it back in
the safe. Then he partly closed the door again.
To those who have never wavered in conscience, the predicament of
the individual whose mind is less strongly constituted and who
trembles in the balance between duty and desire is scarcely
appreciable, unless graphically portrayed. Those who have never
heard that solemn voice of the ghostly clock which ticks with awful
distinctness, "thou shalt," "thou shalt not," "thou shalt," "thou
shalt not," are in no position to judge. Not alone in sensitive,
highly organised natures is such a mental conflict possible. The
dullest specimen of humanity, when drawn by desire toward evil, is
recalled by a sense of right, which is proportionate in power and
strength to his evil tendency. We must remember that it may not be a
knowledge of right, for no knowledge of right is predicated of the
animal's instinctive recoil at evil. Men are still led by instinct
before they are regulated by knowledge. It is instinct which recalls
the criminal- it is instinct (where highly organised reasoning is
absent) which gives the criminal his feeling of danger, his fear of
wrong.
At every first adventure, then, into some untried evil, the mind
wavers. The clock of thought ticks out its wish and its denial. To
those who have never experienced such a mental dilemma, the
following will appeal on the simple ground of revelation.
When Hurstwood put the money back, his nature again resumed its ease
and daring. No one had observed him. He was quite alone. No one
could tell what he wished to do. He could work this thing out for
himself.
The imbibation of the evening had not yet worn off. Moist as was his
brow, tremble as did his hand once after the nameless fright, he was
still flushed with the fumes of liquor. He scarcely noticed that the
time was passing. He went over his situation once again, his eye
always seeing the money in a lump, his mind always seeing what it
would do. He strolled into his little room, then to the door, then
to the safe again. He put his hand on the knob and opened it. There
was the money! Surely no harm could come from looking at it!
He took out the drawer again and lifted the bills. They were so
smooth, so compact, so portable. How little they made, after all. He
decided he would take them. Yes, he would. He would put them in his
pocket. Then he looked at that and saw they would not go there. His
hand satchel! To be sure, his hand satchel. They would go in that- all
of it would. No one would think anything of it either. He went into
the little office and took it from the shelf in the corner. Now he set
it upon his desk and went out toward the safe. For some reason he
did not want to fill it out in the big room.
First he brought the bills and then the loose receipts of the day.
He would take it all. He put the empty drawers back and pushed the
iron door almost to, then stood beside it meditating.
The wavering of a mind under such circumstances is an almost
inexplicable thing, and yet it is absolutely true. Hurstwood could not
bring himself to act definitely. He wanted to think about it- to
ponder over it, to decide whether it were best. He was drawn by such a
keen desire for Carrie, driven by such a state of turmoil in his own
affairs that he thought constantly it would be best, and yet he
wavered. He did not know what evil might result from it to him- how
soon he might come to grief. The true ethics of the situation never
once occurred to him, and never would have, under any circumstances.
After he had all the money in the hand bag, a revulsion of feeling
seized him. He would not do it- no! Think of what a scandal it would
make. The police! They would be after him. He would have to fly, and
where? Oh, the terror of being a fugitive from justice! He took out
the two boxes and put all the money back. In his excitement he
forgot what he was doing, and put the sums in the wrong boxes. As he
pushed the door to, he thought he remembered doing it wrong and opened
the door again. There were the two boxes mixed.
He took them out and straightened the matter, but now the terror had
gone. Why be afraid?
While the money was in his hand the lock clicked. It had sprung! Did
he do it? He grabbed at the knob and pulled vigorously. It had closed.
Heavens! he was in for it now, sure enough.
The moment he realised that the safe was locked for a surety, the
sweat burst out upon his brow and he trembled violently. He looked
about him and decided instantly. There was no delaying now.
"Supposing I do lay it on the top," he said, "and go away, they'll
know who took it. I'm the last to close up. Besides, other things will
happen."
At once he became the man of action.
"I must get out of this," he thought.
