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1900
SISTER CARRIE
by Theodore Dreiser
Chapter I.
THE MAGNET ATTRACTING: A WAIF AMID FORCES
When Caroline Meeber boarded the afternoon train for Chicago, her
total outfit consisted of a small trunk, a cheap imitation
alligator-skin satchel, a small lunch in a paper box, and a yellow
leather snap purse, containing her ticket, a scrap of paper with her
sister's address in Van Buren Street, and four dollars in money. It
was in August, 1889. She was eighteen years of age, bright, timid, and
full of the illusions of ignorance and youth. Whatever touch of regret
at parting characterised her thoughts, it was certainly not for
advantages now being given up. A gush of tears at her mother's
farewell kiss, a touch in her throat when the cars clacked by the
flour mill where her father worked by the day, a pathetic sigh as
the familiar green environs of the village passed in review, and the
threads which bound her so lightly to girlhood and home were
irretrievably broken.
To be sure there was always the next station, where one might
descend and return. There was the great city, bound more closely by
these very trains which came up daily. Columbia City was not so very
far away, even once she was in Chicago. What, pray, is a few hours-
a few hundred miles? She looked at the little slip bearing her
sister's address and wondered. She gazed at the green landscape, now
passing in swift review, until her swifter thoughts replaced its
impression with vague conjectures of what Chicago might be.
When a girl leaves her home at eighteen, she does one of two things.
Either she falls into saving hands and becomes better, or she
rapidly assumes the cosmopolitan standard of virtue and becomes worse.
Of an intermediate balance, under the circumstances, there is no
possibility. The city has its cunning wiles, no less than the
infinitely smaller and more human tempter. There are large forces
which allure with all the soulfulness of expression possible in the
most cultured human. The gleam of a thousand lights is often as
effective as the persuasive light in a wooing and fascinating eye.
Half the undoing of the unsophisticated and natural mind is
accomplished by forces wholly superhuman. A blare of sound, a roar
of life, a vast array of human hives, appeal to the astonished
senses in equivocal terms. Without a counsellor at hand to whisper
cautious interpretations, what falsehoods may not these things breathe
into the unguarded ear! Unrecognised for what they are, their
beauty, like music, too often relaxes, then weakens, then perverts the
simpler human perceptions.
Caroline, or Sister Carrie, as she had been half affectionately
termed by the family, was possessed of a mind rudimentary in its power
of observation and analysis. Self-interest with her was high, but
not strong. It was, nevertheless, her guiding characteristic. Warm
with the fancies of youth, pretty with the insipid prettiness of the
formative period, possessed of a figure promising eventual shapeliness
and an eye alight with certain native intelligence, she was a fair
example of the middle American class- two generations removed from the
emigrant. Books were beyond her interest- knowledge a sealed book.
In the intuitive graces she was still crude. She could scarcely toss
her head gracefully. Her hands were almost ineffectual. The feet,
though small, were set flatly. And yet she was interested in her
charms, quick to understand the keener pleasures of life, ambitious to
gain in material things. A half-equipped little knight she was,
venturing to reconnoitre the mysterious city and dreaming wild
dreams of some vague, far-off supremacy, which should make it prey and
subject- the proper penitent, grovelling at a woman's slipper.
"That," said a voice in her ear, "is one of the prettiest little
resorts in Wisconsin."
"Is it?" she answered nervously.
The train was just pulling out of Waukesha. For some time she had
been conscious of a man behind. She felt him observing her mass of
hair. He had been fidgetting, and with natural intuition she felt a
certain interest growing in that quarter. Her maidenly reserve, and
a certain sense of what was conventional under the circumstances,
called her to forestall and deny this familiarity, but the daring
and magnetism of the individual, born of past experiences and
triumphs, prevailed. She answered.
He leaned forward to put his elbows upon the back of her seat and
proceeded to make himself volubly agreeable.
"Yes, that is a great resort for Chicago people. The hotels are
swell. You are not familiar with this part of the country, are you?"
"Oh, yes, I am," answered Carrie. "That is, I live at Columbia City.
I have never been through here, though."
"And so this is your first visit to Chicago," he observed.
All the time she was conscious of certain features out of the side
of her eye. Flush, colourful cheeks, a light moustache, a grey
fedora hat. She now turned and looked upon him in full, the
instincts of self-protection and coquetry mingling confusedly in her
brain.
"I didn't say that," she said.
"Oh," he answered, in a very pleasing way and with an assumed air of
mistake, "I thought you did."
Here was a type of the travelling canvasser for a manufacturing
house- a class which at that time was first being dubbed by the
slang of the day "drummers." He came within the meaning of a still
newer term, which had sprung into general use among Americans in 1880,
and which concisely expressed the thought of one whose dress or
manners are calculated to elicit the admiration of susceptible young
women- a "masher." His suit was of a striped and crossed pattern of
brown wool, new at that time, but since become familiar as a
business suit. The low crotch of the vest revealed a stiff shirt bosom
of white and pink stripes. From his coat sleeves protruded a pair of
linen cuffs of the same pattern, fastened with large, gold plate
buttons, set with the common yellow agates known as "cat's-eyes."
His fingers bore several rings- one, the ever-enduring heavy seal- and
from his vest dangled a neat gold watch chain, from which was
suspended the secret insignia of the Order of Elks. The whole suit was
rather tight-fitting, and was finished off with heavy-soled tan shoes,
highly polished, and the grey fedora hat. He was, for the order of
intellect represented, attractive, and whatever he had to recommend
him, you may be sure was not lost upon Carrie, in this, her first
glance.
Lest this order of individual should permanently pass, let me put
down some of the most striking characteristics of his most
successful manner and method. Good clothes, of course, were the
first essential, the things without which he was nothing. A strong
physical nature, actuated by a keen desire for the feminine, was the
next. A mind free of any consideration of the problems or forces of
the world and actuated not by greed, but an insatiable love of
variable pleasure. His method was always simple. Its principal element
was daring, backed, of course, by an intense desire and admiration for
the sex. Let him meet with a young woman once and he would approach
her with an air of kindly familiarity, not unmixed with pleading,
which would result in most cases in a tolerant acceptance. If she
showed any tendency to coquetry he would be apt to straighten her tie,
or if she "took up" with him at all, to call her by her first name. If
he visited a department store it was to lounge familiarly over the
counter and ask some leading questions. In more exclusive circles,
on the train or in waiting stations, he went slower. If some seemingly
vulnerable object appeared he was all attention- to pass the
compliments of the day, to lead the way to the parlor car, carrying
her grip, or, failing that, to take a seat next her with the hope of
being able to court her to her destination. Pillows, books, a
foot-stool, the shade lowered; all these figured in the things which
he could do. If, when she reached her destination, he did not alight
and attend her baggage for her, it was because, in his own estimation,
he had signally failed.
A woman should some day write the complete philosophy of clothes. No
matter how young, it is one of the things she wholly comprehends.
There is an indescribably faint line in the matter of man's apparel
which somehow divides for her those who are worth glancing at and
those who are not. Once an individual has passed this faint line on
the way downward he will get no glance from her. There is another line
at which the dress of a man will cause her to study her own. This line
the individual at her elbow now marked for Carrie. She became
conscious of an inequality. Her own plain blue dress, with its black
cotton tape trimmings, now seemed to her shabby. She felt the worn
state of her shoes.
"Let's see," he went on, "I know quite a number of people in your
town. Morgenroth the clothier and Gibson the dry goods man."
"Oh, do you?" she interrupted, aroused by memories of longings their
show windows had cost her.
At last he had a clew to her interest, and followed it deftly. In
a few minutes he had come about into her seat. He talked of sales of
clothing, his travels, Chicago, and the amusements of that city.
"If you are going there, you will enjoy it immensely. Have you
relatives?"
"I am going to visit my sister," she explained.
"You want to see Lincoln Park," he said, "and Michigan Boulevard.
They are putting up great buildings there. It's a second New York-
great. So much to see- theatres, crowds, fine houses- oh, you'll
like that."
There was a little ache in her fancy of all he described. Her
insignificance in the presence of so much magnificence faintly
affected her. She realised that hers was not to be a round of
pleasure, and yet there was something promising in all the material
prospect he set forth. There was something satisfactory in the
attention of this individual with his good clothes. She could not help
smiling as he told her of some popular actress of whom she reminded
him. She was not silly, and yet attention of this sort had its weight.
"You will be in Chicago some little time, won't you?" he observed at
one turn of the now easy conversation.
"I don't know," said Carrie vaguely- a flash vision of the
possibility of her not securing employment rising in her mind.
"Several weeks, anyhow," he said, looking steadily into her eyes.
There was much more passing now than the mere words indicated. He
recognised the indescribable thing that made up for fascination and
beauty in her. She realised that she was of interest to him from the
one standpoint which a woman both delights in and fears. Her manner
was simple, though for the very reason that she had not yet learned
the many little affectations with which women conceal their true
feelings. Some things she did appeared bold. A clever companion- had
she ever had one- would have warned her never to look a man in the
eyes so steadily.
"Why do you ask?" she said.
"Well, I'm going to be there several weeks. I'm going to study stock
at our place and get new samples. I might show you 'round."
"I don't know whether you can or not. I mean I don't know whether
I can. I shall be living with my sister, and-"
"Well, if she minds, we'll fix that." He took out his pencil and a
little pocket note-book as if it were all settled. "What is your
address there?"
She fumbled her purse which contained the address slip.
He reached down in his hip pocket and took out a fat purse. It was
filled with slips of paper, some mileage books, a roll of
greenbacks. It impressed her deeply. Such a purse had never been
carried by any one attentive to her. Indeed, an experienced traveller,
a brisk man of the world, had never come within such close range
before. The purse, the shiny tan shoes, the smart new suit, and the
air with which he did things, built up for her a dim world of fortune,
of which he was the centre. It disposed her pleasantly toward all he
might do.
He took out a neat business card, on which was engraved Bartlett,
Caryoe & Company, and down in the lefthand corner, Chas. H. Drouet.
"That's me," he said, putting the card in her hand and touching
his name. "It's pronounced Drew-eh. Our family was French, on my
father's side."
She looked at it while he put up his purse. Then he got out a letter
from a bunch in his coat pocket. "This is the house I travel for,"
he went on, pointing to a picture on it, "corner of State and Lake."
There was pride in his voice. He felt that it was something to be
connected with such a place, and he made her feel that way.
"What is your address?" he began again, fixing his pencil to write.
"Carrie Meeber," she said slowly. "Three hundred and fifty-four West
Van Buren Street, care S. C. Hanson."
He wrote it carefully down and got out the purse again. "You'll be
at home if I come around Monday night?" he said.
"I think so," she answered.
How true it is that words are but the vague shadows of the volumes
we mean. Little audible links, they are, chaining together great
inaudible feelings and purposes. Here were these two, bandying
little phrases, drawing purses, looking at cards, and both unconscious
of how inarticulate all their real feelings were. Neither was wise
enough to be sure of the working of the mind of the other. He could
not tell how his luring succeeded. She could not realise that she
was drifting, until he secured her address. Now she felt that she
had yielded something- he, that he had gained a victory. Already
they felt that they were somehow associated. Already he took control
in directing the conversation. His words were easy. Her manner was
relaxed.
They were nearing Chicago. Signs were everywhere numerous. Trains
flashed by them. Across wide stretches of flat, open prairie they
could see lines of telegraph poles stalking across the fields toward
the great city. Far away were indications of suburban towns, some
big smoke-stacks towering high in the air.
Frequently there were two-story frame houses standing out in the
open fields, without fence or trees, lone outposts of the
approaching army of homes.
To the child, the genius with imagination, or the wholly
untravelled, the approach to a great city for the first time is a
wonderful thing. Particularly if it be evening- that mystic period
between the glare and gloom of the world when life is changing from
one sphere or condition to another. Ah, the promise of the night. What
does it not hold for the weary! What old illusion of hope is not
here forever repeated! Says the soul of the toiler to itself, "I shall
soon be free. I shall be in the ways and the hosts of the merry. The
streets, the lamps, the lighted chamber set for dining, are for me.
The theatre, the halls, the parties, the ways of rest and the paths of
song- these are mine in the night." Though all humanity be still
enclosed in the shops, the thrill runs abroad. It is in the air. The
dullest feel something which they may not always express or
describe. It is the lifting of the burden of toil.
Sister Carrie gazed out of the window. Her companion, affected by
her wonder, so contagious are all things, felt anew some interest in
the city and pointed out its marvels.