He hurried into his little room, took down his light overcoat and
hat, locked his desk, and grabbed the satchel. Then he turned out
all but one light and opened the door. He tried to put on his old
assured air, but it was almost gone. He was repenting rapidly.
"I wish I hadn't done that," he said. "That was a mistake."
He walked steadily down the street, greeting a night watchman whom
he knew who was trying doors. He must get out of the city, and that
quickly.
"I wonder how the trains run?" he thought.
Instantly he pulled out his watch and looked. It was nearly
half-past one.
At the first drug store he stopped, seeing a long-distance telephone
booth inside. It was a famous drug store, and contained one of the
first private telephone booths ever erected.
"I want to use your 'phone a minute," he said to the night clerk.
The latter nodded.
"Give me 1643," he called to Central, after looking up the
Michigan Central depot number. Soon he got the ticket agent.
"How do the trains leave here for Detroit?" he asked.
The man explained the hours.
"No more to-night?"
"Nothing with a sleeper. Yes, there is, too," he added. "There is
a mail train out of here at three o'clock."
"All right," said Hurstwood. "What time does that get to Detroit?"
He was thinking if he could only get there and cross the river
into Canada, he could take his time about getting to Montreal. He
was relieved to learn that it would reach there by noon.
"Mayhew won't open the safe till nine," he thought. "They can't
get on my track before noon."
Then he thought of Carrie. With what speed must he get her, if he
got her at all. She would have to come along. He jumped into the
nearest cab standing by.
"To Ogden Place," he said sharply. "I'll give you a dollar more if
you make good time."
The cabby beat his horse into a sort of imitation gallop, which
was fairly fast, however. On the way Hurstwood thought what to do.
Reaching the number, he hurried up the steps and did not spare the
bell in waking the servant.
"Is Mrs. Drouet in?" he asked.
"Yes," said the astonished girl.
"Tell her to dress and come to the door at once. Her husband is in
the hospital, injured, and wants to see her."
The servant girl hurried upstairs, convinced by the man's strained
and emphatic manner.
"What!" said Carrie, lighting the gas and searching for her clothes.
"Mr. Drouet is hurt and in the hospital. He wants to see you. The
cab's downstairs."
Carrie dressed very rapidly, and soon appeared below, forgetting
everything save the necessities.
"Drouet is hurt," said Hurstwood quickly. "He wants to see you. Come
quickly."
Carrie was so bewildered that she swallowed the whole story.
"Get in," said Hurstwood, helping her and jumping after.
The cabby began to turn the horse around.
"Michigan Central depot," he said, standing up and speaking so low
that Carrie could not hear, "as fast as you can go."
Chapter XXVIII.
A PILGRIM, AN OUTLAW: THE SPIRIT DETAINED
The cab had not travelled a short block before Carrie, settling
herself and thoroughly waking in the night atmosphere, asked:
"What's the matter with him? Is he hurt badly?"
"It isn't anything very serious," Hurstwood said solemnly. He was
very much disturbed over his own situation, and now that he had Carrie
with him, he only wanted to get safely out of reach of the law.
Therefore he was in no mood for anything save such words as would
further his plans distinctly.
Carrie did not forget that there was something to be settled between
her and Hurstwood, but the thought was ignored in her agitation. The
one thing was to finish this strange pilgrimage.
"Where is he?"
"Way out on the South Side," said Hurstwood. "We'll have to take the
train. It's the quickest way."
Carrie said nothing, and the horse gambolled on. The weirdness of
the city by night held her attention. She looked at the long
receding rows of lamps and studied the dark, silent houses.
"How did he hurt himself?" she asked- meaning what was the nature of
his injuries. Hurstwood understood. He hated to lie any more than
necessary, and yet he wanted no protests until he was out of danger.
"I don't know exactly," he said. "They just called me up to go and
get you and bring you out. They said there wasn't any need for
alarm, but that I shouldn't fail to bring you."