"This is Northwest Chicago," said Drouet. "This is the Chicago
River," and he pointed to a little muddy creek, crowded with the
huge masted wanderers from far-off waters nosing the black-posted
banks. With a puff, a clang, and a clatter of rails it was gone.
"Chicago is getting to be a great town," he went on. "It's a wonder.
You'll find lots to see here."
She did not hear this very well. Her heart was troubled by a kind of
terror. The fact that she was alone, away from home, rushing into a
great sea of life and endeavour, began to tell. She could not help but
feel a little choked for breath- a little sick as her heart beat so
fast. She half closed her eyes and tried to think it was nothing, that
Columbia City was only a little way off.
"Chicago! Chicago!" called the brakeman, slamming open the door.
They were rushing into a more crowded yard, alive with the clatter and
clang of life. She began to gather up her poor little grip and
closed her hand firmly upon her purse. Drouet arose, kicked his legs
to straighten his trousers, and seized his clean yellow grip.
"I suppose your people will be here to meet you?" he said. "Let me
carry your grip."
"Oh, no," she said. "I'd rather you wouldn't. I'd rather you
wouldn't be with me when I meet my sister."
"All right," he said in all kindness. "I'll be near, though, in case
she isn't here, and take you out there safely."
"You're so kind," said Carrie, feeling the goodness of such
attention in her strange situation.
"Chicago!" called the brakeman, drawing the word out long. They were
under a great shadowy train shed, where the lamps were already
beginning to shine out, with passenger cars all about and the train
moving at a snail's pace. The people in the car were all up and
crowding about the door.
"Well, here we are," said Drouet, leading the way to the door.
"Good-bye, till I see you Monday."
"Good-bye," she answered, taking his proffered hand.
"Remember, I'll be looking till you find your sister."
She smiled into his eyes.
They filed out, and he affected to take no notice of her. A
lean-faced, rather commonplace woman recognised Carrie on the platform
and hurried forward.
"Why, Sister Carrie!" she began, and there was a perfunctory embrace
of welcome.
Carrie realised the change of affectional atmosphere at once. Amid
all the maze, uproar, and novelty she felt cold reality taking her
by the hand. No world of light and merriment. No round of amusement.
Her sister carried with her most of the grimness of shift and toil.
"Why, how are all the folks at home?" she began; "how is father, and
mother?"
Carrie answered, but was looking away. Down the aisle, toward the
gate leading into the waiting-room and the street, stood Drouet. He
was looking back. When he saw that she saw him and was safe with her
sister he turned to go, sending back the shadow of a smile. Only
Carrie saw it. She felt something lost to her when he moved away. When
he disappeared she felt his absence thoroughly. With her sister she
was much alone, a lone figure in a tossing, thoughtless sea.
Chapter II.
WHAT POVERTY THREATENED: OF GRANITE AND BRASS
Minnie's flat, as the one-floor resident apartments were then
being called, was in a part of West Van Buren Street inhabited by
families of labourers and clerks, men who had come, and were still
coming, with the rush of population pouring in at the rate of 50,000 a
year. It was on the third floor, the front windows looking down into
the street, where, at night, the lights of grocery stores were shining
and children were playing. To Carrie, the sound of the little bells
upon the horse-cars, as they tinkled in and out of hearing, was as
pleasing as it was novel. She gazed into the lighted street when
Minnie brought her into the front room, and wondered at the sounds,
the movement, the murmur of the vast city which stretched for miles
and miles in every direction.
Mrs. Hanson, after the first greetings were over, gave Carrie the
baby and proceeded to get supper. Her husband asked a few questions
and sat down to read the evening paper. He was a silent man,
American born, of a Swede father, and now employed as a cleaner of
refrigerator cars at the stock-yards. To him the presence or absence
of his wife's sister was a matter of indifference. Her personal
appearance did not affect him one way or the other. His one
observation to the point was concerning the chances of work in
Chicago.
"It's a big place," he said. "You can get in somewhere in a few
days. Everybody does."
It had been tacitly understood beforehand that she was to get work
and pay her board. He was of a clean, saving disposition, and had
already paid a number of monthly instalments on two lots far out on
the West Side. His ambition was some day to build a house on them.
In the interval which marked the preparation of the meal Carrie
found time to study the flat. She had some slight gift of
observation and that sense, so rich in every woman- intuition.
She felt the drag of a lean and narrow life. The walls of the
rooms were discordantly papered. The floors were covered with
matting and the hall laid with a thin rag carpet. One could see that
the furniture was of that poor, hurriedly patched together quality
sold by the instalment houses.
She sat with Minnie, in the kitchen, holding the baby until it began
to cry. Then she walked and sang to it, until Hanson, disturbed in his
reading, came and took it. A pleasant side to his nature came out
here. He was patient. One could see that he was very much wrapped up
in his offspring.
"Now, now," he said, walking. "There, there," and there was a
certain Swedish accent noticeable in his voice.
"You'll want to see the city first, won't you?" said Minnie, when
they were eating. "Well, we'll go out Sunday and see Lincoln Park."
Carrie noticed that Hanson had said nothing to this. He seemed to be
thinking of something else.
"Well," she said, "I think I'll look around to-morrow. I've got
Friday and Saturday, and it won't be any trouble. Which way is the
business part?"
Minnie began to explain, but her husband took this part of the
conversation to himself.
"It's that way," he said, pointing east. "That's east." Then he went
off into the longest speech he had yet indulged in, concerning the lay
of Chicago. "You'd better look in those big manufacturing houses along
Franklin Street and just the other side of the river," he concluded.
"Lots of girls work there. You could get home easy, too. It isn't very
far."
Carrie nodded and asked her sister about the neighbourhood. The
latter talked in a subdued tone, telling the little she knew about it,
while Hanson concerned himself with the baby. Finally he jumped up and
handed the child to his wife.
"I've got to get up early in the morning, so I'll go to bed," and
off he went, disappearing into the dark little bedroom off the hall,
for the night.
"He works way down at the stock-yards," explained Minnie,
"What time do you get up to get breakfast?" asked Carrie. "so he's
got to get up at half-past five."
"At about twenty minutes of five."
Together they finished the labour of the day, Carrie washing the
dishes while Minnie undressed the baby and put it to bed. Minnie's
manner was one of trained industry, and Carrie could see that it was a
steady round of toil with her.
She began to see that her relations with Drouet would have to be
abandoned. He could not come here. She read from the manner of Hanson,
in the subdued air of Minnie, and, indeed, the whole atmosphere of the
flat, a settled opposition to anything save a conservative round of
toil. If Hanson sat every evening in the front room and read his
paper, if he went to bed at nine, and Minnie a little later, what
would they expect of her? She saw that she would first need to get
work and establish herself on a paying basis before she could think of
having company of any sort. Her little flirtation with Drouet seemed
now an extraordinary thing.
"No," she said to herself, "he can't come here."
She asked Minnie for ink and paper, which were upon the mantel in
the dining-room, and when the latter had gone to bed at ten, got out
Drouet's card and wrote him.
"I cannot have you call on me here. You will have to wait until
you hear from me again. My sister's place is so small."
She troubled herself over what else to put in the letter. She wanted
to make some reference to their relations upon the train, but was
too timid. She concluded by thanking him for his kindness in a crude
way, then puzzled over the formality of signing her name, and
finally decided upon the severe, winding up with a "Very truly," which
she subsequently changed to "Sincerely." She sealed and addressed
the letter, and going in the front room, the alcove of which contained
her bed, drew the one small rocking-chair up to the open window, and
sat looking out upon the night and streets in silent wonder.
Finally, wearied by her own reflections, she began to grow dull in her
chair, and feeling the need of sleep, arranged her clothing for the
night and went to bed.
When she awoke at eight the next morning, Hanson had gone. Her
sister was busy in the dining-room, which was also the sitting-room,
sewing. She worked, after dressing, to arrange a little breakfast
for herself, and then advised with Minnie as to which way to look. The
latter had changed considerably since Carrie had seen her. She was now
a thin, though rugged, woman of twenty-seven, with ideas of life
coloured by her husband's, and fast hardening into narrower
conceptions of pleasure and duty than had ever been hers in a
thoroughly circumscribed youth. She had invited Carrie, not because
she longed for her presence, but because the latter was dissatisfied
at home, and could probably get work and pay her board here. She was
pleased to see her in a way, but reflected her husband's point of view
in the matter of work. Anything was good enough so long as it paid-
say, five dollars a week to begin with. A shop girl was the destiny
prefigured for the newcomer. She would get in one of the great shops
and do well enough until- well, until something happened. Neither of
them knew exactly what. They did not figure on promotion. They did not
exactly count on marriage. Things would go on, though, in a dim kind
of way until the better thing would eventuate, and Carrie would be
rewarded for coming and toiling in the city. It was under such
auspicious circumstances that she started out this morning to look for
work.
Before following her in her round of seeking, let us look at the
sphere in which her future was to lie. In 1889 Chicago had the
peculiar qualifications of growth which made such adventuresome
pilgrimages even on the part of young girls plausible. Its many and
growing commercial opportunities gave it widespread fame, which made
of it a giant magnet, drawing to itself, from all quarters, the
hopeful and the hopeless- those who had their fortune yet to make
and those whose fortunes and affairs had reached a disastrous climax
elsewhere. It was a city of over 500,000, with the ambition, the
daring, the activity of a metropolis of a million. Its streets and
houses were already scattered over an area of seventy-five square
miles. Its population was not so much thriving upon established
commerce as upon the industries which prepared for the arrival of
others. The sound of the hammer engaged upon the erection of new
structures was everywhere heard. Great industries were moving in.
The huge railroad corporations which had long before recognised the
prospects of the place had seized upon vast tracts of land for
transfer and shipping purposes. Street-car lines had been extended far
out into the open country in anticipation of rapid growth. The city
had laid miles and miles of streets and sewers through regions
where, perhaps, one solitary house stood out alone- a pioneer of the
populous ways to be. There were regions open to the sweeping winds and
rain, which were yet lighted throughout the night with long,
blinking lines of gas-lamps, fluttering in the wind. Narrow board
walks extended out, passing here a house, and there a store, at far
intervals, eventually ending on the open prairie.
In the central portion was the vast wholesale and shopping district,
to which the uninformed seeker for work usually drifted. It was a
characteristic of Chicago then, and one not generally shared by
other cities, that individual firms of any pretension occupied
individual buildings. The presence of ample ground made this possible.
It gave an imposing appearance to most of the wholesale houses,
whose offices were upon the ground floor and in plain view of the
street. The large plates of window glass, now so common, were then
rapidly coming into use, and gave to the ground floor offices a
distinguished and prosperous look. The casual wanderer could see as he
passed a polished array of office fixtures, much frosted glass, clerks
hard at work, and genteel business men in "nobby" suits and clean
linen lounging about or sitting in groups. Polished brass or nickel
signs at the square stone entrances announced the firm and the
nature of the business in rather neat and reserved terms. The entire
metropolitan centre possessed a high and mighty air calculated to
overawe and abash the common applicant, and to make the gulf between
poverty and success seem both wide and deep.
Into this important commercial region the timid Carrie went. She
walked east along Van Buren Street through a region of lessening
importance, until it deteriorated into a mass of shanties and
coal-yards, and finally verged upon the river. She walked bravely
forward, led by an honest desire to find employment and delayed at
every step by the interest of the unfolding scene, and a sense of
helplessness amid so much evidence of power and force which she did
not understand. These vast buildings, what were they? These strange
energies and huge interests, for what purposes were they there? She
could have understood the meaning of a little stone-cutter's yard at
Columbia City, carving little pieces of marble for individual use, but
when the yards of some huge stone corporation came into view, filled
with spur tracks and flat cars, transpierced by docks from the river
and traversed overhead by immense trundling cranes of wood and
steel, it lost all significance in her little world.
It was so with the vast railroad yards, with the crowded array of
vessels she saw at the river, and the huge factories over the way,
lining the water's edge. Through the open windows she could see the
figures of men and women in working aprons, moving busily about. The
great streets were wall-lined mysteries to her; the vast offices,
strange mazes which concerned far-off individuals of importance. She
could only think of people connected with them as counting money,
dressing magnificently, and riding in carriages. What they dealt in,
how they laboured, to what end it all came, she had only the vaguest
conception. It was all wonderful, all vast, all far removed, and she
sank in spirit inwardly and fluttered feebly at the heart as she
thought of entering any one of these mighty concerns and asking for
something to do- something that she could do- anything.
Chapter III.
WE QUESTION OF FORTUNE: FOUR-FIFTY A WEEK
Once across the river and into the wholesale district, she glanced
about her for some likely door at which to apply. As she
contemplated the wide windows and imposing signs, she became conscious
of being gazed upon and understood for what she was- a wage-seeker.