The man's serious manner convinced Carrie, and she became silent,
wondering.
Hurstwood examined his watch and urged the man to hurry. For one
in so delicate a position he was exceedingly cool. He could only think
of how needful it was to make the train and get quietly away. Carrie
seemed quite tractable, and he congratulated himself.
In due time they reached the depot, and after helping her out he
handed the man a five-dollar bill and hurried on.
"You wait here," he said to Carrie, when they reached the
waiting-room, "while I get the tickets."
"Have I much time to catch the train for Detroit?" he asked of the
agent.
"Four minutes," said the latter.
He paid for two tickets as circumspectly as possible.
"Is it far?" said Carrie, as he hurried back.
"Not very," he said. "We must get right in."
He pushed her before him at the gate, stood between her and the
ticket man while the latter punched their tickets, so that she could
not see, and then hurried after.
There was a long line of express and passenger cars and one or two
common day coaches. As the train had only recently been made up and
few passengers were expected, there were only one or two brakemen
waiting. They entered the rear day coach and sat down. Almost
immediately, "All aboard," resounded faintly from the outside, and the
train started.
Carrie began to think it was a little bit curious- this going to a
depot- but said nothing. The whole incident was so out of the
natural that she did not attach too much weight to anything she
imagined.
"How have you been?" asked Hurstwood gently, for he now breathed
easier.
"Very well," said Carrie, who was so disturbed that she could not
bring a proper attitude to bear in the matter. She was still nervous
to reach Drouet and see what could be the matter. Hurstwood
contemplated her and felt this. He was not disturbed that it should be
so. He did not trouble because she was moved sympathetically in the
matter. It was one of the qualities in her which pleased him
exceedingly. He was only thinking how he should explain. Even this was
not the most serious thing in his mind, however. His own deed and
present flight were the great shadows which weighed upon him.
"What a fool I was to do that," he said over and over. "What a
mistake!"
In his sober senses, he could scarcely realise that the thing had
been done. He could not begin to feel that he was a fugitive from
justice. He had often read of such things, and had thought they must
be terrible, but now that the thing was upon him, he only sat and
looked into the past. The future was a thing which concerned the
Canadian line. He wanted to reach that. As for the rest, he surveyed
his actions for the evening, and counted them parts of a great
mistake.
"Still," he said, "what could I have done?"
Then he would decide to make the best of it, and would begin to do
so by starting the whole inquiry over again. It was a fruitless,
harassing round, and left him in a queer mood to deal with the
proposition he had in the presence of Carrie.
The train clacked through the yards along the lake front, and ran
rather slowly to Twenty-fourth Street. Brakes and signals were visible
without. The engine gave short calls with its whistle, and
frequently the bell rang. Several brakemen came through, bearing
lanterns. They were locking the vestibules and putting the cars in
order for a long run.
Presently it began to gain speed, and Carrie saw the silent
streets flashing by in rapid succession. The engine also began its
whistle-calls of four parts, with which it signalled danger to
important crossings.
"Is it very far?" asked Carrie.
"Not so very," said Hurstwood. He could hardly repress a smile at
her simplicity. He wanted to explain and conciliate her, but he also
wanted to be well out of Chicago.
In the lapse of another half-hour it became apparent to Carrie
that it was quite a run to wherever he was taking her, anyhow.
"Is it in Chicago?" she asked nervously. They were now far beyond
the city limits, and the train was scudding across the Indiana line at
a great rate.
"No," he said, "not where we are going."
There was something in the way he said this which aroused her in
an instant.
Her pretty brow began to contract.
"We are going to see Charlie, aren't we?" she asked.
He felt that the time was up. An explanation might as well come
now as later. Therefore, he shook his head in the most gentle
negative.
"What?" said Carrie. She was nonplussed at the possibility of the
errand being different from what she had thought.
He only looked at her in the most kindly and mollifying way.