She had never done this thing before, and lacked courage. To avoid a
certain indefinable shame she felt at being caught spying about for
a position, she quickened her steps and assumed an air of indifference
supposedly common to one upon an errand. In this way she passed many
manufacturing and wholesale houses without once glancing in. At
last, after several blocks of walking, she felt that this would not
do, and began to look about again; though without relaxing her pace. A
little way on she saw a great door which, for some reason, attracted
her attention. It was ornamented by a small brass sign, and seemed
to be the entrance to a vast hive of six or seven floors. "Perhaps,"
she thought, "they may want some one," and crossed over to enter. When
she came within a score of feet of the desired goal, she saw through
the window a young man in a grey checked suit. That he had anything to
do with the concern, she could not tell, but because he happened to be
looking in her direction her weakening heart misgave her and she
hurried by, too overcome with shame to enter. Over the way stood a
great six-story structure, labelled Storm and King, which she viewed
with rising hope. It was a wholesale dry goods concern and employed
women. She could see them moving about now and then upon the upper
floors. This place she decided to enter, no matter what. She crossed
over and walked directly toward the entrance. As she did so, two men
came out and paused in the door. A telegraph messenger in blue
dashed past her and up the few steps that led to the entrance and
disappeared. Several pedestrians out of the hurrying throng which
filled the sidewalks passed about her as she paused, hesitating. She
looked helplessly around, and then, seeing herself observed,
retreated. It was too difficult a task. She could not go past them.
So severe a defeat told sadly upon her nerves. Her feet carried
her mechanically forward, every foot of her progress being a
satisfactory portion of a flight which she gladly made. Block after
block passed by. Upon street-lamps at the various corners she read
names such as Madison, Monroe, La Salle, Clark, Dearborn, State, and
still she went, her feet beginning to tire upon the broad stone
flagging. She was pleased in part that the streets were bright and
clean. The morning sun, shining down with steadily increasing
warmth, made the shady side of the streets pleasantly cool. She looked
at the blue sky overhead with more realisation of its charm than had
ever come to her before.
Her cowardice began to trouble her in a way. She turned back,
resolving to bunt up Storm and King and enter. On the way she
encountered a great wholesale shoe company, through the broad plate
windows of which she saw an enclosed executive department, hidden by
frosted glass. Without this enclosure, but just within the street
entrance, sat a grey-haired gentleman at a small table, with a large
open ledger before him. She walked by this institution several times
hesitating, but, finding herself unobserved, faltered past the
screen door and stood humbly waiting.
"Well, young lady," observed the old gentleman, looking at her
somewhat kindly, "what is it you wish?"
"I am, that is, do you- I mean, do you need any help?" she
stammered.
"Not just at present," he answered smiling. "Not just at present.
Come in some time next week. Occasionally we need some one."
She received the answer in silence and backed awkwardly out. The
pleasant nature of her reception rather astonished her. She had
expected that it would be more difficult, that something cold and
harsh would be said- she knew not what. That she had not been put to
shame and made to feel her unfortunate position, seemed remarkable.
Somewhat encouraged, she ventured into another large structure. It
was a clothing company, and more people were in evidence- well-dressed
men of forty and more, surrounded by brass railings.
An office boy approached her.
"Who is it you wish to see?" he asked.
"I want to see the manager," she said.
He ran away and spoke to one of a group of three men who were
conferring together. One of these came towards her.
"Well?" he said coldly. The greeting drove all courage from her at
once.
"Do you need any help?" she stammered.
"No," he replied abruptly, and turned upon his heel.
She went foolishly out, the office boy deferentially swinging the
door for her, and gladly sank into the obscuring crowd. It was a
severe setback to her recently pleased mental state.
Now she walked quite aimlessly for a time, turning here and there,
seeing one great company after another, but finding no courage to
prosecute her single inquiry. High noon came, and with it hunger.
She hunted out an unassuming restaurant and entered, but was disturbed
to find that the prices were exorbitant for the size of her purse. A
bowl of soup was all that she could afford, and, with this quickly
eaten, she went out again. It restored her strength somewhat and
made her moderately bold to pursue the search.
In walking a few blocks to fix upon some probable place, she again
encountered the firm of Storm and King, and this time managed to get
in. Some gentlemen were conferring close at hand, but took no notice
of her. She was left standing, gazing nervously upon the floor. When
the limit of her distress had been nearly reached, she was beckoned to
by a man at one of the many desks within the near-by railing.
"Who is it you wish to see?" he inquired.
"Why, any one, if you please," she answered. "I am looking for
something to do."
"Oh, you want to see Mr. McManus," he returned. "Sit down," and he
pointed to a chair against the neighbouring wall. He went on leisurely
writing, until after a time a short, stout gentleman came in from
the street.
"Mr. McManus," called the man at the desk, "this young woman wants
to see you."
The short gentleman turned about towards Carrie, and she arose and
came forward.
"What can I do for you, miss?" he inquired, surveying her curiously.
"I want to know if I can get a position," she inquired.
"As what?" he asked.
"Not as anything in particular," she faltered.
"Have you ever had any experience in the wholesale dry goods
business?" he questioned.
"No, sir," she replied.
"Are you a stenographer or typewriter?"
"No, sir."
"Well, we haven't anything here," he said. "We employ only
experienced help."
She began to step backward toward the door, when something about her
plaintive face attracted him.
"Have you ever worked at anything before?" he inquired.
"No, sir," she said.
"Well, now, it's hardly possible that you would get anything to do
in a wholesale house of this kind. Have you tried the department
stores?"
She acknowledged that she had not.
"Well, if I were you," he said, looking at her rather genially "I
would try the department stores. They often need young women as
clerks."
"Thank you," she said, her whole nature relieved by this spark of
friendly interest.
"Yes," he said, as she moved toward the door, "you try the
department stores," and off he went.
At that time the department store was in its earliest form of
successful operation, and there were not many. The first three in
the United States, established about 1884, were in Chicago. Carrie was
familiar with the names of several through the advertisements in the
"Daily News," and now proceeded to seek them. The words of Mr. McManus
had somehow managed to restore her courage, which had fallen low,
and she dared to hope that this new line would offer her something.
Some time she spent in wandering up and down, thinking to encounter
the buildings by chance, so readily is the mind, bent upon prosecuting
a hard but needful errand, eased by that self-deception which the
semblance of search, without the reality, gives. At last she
inquired of a police officer, and was directed to proceed "two
blocks up," where she would find "The Fair."
The nature of these vast retail combinations, should they ever
permanently disappear, will form an interesting chapter in the
commercial history of our nation. Such a flowering out of a modest
trade principle the world had never witnessed up to that time. They
were along the line of the most effective retail organisation, with
hundreds of stores coordinated into one and laid out upon the most
imposing and economic basis. They were handsome, bustling,
successful affairs, with a host of clerks and a swarm of patrons.
Carrie passed along the busy aisles, much affected by the remarkable
displays of trinkets, dress goods, stationery, and jewelry. Each
separate counter was a show place of dazzling interest and attraction.
She could not help feeling the claim of each trinket and valuable upon
her personally, and yet she did not stop. There was nothing there
which she could not have used- nothing which she did not long to
own. The dainty slippers and stockings, the delicately frilled
skirts and petticoats, the laces, ribbons, hair-combs, purses, all
touched her with individual desire, and she felt keenly the fact
that not any of these things were in the range of her purchase. She
was a work-seeker, an outcast without employment, one whom the average
employee could tell at a glance was poor and in need of a situation.
It must not be thought that any one could have mistaken her for a
nervous, sensitive, high-strung nature, cast unduly upon a cold,
calculating, and unpoetic world. Such certainly she was not. But women
are peculiarly sensitive to their adornment.
Not only did Carrie feel the drag of desire for all which was new
and pleasing in apparel for women, but she noticed too, with a touch
at the heart, the fine ladies who elbowed and ignored her, brushing
past in utter disregard of her presence, themselves eagerly enlisted
in the materials which the store contained. Carrie was not familiar
with the appearance of her more fortunate sisters of the city. Neither
had she before known the nature and appearance of the shop girls
with whom she now compared poorly. They were pretty in the main,
some even handsome, with an air of independence and indifference which
added, in the case of the more favoured, a certain piquancy. Their
clothes were neat, in many instances fine, and wherever she
encountered the eye of one it was only to recognise in it a keen
analysis of her own position- her individual shortcomings of dress and
that shadow of manner which she thought must hang about her and make
clear to all who and what she was. A flame of envy lighted in her
heart. She realised in a dim way how much the city held- wealth,
fashion, ease- every adornment for women, and she longed for dress and
beauty with a whole heart.
On the second floor were the managerial offices, to which, after
some inquiry, she was now directed. There she found other girls
ahead of her, applicants like herself, but with more of that
self-satisfied and independent air which experience of the city lends;
girls who scrutinised her in a painful manner. After a wait of perhaps
three-quarters of an hour, she was called in turn.
"Now," said a sharp, quick-mannered Jew, who was sitting at a
roll-top desk near the window, "have you ever worked in any other
store?"
"No, sir," said Carrie.
"Oh, you haven't," he said, eyeing her keenly.
"No, sir," she replied.
"Well, we prefer young women just now with some experience. I
guess we can't use you."
Carrie stood waiting a moment, hardly certain whether the
interview had terminated.
"Don't wait!" he exclaimed. "Remember we are very busy here."
Carrie began to move quickly to the door.
"Hold on," he said, calling her back. "Give me your name and
address. We want girls occasionally."
When she had gotten safely into the street, she could scarcely
restrain the tears. It was not so much the particular rebuff which she
had just experienced, but the whole abashing trend of the day. She was
tired and nervous. She abandoned the thought of appealing to the other
department stores and now wandered on, feeling a certain safety and
relief in mingling with the crowd.
In her indifferent wandering she turned into Jackson Street, not far
from the river, and was keeping her way along the south side of that
imposing thoroughfare, when a piece of wrapping paper, written on with
marking ink and tacked up on the door, attracted her attention. It
read, "Girls wanted- wrappers & stitchers." She hesitated a moment,
then entered.
The firm of Speigelheim & Co., makers of boys' caps, occupied one
floor of the building, fifty feet in width and some eighty feet in
depth. It was a place rather dingily lighted, the darkest portions
having incandescent lights, filled with machines and work benches.
At the latter laboured quite a company of girls and some men. The
former were drabby-looking creatures, stained in face with oil and
dust, clad in thin, shapeless, cotton dresses and shod with more or
less worn shoes. Many of them had their sleeves rolled up, revealing
bare arms, and in some cases, owing to the heat, their dresses were
open at the neck. They were a fair type of nearly the lowest order
of shop-girls- careless, slouchy, and more or less pale from
confinement. They were not timid, however; were rich in curiosity, and
strong in daring and slang.
Carrie looked about her, very much disturbed and quite sure that she
did not want to work here. Aside from making her uncomfortable by
sidelong glances, no one paid her the least attention. She waited
until the whole department was aware of her presence. Then some word
was sent around, and a foreman, in an apron and shirt sleeves, the
latter rolled up to his shoulders, approached.
"Do you want to see me?" he asked.
"Do you need any help?" said Carrie, already learning directness
of address.
"Do you know how to stitch caps?" he returned.
"No, sir," she replied.
"Have you ever had any experience at this kind of work?" he
inquired.
She answered that she had not.
"Well," said the foreman, scratching his ear meditatively, "we do
need a stitcher. We like experienced help, though. We've hardly got
time to break people in." He paused and looked away out of the window.
"We might, though, put you at finishing," he concluded reflectively.
"How much do you pay a week?" ventured Carrie, emboldened by a
certain softness in the man's manner and his simplicity of address.
"Three and a half," he answered.
"Oh," she was about to exclaim, but checked herself and allowed
her thoughts to die without expression.
"We're not exactly in need of anybody," he went on vaguely,
looking her over as one would a package. "You can come on Monday
morning, though," he added, "and I'll put you to work."
"Thank you," said Carrie weakly.
"If you come, bring an apron," he added.
He walked away and left her standing by the elevator, never so
much as inquiring her name.
While the appearance of the shop and the announcement of the price
paid per week operated very much as a blow to Carrie's fancy, the fact
that work of any kind was offered after so rude a round of
experience was gratifying. She could not begin to believe that she
would take the place, modest as her aspirations were. She had been
used to better than that. Her mere experience and the free out-of-door
life of the country caused her nature to revolt at such confinement.