"Well, where are you taking me, then?" she asked, her voice
showing the quality of fright.
"I'll tell you, Carrie, if you'll be quiet. I want you to come along
with me to another city."
"Oh," said Carrie, her voice rising into a weak cry. "Let me off.
I don't want to go with you."
She was quite appalled at the man's audacity. This was something
which had never for a moment entered her head. Her one thought now was
to get off and away. If only the flying train could be stopped, the
terrible trick would be amended.
She arose and tried to push out into the aisle- anywhere. She knew
she had to do something. Hurstwood laid a gentle hand on her.
"Sit still, Carrie," he said. "Sit still. It won't do you any good
to get up here. Listen to me and I'll tell you what I'll do. Wait a
moment."
She was pushing at his knees, but he only pulled her back. No one
saw this little altercation, for very few persons were in the car, and
they were attempting to doze.
"I won't," said Carrie, who was, nevertheless, complying against her
will. "Let me go," she said. "How dare you?" and large tears began
to gather in her eyes.
Hurstwood was now fully aroused to the immediate difficulty, and
ceased to think of his own situation. He must do something with this
girl, or she would cause him trouble. He tried the art of persuasion
with all his powers aroused.
"Look here now, Carrie," he said, "you mustn't act this way. I
didn't mean to hurt your feelings. I don't want to do anything to make
you feel bad."
"Oh," sobbed Carrie, "oh, oh- oo- o!"
"There, there," he said, "you mustn't cry. Won't you listen to me?
Listen to me a minute, and I'll tell you why I came to do this
thing. I couldn't help it. I assure you I couldn't. Won't you listen?"
Her sobs disturbed him so that he was quite sure she did not hear
a word he said.
"Won't you listen?" he asked.
"No, I won't," said Carrie, flashing up. "I want you to take me
out of this, or I'll tell the conductor. I won't go with you. It's a
shame," and again sobs of fright cut off her desire for expression.
Hurstwood listened with some astonishment. He felt that she had just
cause for feeling as she did, and yet he wished that he could
straighten this thing out quickly. Shortly the conductor would come
through for the tickets. He wanted no noise, no trouble of any kind.
Before everything he must make her quiet.
"You couldn't get out until the train stops again," said
Hurstwood. "It won't be very long until we reach another station.
You can get out then if you want to. I won't stop you. All I want
you to do is to listen a moment. You'll let me tell you, won't you?"
Carrie seemed not to listen. She only turned her head toward the
window, where outside all was black. The train was speeding with
steady grace across the fields and through patches of wood. The long
whistles came with sad, musical effect as the lonely woodland
crossings were approached.
Now the conductor entered the car and took up the one or two fares
that had been added at Chicago. He approached Hurstwood, who handed
out the tickets. Poised as she was to act, Carrie made no move. She
did not look about.
When the conductor had gone again Hurstwood felt relieved.
"You're angry at me because I deceived you," he said. "I didn't mean
to, Carrie. As I live I didn't. I couldn't help it. I couldn't stay
away from you after the first time I saw you."
He was ignoring the last deception as something that might go by the
board. He wanted to convince her that his wife could no longer be a
factor in their relationship. The money he had stolen he tried to shut
out of his mind.
"Don't talk to me," said Carrie, "I hate you. I want you to go
away from me. I am going to get out at the very next station."
She was in a tremble of excitement and opposition as she spoke.
"All right," he said, "but you'll hear me out, won't you? After
all you have said about loving me, you might hear me. I don't want
to do you any harm. I'll give you the money to go back with when you
go. I merely want to tell you, Carrie. You can't stop me from loving
you, whatever you may think."
He looked at her tenderly, but received no reply.
"You think I have deceived you badly, but I haven't. I didn't do
it willingly. I'm through with my wife. She hasn't any claims on me.
I'll never see her any more. That's why I'm here to-night. That's
why I came and got you."