Dirt had never been her share. Her sister's flat was clean. This place
was grimy and low, the girls were careless and hardened. They must
be bad-minded and hearted, she imagined. Still, a place had been
offered her. Surely Chicago was not so bad if she could find one place
in one day. She might find another and better later.
Her subsequent experiences were not of a reassuring nature, however.
From all the more pleasing or imposing places she was turned away
abruptly with the most chilling formality. In others where she applied
only the experienced were required. She met with painful rebuffs,
the most trying of which had been in a manufacturing cloak house,
where she had gone to the fourth floor to inquire.
"No, no," said the foreman, a rough, heavily built individual, who
looked after a miserably lighted workshop, "we don't want any one.
Don't come here."
With the wane of the afternoon went her hopes, her courage, and
her strength. She had been astonishingly persistent. So earnest an
effort was well deserving of a better reward. On every hand, to her
fatigued senses, the great business portion grew larger, harder,
more stolid in its indifference. It seemed as if it was all closed
to her, that the struggle was too fierce for her to hope to do
anything at all. Men and women hurried by in long, shifting lines. She
felt the flow of the tide of effort and interest- felt her own
helplessness without quite realising the wisp on the tide that she
was. She cast about vainly for some possible place to apply, but found
no door which she had the courage to enter. It would be the same thing
all over. The old humiliation of her plea, rewarded by curt denial.
Sick at heart and in body, she turned to the west, the direction of
Minnie's flat, which she had now fixed in mind, and began that
wearisome, baffled retreat which the seeker for employment at
nightfall too often makes. In passing through Fifth Avenue, south
towards Van Buren Street, where she intended to take a car, she passed
the door of a large wholesale shoe house, through the plate-glass
window of which she could see a middle-aged gentleman sitting a a
small desk. One of those forlorn impulses which often grow out of a
fixed sense of defeat, the last sprouting of a baffled and uprooted
growth of ideas, seized upon her. She walked deliberately through
the door and up to the gentleman, who looked at her weary face with
partially awakened interest.
"What is it?" he said.
"Can you give me something to do?" said Carrie.
"Now, I really don't know," he said kindly. "What kind of work is it
you want- you're not a typewriter, are you?"
"Oh, no," answered Carrie.
"Well, we only employ book-keepers and typewriters here. You might
go around to the side and inquire upstairs. They did want some help
upstairs a few days ago. Ask for Mr. Brown."
She hastened around to the side entrance and was taken up by the
elevator to the fourth floor.
"Call Mr. Brown, Willie," said the elevator man to a boy near by.
Willie went off and presently returned with the information that Mr.
Brown said she should sit down and that he would be around in a little
while.
It was a portion of the stock room which gave no idea of the general
character of the place, and Carrie could form no opinion of the nature
of the work.
"So you want something to do," said Mr. Brown, after he inquired
concerning the nature of her errand. "Have you ever been employed in a
shoe factory before?"
"No, sir," said Carrie.
"What is your name?" he inquired, and being informed, "Well, I don't
know as I have anything for you. Would you work for four and a half
a week?"
Carrie was too worn by defeat not to feel that it was
considerable. She had not expected that he would offer her less than
six. She acquiesced, however, and he took her name and address.
"Well," he said, finally, "you report here at eight o'clock Monday
morning. I think I can find something for you to do."
He left her revived by the possibilities, sure that she had found
something at last. Instantly the blood crept warmly over her body. Her
nervous tension relaxed. She walked out into the busy street and
discovered a new atmosphere. Behold, the throng was moving with a
lightsome step. She noticed that men and women were smiling. Scraps of
conversation and notes of laughter floated to her. The air was
light. People were already pouring out of the buildings, their
labour ended for the day. She noticed that they were pleased, and
thoughts of her sister's home and the meal that would be awaiting
her quickened her steps. She hurried on, tired perhaps, but no
longer weary of foot. What would not Minnie say! Ah, the long winter
in Chicago- the lights, the crowd, the amusement! This was a great,
pleasing metropolis after all. Her new firm was a goodly
institution. Its windows were of huge plate glass. She could
probably do well there. Thoughts of Drouet returned- of the things
he had told her. She now felt that life was better, that it was
livelier, sprightlier. She boarded a car in the best of spirits,
feeling her blood still flowing pleasantly. She would live in Chicago,
her mind kept saying to itself. She would have a better time than
she had ever had before- she would be happy.
Chapter IV.
THE SPENDINGS OF FANCY: FACTS ANSWER WITH SNEERS
For the next two days Carrie indulged in the most high-flown
speculations.
Her fancy plunged recklessly into privileges and amusements which
would have been much more becoming had she been cradled a child of
fortune. With ready will and quick mental selection she scattered
her meagre four-fifty per week with a swift and graceful hand. Indeed,
as she sat in her rocking-chair these several evenings before going to
bed and looked out upon the pleasantly lighted street, this money
cleared for its prospective possessor the way to every joy and every
bauble which the heart of woman may desire. "I will have a fine time,"
she thought.
Her sister Minnie knew nothing of these rather wild cerebrations,
though they exhausted the markets of delight. She was too busy
scrubbing the kitchen woodwork and calculating the purchasing power of
eighty cents for Sunday's dinner. When Carrie had returned home,
flushed with her first success and ready, for all her weariness, to
discuss the now interesting events which led up to her achievement,
the former had merely smiled approvingly and inquired whether she
would have to spend any of it for car fare. This consideration had not
entered in before, and it did not now for long affect the glow of
Carrie's enthusiasm. Disposed as she then was to calculate upon that
vague basis which allows the subtraction of one sum from another
without any perceptible diminution, she was happy.
When Hanson came home at seven o'clock, he was inclined to be a
little crusty- his usual demeanour before supper. This never showed so
much in anything he said as in a certain solemnity of countenance
and the silent manner in which he slopped about. He had a pair of
yellow carpet slippers which he enjoyed wearing, and these he would
immediately substitute for his solid pair of shoes. This, and
washing his face with the aid of common washing soap until it glowed a
shiny red, constituted his only preparation for his evening meal. He
would then get his evening paper and read in silence.
For a young man, this was rather a morbid turn of character, and
so affected Carrie. Indeed, it affected the entire atmosphere of the
flat, as such things are inclined to do, and gave to his wife's mind
its subdued and tactful turn, anxious to avoid taciturn replies. Under
the influence of Carrie's announcement he brightened up somewhat.
"You didn't lose any time, did you?" he remarked, smiling a little.
"No," returned Carrie with a touch of pride.
He asked her one or two more questions and then turned to play
with the baby, leaving the subject until it was brought up again by
Minnie at the table.
Carrie, however, was not to be reduced to the common level of
observation which prevailed in the flat.
"It seems to be such a large company," she said at one place. "Great
big plate-glass windows and lots of clerks. The man I saw said they
hired ever so many people."
"It's not very hard to get work now," put in Hanson, "if you look
right."
Minnie, under the warming influence of Carrie's good spirits and her
husband's somewhat conversational mood, began to tell Carrie of some
of the well-known things to see- things the enjoyment of which cost
nothing.
"You'd like to see Michigan Avenue. There are such fine houses. It
is such a fine street."
"Where is 'H. R. Jacob's'?" interrupted Carrie, mentioning one of
the theatres devoted to melodrama which went by that name at the time.
"Oh, it's not very far from here," answered Minnie. "It's in
Halstead Street, right up here."
"How I'd like to go there. I crossed Halstead Street to-day,
didn't I?"
At this there was a slight halt in the natural reply. Thoughts are a
strangely permeating factor. At her suggestion of going to the
theatre, the unspoken shade of disapproval to the doing of those
things which involved the expenditure of money- shades of feeling
which arose in the mind of Hanson and then in Minnie- slightly
affected the atmosphere of the table. Minnie answered "yes," but
Carrie could feel that going to the theatre was poorly advocated here.
The subject was put off for a little while until Hanson, through
with his meal, took his paper and went into the front room.
When they were alone, the two sisters began a somewhat freer
conversation, Carrie interrupting it to hum a little, as they worked
at the dishes.
"I should like to walk up and see Halstead Street, if it isn't too
far," said Carrie, after a time. "Why don't we go to the theatre
to-night?"
"Oh, I don't think Sven would want to go to-night," returned Minnie.
"He has to get up so early."
"He wouldn't mind- he'd enjoy it," said Carrie.
"No, he doesn't go very often," returned Minnie.
"Well, I'd like to go," rejoined Carrie. "Let's you and me go."
Minnie pondered a while, not upon whether she could or would go- for
that point was already negatively settled with her- but upon some
means of diverting the thoughts of her sister to some other topic.
"We'll go some other time," she said at last, finding no ready means
of escape.
Carrie sensed the root of the opposition at once.
"I have some money," she said. "You go with me."
Minnie shook her head.
"He could go along," said Carrie.
"No," returned Minnie softly, and rattling the dishes to drown the
conversation. "He wouldn't."
It had been several years since Minnie had seen Carrie, and in
that time that latter's character had developed a few shades.
Naturally timid in all things that related to her own advancement, and
especially so when without power or resource, her craving for pleasure
was so strong that it was the one stay of her nature. She would
speak for that when silent on all else.
"Ask him," she pleaded softly.
Minnie was thinking of the resource which Carrie's board would
add. It would pay the rent and would make the subject of expenditure a
little less difficult to talk about with her husband. But if Carrie
was going to think of running around in the beginning there would be a
hitch somewhere. Unless Carrie submitted to a solemn round of industry
and saw the need of hard work without longing for play, how was her
coming to the city to profit them? These thoughts were not those of
a cold, hard nature at all. They were the serious reflections of a
mind which invariably adjusted itself, without much complaining, to
such surroundings as its industry could make for it.
At last she yielded enough to ask Hanson. It was a half-hearted
procedure without a shade of desire on her part.
"Carrie wants us to go to the theatre," she said, looking in upon
her husband. Hanson looked up from his paper, and they exchanged a
mild look, which said as plainly as anything: "This isn't what we
expected."
"I don't care to go," he returned. "What does she want to see?"
"H. R. Jacob's," said Minnie.
He looked down at his paper and shook his head negatively.
When Carrie saw how they looked upon her proposition, she gained a
still clearer feeling of their way of life. It weighed on her, but
took no definite form of opposition.
"I think I'll go down and stand at the foot of the stairs," she
said, after a time.
Minnie made no objection to this, and Carrie put on her hat and went
below.
"Where has Carrie gone?" asked Hanson, coming back into the
dining-room when he heard the door close.
"She said she was going down to the foot of the stairs," answered
Minnie. "I guess she just wants to look out a while."
"She oughtn't to be thinking about spending her money on theatres
already, do you think?" he said.
"She just feels a little curious, I guess," ventured Minnie.
"Everything is so new."
"I don't know," said Hanson, and went over to the baby, his forehead
slightly wrinkled.
He was thinking of a full career of vanity and wastefulness which
a young girl might indulge in, and wondering how Carrie could
contemplate such a course when she had so little, as yet, with which
to do.
On Saturday Carrie went out by herself- first toward the river,
which interested her, and then back along Jackson Street, which was
then lined by the pretty houses and fine lawns which subsequently
caused it to be made into a boulevard. She was struck with the
evidences of wealth, although there was, perhaps, not a person on
the street worth more than a hundred thousand dollars. She was glad to
be out of the flat, because already she felt that it was a narrow,
humdrum place, and that interest and joy lay elsewhere. Her thoughts
now were of a more liberal character, and she punctuated them with
speculations as to the whereabouts of Drouet. She was not sure but
that he might call anyhow Monday night, and, while she felt a little
disturbed at the possibility, there was, nevertheless, just the
shade of a wish that he would.
On Monday she arose early and prepared to go to work. She dressed
herself in a worn shirt-waist of dotted blue percale, a skirt of
light-brown serge rather faded, and a small straw hat which she had
worn all summer at Columbia City. Her shoes were old, and her
necktie was in that crumpled, flattened state which time and much
wearing impart. She made a very average looking shop-girl with the
exception of her features. These were slightly more even than
common, and gave her a sweet, reserved, and pleasing appearance.
It is no easy thing to get up early in the morning when one is
used to sleeping until seven and eight, as Carrie had been at home.
She gained some inkling of the character of Hanson's life when, half
asleep, she looked out into the dining-room at six o'clock and saw him
silently finishing his breakfast. By the time she was dressed he was
gone, and she, Minnie, and the baby ate together, the latter being
just old enough to sit in a high chair and disturb the dishes with a
spoon. Her spirits were greatly subdued now when the fact of
entering upon strange and untried duties confronted her. Only the
ashes of all her fine fancies were remaining- ashes still
concealing, nevertheless, a few red embers of hope. So subdued was she
by her weakening nerves, that she ate quite in silence, going over
imaginary conceptions of the character of the shoe company the
nature of the work, her employer's attitude. She was vaguely feeling
that she would come in contact with the great owners, that her work
would be where grave, stylishly dressed men occasionally look on.