"You said Charlie was hurt," said Carrie, savagely. "You deceived
me. You've been deceiving me all the time, and now you want to force
me to run away with you."
She was so excited that she got up and tried to get by him again. He
let her, and she took another seat. Then he followed.
"Don't run away from me, Carrie," he said gently. "Let me explain.
If you will only hear me out you will see where I stand. I tell you my
wife is nothing to me. She hasn't been anything for years or I
wouldn't have ever come near you. I'm going to get a divorce just as
soon as I can. I'll never see her again. I'm done with all that.
You're the only person I want. If I can have you I won't ever think of
another woman again."
Carrie heard all this in a very ruffled state. It sounded sincere
enough, however, despite all he had done. There was a tenseness in
Hurstwood's voice and manner which could but have some effect. She did
not want anything to do with him. He was married, he had deceived
her once, and now again, and she thought him terrible. Still there
is something in such daring and power which is fascinating to a woman,
especially if she can be made to feel that it is all prompted by
love of her.
The progress of the train was having a great deal to do with the
solution of this difficult situation. The speeding wheels and
disappearing country put Chicago farther and farther behind. Carrie
could feel that she was being borne a long distance off- that the
engine was making an almost through run to some distant city. She felt
at times as if she could cry out and make such a row that some one
would come to her aid; at other times it seemed an almost useless
thing- so far was she from any aid, no matter what she did. All the
while Hurstwood was endeavouring to formulate his plea in such a way
that it would strike home and bring her into sympathy with him.
"I was simply put where I didn't know what else to do."
Carrie deigned no suggestion of hearing this.
"When I saw you wouldn't come unless I could marry you, I decided to
put everything else behind me and get you to come away with me. I'm
going off now to another city. I want to go to Montreal for a while,
and then anywhere you want to. We'll go and live in New York, if you
say."
"I'll not have anything to do with you," said Carrie. "I want to get
off this train. Where are we going?"
"To Detroit," said Hurstwood.
"Oh!" said Carrie, in a burst of anguish. So distant and definite
a point seemed to increase the difficulty.
"Won't you come along with me?" he said, as if there was great
danger that she would not. "You won't need to do anything but travel
with me. I'll not trouble you in any way. You can see Montreal and New
York, and then if you don't want to stay you can go back. It will be
better than trying to go back to-night."
The first gleam of fairness shone in this proposition for Carrie. It
seemed a plausible thing to do, much as she feared his opposition if
she tried to carry it out. Montreal and New York! Even now she was
speeding toward those great, strange lands, and could see them if
she liked. She thought, but made no sign.
Hurstwood thought he saw a shade of compliance in this. He redoubled
his ardour.
"Think," he said, "what I've given up. I can't go back to Chicago
any more. I've got to stay away and live alone now, if you don't
come with me. You won't go back on me entirely, will you, Carrie?"
"I don't want you to talk to me," she answered forcibly.
Hurstwood kept silent for a while.
Carrie felt the train to be slowing down. It was the moment to act
if she was to act at all. She stirred uneasily.
"Don't think of going, Carrie," he said. "If you ever cared for me
at all, come along and let's start right. I'll do whatever you say.
I'll marry you, or I'll let you go back. Give yourself time to think
it over. I wouldn't have wanted you to come if I hadn't loved you. I
tell you, Carrie, before God, I can't live without you. I won't!"
There was the tensity of fierceness in the man's plea which appealed
deeply to her sympathies. It was a dissolving fire which was actuating
him now. He was loving her too intensely to think of giving her up
in this, his hour of distress. He clutched her hand nervously and
pressed it with all the force of an appeal.
The train was now all but stopped. It was running by some cars on
a side track. Everything outside was dark and dreary. A few
sprinkles on the window began to indicate that it was raining.
Carrie hung in a quandary, balancing between decision and
helplessness. Now the train stopped, and she was listening to his
plea. The engine backed a few feet and all was still.