"Well, good luck," said Minnie, when she was ready to go. They had
agreed it was best to walk, that morning at least, to see if she could
do it every day- sixty cents a week for car fare being quite an item
under the circumstances.
"I'll tell you how it goes to-night," said Carrie.
Once in the sunlit street, with labourers tramping by in either
direction, the horse-cars passing crowded to the rails with the
small clerks and floor help in the great wholesale houses, and men and
women generally coming out of doors and passing about the
neighbourhood, Carrie felt slightly reassured. In the sunshine of
the morning, beneath the wide, blue heavens, with a fresh wind
astir, what fears, except the most desperate, can find a harbourage?
In the night, or the gloomy chambers of the day, fears and
misgivings wax strong, but out in the sunlight there is, for a time,
cessation even of the terror of death.
Carrie went straight forward until she crossed the river, and then
turned into Fifth Avenue. The thoroughfare, in this part, was like a
walled canon of brown stone and dark red brick. The big windows looked
shiny and clean. Trucks were rumbling in increasing numbers; men and
women, girls and boys were moving onward in all directions. She met
girls of her own age, who looked at her as if with contempt for her
diffidence. She wondered at the magnitude of this life and at the
importance of knowing much in order to do anything in it at all. Dread
at her own inefficiency crept upon her. She would not know how, she
would not be quick enough. Had not all the other places refused her
because she did not know something or other? She would be scolded,
abused, ignominiously discharged.
It was with weak knees and a slight catch in her breathing that
she came up to the great shoe company at Adams and Fifth Avenue and
entered the elevator. When she stepped out on the fourth floor there
was no one at hand, only great aisles of boxes piled to the ceiling.
She stood, very much frightened, awaiting some one.
Presently Mr. Brown came up. He did not seem to recognise her.
"What is it you want?" he inquired.
Carrie's heart sank.
"You said I should come this morning to see about work-"
"Oh," he interrupted. "Um- yes. What is your name?"
"Carrie Meeber."
"Yes," said he. "You come with me."
He led the way through dark, box-lined aisles which had the smell of
new shoes, until they came to an iron door which opened into the
factory proper. There was a large, low-ceiled room, with clacking,
rattling machines at which men in white shirt sleeves and blue gingham
aprons were working. She followed him diffidently through the
clattering automatons, keeping her eyes straight before her, and
flushing slightly. They crossed to a far corner and took an elevator
to the sixth floor. Out of the array of machines and benches, Mr.
Brown signalled a foreman.
"This is the girl," he said, and turning to Carrie, "You go with
him." He then returned, and Carrie followed her new superior to a
little desk in a corner, which he used as a kind of official centre.
"You've never worked at anything like this before, have you?" he
questioned, rather sternly.
"No, sir," she answered.
He seemed rather annoyed at having to bother with such help, but put
down her name and then led her across to where a line of girls
occupied stools in front of clacking machines. On the shoulder of
one of the girls who was punching eye-holes in one piece of the upper,
by the aid of the machine, he put his hand.
"You," he said, "show this girl how to do what you're doing. When
you get through, come to me."
The girl so addressed rose promptly and gave Carrie her place.
"It isn't hard to do," she said, bending over. "You just take this
so, fasten it with this clamp, and start the machine."
She suited action to word, fastened the piece of leather, which
was eventually to form the right half of the upper of a man's shoe, by
little adjustable clamps, and pushed a small steel rod at the side
of the machine. The latter jumped to the task of punching, with sharp,
snapping clicks, cutting circular bits of leather out of the side of
the upper, leaving the holes which were to hold the laces. After
observing a few times, the girl let her work at it alone. Seeing
that it was fairly well done, she went away.
The pieces of leather came from the girl at the machine to her
right, and were passed on to the girl at her left. Carrie saw at
once that an average speed was necessary or the work would pile up
on her and all those below would be delayed. She had no time to look
about, and bent anxiously to her task. The girls at her left and right
realised her predicament and feelings, and, in a way, tried to aid
her, as much as they dared, by working slower.
At this task she laboured incessantly for some time, finding
relief from her own nervous fears and imaginings in the humdrum,
mechanical movement of the machine. She felt, as the minutes passed,
that the room was not very light. It had a thick odour of fresh
leather, but that did not worry her. She felt the eyes of the other
help upon her, and troubled lest she was not working fast enough.
Once, when she was fumbling at the little clamp, having made a
slight error in setting in the leather, a great hand appeared before
her eyes and fastened the clamp for her. It was the foreman. Her heart
thumped so that she could scarcely see to go on.
"Start your machine," he said, "start your machine. Don't keep the
line waiting."
This recovered her sufficiently and she went excitedly on, hardly
breathing until the shadow moved away from behind her. Then she heaved
a great breath.
As the morning wore on the room became hotter. She felt the need
of a breath of fresh air and a drink of water, but did not venture
to stir. The stool she sat on was without a back or foot-rest, and she
began to feel uncomfortable. She found, after a time, that her back
was beginning to ache. She twisted and turned from one position to
another slightly different, but it did not case her for long. She
was beginning to weary.
"Stand up, why don't you?" said the girl at her right, without any
form of introduction. "They won't care."
Carrie looked at her gratefully. "I guess I will," she said.
She stood up from her stool and worked that way for a while, but
it was a more difficult position. Her neck and shoulders ached in
bending over.
The spirit of the place impressed itself on her in a rough way.
She did not venture to look around, but above the clack of the machine
she could hear an occasional remark. She could also note a thing or
two out of the side of her eye.
"Did you see Harry last night?" said the girl at her left,
addressing her neighbour.
"No."
"You ought to have seen the tie he had on. Gee, but he was a mark."
"S-s-t," said the other girl, bending over her work. The first,
silenced, instantly assumed a solemn face. The foreman passed slowly
along, eyeing each worker distinctly. The moment he was gone, the
conversation was resumed again.
"Say," began the girl at her left, "what jeh think he said?"
"I don't know."
"He said he saw us with Eddie Harris at Martin's last night."
"No!" They both giggled.
A youth with tan-coloured hair, that needed clipping very badly,
came shuffling along between the machines, bearing a basket of leather
findings under his left arm, and pressed against his stomach. When
near Carrie, he stretched out his right hand and gripped one girl
under the arm.
"Aw, let me go," she exclaimed angrily. "Duffer."
He only grinned broadly in return.
"Rubber!" he called back as she looked after him. There was
nothing of the gallant in him.
Carrie at last could scarcely sit still. Her legs began to tire
and she wanted to get up and stretch. Would noon never come? It seemed
as if she had worked an entire day. She was not hungry at all, but
weak, and her eyes were tired, straining at the one point where the
eye-punch came down. The girl at the right noticed her squirmings
and felt sorry for her. She was concentrating herself too
thoroughly- what she did really required less mental and physical
strain. There was nothing to be done, however. The halves of the
uppers came piling steadily down. Her hands began to ache at the
wrists and then in the fingers, and towards the last she seemed one
mass of dull, complaining muscles, fixed in an eternal position and
performing a single mechanical movement which became more and more
distasteful, until at last it was absolutely nauseating. When she
was wondering whether the strain would ever cease, a dull-sounding
bell clanged somewhere down an elevator shaft, and the end came. In an
instant there was a buzz of action and conversation. All the girls
instantly left their stools and hurried away in an adjoining room, men
passed through, coming from some department which opened on the right.
The whirling wheels began to sing in a steadily modifying key, until
at last they died away in a low buzz. There was an audible
stillness, in which the common voice sounded strange.
Carrie got up and sought her lunch box. She was stiff, a little
dizzy, and very thirsty. On the way to the small space portioned off
by wood, where all the wraps and lunches were kept, she encountered
the foreman, who stared at her hard.
"Well," he said, "did you get along all right?"
"I think so," she replied, very respectfully.
"Um," he replied, for want of something better, and walked on.
Under better material conditions, this kind of work would not have
been so bad, but the new socialism which involves pleasant working
conditions for employees had not then taken hold upon manufacturing
companies.
The place smelled of the oil of the machines and the new leather-
a combination which, added to the stale odours of the building, was
not pleasant even in cold weather. The floor, though regularly swept
every evening, presented a littered surface. Not the slightest
provision had been made for the comfort of the employees, the idea
being that something was gained by giving them as little and making
the work as hard and unremunerative as possible. What we know of
foot-rests, swivel-back chairs, dining-rooms for the girls, clean
aprons and curling irons supplied free, and a decent cloak room,
were unthought of. The washrooms were disagreeable, crude, if not foul
places, and the whole atmosphere was sordid.
Carrie looked about her, after she had drunk a tinful of water
from a bucket in one corner, for a place to sit and eat. The other
girls had ranged themselves about the windows or the work-benches of
those of the men who had gone out. She saw no place which did not hold
a couple or a group of girls, and being too timid to think of
intruding herself, she sought out her machine and, seated upon her
stool, opened her lunch on her lap. There she sat listening to the
chatter and comment about her. It was, for the most part, silly and
graced by the current slang. Several of the men in the room
exchanged compliments with the girls at long range.
"Say, Kitty," called one to a girl who was doing a waltz step in a
few feet of space near one of the windows, "are you going to the
ball with me?"
"Look out, Kitty," called another, "you'll jar your back hair."
"Go on, Rubber," was her only comment.
As Carrie listened to this and much more of similar familiar
badinage among the men and girls, she instinctively withdrew into
herself. She was not used to this type, and felt that there was
something hard and low about it all. She feared that the young boys
about would address such remarks to her- boys who, beside Drouet,
seemed uncouth and ridiculous. She made the average feminine
distinction between clothes, putting worth, goodness, and
distinction in a dress suit, and leaving all the unlovely qualities
and those beneath notice in overalls and jumper.
She was glad when the short half hour was over and the wheels
began to whirr again. Though wearied, she would be inconspicuous. This
illusion ended when another young man passed along the aisle and poked
her indifferently in the ribs with his thumb. She turned about,
indignation leaping to her eyes, but he had gone on and only once
turned to grin. She found it difficult to conquer an inclination to
cry.
The girl next her noticed her state of mind. "Don't you mind," she
said. "He's too fresh."
Carrie said nothing, but bent over her work. She felt as though
she could hardly endure such a life. Her idea of work had been so
entirely different. All during the long afternoon she thought of the
city outside and its imposing show, crowds, and fine buildings.
Columbia City and the better side of her home life came back. By three
o'clock she was sure it must be six, and by four it seemed as if
they had forgotten to note the hour and were letting all work
overtime. The foreman became a true ogre, prowling constantly about,
keeping her tied down to her miserable task. What she heard of the
conversation about her only made her feel sure that she did not want
to make friends with any of these. When six o'clock came she hurried
eagerly away, her arms aching and her limbs stiff from sitting in
one position.
As she passed out along the hall after getting her hat, a young
machine hand, attracted by her looks, made bold to jest with her.
"Say, Maggie," he called, "if you wait, I'll walk with you."
It was thrown so straight in her direction that she knew who was
meant, but never turned to look.
In the crowded elevator, another dusty, toil-stained youth tried
to make an impression on her by leering in her face.
One young man, waiting on the walk outside for the appearance of
another, grinned at her as she passed.
"Ain't going my way, are you?" he called jocosely.
Carrie turned her face to the west with a subdued heart. As she
turned the corner, she saw through the great shiny window the small
desk at which she had applied. There were the crowds, hurrying with
the same buzz and energy-yielding enthusiasm. She felt a slight
relief, but it was only at her escape. She felt ashamed in the face of
better dressed girls who went by. She felt as though she should be
better served, and her heart revolted.
Chapter V.
A GLITTERING NIGHT FLOWER: THE USE OF A NAME
Drouet did not call that evening. After receiving the letter, he had
laid aside all thought of Carrie for the time being and was floating
around having what he considered a gay time. On this particular
evening he dined at "Rector's," a restaurant of some local fame, which
occupied a basement at Clark and Monroe Streets. Thereafter he visited
the resort of Fitzgerald and Moy's in Adams Street, opposite the
imposing Federal Building. There he leaned over the splendid bar and
swallowed a glass of plain whiskey and purchased a couple of cigars,
one of which he lighted. This to him represented in part high life-
a fair sample of what the whole must be.
Drouet was not a drinker in excess. He was not a moneyed man. He
only craved the best, as his mind conceived it, and such doings seemed
to him a part of the best. Rector's, with its polished marble walls
and floor, its profusion of lights, its show of china and
silverware, and, above all, its reputation as a resort for actors
and professional men, seemed to him the proper place for a
successful man to go. He loved fine clothes, good eating, and
particularly the company and acquaintanceship of successful men.
When dining, it was a source of keen satisfaction to him to know
that Joseph Jefferson was wont to come to this same place, or that
Henry E. Dixie, a well-known performer of the day, was then only a few
tables off. At Rector's he could always obtain this satisfaction,
for there one could encounter politicians, brokers, actors, some
rich young "rounders" of the town, all eating and drinking amid a buzz
of popular commonplace conversation.
"That's So-and-so over there," was a common remark of these
gentlemen among themselves, particularly among those who had not yet
reached, but hoped to do so, the dazzling height which money to dine
here lavishly represented.
"You don't say so," would be the reply.
"Why, yes, didn't you know that? Why, he's manager of the Grand
Opera House."
When these things would fall upon Drouet's ears, he would straighten
himself a little more stiffly and eat with solid comfort. If he had
any vanity, this augmented it, and if he had any ambition, this
stirred it. He would be able to flash a roll of greenbacks too some
day. As it was, he could eat where they did.
His preference for Fitzgerald and Moy's Adams Street place was
another yard off the same cloth. This was really a gorgeous saloon
from a Chicago standpoint. Like Rector's, it was also ornamented
with a blaze of incandescent lights, held in handsome chandeliers. The
floors were of brightly coloured tiles, the walls a composition of
rich, dark, polished wood, which reflected the light, and coloured
stucco-work, which gave the place a very sumptuous appearance. The
long bar was a blaze of lights, polished wood-work, coloured and cut
glassware, and many fancy bottles. It was a truly swell saloon, with
rich screens, fancy wines, and a line of bar goods unsurpassed in
the country.
At Rector's, Drouet had met Mr. G. W. Hurstwood, manager of
Fitzgerald and Moy's. He had been pointed out as a very successful and
well-known man about town. Hurstwood looked the part, for, besides
being slightly under forty, he had a good, stout constitution, an
active manner, and a solid, substantial air, which was composed in
part of his fine clothes, his clean linen, his jewels, and, above all,
his own sense of his importance. Drouet immediately conceived a notion
of him as being some one worth knowing, and was glad not only to
meet him, but to visit the Adams Street bar thereafter whenever he
wanted a drink or a cigar.
Hurstwood was an interesting character after his kind. He was shrewd
and clever in many little things, and capable of creating a good
impression. His managerial position was fairly important- a kind of
stewardship which was imposing, but lacked financial control. He had
risen by perseverance and industry, through long years of service,
from the position of barkeeper in a commonplace saloon to his
present altitude. He had a little office in the place, set off in
polished cherry and grill-work, where he kept, in a roll-top desk, the
rather simple accounts of the place- supplies ordered and needed.
The chief executive and financial functions devolved 'upon the owners-
Messrs. Fitzgerald and Moy- and upon a cashier who looked after the
money taken in.
For the most part he lounged about, dressed in excellent tailored
suits of imported goods, a solitaire ring, a fine blue diamond in
his tie, a striking vest of some new pattern, and a watch-chain of
solid gold, which held a charm of rich design, and a watch of the
latest make and engraving. He knew by name, and could greet personally
with a "Well, old fellow," hundreds of actors, merchants, politicians,
and the general run of successful characters about town, and it was
part of his success to do so. He had a finely graduated scale of
informality and friendship, which improved from the "How do you do?"
addressed to the fifteen-dollar-a-week clerks and office attaches,
who, by long frequenting of the place, became aware of his position,
to the "Why, old man, how are you?" which he addressed to those
noted or rich individuals who knew him and were inclined to be
friendly. There was a class, however, too rich, too famous, or too
successful, with whom he could not attempt any familiarity of address,
and with these he was professionally tactful, assuming a grave and
dignified attitude, paying them the deference which would win their
good feeling without in the least compromising his own bearing and
opinions. There were, in the last place, a few good followers, neither
rich nor poor, famous, nor yet remarkably successful, with whom he was
friendly on the score of good-fellowship. These were the kind of men
with whom he would converse longest and most seriously. He loved to go
out and have a good time once in a while- to go to the races, the
theatres, the sporting entertainments at some of the clubs. He kept
a horse and neat trap, had his wife and two children, who were well
established in a neat house on the North Side near Lincoln Park, and
was altogether a very acceptable individual of our great American
upper class- the first grade below the luxuriously rich.
Hurstwood liked Drouet. The latter's genial nature and dressy
appearance pleased him. He knew that Drouet was only a travelling
salesman- and not one of many years at that- but the firm of Bartlett,
Caryoe & Company was a large and prosperous house, and Drouet stood
well. Hurstwood knew Caryoe quite well, having drunk a glass now and
then with him, in company with several others, when the conversation
was general. Drouet had what was a help in his business, a moderate
sense of humour, and could tell a good story when the occasion
required. He could talk races with Hurstwood, tell interesting
incidents concerning himself and his experiences with women, and
report the state of trade in the cities which he visited, and so
managed to make himself almost invariably agreeable. To-night he was
particularly so, since his report to the company had been favourably
commented upon, his new samples had been satisfactorily selected,
and his trip marked out for the next six weeks.
"Why, hello, Charlie, old man," said Hurstwood, as Drouet came in
that evening about eight o'clock. "How goes it?" The room was crowded.
Drouet shook hands, beaming good nature, and they strolled towards
the bar.
"Oh, all right."
"I haven't seen you in six weeks. When did you get in?"
"Friday," said Drouet. "Had a fine trip."
"Glad of it," said Hurstwood, his black eyes lit with a warmth which
half displaced the cold make-believe that usually dwelt in them. "What
are you going to take?" he added, as the barkeeper, in snowy jacket
and tie, leaned toward them from behind the bar. "Old Pepper," said
Drouet.
"A little of the same for me," put in Hurstwood.
"How long are you in town this time?" inquired Hurstwood.
"Only until Wednesday. I'm going up to St. Paul."
"George Evans was in here Saturday and said he saw you in
Milwaukee last week."
"Yes, I saw George," returned Drouet. "Great old boy, isn't he? We
had quite a time there together."
The barkeeper was setting out the glasses and bottle before them,
and they now poured out the draught as they talked, Drouet filling his
to within a third of full, as was considered proper, and Hurstwood
taking the barest suggestion of whiskey and modifying it with seltzer.
"What's become of Caryoe?" remarked Hurstwood. "I haven't seen him
around here in two weeks."
"Laid up, they say," exclaimed Drouet. "Say, he's a gouty old boy!"
"Made a lot of money in his time, though, hasn't he?"
"Yes, wads of it," returned Drouet. "He won't live much longer.
Barely comes down to the office now."
"Just one boy, hasn't he?" asked Hurstwood.
"Yes, and a swift-pacer," laughed Drouet.
"I guess he can't hurt the business very much, though, with the
other members all there."
"No, he can't injure that any, I guess."
Hurstwood was standing, his coat open, his thumbs in his pockets,
the light on his jewels and rings relieving them with agreeable
distinctness. He was the picture of fastidious comfort.
To one not inclined to drink, and gifted with a more serious turn of
mind, such a bubbling, chattering, glittering chamber must ever seem
an anomaly, a strange commentary on nature and life. Here come the
moths, in endless procession, to bask in the light of the flame.
Such conversation as one may hear would not warrant a commendation
of the scene upon intellectual grounds. It seems plain that schemers
would choose more sequestered quarters to arrange their plans, that
politicians would not gather here in company to discuss anything
save formalities, where the sharp-eared may hear, and it would
scarcely be justified on the score of thirst, (or the majority of
those who frequent these more gorgeous places have no craving for
liquor. Nevertheless, the fact that here men gather, here chatter,
here love to pass and rub elbows, must be explained upon some grounds.
It must be that a strange bundle of passions and vague desires give
rise to such a curious social institution or it would not be.
Drouet, for one, was lured as much by his longing for pleasure as by
his desire to shine among his betters. The many friends he met here
dropped in because they craved, without, perhaps, consciously
analysing it, the company, the glow, the atmosphere which they
found. One might take it, after all, as an augur of the better
social order, for the things which they satisfied here, though sensory
were not evil. No evil could come out of the contemplation of an
expensively decorated chamber. The worst effect of such a thing
would be, perhaps, to stir up in the material-minded an ambition to
arrange their lives upon a similarly splendid basis. In the last
analysis, that would scarcely be called the fault of the
decorations, but rather of the innate trend of the mind. That such a
scene might stir the less expensively dressed to emulate the more
expensively dressed could scarcely be laid at the door of anything
save the false ambition of the minds of those so affected. Remove
the element so thoroughly and solely complained of- liquor- and
there would not be one to gainsay the qualities of beauty and
enthusiasm which would remain. The pleased eye with which our modern
restaurants of fashion are looked upon is proof of this assertion.
Yet, here is the fact of the lighted chamber, the dressy, greedy
company, the small, self-interested palaver, the disorganized,
aimless, wandering mental action which it represents- the love of
light and show and finery which, to one outside, under the serene
light of the eternal stars, must seem a strange and shiny thing. Under
the stars and sweeping night winds, what a lamp-flower it must
bloom; a strange, glittering night-flower, odour-yielding,
insect-drawing, insect-infested rose of pleasure.
"See that fellow coming in there?" said Hurstwood, glancing at a
gentleman just entering, arrayed in a high hat and Prince Albert coat,
his fat cheeks puffed and red as with good eating.
"No, where?" said Drouet.
"There," said Hurstwood, indicating the direction by a cast of his
eye, "the man with the silk hat."
"Oh, yes," said Drouet, now affecting not to see. "Who is he?"
"That's Jules Wallace, the spiritualist."
Drouet followed him with his eyes, much interested.
"Doesn't look much like a man who sees spirits, does he?" said
Drouet.
"Oh, I don't know," returned Hurstwood. "He's got the money, all
right," and a little twinkle passed over his eyes.
"I don't go much on those things, do you?" asked Drouet.
"Well, you never can tell," said Hurstwood. "There may be
something to it. I wouldn't bother about it myself, though. By the
way," he added, "are you going anywhere to-night?"
"'The Hole in the Ground,'" said Drouet, mentioning the popular
farce of the time.
"Well, you'd better be going. It's half after eight already," and he
drew out his watch.
The crowd was already thinning out considerably- some bound for
the theatres, some to their clubs, and some to that most fascinating
of all the pleasures- for the type of man there represented, at least-
the ladies.
"Yes, I will," said Drouet.
"Come around after the show. I have something I want to show you,"
said Hurstwood.
"Sure," said Drouet, elated.
"You haven't anything on hand for the night, have you?" added
Hurstwood.
"Not a thing."
"Well, come round, then."
"I struck a little peach coming in on the train Friday," remarked
Drouet, by way of parting. "By George, that's so, I must go and call
on her before I go away."
"Oh, never mind her," Hurstwood remarked.
"Say, she was a little dandy, I tell you," went on Drouet
confidentially, and trying to impress his friend.
"Twelve o'clock," said Hurstwood.
"That's right," said Drouet, going out.
Thus was Carrie's name bandied about in the most frivolous and gay
of places, and that also when the little toiler was bemoaning her
narrow lot, which was almost inseparable from the early stages of
this, her unfolding fate.
Chapter VI.
THE MACHINE AND THE MAIDEN: A KNIGHT OF TODAY
At the flat that evening Carrie felt a new phase of its
atmosphere. The fact that it was unchanged, while her feelings were
different, increased her knowledge of its character. Minnie, after the
good spirits Carrie manifested at first, expected a fair report.
Hanson supposed that Carrie would be satisfied.
"Well," he said, as he came in from the hall in his working clothes,
and looked at Carrie through the dining-room door, "how did you make
out?"
"Oh," said Carrie, "it's pretty hard. I don't like it."
There was an air about her which showed plainer than any words
that she was both weary and disappointed.
"What sort of work is it?" he asked, lingering a moment as he turned
upon his heel to go into the bathroom.
"Running a machine," answered Carrie.
It was very evident that it did not concern him much, save from
the side of the flat's success. He was irritated a shade because it
could not have come about in the throw of fortune for Carrie to be
pleased.