She wavered, totally unable to make a move. Minute after minute
slipped by and still she hesitated, he pleading.
"Will you let me come back if I want to?" she asked, as if she now
had the upper hand and her companion was utterly subdued.
"Of course," he answered, "you know I will."
Carrie only listened as one who has granted a temporary amnesty. She
began to feel as if the matter were in her hands entirely.
The train was again in rapid motion. Hurstwood changed the subject.
"Aren't you very tired?" he said.
"No," she answered.
"Won't you let me get you a berth in the sleeper?"
She shook her head, though for all her distress and his trickery she
was beginning to notice what she had always felt- his thoughtfulness.
"Oh, yes," he said, "you will feel so much better."
She shook her head.
"Let me fix my coat for you, anyway," and he arose and arranged
his light coat in a comfortable position to receive her head.
"There," he said tenderly, "now see if you can't rest a little."
He could have kissed her for her compliance. He took his seat beside
her and thought a moment.
"I believe we're in for a heavy rain," he said.
"So it looks," said Carrie, whose nerves were quieting under the
sound of the rain drops, driven by a gusty wind, as the train swept on
frantically through the shadow to a newer world.
The fact that he had in a measure mollified Carrie was a source of
satisfaction to Hurstwood, but it furnished only the most temporary
relief. Now that her opposition was out of the way, he had all of
his time to devote to the consideration of his own error.
His condition was bitter in the extreme, for he did not want the
miserable sum he had stolen. He did not want to be a thief. That sum
or any other could never compensate for the state which he had thus
foolishly doffed. It could not give him back his host of friends,
his name, his house and family, nor Carrie, as he had meant to have
her. He was shut out from Chicago- from his easy, comfortable state.
He had robbed himself of his dignity, his merry meetings, his pleasant
evenings. And for what? The more he thought of it the more
unbearable it became. He began to think that he would try and
restore himself to his old state. He would return the miserable
thievings of the night and explain. Perhaps Moy would understand.
Perhaps they would forgive him and let him come back.
By noontime the train rolled into Detroit and he began to feel
exceedingly nervous. The police must be on his track by now. They
had probably notified all the police of the big cities, and detectives
would be watching for him. He remembered instances in which defaulters
had been captured. Consequently, he breathed heavily and paled
somewhat. His hands felt as if they must have something to do. He
simulated interest in several scenes without which he did not feel. He
repeatedly beat his foot upon the floor.
Carrie noticed his agitation, but said nothing. She had no idea what
it meant or that it was important.
He wondered now why he had not asked whether this train went on
through to Montreal or some Canadian point. Perhaps he could have
saved time. He jumped up and sought the conductor.
"Does any part of this train go to Montreal?" he asked.
"Yes, the next sleeper back does."
He would have asked more, but it did not seem wise, so he decided to
inquire at the depot.
The train rolled into the yards, clanging and puffing.
"I think we had better go right on through to Montreal," he said
to Carrie. "I'll see what the connections are when we get off."
He was exceedingly nervous, but did his best to put on a calm
exterior. Carrie only looked at him with large, troubled eyes. She was
drifting mentally, unable to say to herself what to do.
The train stopped and Hurstwood led the way out. He looked warily
around him, pretending to look after Carrie. Seeing nothing that
indicated studied observation, he made his way to the ticket office.
"The next train for Montreal leaves when?" he asked.
"In twenty minutes," said the man.
He bought two tickets and Pullman berths. Then he hastened back to
Carrie.
"We go right out again," he said, scarcely noticing that Carrie
looked tired and weary.
"I wish I was out of all this," she exclaimed gloomily.
"You'll feel better when we reach Montreal," he said.
"I haven't an earthly thing with me," said Carrie; "not even a
handkerchief."
"You can buy all you want as soon as you get there, dearest," he
explained. "You can call in a dressmaker."