Minnie worked with less elation than she had just before Carrie
arrived. The sizzle of the meat frying did not sound quite so pleasing
now that Carrie had reported her discontent. To Carrie, the one relief
of the whole day would have been a jolly home, a sympathetic
reception, a bright supper table, and some one to say: "Oh, well,
stand it a little while. You will get something better," but now
this was ashes. She began to see that they looked upon her complaint
as unwarranted, and that she was supposed to work on and say
nothing. She knew that she was to pay four dollars for her board and
room, and now she felt that it would be an exceedingly gloomy round,
living with these people.
Minnie was no companion for her sister- she was too old. Her
thoughts were staid and solemnly adapted to a condition. If Hanson had
any pleasant thoughts or happy feelings he concealed them. He seemed
to do all his mental operations without the aid of physical
expression. He was as still as a deserted chamber. Carrie, on the
other hand, had the blood of youth and some imagination. Her day of
love and the mysteries of courtship were still ahead. She could
think of things she would like to do, of clothes she would like to
wear, and of places she would like to visit. These were the things
upon which her mind ran, and it was like meeting with opposition at
every turn to find no one here to call forth or respond to her
feelings.
She had forgotten, in considering and explaining the result of her
day, that Drouet might come. Now, when she saw how unreceptive these
two people were, she hoped he would not. She did not know exactly what
she would do or how she would explain to Drouet, if he came. After
supper she changed her clothes. When she was trimly dressed she was
rather a sweet little being, with large eyes and a sad mouth. Her face
expressed the mingled expectancy, dissatisfaction and depression she
felt. She wandered about after the dishes were put away, talked a
little with Minnie, and then decided to go down and stand in the
door at the foot of the stairs. If Drouet came, she could meet him
there. Her face took on the semblance of a look of happiness as she
put on her hat to go below.
"Carrie doesn't seem to like her place very well," said Minnie to
her husband when the latter came out, paper in hand, to sit in the
dining-room a few minutes.
"She ought to keep it for a time, anyhow," said Hanson. "Has she
gone downstairs?"
"Yes," said Minnie.
"I'd tell her to keep it if I were you. She might be here weeks
without getting another one."
Minnie said she would, and Hanson read his paper.
"If I were you," he said a little later, "I wouldn't let her stand
in the door down there. It don't look good."
"I'll tell her," said Minnie.
The life of the streets continued for a long time to interest
Carrie. She never wearied of wondering where the people in the cars
were going or what their enjoyments were. Her imagination trod a
very narrow round, always winding up at points which concerned
money, looks, clothes, or enjoyment. She would have a far-off
thought of Columbia City now and then, or an irritating rush of
feeling concerning her experiences of the present day, but, on the
whole, the little world about her enlisted her whole attention.
The first floor of the building, of which Hanson's flat was the
third, was occupied by a bakery, and to this, while she was standing
there, Hanson came down to buy a loaf of bread. She was not aware of
his presence until he was quite near her.
"I'm after bread," was all he said as he passed.
The contagion of thought here demonstrated itself. While Hanson
really came for bread, the thought dwelt with him that now he would
see what Carrie was doing. No sooner did he draw near her with that in
mind than she felt it. Of course, she had no understanding of what put
it into her head, but, nevertheless, it aroused in her the first shade
of real antipathy to him. She knew now that she did not like him. He
was suspicious.
A thought will colour a world for us. The flow of Carrie's
meditations had been disturbed, and Hanson had not long gone
upstairs before she followed. She had realised with the lapse of the
quarter hours that Drouet was not coming, and somehow she felt a
little resentful, a little as if she had been forsaken- was not good
enough. She went upstairs, where everything was silent. Minnie was
sewing by a lamp at the table. Hanson had already turned in for the
night. In her weariness and disappointment Carrie did no more than
announce that she was going to bed.
"Yes you'd better," returned Minnie. "You've got to get up early,
you know."
The morning was no better. Hanson was just going out the door as
Carrie came from her room. Minnie tried to talk with her during
breakfast, but there was not much of interest which they could
mutually discuss. As on the previous morning, Carrie walked down town,
for she began to realise now that her four-fifty would not even
allow her car fare after she paid her board. This seemed a miserable
arrangement. But the morning light swept away the first misgivings
of the day, as morning light is ever wont to do.
At the shoe factory she put in a long day, scarcely so wearisome
as the preceding, but considerably less novel. The head foreman, on
his round, stopped by her machine.
"Where did you come from?" he inquired.
"Mr. Brown hired me," she replied.
"Oh, he did, eh!" and then, "See that you keep things going."
The machine girls impressed her even less favourably. They seemed
satisfied with their lot, and were in a sense "common." Carrie had
more imagination than they. She was not used to slang. Her instinct in
the matter of dress was naturally better. She disliked to listen to
the girl next to her, who was rather hardened by experience.
"I'm going to quit this," she heard her remark to her neighbour.
"What with the stipend and being up late, it's too much for me
health."
They were free with the fellows, young and old, about the place, and
exchanged banter in rude phrases, which at first shocked her. She
saw that she was taken to be of the same sort and addressed
accordingly.
"Hello," remarked one of the stout-wristed sole-workers to her at
noon. "You're a daisy." He really expected to hear the common "Aw!
go chase yourself!" in return, and was sufficiently abashed, by
Carrie's silently moving away, to retreat, awkwardly grinning.
That night at the flat she was even more lonely- the dull
situation was becoming harder to endure. She could see that the
Hansons seldom or never had any company. Standing at the street door
looking out, she ventured to walk out a little way. Her easy gait
and idle manner attracted attention of an offensive but common sort.
She was slightly taken back at the overtures of a well-dressed man
of thirty, who in passing looked at her, reduced his pace, turned
back, and said:
"Out for a little stroll, are you, this evening?"
Carrie looked at him in amazement, and then summoned sufficient
thought to reply: "Why, I don't know you," backing away as she did so.
"Oh, that don't matter," said the other affably.
She bandied no more words with him, but hurried away, reaching her
own door quite out of breath. There was something in the man's look
which frightened her.
During the remainder of the week it was very much the same. One or
two nights she found herself too tired to walk home and expended car
fare. She was not very strong, and sitting all day affected her
back. She went to bed one night before Hanson.
Transplantation is not always successful in the matter of flowers or
maidens. It requires sometimes a richer soil, a better atmosphere to
continue even a natural growth. It would have been better if her
acclimatization had been more gradual- less rigid. She would have done
better if she had not secured a position so quickly, and had seen more
of the city which she constantly troubled to know about.
On the first morning it rained she found that she had no umbrella.
Minnie loaned her one of hers, which was worn and faded. There was the
kind of vanity in Carrie that troubled at this. She went to one of the
great department stores and bought herself one, using a dollar and a
quarter of her small store to pay for it.
"What did you do that for, Carrie?" asked Minnie when she saw it.
"Oh, I need one," said Carrie.
"You foolish girl."
Carrie resented this, though she did not reply. She was not going to
be a common shop-girl, she thought; they need not think it, either.
On the first Saturday night Carrie paid her board, four dollars.
Minnie had a quaver of conscience as she took it, but did not know how
to explain to Hanson if she took less. That worthy gave up just four
dollars less toward the household expenses with a smile of
satisfaction. He contemplated increasing his Building and Loan
payments. As for Carrie, she studied over the problem of finding
clothes and amusement on fifty cents a week, She brooded over this
until she was in a state of mental rebellion.
"I'm going up the street for a walk," she said after supper.
"Not alone are you?" asked Hanson.
"Yes," returned Carrie.
"I wouldn't," said Minnie.
"I want to see something," said Carrie, and by the tone she put into
the last word they realised for the first time she was not pleased
with them.
"What's the matter with her?" asked Hanson, when she went into the
front room to get her hat.
"I don't know," said Minnie.
"Well, she ought to know better than to want to go out alone."
Carrie did not go very far, after all. She returned and stood in the
door. The next day they went out to Garfield Park, but it did not
please her. She did not look well enough. In the shop next day she
heard the highly coloured reports which girls give of their trivial
amusements. They had been happy. On several days it rained and she
used up car fare. One night she got thoroughly soaked, going to
catch the car at Van Buren Street. All that evening she sat alone in
the front room looking out upon the street, where the lights were
reflected on the wet pavements, thinking. She had imagination enough
to be moody.
On Saturday she paid another four dollars and pocketed her fifty
cents in despair. The speaking acquaintanceship which she formed
with some of the girls at the shop discovered to her the fact that
they had more of their earnings to use for themselves than she did.
They had young men of the kind whom she, since her experience with
Drouet, felt above, who took them about. She came to thoroughly
dislike the light-headed young fellows of the shop. Not one of them
had a show of refinement. She saw only their workday side.
There came a day when the first premonitory blast of winter swept
over the city. It scudded the fleecy clouds in the heavens, trailed
long, thin streamers of smoke from the tall stacks, and raced about
the streets and corners in sharp and sudden puffs. Carrie now felt the
problem of winter clothes. What was she to do? She had no winter
jacket, no hat, no shoes. It was difficult to speak to Minnie about
this, but at last she summoned the courage.
"I don't know what I'm going to do about clothes," she said one
evening when they were together. "I need a hat."
Minnie looked serious.
"Why don't you keep part of your money and buy yourself one?" she
suggested, worried over the situation which the withholding of
Carrie's money would create.
"I'd like to for a week or so, if you don't mind," ventured Carrie.
"Could you pay two dollars?" asked Minnie.
Carrie readily acquiesced, glad to escape the trying situation,
and liberal now that she saw a way out. She was elated and began
figuring at once. She needed a hat first of all. How Minnie
explained to Hanson she never knew. He said nothing at all, but
there were thoughts in the air which left disagreeable impressions.
The new arrangement might have worked if sickness had not
intervened. It blew up cold after a rain one afternoon when Carrie was
still without a jacket. She came out of the warm shop at six and
shivered as the wind struck her. In the morning she was sneezing,
and going down town made it worse. That day her bones ached and she
felt light-headed. Towards evening she felt very ill, and when she
reached home was not hungry. Minnie noticed her drooping actions and
asked her about herself.
"I don't know," said Carrie. "I feel real bad."
She hung about the stove, suffered a chattering chill, and went to
bed sick. The next morning she was thoroughly feverish.
Minnie was truly distressed at this, but maintained a kindly
demeanour. Hanson said perhaps she had better go back home for a
while. When she got up after three days, it was taken for granted that
her position was lost. The winter was near at hand, she had no clothes
and now she was out of work.
"I don't know," said Carrie; "I'll go down Monday and see if I can't
get something."
If anything, her efforts were more poorly rewarded on this trial
than the last. Her clothes were nothing suitable for fall wearing. Her
last money she had spent for a hat. For three days she wandered about,
utterly dispirited. The attitude of the flat was fast becoming
unbearable. She hated to think of going back there each evening.
Hanson was so cold. She knew it could not last much longer. Shortly
she would have to give up and go home.
On the fourth day she was down town all day, having borrowed ten
cents for lunch from Minnie. She had applied in the cheapest kind of
places without success. She even answered for a waitress in a small
restaurant where she saw a card in the window, but they wanted an
experienced girl. She moved through the thick throng of strangers,
utterly subdued in spirit. Suddenly a hand pulled her arm and turned
her about.
"Well, well!" said a voice. In the first glance she beheld Drouet.
He was not only rosy-cheeked, but radiant. He was the essence of
sunshine and good-humour. "Why, how are you, Carrie?" he said. "You're
a daisy. Where have you been?"
Carrie smiled under his irresistible flood of geniality.
"I've been out home," she said.
"Well," he said, "I saw you across the street there. I thought it
was you. I was just coming out to your place. How are you, anyhow?"
"I'm all right," said Carrie, smiling.
Drouet looked her over and saw something different.
"Well," he said, "I want to talk to you. You're not going anywhere
in particular, are you?"
"Not just now," said Carrie.
"Let's go up here and have something to eat. George! but I'm glad to
see you again."
She felt so relieved in his radiant presence, so much looked after
and cared for, that she assented gladly, though with the slightest air
of holding back.
"Well," he said as he took her arm- and there was an exuberance of
good-fellowship in the word which fairly warmed the cockles of her
heart.
They went through Monroe Street to the old Windsor dining-room,
which was then a large, comfortable place, with an excellent cuisine
and substantial service. Drouet selected a table close by the
window, where the busy rout of the street could be seen. He loved
the changing panorama of the street- to see and be seen as he dined.
"Now," he said, getting Carrie and himself comfortably settled, what
will you have?"
Carrie looked over the large bill of fare which the waiter handed
her without really considering it. She was very hungry, and the things
she saw there awakened her desires, but the high prices held her
attention. "Half broiled spring chicken- seventy-five. Sirloin steak
with mushrooms- one twenty-five." She had dimly heard of these things,
but it seemed strange to be called to order from the list.
"I'll fix this," exclaimed Drouet. "Sst! waiter."
That officer of the board, a full-chested, round-faced negro,
approached, and inclined his ear.
"Sirloin with mushrooms," said Drouet. "Stuffed tomatoes."
"Yassah," assented the negro, nodding his head.
"Hashed brown potatoes."
"Yassah."
"Asparagus."
"Yassah."
"And a pot of coffee."
Drouet turned to Carrie. "I haven't had a thing since breakfast.
Just got in from Rock Island. I was going off to dine when I saw you."
Carried smiled and smiled.
"What have you been doing?" he went on. "Tell me all about yourself.
How is your sister?"
"She's well," returned Carrie, answering the last query.
He looked at her hard.
"Say," he said, "you haven't been sick, have you?"
Carrie nodded.
"Well, now, that's a blooming shame, isn't it? You don't look very
well. I thought you looked a little pale. What have you been doing?"
"Working," said Carrie.
"You don't say so! At what?"
She told him.
"Rhodes, Morgenthau and Scott- why, I know that house. Over here
on Fifth Avenue, isn't it? They're a close-fisted concern. What made
you go there?"
"I couldn't get anything else," said Carrie frankly.
"Well, that's an outrage," said Drouet. "You oughtn't to be
working for those people. Have the factory right back of the store,
don't they?"
"Yes," said Carrie.
"That isn't a good house," said Drouet. "You don't want to work at
anything like that, anyhow."
He chattered on at a great rate, asking questions, explaining things
about himself, telling her what a good restaurant it was, until the
waiter returned with an immense tray, bearing the hot savoury dishes
which had been ordered. Drouet fairly shone in the matter of
serving. He appeared to great advantage behind the white napery and
silver platters of the table and displaying his arms with a knife
and fork. As he cut the meat his rings almost spoke. His new suit
creaked as he stretched to reach the plates, break the bread, and pour
the coffee. He helped Carrie to a rousing plateful and contributed the
warmth of his spirit to her body until she was a new girl. He was a
splendid fellow in the true popular understanding of the term, and
captivated Carrie completely.
That little soldier of fortune took her good turn in an easy way.
She felt a little out of place, but the great room soothed her and the
view of the well-dressed throng outside seemed a splendid thing. Ah,
what was it not to have money! What a thing it was to be able to
come in here and dine! Drouet must be fortunate. He rode on trains,
dressed in such nice clothes, was so strong, and ate in these fine
places. He seemed quite a figure of a man, and she wondered at his
friendship and regard for her.
"So you lost your place because you got sick, eh?" he said.
"What are you going to do now?"
"Look around," she said, a thought of the need that hung outside
this fine restaurant like a hungry dog at her heels passing into her
eyes.
"Oh, no," said Drouet, "that won't do. How long have you been
looking?"
"Four days," she answered.
"Think of that!" he said, addressing some problematical
individual. "You oughtn't to be doing anything like that. These
girls," and he waved an inclusion of all shop and factory girls,
"don't get anything. Why, you can't live on it, can you?"
He was a brotherly sort of creature in his demeanour. When he had
scouted the idea of that kind of toil, he took another tack. Carrie
was really very pretty. Even then, in her commonplace garb, her figure
was evidently not bad, and her eyes were large and gentle. Drouet
looked at her and his thoughts reached home. She felt his
admiration. It was powerfully backed by his liberality and
good-humour. She felt that she liked him- that she could continue to
like him ever so much. There was something even richer than that,
running as a hidden strain, in her mind. Every little while her eyes
would meet his, and by that means the interchanging current of feeling
would be fully connected.
"Why don't you stay down town and go to the theatre with me?" he
said, hitching his chair closer. The table was not very wide.
"Oh, I can't," she said.
"What are you going to do to-night?"
"Nothing," she answered, a little drearily.
"You don't like out there where you are, do you?"
"Oh, I don't know."
"What are you going to do if you don't get work?"
"Go back home, I guess."
There was the least quaver in her voice as she said this. Somehow,
the influence he was exerting was powerful. They came to an
understanding of each other without words- he of her situation, she of
the fact that he realised it.
"No," he said, "you can't make it!" genuine sympathy filling his
mind for the time. "Let me help you. You take some of my money."
"Oh, no!" she said, leaning back.
"What are you going to do?" he said.
She sat meditating, merely shaking her head.
He looked at her quite tenderly for his kind. There were some
loose bills in his vest pocket- greenbacks. They were soft and
noiseless, and he got his fingers about them and crumpled them up in
his hand.
"Come on," he said, "I'll see you through all right. Get yourself
some clothes."
It was the first reference he had made to that subject, and now
she realised how bad off she was. In his crude way he had struck the
key-note. Her lips trembled a little.
She had her hand out on the table before her. They were quite
alone in their corner, and he put his larger, warmer hand over it.
"Aw, come, Carrie," he said, "what can you do alone? Let me help
you."
He pressed her hand gently and she tried to withdraw it. At this
he held it fast, and she no longer protested. Then he slipped the
greenbacks he had into her palm, and when she began to protest, he
whispered:
"I'll loan it to you- that's all right. I'll loan it to you."
He made her take it. She felt bound to him by a strange tie of
affection now. They went out, and he walked with her far out south
toward Polk Street, talking.
"You don't want to live with those people?" he said in one place,
abstractedly. Carrie heard it, but it made only a slight impression.
"Come down and meet me to-morrow," he said, "and we'll go to the
matinee. Will you?"
Carrie protested a while, but acquiesced.
"You're not doing anything. Get yourself a nice pair of shoes and
a jacket."
She scarcely gave a thought to the complication which would
trouble her when he was gone. In his presence, she was of his own
hopeful, easy-way-out mood.
"Don't you bother about those people out there," he said at parting.
"I'll help you."
Carrie left him, feeling as though a great arm had slipped out
before her to draw off trouble. The money she had accepted was two
soft, green, handsome ten-dollar bills.
Chapter VII.
THE LURE OF THE MATERIAL: BEAUTY SPEAKS FOR ITSELF
The true meaning of money yet remains to be popularly explained
and comprehended. When each individual realises for himself that
this thing primarily stands for and should only be accepted as a moral
due- that it should be paid out as honestly stored energy, and not
as a usurped privilege- many of our social, religious, and political
troubles will have permanently passed. As for Carrie, her
understanding of the moral significance of money was the popular
understanding, nothing more. The old definition: "Money: something
everybody else has and I must get," would have expressed her
understanding of it thoroughly. Some of it she now held in her hand-
two soft, green ten-dollar bills- and she felt that she was
immensely better off for the having of them. It was something that was
power in itself. One of her order of mind would have been content to
be cast away upon a desert island with a bundle of money, and only the
long strain of starvation would have taught her that in some cases
it could have no value. Even then she would have had no conception
of the relative value of the thing; her one thought would,
undoubtedly, have concerned the pity of having so much power and the
inability to use it.
The poor girl thrilled as she walked away from Drouet. She felt
ashamed in part because she had been weak enough to take it, but her
need was so dire, she was still glad. Now she would have a nice new
jacket! Now she would buy a nice pair of pretty button shoes. She
would get stockings, too, and a skirt, and, and- until already, as
in the matter of her prospective salary, she had got beyond, in her
desires, twice the purchasing power of her bills.
She conceived a true estimate of Drouet. To her, and indeed to all
the world, he was a nice, good-hearted man. There was nothing evil
in the fellow. He gave her the money out of a good heart- out of a
realisation of her want. He would not have given the same amount to
a poor young man, but we must not forget that a poor young man could
not, in the nature of things, have appealed to him like a poor young
girl. Femininity affected his feelings. He was the creature of an
inborn desire. Yet no beggar could have caught his eye and said, "My
God, mister, I'm starving," but he would gladly have handed out what
was considered the proper portion to give beggars and thought no
more about it. There would have been no speculation, no
philosophising. He had no mental process in him worthy the dignity
of either of those terms. In his good clothes and fine health, he
was a merry, unthinking moth of the lamp. Deprived of his position,
and struck by a few of the involved and baffling forces which
sometimes play upon man he would have been as helpless as Carrie- as
helpless, as non-understanding, as pitiable, if you will, as she.
Now, in regard to his pursuit of women, he meant them no harm,
because he did not conceive of the relation which he hoped to hold
with them as being harmful. He loved to make advances to women, to
have them succumb to his charms, not because he was a cold-blooded,
dark, scheming villain, but because his inborn desire urged him to
that as a chief delight. He was vain, he was boastful, he was as
deluded by fine clothes as any silly-headed girl. A truly deep-dyed
villain could have hornswaggled him as readily as he could have
flattered a pretty shop-girl. His fine success as a salesman lay in
his geniality and the thoroughly reputable standing of his house. He
bobbed about among men, a veritable bundle of enthusiasm- no power
worthy the name of intellect, no thoughts worthy the adjective
noble, no feelings long continued in one strain. A Madame Sappho would
have called him a pig; a Shakespeare would have said "my merry child;"
old, drinking Caryoe thought him a clever, successful business man. In
short, he was as good as his intellect conceived.
The best proof that there was something open and commendable about
the man was the fact that Carrie took the money. No deep, sinister
soul with ulterior motives could have given her fifteen cents under
the guise of friendship. The unintellectual are not so helpless.
Nature has taught the beasts of the field to fly when some
unheralded danger threatens. She has put into the small, unwise head
of the chipmunk the untutored fear of poisons. "He keepeth His
creatures whole," was not, written of beasts alone. Carrie was unwise,
and, therefore, like the sheep in its unwisdom, strong in feeling. The
instinct of self-protection, strong in all such natures, was roused
but feebly, if at all, by the overtures of Drouet.
When Carrie had gone, he felicitated himself upon her good
opinion. By George, it was a shame young girls had to be knocked
around like that. Cold weather coming on and no clothes. Tough. He
would go around to Fitzgerald and Moy's and get a cigar. It made him
feel light of foot as he thought about her.
Carrie reached home in high good spirits, which she could scarcely
conceal. The possession of the money involved a number of points which
perplexed her seriously. How should she buy any clothes when Minnie
knew that she had no money? She had no sooner entered the flat than
this point was settled for her. It could not be done. She could
think of no way of explaining.
"How did you come out?" asked Minnie, referring to the day.
Carrie had none of the small deception which could feel one thing
and say something directly opposed. She would prevaricate, but it
would be in the line of her feelings at least. So; instead of
complaining when she felt so good, she said:
"I have the promise of something."
"Where?"
"At the Boston Store."
"Is it sure promised?" questioned Minnie.
"Well, I'm to find out to-morrow," returned Carrie, disliking to
draw out a lie any longer than was necessary.
Minnie felt the atmosphere of good feeling which Carrie brought with
her. She felt now was the time to express to Carrie the state of
Hanson's feeling about her entire Chicago venture.
"If you shouldn't get it-" she paused, troubled for an easy way.
"If I don't get something pretty soon, I think I'll go home."
Minnie saw her chance.
"Sven thinks it might be best for the winter, anyhow."
The situation flashed on Carrie at once. They were unwilling to keep
her any longer, out of work. She did not blame Minnie, she did not
blame Hanson very much. Now, as she sat there digesting the remark,
she was glad she had Drouet's money.
"Yes," she said after a few moments, "I thought of doing that."
She did not explain that the thought, however, had aroused all the
antagonism of her nature. Columbia City, what was there for her? She
knew its dull, little round by heart. Here was the great, mysterious
city which was still a magnet for her. What she had seen only
suggested its possibilities. Now to turn back on it and live the
little old life out there- she almost exclaimed against the thought.
She had reached home early and went in the front room to think. What
could she do? She could not buy new shoes and wear them here. She
would need to save part of the twenty to pay her fare home. She did
not want to borrow of Minnie for that. And yet, how could she
explain where she even got that money? If she could only get enough to
let her out easy.
She went over the tangle again and again. Here, in the morning,
Drouet would expect to see her in a new jacket, and that couldn't
be. The Hansons expected her to go home, and she wanted to get away,
and yet she did not want to go home. In the light of the way they
would look on her getting money without work, the taking of it now
seemed dreadful. She began to be ashamed. The whole situation
depressed her. It was all so clear when she was with Drouet. Now it
was all so tangled, so hopeless- much worse than it was before,
because she had the semblance of aid in her hand which she could not
use.
Her spirits sank so that at supper Minnie felt that she must have
had another hard day. Carrie finally decided th