Now the crier called the train ready and they got on. Hurstwood
breathed a sigh of relief as it started. There was a short run to
the river, and there they were ferried over. They had barely pulled
the train off the ferry-boat when he settled back with a sigh.
"It won't be so very long now," he said, remembering her in his
relief. "We get there the first thing in the morning."
Carrie scarcely deigned to reply.
"I'll see if there is a dining-car," he added. "I'm hungry."
Chapter XXIX.
THE SOLACE OF TRAVEL: THE BOATS OF THE SEA
To the untravelled, territory other than their own familiar heath is
invariably fascinating. Next to love, it is the one thing which
solaces and delights. Things new are too important to be neglected,
and mind, which is a mere reflection of sensory impressions,
succumbs to the flood of objects. Thus lovers are forgotten, sorrows
laid aside, death hidden from view. There is a world of accumulated
feeling back of the trite dramatic expression- "I am going away."
As Carrie looked out upon the flying scenery she almost forgot
that she had been tricked into this long journey against her will
and that she was without the necessary apparel for travelling. She
quite forgot Hurstwood's presence at times, and looked away to
homely farmhouses and cosey cottages in villages with wondering
eyes. It was an interesting world to her. Her life had just begun. She
did not feel herself defeated at all. Neither was she blasted in hope.
The great city held much. Possibly she would come out of bondage
into freedom- who knows? Perhaps she would be happy. These thoughts
raised her above the level of erring. She was saved in that she was
hopeful.
The following morning the train pulled safely into Montreal and they
stepped down, Hurstwood glad to be out of danger, Carrie wondering
at the novel atmosphere of the northern city. Long before, Hurstwood
had been here, and now he remembered the name of the hotel at which he
had stopped. As they came out of the main entrance of the depot he
heard it called anew by a busman.
"We'll go right up and get rooms," he said.
At the clerk's office Hurstwood swung the register about while the
clerk came forward. He was thinking what name he would put down.
With the latter before him he found no time for hesitation. A name
he had seen out of the car window came swiftly to him. It was pleasing
enough. With an easy hand he wrote, "G. W. Murdock and wife." It was
the largest concession to necessity he felt like making. His
initials he could not spare.
When they were shown their room Carrie saw at once that he had
secured her a lovely chamber.
"You have a bath there," said he. "Now you can clean up when you are
ready."
Carrie went over and looked out the window, while Hurstwood looked
at himself in the glass. He felt dusty and unclean. He had no trunk,
no change of linen, not even a hair-brush.
"I'll ring for soap and towels," he said, "and send you up a
hair-brush. Then you can bathe and get ready for breakfast. I'll go
for a shave and come back and get you, and then we'll go out and
look for some clothes for you."
He smiled good-naturedly as he said this.
"All right," said Carrie.
She sat down in one of the rocking-chairs, while Hurstwood waited
for the boy, who soon knocked.
"Soap, towels, and a pitcher of ice-water."
"Yes, sir."
"I'll go now," he said to Carrie, coming toward her and holding
out his hands, but she did not move to take them.
"You're not mad at me, are you?" he asked softly.
"Oh, no!" she answered, rather indifferently.
"Don't you care for me at all?"
She made no answer, but looked steadily toward the window.
"Don't you think you could love me a little?" he pleaded, taking one
of her hands, which she endeavoured to draw away. "You once said you
did."
"What made you deceive me so?" asked Carrie.
"I couldn't help it," he said, "I wanted you too much."
"You didn't have any right to want me," she answered, striking
cleanly home.
"Oh, well, Carrie," he answered, "here I am. It's too late now.
Won't you try and care for me a little?"
He looked rather worsted in thought as he stood before her.
She shook her head negatively.
"Let me start all over again. Be my wife from today on."
Carrie rose up as if to step away, he holding her hand. Now he
slipped his arm about her and she struggled, but in vain. He held
her quite close. Instantly there flamed up in his body the
all-compelling desire. His affection took an ardent form.
"Let me go," said Carrie, who was fo